1 00:00:00,010 --> 00:00:15,468 2 00:03:13,491 --> 00:03:15,691 I have decided to create a journal. 3 00:03:15,693 --> 00:03:17,993 Not in a word or digital file program, 4 00:03:17,995 --> 00:03:19,931 but handwritten, 5 00:03:20,833 --> 00:03:22,465 write every word that comes out 6 00:03:22,467 --> 00:03:24,468 < i> so that each handwriting inflection, 7 00:03:24,470 --> 00:03:25,868 each selected word, 8 00:03:25,870 --> 00:03:28,573 was crossed out, revised, recorded . 9 00:03:29,140 --> 00:03:30,906 To put all my thoughts 10 00:03:30,908 --> 00:03:32,975 and simple events in my days are factually 11 00:03:32,977 --> 00:03:34,680 and without hiding anything. 12 00:03:36,448 --> 00:03:39,352 When writing about yourself, someone should not show mercy. 13 00:03:40,918 --> 00:03:45,054 I will keep this diary for one year, 12 months. 14 00:03:45,056 --> 00:03:48,424 And in the end, it will be destroyed. 15 00:03:48,426 --> 00:03:51,964 Shredded, then burned. The experiment will be finished. 16 00:04:10,649 --> 00:04:11,950 Please stand up. 17 00:04:17,022 --> 00:04:20,626 Is your only peace in your life and death? 18 00:04:20,992 --> 00:04:22,559 With my body and soul, 19 00:04:22,561 --> 00:04:24,593 good in life and death, 20 00:04:24,595 --> 00:04:26,129 is not mine alone, 21 00:04:26,131 --> 00:04:28,900 but belongs to my Savior who is faithful to Jesus Christ, 22 00:04:29,867 --> 00:04:31,867 who with his precious blood... 23 00:04:31,869 --> 00:04:33,035 These thoughts and memories 24 00:04:33,037 --> 00:04:34,737 are not so different 25 00:04:34,739 --> 00:04:36,508 from the person I said to God every morning. 26 00:04:38,143 --> 00:04:41,414 Someday. When he listens. 27 00:04:46,585 --> 00:04:49,489 Bread is alive. A cup of safety . 28 00:04:55,227 --> 00:04:57,597 Bread is alive. A cup of salvation. 29 00:05:00,866 --> 00:05:03,033 Bread is alive. A cup of salvation. 30 00:05:03,035 --> 00:05:06,169 This journal is a tool for talking, 31 00:05:06,171 --> 00:05:09,509 communication from one to another. 32 00:05:10,174 --> 00:05:13,109 Communication that can be easily achieved 33 00:05:13,111 --> 00:05:16,616 and in pauses without prostration or anything else. 34 00:05:18,616 --> 00:05:19,919 That is a form of prayer. 35 00:05:20,886 --> 00:05:23,890 Bread is alive. A cup of safety. 36 00:05:33,799 --> 00:05:36,232 There, uh, there is a leak in the men's room . 37 00:05:36,234 --> 00:05:37,867 No, I fixed it. 38 00:05:37,869 --> 00:05:39,735 No, I was just there. Still leaked. 39 00:05:39,737 --> 00:05:41,838 Same place.
Under the hot faucet. 40 00:05:41,840 --> 00:05:43,540 What about the women's room? 41 00:05:43,542 --> 00:05:45,242 The women are fine. Uh, do you want me to call 42 00:05:45,244 --> 00:05:46,742 Plumber from Abundant Life? 43 00:05:46,744 --> 00:05:48,244 No, I will fix another slit. 44 00:05:48,246 --> 00:05:50,513 I hate things that always bother with extra small fees. 45 00:05:50,515 --> 00:05:52,081 They don't mind. That's why they are there. 46 00:05:52,083 --> 00:05:53,549 And you really according to your budget. 47 00:05:53,551 --> 00:05:54,787 Still, I don't want to. 48 00:05:56,522 --> 00:05:57,557 Have you posted a sermon? 49 00:05:58,756 --> 00:05:59,991 Yes. I did it this morning. 50 00:06:01,260 --> 00:06:02,691 - Oh, hi... - Pastor? 51 00:06:02,693 --> 00:06:04,528 Yes, uh... Mary, right? 52 00:06:04,530 --> 00:06:06,732 - Mary Mansana. - Yes. Nice to meet you again. 53 00:06:07,099 --> 00:06:09,068 I want to talk, if that's okay. 54 00:06:10,099 --> 00:06:10,600 Yes yes yes.
Enter, Mary. 55 00:06:10,602 --> 00:06:11,968 I'll be back soon. 56 00:06:11,970 --> 00:06:13,302 Mary, how can I help you? 57 00:06:13,304 --> 00:06:14,771 Um, I want to know what are you want to talk 58 00:06:14,773 --> 00:06:16,306 - for my husband, Michael. - Oh, sure. I... 59 00:06:16,308 --> 00:06:17,607 Actually, not now. He must... 60 00:06:17,609 --> 00:06:18,807 Dia harus pergi bekerja. 61 00:06:18,809 --> 00:06:20,011 He must fill in Home Depot. 62 00:06:22,614 --> 00:06:25,785 Mary? What is that? 63 00:06:26,184 --> 00:06:27,850 I'm worried about him. 64 00:06:27,852 --> 00:06:29,785 He was involved in the Green Planet movement. 65 00:06:29,787 --> 00:06:31,554 - This is an activist group. - Mmm-hmm. 66 00:06:31,556 --> 00:06:33,889 And he's been imprisoned in Canada. 67 00:06:33,891 --> 00:06:35,759 And he just came out two weeks ago. 68 00:06:35,761 --> 00:06:37,193 He just sits at home . 69 00:06:37,195 --> 00:06:38,795 He doesn't... He doesn't come out. 70 00:06:38,797 --> 00:06:40,597 I told him fill out the temp form 71 00:06:40,599 --> 00:06:42,165 for Home... For Home Depot. 72 00:06:42,167 --> 00:06:44,100 - Good. - Um, so that's good. 73 00:06:44,102 --> 00:06:45,968 Are you sure you don't want to go to Abundant Life? 74 00:06:45,970 --> 00:06:47,703 They have a team of counselors there, 75 00:06:47,705 --> 00:06:48,838 who are trained and... 76 00:06:48,840 --> 00:06:50,273 I know, but he doesn't want to. 77 00:06:50,275 --> 00:06:52,107 He thinks it's more than an company rather than a church. 78 00:06:52,109 --> 00:06:54,045 So, he said he would talk to you. 79 00:06:56,181 --> 00:06:58,885 Uh, alright. Tomorrow? 80 00:07:00,085 --> 00:07:01,785 - After lunch? - Great. Good. 81 00:07:01,787 --> 00:07:04,220 I just need, uh... I just need an address. 82 00:07:04,222 --> 00:07:05,591 And, uh, can you tell me a little more? 83 00:07:06,792 --> 00:07:08,792 Oh, he signed up for Loving Release 84 00:07:08,794 --> 00:07:10,292 when he found out. 85 00:07:10,294 --> 00:07:12,028 He was at Fort Providence. They let him out early. 86 00:07:12,030 --> 00:07:13,797 Wait, now. Um, find what? 87 00:07:13,799 --> 00:07:14,900 That I... I'm pregnant. 88 00:07:15,299 --> 00:07:18,103 Oh Hmm Congratulations. 89 00:07:18,703 --> 00:07:20,239 Thank you. 90 00:07:21,205 --> 00:07:24,876 He is.... He thinks it's wrong to bring children to this world. 91 00:07:28,046 --> 00:07:30,583 He wants to kill our baby. 92 00:07:35,621 --> 00:07:36,987 I help Sunday 93 00:07:36,989 --> 00:07:38,821 p> 94 00:07:38,823 --> 00:07:41,790 Young people are very excited, full of life. 95 00:07:41,792 --> 00:07:43,962 They are open. They welcome communion. 96 00:07:48,100 --> 00:07:50,636 Maybe I shouldn't care whether people like me. 97 00:07:52,337 --> 00:07:54,707 Is Jesus worried about being liked? 98 00:07:58,710 --> 00:08:01,280 I looked at the last line that I wrote with disgust. 99 00:08:04,782 --> 00:08:06,285 Twelve months. 100 00:08:06,984 --> 00:08:09,187 Can I continue exercising during that time? 101 00:08:23,367 --> 00:08:26,304 When I read these words, I don't see the truth , but arrogance. 102 00:08:32,411 --> 00:08:34,780 I wish I hadn't used the word pride. 103 00:08:35,413 --> 00:08:38,016 But I can't cross it. 104 00:08:42,354 --> 00:08:44,223 If only I could pray. 105 00:09:40,878 --> 00:09:42,277 Hi, Pastor. 106 00:09:42,279 --> 00:09:45,448 - Hi. Did Michael come home? - Yes. Come in. 107 00:09:45,450 --> 00:09:46,852 Good. Yes. 108 00:09:50,855 --> 00:09:53,124 - Hey... Nice to see you. - Nice to meet you. 109 00:09:53,457 --> 00:09:55,160 Um, do you want coffee? 110 00:09:56,128 --> 00:09:57,526 Yes. But, um... 111 00:09:57,528 --> 00:09:59,194 We... I... I think we drink tea. 112 00:09:59,196 --> 00:10:00,262 Yes. It will be better. 113 00:10:00,264 --> 00:10:01,433 - Good. - Thank you. 114 00:10:03,869 --> 00:10:05,470 Let me take your coat? 115 00:10:05,970 --> 00:10:07,840 Um, no, it's okay . I got it. 116 00:10:09,040 --> 00:10:10,309 Enter it. 117 00:10:15,446 --> 00:10:16,880 Yes. I don't know why Mary... 118 00:10:16,882 --> 00:10:18,781 No need to apologize. 119 00:10:18,783 --> 00:10:21,419 No, uh... He told me that you were in Canada. 120 00:10:22,454 --> 00:10:25,391 Uh, yeah. Uh, Fort Providence. 121 00:10:26,557 --> 00:10:28,257 This is, uh, in Mackenzie Delta. 122 00:10:28,259 --> 00:10:29,958 This is the direction north. 123 00:10:29,960 --> 00:10:31,461 Yes. Beautiful country, I imagine. 124 00:10:31,463 --> 00:10:33,099 Ya itu dia. 125 00:10:36,868 --> 00:10:38,871 Mary said things made you sad? 126 00:10:41,273 --> 00:10:43,573 Uh, yes, everyone. 127 00:10:43,575 --> 00:10:45,244 Yes, you can say that. Yes. 128 00:10:46,411 --> 00:10:48,013 oh! Thank you very much. 129 00:10:48,547 --> 00:10:49,981 - It's hot. - Perfect. 130 00:10:50,581 --> 00:10:51,917 Thank you. 131 00:11:01,426 --> 00:11:03,329 - Well, Mary is pregnant. - Hmm. 132 00:11:04,196 --> 00:11:06,496 Yes. How far is he? 133 00:11:06,498 --> 00:11:07,967 Uh, 20 weeks. 134 00:11:08,233 --> 00:11:10,301 - Congratulations. - Thank you. 135 00:11:18,243 --> 00:11:21,180 Hey, how old are you, pastor? 136 00:11:23,348 --> 00:11:24,917 I am 46 years old. 137 00:11:28,186 --> 00:11:29,821 Uh, 33. 138 00:11:31,322 --> 00:11:34,556 That's... That's how old our child is in 2050. 139 00:11:34,558 --> 00:11:37,227 - Mmm-hmm. Mmm-hmm. Yes. - You know, that... 140 00:11:37,229 --> 00:11:39,127 That's two years older than me now. 141 00:11:39,129 --> 00:11:40,231 Mmm-hmm. 142 00:11:41,465 --> 00:11:44,537 - You will be 81 years old. - Yes 143 00:11:45,003 --> 00:11:48,972 Hey, do you know what is the world in 2050? 144 00:11:48,974 --> 00:11:51,006 Hmm It's hard to imagine. 145 00:11:51,008 --> 00:11:52,878 > 146 00:11:53,411 --> 00:11:55,511 I mean, Pastor... 147 00:11:55,513 --> 00:11:59,350 Uh, the world is changing very fast. 148 00:12:00,252 --> 00:12:01,950 And right in front of us. 149 00:12:01,952 --> 00:12:04,286 I mean, one third from the natural world 150 00:12:04,288 --> 00:12:06,225 has been destroyed in your life. 151 00:12:07,325 --> 00:12:08,924 You know, the temperature of the earth 152 00:12:08,926 --> 00:12:10,995 will be three degrees centigrade higher. 153 00:12:12,029 --> 00:12:13,832 Four is the threshold. 154 00:12:14,532 --> 00:12:18,901 Do you know? "The impact is severe, extends, and cannot be changed." 155 00:12:18,903 --> 00:12:22,505 And when scientists say things like that, you know? 156 00:12:22,507 --> 00:12:25,444 And National Atmospheric Research Center, 157 00:12:27,311 --> 00:12:28,611 Lawrence Livermore, 158 00:12:28,613 --> 00:12:30,579 Potsdam Institute. Uh, Pastor... 159 00:12:30,581 --> 00:12:33,282 He continue like that for some time. 160 00:12:33,284 --> 00:12:36,920 In 2050, two-foot sea level was higher on the East Coast. 161 00:12:36,922 --> 00:12:39,988 Lowland areas in underwater around the world. 162 00:12:39,990 --> 00:12:42,492 Bangladesh, 20% lost land. 163 00:12:42,494 --> 00:12:45,929 Central Africa, 50% reduction yields due to drought. 164 00:12:45,931 --> 00:12:47,664 West reservoirs are drying up. 165 00:12:47,666 --> 00:12:51,266 Climate change refugees. Epidemic. Extreme weather. 166 00:12:51,268 --> 00:12:52,937 You know,... 167 00:12:54,104 --> 00:12:56,072 Bad times, they will start. 168 00:12:56,074 --> 00:12:58,210 And from the moment that, everything moves very fast. 169 00:13:00,045 --> 00:13:01,544 You know, this social structure 170 00:13:01,546 --> 00:13:04,350 can't bear stress from many crises. 171 00:13:05,683 --> 00:13:07,382 Opportunistic diseases, 172 00:13:07,384 --> 00:13:09,484 anarchy, emergency military, critical point. 173 00:13:09,486 --> 00:13:11,587 And this is not in a few, like, a distant future. 174 00:13:11,589 --> 00:13:13,559 You will live to see this. 175 00:13:14,058 --> 00:13:18,126 You know, my children will experience this unworthiness. 176 00:13:18,128 --> 00:13:19,498 This, uh... 177 00:13:20,065 --> 00:13:22,732 Damn. I am sorry. I just... You know, I... 178 00:13:22,734 --> 00:13:25,001 I think everything can change, you know? 179 00:13:25,003 --> 00:13:27,205 I think... I think people will listen. 180 00:13:27,404 --> 00:13:29,908 Do you have thoughts to hurt yourself? 181 00:13:31,308 --> 00:13:32,944 No. 182 00:13:33,478 --> 00:13:35,645 Why? Is... Does Mary say something like that? 183 00:13:35,647 --> 00:13:37,280 No no. 184 00:13:37,282 --> 00:13:40,016 No, I'm not worried about myself. I'm just... 185 00:13:40,018 --> 00:13:43,553 This world will be to be like this. 186 00:13:43,555 --> 00:13:46,088 Um... But can I ask something, Reverend? 187 00:13:46,090 --> 00:13:47,225 Mmm-hmm. 188 00:13:48,593 --> 00:13:52,127 How did you drop sanctions on a little girl, 189 00:13:52,129 --> 00:13:56,165 uh, for the sake of argument, just say, uh, 190 00:13:56,167 --> 00:13:59,238 Mary and I, uh, son, that is a little girl. 191 00:14:04,508 --> 00:14:06,946 You know, a child who is so hopeful 192 00:14:08,513 --> 00:14:10,612 and naive beliefs, 193 00:14:10,614 --> 00:14:13,652 to a world where the little girl, uh... 194 00:14:15,286 --> 00:14:17,453 She grew up to be a young woman 195 00:14:17,455 --> 00:14:19,354 and he looked into your eyes 196 00:14:19,356 --> 00:14:22,226 and he said that you knew this all along, didn't you? 197 00:14:26,797 --> 00:14:28,700 You saw it... 198 00:14:30,134 --> 00:14:32,705 I mean, what? Then what do you have to say? 199 00:14:36,106 --> 00:14:38,507 There is something growing in Maria. 200 00:14:38,509 --> 00:14:43,349 Something that lives like a tree, of course. 201 00:14:43,580 --> 00:14:46,018 As an endangered species. 202 00:14:46,651 --> 00:14:51,190 Something full of the beauty and mystery of nature. 203 00:14:53,425 --> 00:14:55,494 You say sanctions? 204 00:14:57,729 --> 00:15:00,295 Do you think Mary should have an abortion? 205 00:15:00,297 --> 00:15:01,697 Birth, is that your right? 206 00:15:01,699 --> 00:15:03,299 Is that your decision? 207 00:15:03,301 --> 00:15:05,436 Have you asked /> Maria what is she thinking about? 208 00:15:11,209 --> 00:15:13,476 Listen, this... This isn't... 209 00:15:13,478 --> 00:15:15,247 It's not about your baby. 210 00:15:16,181 --> 00:15:17,549 It's not about Maria. 211 00:15:19,450 --> 00:15:22,651 It's about you and your despair. 212 00:15:22,653 --> 00:15:24,222 Your lack of hope. 213 00:15:25,523 --> 00:15:28,357 > 214 00:15:28,359 --> 00:15:30,492 Look, people, throughout history, 215 00:15:30,494 --> 00:15:32,694 has awakened in the middle of the night, 216 00:15:32,696 --> 00:15:35,267 is faced with darkness. 217 00:15:36,401 --> 00:15:37,766 The feeling that live us without meaning. 218 00:15:37,768 --> 00:15:39,635 The Sickness Unto Death. 219 00:15:39,637 --> 00:15:41,636 Yes, but this is something different . 220 00:15:41,638 --> 00:15:45,373 Yes no. Great human achievements 221 00:15:45,375 --> 00:15:47,209 have taken him to a place where life as we know it 222 00:15:47,211 --> 00:15:48,614 can stop at future. 223 00:15:49,513 --> 00:15:50,715 Yes, that's new. 224 00:15:52,783 --> 00:15:54,483 But darkness 225 00:15:54,485 --> 00:15:56,551 that's not it. 226 00:15:56,553 --> 00:15:58,453 We are scientific people. /> We want to solve many things. 227 00:15:58,455 --> 00:16:00,189 We want a rational answer. 228 00:16:00,191 --> 00:16:04,459 If a human cannot overcome his interests immediately 229 00:16:04,461 --> 00:16:06,429 is enough to ensure the continuity of his own life, then you're right. 230 00:16:06,431 --> 00:16:09,334 The only rational response /> is despair. 231 00:16:10,301 --> 00:16:11,833 But do you think that, that... 232 00:16:11,835 --> 00:16:15,137 That there is an existence other than this? 233 00:16:15,139 --> 00:16:16,372 This is here, now? 234 00:16:16,374 --> 00:16:17,506 This is here, now? 235 00:16:17,508 --> 00:16:19,275 p> 236 00:16:19,277 --> 00:16:20,675 - Uh, yes. - Yes right. 237 00:16:20,677 --> 00:16:22,878 - Before us. After us. - Yes 238 00:16:22,880 --> 00:16:24,479 - Yes - Yes Wait a minute. 239 00:16:24,481 --> 00:16:26,214 Are you talking about the next life? Huh? 240 00:16:26,216 --> 00:16:28,184 You really... you just, uh... 241 00:16:28,186 --> 00:16:29,588 I feel like I'm Jacob 242 00:16:30,488 --> 00:16:32,255 wrestling all night with the angel. 243 00:16:32,257 --> 00:16:35,257 every response to mortal struggle. 244 00:16:35,259 --> 00:16:37,193 That is fun. 245 00:16:37,195 --> 00:16:39,295 You believe in martyrdom, Reverend? 246 00:16:39,297 --> 00:16:40,630 I'm not sure I know what you mean. 247 00:16:40,632 --> 00:16:42,464 You know, the Saints of God, 248 00:16:42,466 --> 00:16:45,934 early Christians who didn't Will you leave their faith? 249 00:16:45,936 --> 00:16:47,636 The missionaries who were attacked 250 00:16:47,638 --> 00:16:49,237 in the Lord's field. 251 00:16:49,239 --> 00:16:50,640 Do you believe that they died for a purpose? 252 00:16:50,642 --> 00:16:52,507 - I did. - Well, every week, 253 00:16:52,509 --> 00:16:56,215 murdered activists trying to protect the environment. 254 00:16:57,749 --> 00:17:00,248 One hundred and seventeen years died last year 255 00:17:00,250 --> 00:17:01,252 for their beliefs. 256 00:17:03,354 --> 00:17:04,720 All right, there. 257 00:17:04,722 --> 00:17:07,626 Uh, this is José Claudio Ribeiro da Silva . 258 00:17:08,458 --> 00:17:11,562 Huh? And that is his wife, Maria. 259 00:17:13,430 --> 00:17:16,232 They were shot dead 260 00:17:16,234 --> 00:17:19,338 in 2011 on Amazon. 261 00:17:20,571 --> 00:17:22,437 You know, they protested 262 00:17:22,439 --> 00:17:23,973 free rainforest felling 263 00:17:25,542 --> 00:17:29,377 Hey, uh... This is
Dorothy Stang, 2005. 264 00:17:29,379 --> 00:17:32,350 She, um, a nun from Ohio. 265 00:17:34,586 --> 00:17:37,156 And what, what is the purpose of of their deaths? 266 00:17:44,395 --> 00:17:45,595 You know, in, uh... 267 00:17:45,597 --> 00:17:48,364 In 2010, the IPCC predicted 268 00:17:48,366 --> 00:17:51,637 that if drastic measures were not taken in 2015, 269 00:17:52,704 --> 00:17:55,541 environmental collapse will not be changed. 270 00:17:57,375 --> 00:17:58,810 And nothing is done. 271 00:18:01,646 --> 00:18:03,682 And now in 2017. 272 00:18:04,782 --> 00:18:06,014 You say you respect me. 273 00:18:06,016 --> 00:18:07,852 What are you... What I'm going through. 274 00:18:09,553 --> 00:18:10,555 Yes. 275 00:18:10,888 --> 00:18:13,324 So, you know my story. 276 00:18:15,426 --> 00:18:17,559 - Yes, you is a priest. - Uh huh. 277 00:18:17,561 --> 00:18:20,363 My father taught at VMI. 278 00:18:20,365 --> 00:18:21,763 I encouraged my child to register. 279 00:18:21,765 --> 00:18:23,366 That is a family tradition. 280 00:18:23,368 --> 00:18:26,938 Uh, like his father, my father before me. 281 00:18:28,606 --> 00:18:30,542 Patriotic tradition. 282 00:18:33,811 --> 00:18:37,381 My wife, uh, very challenged. 283 00:18:37,982 --> 00:18:40,915 My son is also registered. And, uh... 284 00:18:40,917 --> 00:18:43,888 Six months later he died in Iraq. Right? 285 00:18:45,423 --> 00:18:48,023 I talked my son into war 286 00:18:48,025 --> 00:18:49,961 who didn't have moral justification. 287 00:18:52,463 --> 00:18:54,896 My wife could no longer live with me. 288 00:18:54,898 --> 00:18:56,435 I left the military. 289 00:18:57,901 --> 00:18:59,337 I'm lost. 290 00:19:01,839 --> 00:19:05,607 And Reverend Jeffers of Abundant Life, 291 00:19:05,609 --> 00:19:06,809 He gave me this position 292 00:19:06,811 --> 00:19:08,411 in First Reformed and here I am. 293 00:19:08,413 --> 00:19:11,316 Now Michael, I can promise you 294 00:19:11,849 --> 00:19:14,817 that whatever despair you feel 295 00:19:14,819 --> 00:19:17,653 about bringing your child to this world 296 00:19:17,655 --> 00:19:22,027 can't be as desperate as taking your child from it. 297 00:19:34,438 --> 00:19:38,276 Hey, who's... What's his name, his name? Your child? 298 00:19:40,878 --> 00:19:42,281 Joseph. 299 00:19:43,613 --> 00:19:45,013 The child fell into the well. 300 00:19:45,015 --> 00:19:46,816 - Yes, I remember. - Mmm-hmm. 301 00:19:46,818 --> 00:19:48,017 Dreamer. 302 00:19:48,019 --> 00:19:49,617 The dreamer, huh. Yes. 303 00:19:54,524 --> 00:19:56,959 And you can continue? 304 00:19:56,961 --> 00:20:01,463 Courage is the solution to despair. 305 00:20:01,465 --> 00:20:05,503 The reason for not giving an answer. 306 00:20:07,138 --> 00:20:09,437 I don't know what will happen in the future. 307 00:20:09,439 --> 00:20:12,543 We must choose despite uncertainty. 308 00:20:13,144 --> 00:20:17,812 Wisdom holds two contradictory truths 309 00:20:17,814 --> 00:20:20,982 in our minds, simultaneously. 310 00:20:20,984 --> 00:20:23,018 Hope and despair. 311 00:20:23,020 --> 00:20:25,453 Life without despair is life without hope. 312 00:20:25,455 --> 00:20:29,061 Hold two this idea in our head is life itself. 313 00:20:44,442 --> 00:20:45,977 Are you a drinker, Pastor? 314 00:20:47,110 --> 00:20:48,778 That doesn't help. 315 00:20:48,780 --> 00:20:50,415 No, I don't think so. 316 00:20:57,754 --> 00:20:59,491 Can God forgive us? 317 00:21:04,061 --> 00:21:06,130 For what we have, uh, do this world? 318 00:21:08,032 --> 00:21:09,368 I don't know. 319 00:21:11,869 --> 00:21:13,972 Who can know the mind of God? 320 00:21:15,907 --> 00:21:17,676 But we can choose 321 00:21:19,709 --> 00:21:21,045 a godly life. 322 00:21:21,913 --> 00:21:23,014 Trust... 323 00:21:23,981 --> 00:21:25,650 Forgiveness... 324 00:21:27,484 --> 00:21:30,455 Grace covers all of us. 325 00:21:32,689 --> 00:21:34,058 I believe that. 326 00:21:42,733 --> 00:21:44,799 Let's meet again. 327 00:21:44,801 --> 00:21:46,135 Do you want to? 328 00:21:46,137 --> 00:21:48,639 Tomorrow after lunch, the same time. 329 00:21:49,506 --> 00:21:51,609 Okay yeah. This is a... This is a plan. 330 00:21:54,911 --> 00:21:56,912 I left as said, 331 00:21:56,914 --> 00:21:58,614 what should be said, < / i> 332 00:21:58,616 --> 00:22:00,014 what can be said differently, 333 00:22:00,016 --> 00:22:01,786 what can be said is better. 334 00:22:03,620 --> 00:22:05,488 "I know there's no that can change 335 00:22:05,490 --> 00:22:07,459 " And I know there's no hope. " 336 00:22:08,693 --> 00:22:10,628 Thomas Merton wrote this. 337 00:22:12,996 --> 00:22:16,065 Despair is the development of so great pride 338 00:22:16,067 --> 00:22:18,166 that he chose someone's certainty 339 00:22:18,168 --> 00:22:22,006 instead of acknowledging God more creative than us. 340 00:22:23,139 --> 00:22:25,609 Maybe more well I didn't say that to him. 341 00:23:03,781 --> 00:23:05,750 Who am I talking about pride? 342 00:23:25,802 --> 00:23:30,306 Well, to start,
the church was built in 1767 343 00:23:30,308 --> 00:23:32,774 in the current style we call Dutch Colonial. 344 00:23:32,776 --> 00:23:35,109 It was made by settlers... Follow me. 345 00:23:35,111 --> 00:23:36,912 Using local wood. 346 00:23:36,914 --> 00:23:40,081 First reform requires seven years to build. 347 00:23:40,083 --> 00:23:41,849 The Vei Plancks. 348 00:23:41,851 --> 00:23:44,986 Uh, Effie here, the tombstone dates back to 1787. 349 00:23:44,988 --> 00:23:46,688 Partially rebuilt church 350 00:23:46,690 --> 00:23:49,724 on in 1837 after the fire. 351 00:23:49,726 --> 00:23:53,127 This section is retained. 352 00:23:53,129 --> 00:23:56,764 If you take a closer look at behind the Continental Army Flag, 353 00:23:56,766 --> 00:23:59,134 You will find two bullet hole 354 00:23:59,136 --> 00:24:02,874 of shots fired during the Skirmish of Snowbridge. 355 00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:05,307 Within two months we celebrated 356 00:24:05,309 --> 00:24:08,210 our 250th anniversary . 357 00:24:08,212 --> 00:24:11,146 This is an example of some chinaware 358 00:24:11,148 --> 00:24:12,815 brought from the Netherlands. 359 00:24:12,817 --> 00:24:15,384 And the first cup. That's beautiful. 360 00:24:15,386 --> 00:24:17,319 And here, this is the original key 361 00:24:17,321 --> 00:24:19,154 from the front door before the fire. 362 00:24:19,156 --> 00:24:20,623 Yes. 363 00:24:20,625 --> 00:24:22,257 And in the cabinet that we have, um, 364 00:24:22,259 --> 00:24:24,158 souvenirs sold. 365 00:24:24,160 --> 00:24:28,998 We have mugs, hats, postcards, key chains, pens, t-shirts. 366 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:30,232 What size is this? 367 00:24:30,234 --> 00:24:31,634 unfortunately, they're all small. 368 00:24:31,636 --> 00:24:32,901 I have a few more orders, 369 00:24:32,903 --> 00:24:34,168 but I'm waiting for them to come in. 370 00:24:34,170 --> 00:24:35,773 The lid is good. 371 00:24:36,674 --> 00:24:38,773 This is one size that fits all . 372 00:24:40,311 --> 00:24:44,413 The pulpit was donated in the year 1879 by William Mercer. 373 00:24:44,415 --> 00:24:46,949 And the organs of the church, 374 00:24:46,951 --> 00:24:50,653 which unfortunately did not function now, 375 00:24:50,655 --> 00:24:53,858 uh, produced in England by AG Hill. 376 00:24:54,824 --> 00:24:56,157 Did you hear about 377 00:24:56,159 --> 00:24:57,728 Mrs. Choir and Minister? 378 00:24:58,829 --> 00:25:00,029 No. 379 00:25:00,031 --> 00:25:01,195 He chased him around the church 380 00:25:01,197 --> 00:25:02,967 and caught him by the organ. 381 00:25:04,334 --> 00:25:07,301 Oh No, I, uh... 382 00:25:07,303 --> 00:25:08,936 I haven't heard that one. 383 00:25:08,938 --> 00:25:10,808 Baiklah. Ayolah. Ikuti aku. 384 00:25:11,442 --> 00:25:14,276 All right. Thank you very much. 385 00:25:14,278 --> 00:25:15,743 - Well. - Thank you. 386 00:25:15,745 --> 00:25:16,947 Yes. Thank you very much. 387 00:25:20,951 --> 00:25:22,187 Be careful driving. 388 00:25:25,089 --> 00:25:26,224 Thank you. 389 00:27:00,317 --> 00:27:01,920 Okay, take five. 390 00:27:05,955 --> 00:27:07,321 Penny for your mind? 391 00:27:07,323 --> 00:27:10,893 Oh Joel wants to talk to me. 392 00:27:10,895 --> 00:27:13,298 - There's nothing serious, I hope. - Oh, I assume it's not. 393 00:27:14,497 --> 00:27:16,033 Do you want to have lunch? 394 00:27:16,833 --> 00:27:19,201 Well, I have something after that, but uh, yeah. 395 00:27:19,203 --> 00:27:20,739 I can sit with you for a moment. 396 00:27:23,907 --> 00:27:25,109 Oh, remember that? 397 00:27:25,542 --> 00:27:26,744 What? 398 00:27:27,311 --> 00:27:29,280 When everything is there in front of you. 399 00:27:30,481 --> 00:27:34,449 Yes. But try saying that to them. 400 00:27:34,451 --> 00:27:35,754 See you later. 401 00:27:57,140 --> 00:27:58,272 Hello. 402 00:27:58,274 --> 00:27:59,473 - Reverend Toller. - Yes. p> 403 00:27:59,475 --> 00:28:00,908 - Oh. Go right. - Good. 404 00:28:00,910 --> 00:28:02,045 Dia mengharapkanmu. 405 00:28:09,052 --> 00:28:12,456 Um, this... That is my wife's stuff. I see. 406 00:28:13,290 --> 00:28:16,094 Continue and take care of it. 407 00:28:17,061 --> 00:28:18,594 Oh good! Reverend Toller. 408 00:28:18,596 --> 00:28:19,998 Enter. 409 00:28:20,630 --> 00:28:22,231 Roger, make sure you reply to me 410 00:28:22,233 --> 00:28:23,432 immediately after that. 411 00:28:23,434 --> 00:28:25,166 Hi Pastor. 412 00:28:25,168 --> 00:28:26,370 Nice to see you. Why did you not sit there? 413 00:28:27,437 --> 00:28:29,437 Roger, okay to let the door open. 414 00:28:29,439 --> 00:28:30,606 Can I get you water or what? 415 00:28:30,608 --> 00:28:32,340 Oh no. I am good. I'm good. 416 00:28:32,342 --> 00:28:35,143 So, how is the situation in First Reformed? 417 00:28:35,145 --> 00:28:36,578 Oh, busy. you know how that is. 418 00:28:36,580 --> 00:28:38,413 You do one thing for another, 419 00:28:38,415 --> 00:28:40,182 the next thing you know is again Sunday. 420 00:28:40,184 --> 00:28:42,017 Yes, tell me about that. 421 00:28:42,019 --> 00:28:43,551 Well, I brought you in, I want to ask you 422 00:28:43,553 --> 00:28:46,120 about the 250th Reconciliation. 423 00:28:46,122 --> 00:28:48,022 Now, around the corner. 424 00:28:48,024 --> 00:28:50,392 Yes, of course. Only eight weeks away. 425 00:28:50,394 --> 00:28:52,063 And what is the planning? 426 00:28:52,596 --> 00:28:55,163 Well, your office handle invitations 427 00:28:55,165 --> 00:28:56,632 and I'm a little worried about seating. 428 00:28:56,634 --> 00:28:58,232 I mean, because we have your staff. 429 00:28:58,234 --> 00:28:59,600 We have Elders. We have Deacons. 430 00:28:59,602 --> 00:29:01,435 We have a Governor, the people. 431 00:29:01,437 --> 00:29:02,971 Mayor, the people. 432 00:29:02,973 --> 00:29:04,405 We don't have space for spillover. 433 00:29:04,407 --> 00:29:06,308 You know, that is Holy Place and that's it. 434 00:29:06,310 --> 00:29:08,076 Do you know what? I think we will simulcast the 435 00:29:08,078 --> 00:29:10,111 ceremony here, in the main room. 436 00:29:10,113 --> 00:29:11,546 - Alright. - So that's 5,000 seats. 437 00:29:11,548 --> 00:29:13,014 Yes, okay. Well then... 438 00:29:13,016 --> 00:29:15,549 We can do reception at rotunda. 439 00:29:15,551 --> 00:29:18,153 The, um... Organ di First Reformed. 440 00:29:18,155 --> 00:29:20,588 - Is that repaired? - Oh right, yes. No, that's not it. 441 00:29:20,590 --> 00:29:23,424 We are waiting for some parts. 442 00:29:23,426 --> 00:29:25,359 I'm not... That's... It's more complicated 443 00:29:25,361 --> 00:29:26,694 than we think at first. 444 00:29:26,696 --> 00:29:28,530 We can't do reconciliation 445 00:29:28,532 --> 00:29:30,031 without organs. 446 00:29:31,668 --> 00:29:34,001 "A Mighty Fortress is our Lord." 447 00:29:34,003 --> 00:29:35,671 That's all organs. 448 00:29:35,673 --> 00:29:37,271 Do you know that, uh, 449 00:29:37,273 --> 00:29:39,206 Martin Luther wrote it on the toilet? 450 00:29:39,208 --> 00:29:40,675 Oh Yes. 451 00:29:40,677 --> 00:29:45,414 "A Mighty Fortress..." 452 00:29:46,684 --> 00:29:48,649 I think every seminary knows that. 453 00:29:48,651 --> 00:29:51,953 Oh, I can't get that picture from my mind. 454 00:29:51,955 --> 00:29:55,089 I mean, every time I see the song go 455 00:29:55,091 --> 00:29:56,959 and I can look at the church 456 00:29:56,961 --> 00:29:58,626 and know everyone thinks the same thing. 457 00:29:58,628 --> 00:30:03,165 This man, oh, kindness. Oh, makes me laugh. 458 00:30:03,167 --> 00:30:06,167 Anyway, have you, uh, prepared your statement? 459 00:30:06,169 --> 00:30:09,273 Ugh, no . Not yet. But I'll do it. 460 00:30:10,640 --> 00:30:11,706 So how are you doing? 461 00:30:11,708 --> 00:30:13,010 Oh, I'm fine. 462 00:30:13,644 --> 00:30:15,543 Not really. 463 00:30:15,545 --> 00:30:18,146 I mean, it's been a long time since we talked. 464 00:30:18,148 --> 00:30:21,249 And you know, even a priest needs a pastor. 465 00:30:21,251 --> 00:30:23,018 We have to do it, okay? p> 466 00:30:23,020 --> 00:30:24,319 I want that. 467 00:30:24,321 --> 00:30:26,454 Good. And come to here more often. 468 00:30:26,456 --> 00:30:29,558 You have to get out. Come and be part of things. 469 00:30:29,560 --> 00:30:31,659 So many activities that you can do. And... 470 00:30:31,661 --> 00:30:33,395 - And kids really like you. - Mmm. 471 00:30:33,397 --> 00:30:34,663 They always praise you. 472 00:30:34,665 --> 00:30:36,431 So you can go out from that, uh... 473 00:30:36,433 --> 00:30:38,265 What is the game? What do they like to call it, 474 00:30:38,267 --> 00:30:41,636 where are you? The, uh... Museum. 475 00:30:41,638 --> 00:30:43,504 Souvenir shop. 476 00:30:43,506 --> 00:30:45,206 They call it a souvenir shop. 477 00:30:45,208 --> 00:30:47,611 Very good. Very good. You're doing a great job. 478 00:30:48,678 --> 00:30:50,480 I'm grateful for that opportunity. 479 00:31:21,244 --> 00:31:22,644 How's Jeffers doing? 480 00:31:22,646 --> 00:31:25,746 Oh He wants I met with Ed Balq. 481 00:31:25,748 --> 00:31:29,384 Balq Industries, Balq Energy, Balq Paper, Balq Peanuts... 482 00:31:29,386 --> 00:31:30,786 Why? 483 00:31:30,788 --> 00:31:34,522 Well, it's all about Reconciliation. 484 00:31:34,524 --> 00:31:37,658 And apparently Mr. Balq wants to make sure he gets the right 485 00:31:37,660 --> 00:31:39,761 credit for to bear everything. 486 00:31:39,763 --> 00:31:41,262 Well, he should be. 487 00:31:41,264 --> 00:31:42,530 First Reform is a parking lot 488 00:31:42,532 --> 00:31:44,401 - if not for him. - I think. 489 00:31:46,070 --> 00:31:47,437 Did you see a doctor? 490 00:31:49,173 --> 00:31:50,771 Yes. I made an appointment. 491 00:31:50,773 --> 00:31:52,206 There was a little hanging 492 00:31:52,208 --> 00:31:53,841 with the company insurance, but... 493 00:31:53,843 --> 00:31:55,580 God, they made it very difficult . 494 00:31:56,647 --> 00:31:59,181 Yes, okay. That's what they do. 495 00:31:59,183 --> 00:32:00,251 Mmm-hmm. 496 00:32:00,783 --> 00:32:02,786 You need someone to take care of you. 497 00:32:05,755 --> 00:32:10,224 Esther, we tried it. I wasn't made for it. 498 00:32:10,226 --> 00:32:14,197 For what? Love? You're not made for love? 499 00:32:15,698 --> 00:32:17,368 My marriage failed. 500 00:32:18,801 --> 00:32:21,606 There is no marriage that can survive the loss of a child. 501 00:32:28,111 --> 00:32:29,246 That's not true. 502 00:32:33,317 --> 00:32:35,517 Is that what you are thinking about? 503 00:32:35,519 --> 00:32:37,251 That what we did together is sin? 504 00:32:37,253 --> 00:32:38,419 That we are breaking? 505 00:32:38,421 --> 00:32:40,690 No. That's not what I thought. 506 00:32:41,524 --> 00:32:44,126 I've seen quite a lot of sins real to know the difference. 507 00:32:44,128 --> 00:32:45,263 It's just... 508 00:32:46,496 --> 00:32:48,129 Good? 509 00:32:48,131 --> 00:32:51,234 Good. I understand, I... 510 00:32:52,336 --> 00:32:54,205 I care about you. I want you to be happy. 511 00:32:56,907 --> 00:32:58,475 Well, I'm happy. 512 00:33:05,482 --> 00:33:08,582 There who are called to their excitement, 513 00:33:08,584 --> 00:33:10,454 there are those who are called to their suffering. 514 00:33:11,788 --> 00:33:14,155 others are called for their loneliness. 515 00:33:15,324 --> 00:33:16,892 They are called by God, 516 00:33:16,894 --> 00:33:18,425 because through the communication ship 517 00:33:18,427 --> 00:33:19,828 they can reach me, 518 00:33:19,830 --> 00:33:21,799 and hold beating hearts in their hands. 519 00:33:23,833 --> 00:33:26,635 They are called because of their enormous knowledge of 520 00:33:26,637 --> 00:33:28,802 the blanks of all things 521 00:33:28,804 --> 00:33:31,673 are only can be filled by the presence of our Savior. 522 00:33:37,848 --> 00:33:39,647 - Yes? - Reverend Toller? 523 00:33:39,649 --> 00:33:41,415 - Oh! - This is me. 524 00:33:41,417 --> 00:33:45,220 Yes, Mary? I got a message You're about rescheduling. 525 00:33:45,222 --> 00:33:47,758 You have to come. Now. 526 00:33:48,658 --> 00:33:50,424 Is Michael there? 527 00:33:50,426 --> 00:33:53,360 No. He is working. You have to come. Now. 528 00:33:53,362 --> 00:33:54,898 Good. OK. 529 00:34:19,355 --> 00:34:20,891 Thank you for coming. 530 00:34:24,895 --> 00:34:26,197 Follow me. 531 00:34:43,746 --> 00:34:46,915 I, uh, looking for some batteries, 532 00:34:46,917 --> 00:34:49,284 because we're out. And I think maybe 533 00:34:49,286 --> 00:34:50,719 there will be some here, you know? 534 00:34:50,721 --> 00:34:54,192 And then something doesn't seem right. 535 00:34:55,792 --> 00:34:57,826 Okay, I returned everything as I found it, 536 00:34:57,828 --> 00:35:01,699 because I want you to see how it is. 537 00:35:18,014 --> 00:35:19,382 Explosives? 538 00:35:20,583 --> 00:35:22,252 This is a suicide vest. 539 00:35:23,453 --> 00:35:24,819 And there are other elements there too. 540 00:35:24,821 --> 00:35:28,456 There are batteries and, um, detonators 541 00:35:28,458 --> 00:35:29,793 and jelly tubes. 542 00:35:32,295 --> 00:35:35,529 You know, he worked in the garage lately. 543 00:35:35,531 --> 00:35:39,333 And he said he was repairing the motorcycle. 544 00:35:39,335 --> 00:35:40,835 And I didn't question it. 545 00:35:40,837 --> 00:35:42,570 Because I... I'm glad 546 00:35:42,572 --> 00:35:44,375 that he did something that made him happy. 547 00:35:44,708 --> 00:35:46,507 But you don't know if he thinks... 548 00:35:46,509 --> 00:35:49,744 There is no suspicion. Nothing like this. 549 00:35:49,746 --> 00:35:52,713 All right. Well. I'll take this. All right? 550 00:35:52,715 --> 00:35:54,382 It can't stay here. 551 00:35:54,384 --> 00:35:57,951 I'll take it and throw it away. And... 552 00:35:57,953 --> 00:36:00,355 You won't go to the police? 553 00:36:00,357 --> 00:36:01,922 No, I won't... Are you... Do you want me? 554 00:36:01,924 --> 00:36:03,891 No! No no No 555 00:36:03,893 --> 00:36:05,326 Aku tidak berpikir itu akan membantu. 556 00:36:05,328 --> 00:36:06,795 I don't think there's anything good 557 00:36:06,797 --> 00:36:08,962 will come from him feeling threatened. 558 00:36:08,964 --> 00:36:11,599 I think I'm coming tomorrow. 559 00:36:11,601 --> 00:36:13,034 Tomorrow. 560 00:36:13,036 --> 00:36:15,637 Somehow, through our conversation, 561 00:36:15,639 --> 00:36:17,275 I will discuss this. 562 00:36:18,741 --> 00:36:20,375 I'm very scared. 563 00:36:20,377 --> 00:36:22,344 You didn't mean that him, were you afraid of him? 564 00:36:22,346 --> 00:36:23,511 That he would hurt you, right? 565 00:36:23,513 --> 00:36:24,945 No no no no. 566 00:36:24,947 --> 00:36:26,480 - I'm afraid of him. - No? Well. All right. 567 00:36:26,482 --> 00:36:28,049 You know, are there other activists, 568 00:36:28,051 --> 00:36:29,784 - like coming here, calling? - No. There is no one. 569 00:36:29,786 --> 00:36:32,753 He has no friends. He can't even socialize, so. 570 00:36:32,755 --> 00:36:33,991 All right, but he has you. 571 00:36:35,125 --> 00:36:36,824 - Yes - Will you stand with him? 572 00:36:36,826 --> 00:36:39,729 - Ya, tentu saja. - Baiklah. Yah, begitu juga aku. 573 00:36:54,009 --> 00:36:56,511 Sharpness intersects with Christian life 574 00:36:56,513 --> 00:36:57,581 at any time. 575 00:36:59,750 --> 00:37:00,818 Wisdom. 576 00:37:03,719 --> 00:37:05,853 Wisdom. i> 577 00:37:05,855 --> 00:37:07,725 Listen and wait for God's will 578 00:37:23,005 --> 00:37:25,710 what actions should be taken. 579 00:37:26,743 --> 00:37:28,409 My little illness has made me angry. 580 00:37:28,411 --> 00:37:30,114 I resisted the urge not to write 581 00:37:34,717 --> 00:37:37,485 the thought that arises in my mind. 582 00:37:38,922 --> 00:37:40,855 The desire to pray that is itself a type of prayer. 583 00:37:40,857 --> 00:37:42,924 How often do we ask for true experience 584 00:37:48,130 --> 00:37:50,701 when everything we want is emotion. 585 00:38:11,054 --> 00:38:13,157 My hands tremble when I write these sentences. 586 00:38:13,889 --> 00:38:15,790 Eh, we got a message from the boss. 587 00:38:15,792 --> 00:38:17,458 He said that was a top priority. 588 00:38:17,460 --> 00:38:19,527 You held some sort of big event here? 589 00:38:19,529 --> 00:38:22,931

590 00:38:22,933 --> 00:38:26,170 Yes, this church has an 250 year anniversary. 591 00:38:32,775 --> 00:38:34,411 Abundant life is planning enough ceremonies. 592 00:38:35,478 --> 00:38:37,013 Hmm A Mighty Fortress. 593 00:41:00,857 --> 00:41:02,757 p> 594 00:41:02,759 --> 00:41:04,291 Oh 595 00:41:04,293 --> 00:41:05,996 Yes sir. 596 00:41:06,862 --> 00:41:08,765 I mean, he struggles with depression. 597 00:41:09,398 --> 00:41:11,398 That's why I have to meet with him. 598 00:41:11,400 --> 00:41:13,233 I never imagined something like this. 599 00:41:13,235 --> 00:41:16,103 Are you related to a close family? 600 00:41:16,105 --> 00:41:18,038 Well, he. .. His wife, Mary. 601 00:41:18,040 --> 00:41:21,044 He was the first person asked me to meet him. 602 00:41:23,246 --> 00:41:24,615 Did he know about your text? 603 00:41:26,181 --> 00:41:27,317 No. 604 00:41:28,150 --> 00:41:29,784 I think that's my goal. 605 00:41:29,786 --> 00:41:31,686 All right. OK. 606 00:41:31,688 --> 00:41:34,725 Okay, do you mind if I follow behind you? Alright. 607 00:41:35,859 --> 00:41:37,094 I know his father. 608 00:41:37,960 --> 00:41:40,128 Very? What is he like? 609 00:41:40,130 --> 00:41:41,929 A businessman. 610 00:41:41,931 --> 00:41:44,098 A dead kid. 611 00:41:44,100 --> 00:41:45,768 I thought it was flowing in the blood. 612 00:41:57,112 --> 00:41:58,948 Thank you, Pastor. 613 00:42:00,984 --> 00:42:03,384 Mrs. Mensana, once again I apologize for your loss. 614 00:42:03,386 --> 00:42:05,719 If there is anything else we can do, please let us know. 615 00:42:05,721 --> 00:42:07,020 - Thank you. - Thank you, Officer. 616 00:42:07,022 --> 00:42:08,057 Pastor. Thank you. 617 00:42:22,971 --> 00:42:24,674 You didn't give know the police, didn't you? 618 00:42:26,141 --> 00:42:27,741 About? 619 00:42:27,743 --> 00:42:30,213 No no. 620 00:42:32,181 --> 00:42:35,685 If you find another 621 00:42:37,052 --> 00:42:40,123 like that, get rid of it. 622 00:42:41,324 --> 00:42:43,793 As long as it's safe, I mean. Burn, grave. 623 00:42:45,027 --> 00:42:47,728 Michael is nervous, but the cause is fair. 624 00:42:47,730 --> 00:42:50,167 There is no reason to bring up that reason. 625 00:42:51,366 --> 00:42:52,467 Yes. 626 00:42:52,469 --> 00:42:54,371 Is it you're an activist too? 627 00:42:56,072 --> 00:42:57,975 I share Michael's beliefs. 628 00:43:00,210 --> 00:43:03,411 But it's not his despair. I mean, I want to live. 629 00:43:03,413 --> 00:43:05,445 - I want to be a mother. - Right. 630 00:43:05,447 --> 00:43:07,482 I want to have this child. 631 00:43:07,484 --> 00:43:09,916 Do you have a family near here? 632 00:43:09,918 --> 00:43:11,985 I... Yes, my sister. He is in Buffalo. 633 00:43:11,987 --> 00:43:14,223 - You might want to call him. - I will. 634 00:43:24,400 --> 00:43:27,003 So, he... He went to the garage? 635 00:43:29,438 --> 00:43:30,473 Yes. 636 00:43:33,176 --> 00:43:34,210 What did he say? 637 00:43:36,011 --> 00:43:37,080 Nothing. 638 00:43:47,891 --> 00:43:50,291 Now, from the police point of view, 639 00:43:50,293 --> 00:43:53,795 I imagine this is a case of which is quite difficult and dry. 640 00:43:53,797 --> 00:43:56,833 Still, I might be cleaning the office, 641 00:43:57,199 --> 00:43:59,402 might get rid of the laptop. 642 00:44:04,507 --> 00:44:05,775 You... 643 00:44:31,234 --> 00:44:32,302 Open. 644 00:45:05,201 --> 00:45:07,070 I will feel it. 645 00:45:07,971 --> 00:45:09,139 What? 646 00:45:10,973 --> 00:45:12,408 He was not present. 647 00:45:15,277 --> 00:45:17,513 He became someone who I didn't know. 648 00:45:21,083 --> 00:45:23,486 Like, even before I got pregnant. 649 00:45:25,520 --> 00:45:28,225 And he's so full of anger, you know? 650 00:45:33,496 --> 00:45:37,334 I thought maybe I should call my parents. My sisters. 651 00:45:40,369 --> 00:45:43,005 They must... They should know. 652 00:45:45,308 --> 00:45:47,942 I lived while he called his sister. 653 00:45:47,944 --> 00:45:50,610 Her sister will go down. 654 00:45:50,612 --> 00:45:53,216 And her parents will come for the last rights. 655 00:45:57,520 --> 00:45:59,487 Uh, hey, Bill. Chicken or beef? 656 00:45:59,489 --> 00:46:01,355 - Uh, beef. - Beef. Okay, good. 657 00:46:01,357 --> 00:46:02,559 How are you doing? 658 00:46:03,259 --> 00:46:05,395 - Aku baik baik saja. Ya. - Kau baik-baik saja? 659 00:46:07,462 --> 00:46:09,130 Is that enough for you? 660 00:46:09,132 --> 00:46:10,334 Thank you very much, Pastor. 661 00:46:11,534 --> 00:46:13,300 Do you want chicken or beef? 662 00:46:13,302 --> 00:46:14,601 Uh, meat cow. Thank you. 663 00:46:14,603 --> 00:46:16,339 Beef? Yes. Cool. 664 00:46:17,473 --> 00:46:20,043 You're there. Be careful, it's hot. 665 00:46:21,476 --> 00:46:22,944 Priest, I want to ask you... 666 00:46:22,946 --> 00:46:24,244 - Oh, damn it! - Ow! 667 00:46:24,246 --> 00:46:27,583 Damn. I'm sorry, Joseph! I'm very sorry. 668 00:46:28,618 --> 00:46:32,052 A terrible night. Not long after I close my eyes, 669 00:46:32,054 --> 00:46:34,190 destruction comes to me. 670 00:46:36,025 --> 00:46:38,528 What's your last thought when you pull the trigger? 671 00:46:40,362 --> 00:46:42,395 "There is my head " 672 00:46:42,397 --> 00:46:46,302 Or," Jesus, watch over me? " Or not? 673 00:46:48,071 --> 00:46:50,371 I will tear < br /> these pages. 674 00:46:50,373 --> 00:46:53,273 This journal doesn't keep me calm. 675 00:46:53,275 --> 00:46:55,578 It's sorry for yourself. No more. 676 00:47:32,748 --> 00:47:34,984 I wake up at three with a shout. 677 00:47:35,685 --> 00:47:37,317 It's been five months 678 00:47:37,319 --> 00:47:39,388 since I felt the signs the first warning. 679 00:47:43,558 --> 00:47:46,529 I went to church and fell asleep on the bench. 680 00:47:53,201 --> 00:47:56,036 How easy they are talking about prayer, 681 00:47:56,038 --> 00:47:57,674 those who have never truly prayed. < / i> 682 00:48:04,346 --> 00:48:08,685 Excuse me? Oh my God! 683 00:48:10,786 --> 00:48:13,286 Well, since I made my commitment, I... 684 00:48:13,288 --> 00:48:15,424 I feel God
move in my life. 685 00:48:16,192 --> 00:48:17,724 If happiness comes in pill size, 686 00:48:17,726 --> 00:48:19,492 it will cross JC on it. 687 00:48:21,197 --> 00:48:23,300 The release size is continuous. 688 00:48:24,266 --> 00:48:26,766 I wake up feeling better. 689 00:48:26,768 --> 00:48:29,469 My relationship is better. 690 00:48:29,471 --> 00:48:31,674 And I got a raise last week. 691 00:48:32,275 --> 00:48:33,574 I found myself in prayer 692 00:48:33,576 --> 00:48:35,311 without thinking about it. 693 00:48:37,346 --> 00:48:41,181 Thank you, Jason. It's very inspiring. 694 00:48:41,183 --> 00:48:45,121 Praise Jesus. Every breath I have is prayer. 695 00:48:45,554 --> 00:48:50,391 Uh, mind? Reaction? Yes? Cynthia. 696 00:48:50,393 --> 00:48:52,795 Three months ago, my father was fired. 697 00:48:53,728 --> 00:48:55,398 He couldn't find any work. 698 00:48:55,598 --> 00:48:57,831 Nobody loved God is more than my father. 699 00:48:57,833 --> 00:49:00,669 He always testifies, he volunteers. 700 00:49:01,703 --> 00:49:03,406 Did he make a mistake? 701 00:49:05,373 --> 00:49:09,143 Um... You all know Reverend Toller 702 00:49:09,145 --> 00:49:10,380 from Reformed First. 703 00:49:11,147 --> 00:49:13,183 Hey, yes, Hi. Yes. 704 00:49:14,217 --> 00:49:17,220 Bagaimana... Bagaimana kau menjawab ini, Pendeta? 705 00:49:18,121 --> 00:49:20,855 Well, Cynthia. I'm sorry what happened to your father. 706 00:49:20,857 --> 00:49:22,655 There are many church people, 707 00:49:22,657 --> 00:49:26,126 good Christians, who see, uh, a connection 708 00:49:26,128 --> 00:49:29,762 between piety and prosperity. 709 00:49:29,764 --> 00:49:32,266 But that's not what Jesus taught. 710 00:49:32,268 --> 00:49:33,601 That's not what Jesus lived. 711 00:49:33,603 --> 00:49:35,703 There is no dollar sign on his pulpit. 712 00:49:35,705 --> 00:49:38,371 There is no American flag too. 713 00:49:38,373 --> 00:49:41,808 I think, Cynthia, what your father experienced is... 714 00:49:41,810 --> 00:49:44,411 Christians shouldn't succeed. 715 00:49:44,413 --> 00:49:47,581 That's what he meant. Christianity is for the losers? 716 00:49:47,583 --> 00:49:49,215 Jake, Jake! 717 00:49:49,217 --> 00:49:51,451 I just tired to give the other cheek. 718 00:49:51,453 --> 00:49:52,920 Jesus doesn't give the other cheek. 719 00:49:52,922 --> 00:49:54,889 Why stand up? 720 00:49:54,891 --> 00:49:57,157 Go out of school. 721 00:49:57,159 --> 00:49:59,626 Give people money that is too lazy to work for it. 722 00:49:59,628 --> 00:50:01,464 And whatever you do, don't offend Muslims. 723 00:50:02,732 --> 00:50:04,732 I mean, not for long I mention the poor, 724 00:50:04,734 --> 00:50:06,733 and this teen jumped into my throat 725 00:50:06,735 --> 00:50:09,235 like I just took the damn thing on the American flag. 726 00:50:09,237 --> 00:50:12,639 Forgive my language. Oh my God! 727 00:50:12,641 --> 00:50:14,275 Oh, Roger told me. 728 00:50:14,277 --> 00:50:16,509 He's great. He's amazing. He is a good person. 729 00:50:16,511 --> 00:50:17,777 Well, he said you stay calm, 730 00:50:17,779 --> 00:50:18,881 and he admires you for that. 731 00:50:19,915 --> 00:50:21,315 There is no middle ground with these children. 732 00:50:21,317 --> 00:50:23,516 Everything is very extreme. 733 00:50:23,518 --> 00:50:25,886 This is the time. This is a scary moment. This... 734 00:50:25,888 --> 00:50:28,221 These children, they grew up in the world 735 00:50:28,223 --> 00:50:30,257 itu, kau dan aku, kita bahkan tidak akan mengenali. 736 00:50:30,259 --> 00:50:34,228 Global warming, sea of pornography, 737 00:50:34,230 --> 00:50:37,831 violent video games. This is a world without privacy. 738 00:50:37,833 --> 00:50:41,902 Every child is isolated,
communicate in the media. 739 00:50:41,904 --> 00:50:43,770 It is a world without hope! 740 00:50:43,772 --> 00:50:45,471 You don't know how it feels raising a child in this case... 741 00:50:45,473 --> 00:50:46,842 No, I'm raising children. 742 00:50:48,643 --> 00:50:50,344 I don't mean that. 743 00:50:50,346 --> 00:50:51,447 I know you didn't do it. 744 00:50:52,714 --> 00:50:54,648 They're just scared. Son This kid, 745 00:50:54,650 --> 00:50:56,583 - They want certainty. - Mmm-hmm. 746 00:50:56,585 --> 00:50:58,554 You know, don't think, follow. 747 00:50:59,322 --> 00:51:00,357 Uh... 748 00:51:00,690 --> 00:51:02,792 But they became victims of extremism. 749 00:51:03,259 --> 00:51:07,328 Jihadism is everywhere. Even here. 750 00:51:07,330 --> 00:51:10,230 It's just that... That's not the church that calls me. 751 00:51:10,232 --> 00:51:11,665 Maupun aku. 752 00:51:11,667 --> 00:51:14,802 It's up to us. We have to listen and guide 753 00:51:14,804 --> 00:51:17,337 and encourage our young members 754 00:51:17,339 --> 00:51:19,273 to express themselves 755 00:51:19,275 --> 00:51:20,741 without judging them. 756 00:51:20,743 --> 00:51:22,311 We must lead by example. 757 00:51:22,944 --> 00:51:24,613 We must be patient. 758 00:51:35,257 --> 00:51:36,556 Oh, this sounds good. 759 00:51:36,558 --> 00:51:37,891 I have to sharpen my meat 760 00:51:37,893 --> 00:51:39,393 for Reconciliation. 761 00:51:39,395 --> 00:51:41,328 Do you know what they want to play? 762 00:51:41,330 --> 00:51:42,630 No, I don't know. 763 00:51:42,632 --> 00:51:44,264 Abundant Life handle everything. 764 00:51:44,266 --> 00:51:45,532 Invitation, seating. 765 00:51:45,534 --> 00:51:47,400 Basically, I just just introduced Joel. 766 00:51:47,402 --> 00:51:50,371 And then he did he said, introducing the Governor, 767 00:51:50,373 --> 00:51:51,471 maybe Ed Balq. 768 00:51:51,473 --> 00:51:52,609 Oh, why is he? 769 00:51:52,907 --> 00:51:54,708 This is some kind of agreement. 770 00:51:54,710 --> 00:51:56,509 I mean, he was borne entirely, 771 00:51:56,511 --> 00:51:58,478 get paid for organ repair. 772 00:51:58,480 --> 00:52:00,413 I have a question other music for you... 773 00:52:00,415 --> 00:52:01,514 Oh Take it from above. 774 00:52:14,764 --> 00:52:18,998 This is actually a kind sad business. 775 00:52:19,000 --> 00:52:21,402 - Hm? - Michael Mansana's warning. 776 00:52:21,404 --> 00:52:24,975 Scattering the ashes. He asked me to arrange it. 777 00:52:26,342 --> 00:52:27,544 He asked you? 778 00:52:28,576 --> 00:52:31,915 Well, he wrote a letter. He had several requests. 779 00:52:36,886 --> 00:52:41,422 Then the Lord spoke to Job, stepping from the storm. 780 00:52:41,424 --> 00:52:42,690 He said, "Where are you 781 00:52:42,692 --> 00:52:44,458 " When I put the foundation of the Earth, 782 00:52:44,460 --> 00:52:47,831 "Mark the dimensions, put the foundation, 783 00:52:51,032 --> 00:52:54,067 "when the morning star sings, 784 00:52:54,069 --> 00:52:58,374 " and the angels shout with joy? Where are you? " 785 00:53:01,543 --> 00:53:03,576 This environment selected by Michael 786 00:53:03,578 --> 00:53:06,380 as a repository for his physical remains. 787 00:53:06,382 --> 00:53:08,114 I say physically because of his memory 788 00:53:08,116 --> 00:53:10,583 and the spirit of living with us, 789 00:53:10,585 --> 00:53:12,753 as well as his mission. 790 00:53:12,755 --> 00:53:15,755 Michael cares about this world. 791 00:53:15,757 --> 00:53:18,491 Maybe it's too much. 792 00:53:18,493 --> 00:53:22,429 The Youth Choir Life is Abundant now will sing for us, uh, 793 00:53:22,431 --> 00:53:24,668 the song chosen by Michael . 794 00:53:36,578 --> 00:53:42,116 Protect wild children tomorrow 795 00:53:42,118 --> 00:53:47,788 Protect the land from human greed 796 00:53:47,790 --> 00:53:53,092 < i> Remove and stand for oil 797 00:53:53,094 --> 00:53:58,465 Protect plants and update the land 798 00:53:58,467 --> 00:54:03,570 Who will stand up and save the Earth? 799 00:54:03,572 --> 00:54:08,409 Who would say that he is enough? 800 00:54:08,411 --> 00:54:13,079 Who will take a large machine? 801 00:54:13,081 --> 00:54:17,683 Who will stand up and save the Earth? 802 00:54:17,685 --> 00:54:23,125 This all starts with you and me 803 00:54:25,728 --> 00:54:28,561 End fossil fuels 804 00:54:28,563 --> 00:54:30,764 Drag the line 805 00:54:30,766 --> 00:54:35,701 Before we build one more pipeline 806 00:54:35,703 --> 00:54:40,474 End fracking now let's save water 807 00:54:40,476 --> 00:54:45,478 And build lives for sons and our daughter 808 00:54:45,480 --> 00:54:50,217 Who will stand up and save the Earth? 809 00:54:50,219 --> 00:54:54,721 Who will say that he is enough? 810 00:54:54,723 --> 00:54:59,992 Who will take the big machine? 811 00:54:59,994 --> 00:55:04,598 Who will stand and save the Earth? 812 00:55:04,600 --> 00:55:09,938 It all started with you and me 813 00:55:32,161 --> 00:55:33,863 - aku baik. - Baiklah. 814 00:55:47,543 --> 00:55:49,141 - Mr. Balq! - Hey! 815 00:55:49,143 --> 00:55:50,777 - Hello! - How are you? 816 00:55:50,779 --> 00:55:53,779 - Very good! Very good. - Very good. Good. 817 00:55:53,781 --> 00:55:57,686 Hey. Sorry I'm late. I have, uh... I'm arrested. 818 00:55:58,052 --> 00:55:59,887 Oh good. You know Reverend Toller, right? 819 00:55:59,889 --> 00:56:01,255 Well, just by looking. Ed Barq. 820 00:56:01,257 --> 00:56:02,859 - Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you. 821 00:56:04,592 --> 00:56:06,125 Bring me coffee 822 00:56:06,127 --> 00:56:07,596 - And apple pie. All right? - Good. Thank you. 823 00:56:08,531 --> 00:56:10,898 Uh, apple pie. I know it's a cliché, 824 00:56:10,900 --> 00:56:14,067 but they made it here. It's organic. This is local. 825 00:56:14,069 --> 00:56:16,570 I have a surprise for you. 826 00:56:16,572 --> 00:56:21,945 I, uh... I stopped to the printer on the way. 827 00:56:24,145 --> 00:56:29,315 Oh Ooh, nice. Good. They do great work. 828 00:56:29,317 --> 00:56:30,951 Yes. All guests 829 00:56:30,953 --> 00:56:32,853 pada rekonsiliasi akan mendapatkan salinan. 830 00:56:32,855 --> 00:56:34,922 And then, uh, also there will be mail delivery. 831 00:56:34,924 --> 00:56:37,123 Dan... And of course that will be available at the bookstore. 832 00:56:37,125 --> 00:56:38,991 So how did the plan come? 833 00:56:38,993 --> 00:56:40,726 Is the organ repaired? 834 00:56:40,728 --> 00:56:42,732 Oh yeah. Sounds beautiful. Better than ever. 835 00:56:43,331 --> 00:56:48,268 Good. Um, we drew a small seating chart. 836 00:56:48,270 --> 00:56:49,835 Now, Mayor Wilson will be there, 837 00:56:49,837 --> 00:56:51,137 and the Governor. 838 00:56:51,139 --> 00:56:52,838 Well, at least he will try... 839 00:56:52,840 --> 00:56:55,175 All those mighty men of God, 840 00:56:55,177 --> 00:56:56,777 servants of the cross. 841 00:56:56,779 --> 00:56:58,712 Period of service, baptism, 842 00:56:58,714 --> 00:57:01,114 confession, funeral, sermon. 843 00:57:01,116 --> 00:57:03,083 Hours in prayer, 844 00:57:03,085 --> 00:57:07,054 the suffering suffered. Does God give them strength? 845 00:57:07,056 --> 00:57:09,690 Reverend Toller will introduce me. I will go up, 846 00:57:09,692 --> 00:57:11,224 I will introduce the Governor. 847 00:57:11,226 --> 00:57:13,092 There will be a selection of songs. Now, the main one... . 848 00:57:13,094 --> 00:57:14,930 There won't be any politics whatsoever , will it be there? 849 00:57:15,797 --> 00:57:17,966 No. No, why should it be there? 850 00:57:18,366 --> 00:57:19,967 Yes... Oh. Sorry. Is that okay? 851 00:57:19,969 --> 00:57:21,233 Here you seem. 852 00:57:21,235 --> 00:57:23,036 - Thank you. - Same. Enjoy. 853 00:57:23,038 --> 00:57:25,105 Well, I... I ask, uh, 854 00:57:25,107 --> 00:57:29,342 um, this is my concern. 855 00:57:29,344 --> 00:57:32,145 This is a print & apos from the website. 856 00:57:32,147 --> 00:57:33,980 Yes, both Reformed Life and Abundant Life First 857 00:57:33,982 --> 00:57:35,849 is named. 858 00:57:35,851 --> 00:57:39,789 That is a political event. And Neil Young's protest song ? 859 00:57:40,288 --> 00:57:41,922 I only respect the wishes of 860 00:57:41,924 --> 00:57:43,757 of the deceased and... And... The schedule. 861 00:57:43,759 --> 00:57:46,692 That's their instruction for memorial service. 862 00:57:46,694 --> 00:57:49,962 In the place of toxic waste with the press present? 863 00:57:49,964 --> 00:57:51,364 No press was invited. 864 00:57:51,366 --> 00:57:53,199 No. This is just a friend of Mensana. 865 00:57:53,201 --> 00:57:55,067 That is political action. 866 00:57:55,069 --> 00:57:57,871 You and the choir represent The Church of Abundant Life. 867 00:57:57,873 --> 00:57:59,139 And the Hanstown site, 868 00:57:59,141 --> 00:58:00,741 p> 869 00:58:00,743 --> 00:58:02,275 by the way, even is not polluted. 870 00:58:02,277 --> 00:58:03,976 It was cleaned with EPA superfunds. 871 00:58:03,978 --> 00:58:05,945 - Well, Hanstown... /> - No, no, of course not, 872 00:58:05,947 --> 00:58:07,179 but give me credit, okay? 873 00:58:07,181 --> 00:58:09,016 I'm in the energy business. 874 00:58:09,018 --> 00:58:10,951 This is my business for < 875 00:58:10,953 --> 00:58:12,918 Listen, sorry. 876 00:58:12,920 --> 00:58:14,189 Pastor Toller doesn't understand 877 00:58:15,790 --> 00:58:17,824 the implications here. 878 00:58:17,826 --> 00:58:19,728 - May I asking questions? - Yes Continue. 879 00:58:22,264 --> 00:58:25,364 Will God forgive us for what we did to his creation? 880 00:58:25,366 --> 00:58:29,001 That was what Mensana asked when I visited him. 881 00:58:29,003 --> 00:58:31,204 This... There many loose talks 882 00:58:31,206 --> 00:58:33,206 about changing the environment. 883 00:58:33,208 --> 00:58:36,275 There is scientific consensus. Ninety-seven percent... 884 00:58:36,277 --> 00:58:40,079 The man who says there isn't who always looks smarter. 885 00:58:40,081 --> 00:58:41,917 Why can't I just shut up? 886 00:58:43,252 --> 00:58:45,217 This is a problem complicated. 887 00:58:45,219 --> 00:58:48,857 Not really. I mean, who benefits? 888 00:58:49,157 --> 00:58:50,424 Cui bono? Who benefits? 889 00:58:50,426 --> 00:58:51,991 That's what I asked of myself. 890 00:58:51,993 --> 00:58:53,927 Besides the Bible call for stewardship, 891 00:58:53,929 --> 00:58:55,262 who fortunately when we land 892 00:58:55,264 --> 00:58:56,697 our own nest? What can be obtained... 893 00:58:56,699 --> 00:58:57,931 Can we agree to keep politics 894 00:58:57,933 --> 00:58:59,266 out of the reconciliation service? 895 00:58:59,268 --> 00:59:01,867 - Yes. - Yes, but this is not politics. 896 00:59:01,869 --> 00:59:03,469 I mean, what God wants is to... 897 00:59:03,471 --> 00:59:06,038 Oh, you, you, you, you... Do you know God's thoughts? 898 00:59:06,040 --> 00:59:08,007 You talked to him, personally? 899 00:59:08,009 --> 00:59:10,412 He told you His plan for Earth? 900 00:59:12,880 --> 00:59:16,152 Look, I understand, you are upset. 901 00:59:18,953 --> 00:59:21,289 I mean, you found the body, right? 902 00:59:22,324 --> 00:59:23,359 Yes. 903 00:59:24,893 --> 00:59:25,895 How? 904 00:59:32,101 --> 00:59:35,367 I should have met her. 905 00:59:35,369 --> 00:59:40,810 I should have met her. 906 00:59:41,176 --> 00:59:42,177 p> 907 00:59:44,513 --> 00:59:46,148 And he sent me an sms, and... Changes in location. 908 00:59:50,152 --> 00:59:51,920 And? 909 00:59:53,255 --> 00:59:54,257 And I went to there and he died. 910 00:59:55,190 --> 00:59:58,060 You advise him, then he shoots himself? 911 00:59:58,793 --> 00:59:59,795 Ed? 912 01:00:01,764 --> 01:00:02,765 Yes. 913 01:00:06,168 --> 01:00:09,168 Well, I think you > need to step back, Pastor, 914 01:00:09,170 --> 01:00:10,804 and look at life You yourself 915 01:00:10,806 --> 01:00:13,876 before you criticize others. Hmm? 916 01:00:34,429 --> 01:00:36,898 Mary and I climb the park trail. 917 01:00:38,467 --> 01:00:42,338 I haven't ridden a bicycle, I think, in 20 years. 918 01:00:47,509 --> 01:00:49,878 I'm afraid I'll fall. 919 01:00:55,484 --> 01:00:59,388 It's amazing the strength of is simple curative from practice. 920 01:01:04,960 --> 01:01:06,262 < i> That is God's gift. 921 01:01:14,268 --> 01:01:16,469 Thank you again. 922 01:01:16,471 --> 01:01:18,572 Michael and I are ordinary cycling twice a week, 923 01:01:18,574 --> 01:01:20,172 and I miss him so much. 924 01:01:20,174 --> 01:01:23,409 No, I enjoyed it. It's been a long time. 925 01:01:23,411 --> 01:01:25,514 But it's under protest. 926 01:01:26,547 --> 01:01:29,185 -I... I asked my doctor. - Really? Still. 927 01:01:30,918 --> 01:01:32,585 Um, can I ask for help again? 928 01:01:32,587 --> 01:01:34,020 Sure. 929 01:01:34,022 --> 01:01:35,989 Can you pack Michael's stuff? 930 01:01:35,991 --> 01:01:37,460 Or looking for someone to do it? 931 01:01:39,460 --> 01:01:42,094 Are you sure you want to give it so fast? 932 01:01:42,096 --> 01:01:43,896 No, like... don't give it, 933 01:01:43,898 --> 01:01:45,866 You know. Just pack it up. 934 01:01:45,868 --> 01:01:48,567 It's just... You know, I feel... 935 01:01:48,569 --> 01:01:50,203 ... it's hard to be around 936 01:01:50,205 --> 01:01:53,005 so many scents and memories. 937 01:01:53,007 --> 01:01:54,306 You know? 938 01:01:54,308 --> 01:01:55,909 Yes I can... I can do that. 939 01:01:55,911 --> 01:01:57,177 Good. 940 01:01:57,179 --> 01:01:58,578 Have you decide what is the next ? 941 01:01:58,580 --> 01:02:01,081 Um, the rent is paid for two months, 942 01:02:01,083 --> 01:02:02,349 so there's no need to rush. 943 01:02:02,351 --> 01:02:03,884 But, um, I will stay here 944 01:02:03,886 --> 01:02:05,217 with my sister and brother-in-law. 945 01:02:05,219 --> 01:02:07,253 - Hmm. Is that so? - Until the baby is born. 946 01:02:07,255 --> 01:02:08,989 So you will move there? 947 01:02:08,991 --> 01:02:12,829 Yes. I think so. He contacted an obstetrician. 948 01:02:14,596 --> 01:02:16,232 Do we speak pink or blue? 949 01:02:17,165 --> 01:02:18,331 - Blue! - Blue. 950 01:02:18,333 --> 01:02:19,565 Blue! 951 01:02:19,567 --> 01:02:20,900 - Ah! Congratulations. - Thank you. 952 01:02:20,902 --> 01:02:21,870 - That's amazing. - Yes 953 01:02:23,471 --> 01:02:26,005 Oh, hey, uh... I have questions for you, 954 01:02:26,007 --> 01:02:28,844 if, uh... Otherwise is too painful. 955 01:02:31,612 --> 01:02:33,980 Do you think he is, uh... 956 01:02:33,982 --> 01:02:35,985 He is right- right will hurt someone? 957 01:02:39,987 --> 01:02:46,395 Um, he has become part of some nonviolent protests. 958 01:02:47,429 --> 01:02:51,364 We both have. He is imprisoned. 959 01:02:51,366 --> 01:02:54,601 He has a temper. I mean, he will start shouting at the police, 960 01:02:54,603 --> 01:02:57,369 but no, I don't think of him... 961 01:02:57,371 --> 01:02:59,442 No. I don't think he's rude. 962 01:03:02,344 --> 01:03:04,112 I just, um... 963 01:03:05,047 --> 01:03:07,614 I can't help but keep wondering 964 01:03:07,616 --> 01:03:10,052 what I should do differently. 965 01:03:13,121 --> 01:03:15,258 He doesn't want to live. 966 01:03:19,161 --> 01:03:21,931 He's not a person who is religious, you know. 967 01:03:23,632 --> 01:03:26,333 He doesn't care about the church. That's me 968 01:03:26,335 --> 01:03:28,335 I'm the one who asked him to come. 969 01:03:28,337 --> 01:03:29,668 I grew up in church 970 01:03:29,670 --> 01:03:33,105 and I have never been able to let it go. 971 01:03:33,107 --> 01:03:34,708 I'll be in a strange city, 972 01:03:34,710 --> 01:03:36,241 and I'll go 973 01:03:36,243 --> 01:03:37,309 to the church and sit , ok? 974 01:03:37,311 --> 01:03:39,949 I'm the spiritual one. 975 01:03:44,752 --> 01:03:46,453 Thank you. 976 01:03:46,455 --> 01:03:49,456 Yes. I will, uh... I will go take a few boxes. 977 01:03:49,458 --> 01:03:51,224 Aku akan kembali untuk membeli pakaian. 978 01:03:51,226 --> 01:03:52,561 Good. 979 01:03:55,297 --> 01:03:57,532 Uh, Pastor? Um, 980 01:04:00,235 --> 01:04:03,406 would you pray with me? 981 01:04:05,306 --> 01:04:07,674 I just... I find it hard to do it myself. 982 01:04:07,676 --> 01:04:11,346 Don't talk... 983 01:04:12,214 --> 01:04:14,179 Are you uncomfortable with me asking that? 984 01:04:14,181 --> 01:04:15,681 No no no no. Of course not. Yes. 985 01:04:15,683 --> 01:04:16,718 Good. 986 01:04:21,288 --> 01:04:23,158 Dear Heavenly Father, 987 01:04:24,493 --> 01:04:27,559 we invite you to this room, into our hearts... 988 01:04:27,561 --> 01:04:31,530 I hold his hand, I speak, 989 01:04:31,532 --> 01:04:34,199 and those words come out of my mouth. 990 01:04:34,201 --> 01:04:36,369 "With your words, you will be justified, 991 01:04:36,371 --> 01:04:38,574 " and with your words, you will be punished. " 992 01:05:42,737 --> 01:05:45,838 I can no longer ignore my health. 993 01:05:45,840 --> 01:05:48,743 I have postponed my examination continuously. 994 01:05:49,777 --> 01:05:52,348 Yesterday I almost couldn't stand. 995 01:06:50,538 --> 01:06:53,641 No, I haven't lost my faith. 996 01:08:12,953 --> 01:08:16,322 " And the rich man says I will lower my barns, 997 01:08:16,324 --> 01:08:19,292 "and wake up bigger..." 998 01:08:19,294 --> 01:08:21,394 "And I will say to my soul, 999 01:08:21,396 --> 01:08:25,465 > 1000 01:08:25,467 --> 01:08:27,000 "Take your ease, eat, drink, and be happy. 1001 01:08:27,002 --> 01:08:28,835 " But God said to his students, 1002 01:08:28,837 --> 01:08:30,371 "Don't think about your life , 1003 01:08:32,874 --> 01:08:38,443 "what will you eat..." 1004 01:08:38,445 --> 01:08:41,948 "Not for the body, what will you use. 1005 01:08:41,950 --> 01:08:45,585 " Life is more from meat, 1006 01:08:45,587 --> 01:08:48,590 "And the body is more than just clothes." 1007 01:08:48,956 --> 01:08:50,491 Thus ending the reading of God. Praise God. 1008 01:08:50,758 --> 01:08:53,228 When did he come back? 1009 01:08:53,695 --> 01:08:55,560 So he goes to Albany for the examination? 1010 01:08:55,562 --> 01:08:57,596 I ask him, buy him don't give me details. 1011 01:08:57,598 --> 01:08:59,267 Uh, you know how he . 1012 01:09:00,502 --> 01:09:01,801 Maybe I can check it out. 1013 01:09:01,803 --> 01:09:02,838 Esther. 1014 01:09:03,038 --> 01:09:04,369 It's just... 1015 01:09:04,371 --> 01:09:07,008 I know. I know. 1016 01:09:10,477 --> 01:09:13,281 - Good. OK. Bye - See you later. 1017 01:09:25,826 --> 01:09:28,661 We want to do gastroscopic exam. 1018 01:09:28,663 --> 01:09:31,997 We drop the fiber optic camera to the throat and esophagus, 1019 01:09:31,999 --> 01:09:33,733 and look around. 1020 01:09:33,735 --> 01:09:35,400 This is a nursing procedure the way, local anesthesia. 1021 01:09:35,402 --> 01:09:36,969 You should be able to leave before evening. 1022 01:09:36,971 --> 01:09:38,871 Still, it's not... It doesn't sound very good. 1023 01:09:38,873 --> 01:09:41,808 We want to check evidence of malignancy. 1024 01:09:41,810 --> 01:09:42,945 Cancer. 1025 01:09:44,445 --> 01:09:46,714 Cancer is not that frightening medical enemy. 1026 01:09:47,115 --> 01:09:48,417 Mmm-hmm. 1027 01:09:50,884 --> 01:09:53,321 What is... Treatment for that? 1028 01:09:54,455 --> 01:09:57,493 It depends on how far the tumor progresses. 1029 01:09:58,026 --> 01:09:59,658 But... 1030 01:09:59,660 --> 01:10:01,730 You stated that you had experienced discomfort. 1031 01:10:01,963 --> 01:10:04,529 Uh huh. Yes. 1032 01:10:04,531 --> 01:10:06,599 Six months? 1033 01:10:06,601 --> 01:10:10,769 Well, diet, medicine, chemotherapy, even surgery. 1034 01:10:10,771 --> 01:10:13,439 We have various diagnostic tool. 1035 01:10:13,441 --> 01:10:15,444 Do you have bloody stools? 1036 01:10:20,080 --> 01:10:21,549 Just now? 1037 01:10:23,985 --> 01:10:25,952 Good. I want to schedule 1038 01:10:25,954 --> 01:10:27,720 gastroscopy as soon as possible. 1039 01:10:27,722 --> 01:10:31,493 We have an empty week for the next. 1040 01:10:32,093 --> 01:10:33,062 Good. 1041 01:10:33,628 --> 01:10:34,630 What your diet? 1042 01:10:35,029 --> 01:10:38,631 My diet? Um, I'm hungry, I eat. 1043 01:10:38,633 --> 01:10:40,032 - You smoke? - No. 1044 01:10:40,034 --> 01:10:41,070 Drink? 1045 01:10:42,504 --> 01:10:44,436 Mmm, in moderation. 1046 01:10:44,438 --> 01:10:45,971 That must end. 1047 01:10:45,973 --> 01:10:47,407 I will call a recipe to help 1048 01:10:47,409 --> 01:10:48,841 - With a stomach ache. - Huh. 1049 01:10:48,843 --> 01:10:50,946 And I want you to take nutritional supplements . 1050 01:10:51,579 --> 01:10:52,681 Good. 1051 01:10:53,714 --> 01:10:54,949 Are you in pain now? 1052 01:10:56,183 --> 01:10:57,686 No. I feel good. 1053 01:10:59,654 --> 01:11:03,622 We tend to think that anxiety and worry 1054 01:11:03,624 --> 01:11:07,662 is only an indication of how wise we are , < / i> 1055 01:11:08,695 --> 01:11:10,061 but that is a much better indication of 1056 01:11:10,063 --> 01:11:12,631 how evil we are. 1057 01:11:12,633 --> 01:11:16,568 Fretting arises from our determination 1058 01:11:16,570 --> 01:11:18,970 to have our own way. 1059 01:11:18,972 --> 01:11:23,444 Our Lord never worry and never worry. 1060 01:11:24,012 --> 01:11:25,711 I'll be back in a minute. 1061 01:11:25,713 --> 01:11:28,180 Because His goal is to achieve it 1062 01:11:28,182 --> 01:11:30,485 not the plan itself... 1063 01:11:35,056 --> 01:11:36,058 Reverend? 1064 01:11:36,490 --> 01:11:37,723 Hi Esther. 1065 01:11:37,725 --> 01:11:39,125 I... I don't know you will come. 1066 01:11:39,127 --> 01:11:41,027 Well, Joel's office called. 1067 01:11:41,029 --> 01:11:42,694 They want to talk to me about the Reconciliation program. 1068 01:11:42,696 --> 01:11:44,463 Do... Do they talk to you? 1069 01:11:44,465 --> 01:11:46,732 Eh, I will be in First Reformed . And Stanley will be 1070 01:11:46,734 --> 01:11:48,634 with a full choir in here for simulcast broadcasts. 1071 01:11:48,636 --> 01:11:50,002 Mmm-hmm. Good. 1072 01:11:50,004 --> 01:11:51,136 Acoustics will be very beautiful. I mean... 1073 01:11:51,138 --> 01:11:52,805 Stop. 1074 01:11:52,807 --> 01:11:55,574 Very beautiful. Did you hear from Albany ? 1075 01:11:55,576 --> 01:11:56,641 Yes. I did it. 1076 01:11:56,643 --> 01:11:57,743 What did they say? 1077 01:11:57,745 --> 01:11:59,077 Nothing. Just a few more tests. 1078 01:11:59,079 --> 01:12:00,581 Gastroscopy. 1079 01:12:02,484 --> 01:12:03,819 And do you know this? 1080 01:12:04,819 --> 01:12:06,152 I contacted. 1081 01:12:06,154 --> 01:12:08,790 - Aku mengkhawatirkanmu. - Tinggalkan aku sendiri. 1082 01:12:10,491 --> 01:12:12,958 - I just want to try... - I know what you want! 1083 01:12:12,960 --> 01:12:15,161 All right? And I can't stand with your worries, 1084 01:12:15,163 --> 01:12:17,229 you are constantly floating. You need it. 1085 01:12:17,231 --> 01:12:19,799 you, you are constant reminders 1086 01:12:19,801 --> 01:12:22,868 p> 1087 01:12:22,870 --> 01:12:26,775 my own personal shortcomings and failures. 1088 01:12:27,241 --> 01:12:28,608 You want something that never existed and will never exist. 1089 01:12:28,610 --> 01:12:30,141 Don't make me doing this , because of me... 1090 01:12:30,143 --> 01:12:31,777 Esther. Esther. Esther. 1091 01:12:31,779 --> 01:12:33,714 Pull yourself together. OK? Look at you. 1092 01:12:34,682 --> 01:12:36,218 You don't take care of yourself . 1093 01:12:37,051 --> 01:12:40,219 I hate you. 1094 01:12:40,221 --> 01:12:42,721 I hate what you bring in myself. 1095 01:12:42,723 --> 01:12:44,860 Your concerns are small. 1096 01:12:58,106 --> 01:13:00,238 You are a stumbling block. 1097 01:13:00,240 --> 01:13:03,009 I suddenly felt much better. 1098 01:13:03,011 --> 01:13:05,681 and immediately set about my day assignments. 1099 01:16:24,478 --> 01:16:26,345 "The nations went berserk..." 1100 01:16:28,249 --> 01:16:30,018 "But your anger comes, 1101 01:16:31,084 --> 01:16:33,721 " and the time for people dies to be judged, 1102 01:16:36,324 --> 01:16:38,090 "and to reward your servant, 1103 01:16:38,092 --> 01:16:39,728 " and the prophet and saint, 1104 01:16:40,460 --> 01:16:42,731 "and for those who fear of your name, 1105 01:16:43,130 --> 01:16:45,032 "small and great, 1106 01:16:47,168 --> 01:16:50,304 " and to destroy destroyers of the Earth. "< / i> 1107 01:16:54,441 --> 01:16:57,044 Revelation 11:18. 1108 01:17:21,968 --> 01:17:24,068 I have deleted the previous page. 1109 01:17:24,070 --> 01:17:25,940 They are written in delirium. 1110 01:17:26,973 --> 01:17:29,143 But I am determined to continue. 1111 01:17:31,145 --> 01:17:33,915 Difficult fighting against suspended animation. 1112 01:17:34,848 --> 01:17:36,485 I have to set pen to paper. 1113 01:17:59,339 --> 01:18:00,342 Dirt. 1114 01:18:15,356 --> 01:18:17,922 - Oh, hey Mary. - Hi. Can I enter? 1115 01:18:17,924 --> 01:18:19,558 Yes, of course. Come on in. Come on, come on. 1116 01:18:19,560 --> 01:18:21,894 Come on, come in. Do you need anything? 1117 01:18:21,896 --> 01:18:24,063 Um, do you want... Um, can I take your coat? 1118 01:18:24,065 --> 01:18:26,468 - Yes - Hey, are you okay? 1119 01:18:27,101 --> 01:18:29,301 - Um... - Let me get this. 1120 01:18:29,303 --> 01:18:31,306 Uh, no. 1121 01:18:34,875 --> 01:18:37,176 I'm just, I'm really scared. 1122 01:18:37,178 --> 01:18:39,214 I'm like me afraid of everything. 1123 01:18:40,414 --> 01:18:43,882 Uh, I woke up and my heart was racing 1124 01:18:43,884 --> 01:18:45,917 and I... I thought, like, the roof, 1125 01:18:45,919 --> 01:18:48,220 sky- sky, will fall. 1126 01:18:48,222 --> 01:18:51,155 Um, so I... I have to go out. 1127 01:18:51,157 --> 01:18:52,424 Yes. Mary? 1128 01:18:52,426 --> 01:18:54,359 And I just went around, and... And I... 1129 01:18:54,361 --> 01:18:56,961 I don't wear make-up. Sorry. 1130 01:18:56,963 --> 01:19:00,131 I'm glad you came. Do you want to, uh... 1131 01:19:00,133 --> 01:19:01,567 Water, tea... 1132 01:19:01,569 --> 01:19:03,271 Without warning, 1133 01:19:04,972 --> 01:19:07,008 this dark curtain just falls. 1134 01:19:07,642 --> 01:19:10,542 I... I'm afraid of everything. 1135 01:19:10,544 --> 01:19:12,344 Well, you're doing the right thing coming here. 1136 01:19:12,346 --> 01:19:13,979 I can't stop my mind. 1137 01:19:13,981 --> 01:19:15,948 They keep going and going. 1138 01:19:15,950 --> 01:19:17,586 They repeat and repeat. 1139 01:19:18,386 --> 01:19:20,955 Has this ever happened before Michael's death? 1140 01:19:22,123 --> 01:19:26,194 Slightly. Yes. It's not like this. 1141 01:19:27,328 --> 01:19:29,994 I read it online, um, they used to believe 1142 01:19:29,996 --> 01:19:32,297 that pregnancy made you happy, but now they feel like that 1143 01:19:32,299 --> 01:19:34,502 it only makes your feelings more extreme. 1144 01:19:38,172 --> 01:19:39,473 Michael... 1145 01:19:41,441 --> 01:19:43,477 He is really strong. 1146 01:19:44,078 --> 01:19:45,280 What about it? 1147 01:19:48,415 --> 01:19:51,085 Um, he listens. He is kind. 1148 01:19:53,486 --> 01:19:55,186 We used to do this 1149 01:19:55,188 --> 01:19:56,892 called the Magical Mystery Tour. 1150 01:19:57,691 --> 01:20:00,361 That sounds ridiculous. But, um... 1151 01:20:01,294 --> 01:20:03,297 We will, uh, share the joints 1152 01:20:04,130 --> 01:20:06,901 and lie above one with each other fully clothed. 1153 01:20:08,436 --> 01:20:10,101 We will try to get that much 1154 01:20:10,103 --> 01:20:11,606 possible body-to-body contact. 1155 01:20:12,373 --> 01:20:14,342 We will have our hands and... 1156 01:20:15,241 --> 01:20:17,913 We will only see directly into the eyes of each 1157 01:20:18,512 --> 01:20:20,479 and move it in unison, 1158 01:20:20,481 --> 01:20:22,613 like right, left, right, left. 1159 01:20:22,615 --> 01:20:25,453 And then we will breathe in rhythm. 1160 01:20:32,325 --> 01:20:33,627 Do you want me to do this? 1161 01:20:36,329 --> 01:20:39,033 No, I don't mean that. 1162 01:20:40,468 --> 01:20:41,699 All right. 1163 01:20:41,701 --> 01:20:43,605 I mean... I... 1164 01:20:45,505 --> 01:20:47,739 Yes. I mean, yes. I think... I... 1165 01:20:47,741 --> 01:20:49,244 Yes. I guess I did it. 1166 01:20:50,076 --> 01:20:53,414 Good. Uh, show me. 1167 01:20:53,780 --> 01:20:57,382 Well, you're lying on your back, 1168 01:20:57,384 --> 01:20:59,420 and with your hands and your legs stretched out. 1169 01:21:00,187 --> 01:21:01,323 Do we need music? 1170 01:21:02,088 --> 01:21:03,958 Do we need music? p> 1171 01:21:05,125 --> 01:21:07,661 No, we only listen to the breath. 1172 01:21:08,629 --> 01:21:11,266 Just lie down? 1173 01:25:25,718 --> 01:25:26,551 Yes. And then, yes. 1174 01:25:26,553 --> 01:25:27,288 Come on let's go! Come on let's go! 1175 01:25:30,523 --> 01:25:31,325 Come on, Benny. 1176 01:25:32,360 --> 01:25:33,995 Hi friends. Let's sit 1177 01:25:38,865 --> 01:25:40,000 on the first bench here.
All the way down. 1178 01:25:41,567 --> 01:25:43,404 All right. Good work, guys. 1179 01:25:43,637 --> 01:25:45,304 Okay, so last week, we read The Patchwork Path 1180 01:25:45,306 --> 01:25:48,739 about Underground Railroad, 1181 01:25:48,741 --> 01:25:50,509 who is not a train, but... Rosa? 1182 01:25:50,511 --> 01:25:53,478 That is a trail of slaves. 1183 01:25:53,480 --> 01:25:55,713 That is the escape route from South to North. 1184 01:25:55,715 --> 01:25:58,582 is one of stops on that route. Reverend Toller? 1185 01:25:58,584 --> 01:26:01,819 Yes. Slaves, uh, running away themselves north to Canada 1186 01:26:01,821 --> 01:26:05,724 often helped, fed, hidden by homes and churches 1187 01:26:05,726 --> 01:26:07,958 along this route.
Calvin Verlander 1188 01:26:07,960 --> 01:26:10,695 is dominee, the minister in is here in First Reformed. 1189 01:26:10,697 --> 01:26:12,997 And he is very active in the Abolitionist Movement. 1190 01:26:12,999 --> 01:26:15,000 He helped... 1191 01:26:15,002 --> 01:26:16,803 No. Miss Suriya, let me try this. 1192 01:26:17,070 --> 01:26:18,869 Uh, why aren't you standing for a while? 1193 01:26:18,871 --> 01:26:19,938 Look here. 1194 01:26:19,940 --> 01:26:21,739 You see one part wood that looks different 1195 01:26:21,741 --> 01:26:22,944 than other parts of wood? 1196 01:26:23,544 --> 01:26:23,978 Yes! 1197 01:26:24,844 --> 01:26:25,512 You all saw it, didn't you? 1198 01:26:26,280 --> 01:26:26,914 > 1199 01:26:27,813 --> 01:26:29,514 But does this look a little 1200 01:26:29,516 --> 01:26:30,881 - Yes, what's your name? - Benny. 1201 01:26:30,883 --> 01:26:32,516 Benny, will you help me? 1202 01:26:32,518 --> 01:26:33,952 - Come here. - Mmm-hmm. 1203 01:26:33,954 --> 01:26:35,987 You see, there used to be the bench above this. 1204 01:26:35,989 --> 01:26:38,357 And they will move it, and then they will lift this. 1205 01:26:38,359 --> 01:26:39,960 Can do you do it? Help me. 1206 01:26:40,994 --> 01:26:43,127 Yes! Oh! 1207 01:26:43,129 --> 01:26:44,598 Come here to everyone. 1208 01:26:45,432 --> 01:26:47,733 Slaves will hide here. Sometimes the whole family. 1209 01:26:47,735 --> 01:26:49,504 Be careful. All right. 1210 01:26:49,937 --> 01:26:51,606 Can you imagine that? 1211 01:26:52,106 --> 01:26:55,543 In the dark. Hot air, 1212 01:26:56,442 --> 01:26:57,477 trembling in fear. 1213 01:26:58,712 --> 01:26:59,946 The sound of the horse hunting slaves outside. 1214 01:27:00,813 --> 01:27:02,980 Kneeling, each other holding hands, 1215 01:27:02,982 --> 01:27:04,752 p> 1216 01:27:10,790 --> 01:27:12,090 pray that God will save them? 1217 01:27:12,092 --> 01:27:13,591 Do you want me to pack any 1218 01:27:13,593 --> 01:27:15,962 No, I can get it later. Thank you. 1219 01:27:19,932 --> 01:27:22,069 I'd love to meet with your sister sometime. 1220 01:27:24,004 --> 01:27:26,003 - You want to come to Buffalo? - If I'm invited. I really want to. 1221 01:27:26,005 --> 01:27:28,105 - Will you visit me? - I'll, yes. 1222 01:27:28,107 --> 01:27:30,078 I want to meet Michael Jr. 1223 01:27:30,977 --> 01:27:32,879 You have helped me. 1224 01:27:33,746 --> 01:27:35,479 My great-grandfather 1225 01:27:35,481 --> 01:27:37,482 was a priest in Muskegon, Michigan. 1226 01:27:37,484 --> 01:27:39,083 The Saint of God. 1227 01:27:39,085 --> 01:27:41,752 And, uh, the bank in the city is a two-story building, 1228 01:27:41,754 --> 01:27:43,123 the first building which has an elevator. 1229 01:27:43,856 --> 01:27:45,125 And one Monday, 1230 01:27:46,160 --> 01:27:48,793 Grandpa, uh, get boys together 1231 01:27:48,795 --> 01:27:51,128 and they go to the city to deposit church funds, 1232 01:27:51,130 --> 01:27:53,030 as they do every Monday. 1233 01:27:53,032 --> 01:27:54,966 And they need to talk with the managers. 1234 01:27:54,968 --> 01:27:56,501 They ride the elevator. 1235 01:27:56,503 --> 01:27:57,905 And he has a heart attack. 1236 01:27:59,205 --> 01:28:01,773 And he... He takes off his hat. 1237 01:28:01,775 --> 01:28:03,041 Apparently he always wears a hat. 1238 01:28:03,043 --> 01:28:04,943 And he took off his hat and he said, 1239 01:28:04,945 --> 01:28:07,715 "Children, release my shoes. 1240 01:28:07,981 --> 01:28:09,951 " I stand in the Holy Land. " 1241 01:28:10,984 --> 01:28:11,951 p> 1242 01:28:13,719 --> 01:28:16,022 And then he died. 1243 01:28:18,558 --> 01:28:21,995 Somewhere between the first and second floors. 1244 01:28:24,498 --> 01:28:25,930 Um, I thought about the story when I thought about Michael. 1245 01:28:25,932 --> 01:28:27,801 Because I believe he stood 1246 01:28:39,679 --> 01:28:40,847 in the Holy Land when he died. 1247 01:28:42,115 --> 01:28:43,951 Thank you. 1248 01:28:44,517 --> 01:28:47,120 So I will see you in Buffalo? 1249 01:28:48,187 --> 01:28:50,590 I think I'll go to, uh, Reconciliation. 1250 01:28:50,958 --> 01:28:53,161 Oh no you... You don't need to do that. 1251 01:28:53,560 --> 01:28:54,993 Yes, but you have there for me, 1252 01:28:54,995 --> 01:28:56,494 and I want to be there for you. 1253 01:28:56,496 --> 01:28:58,128 It's great for you offer, 1254 01:28:58,130 --> 01:29:00,064 um, but it's only a group of rich people 1255 01:29:00,066 --> 01:29:01,867 pat each other behind. 1256 01:29:01,869 --> 01:29:03,502 - But you will it's there. - But I have to be there. 1257 01:29:03,504 --> 01:29:05,740 - So I'll leave. - Please don't come. 1258 01:29:06,606 --> 01:29:09,709 Good? I don't want you to come. Do you understand? 1259 01:29:12,111 --> 01:29:13,181 Good. 1260 01:29:15,648 --> 01:29:17,752 Good. Enjoy a beautiful night. 1261 01:29:46,245 --> 01:29:49,249 "Be strong in the Lord and in His great power. 1262 01:29:50,651 --> 01:29:53,721 " Put on armor full of God, 1263 01:29:54,021 --> 01:29:56,020 "So that you can take your attitude 1264 01:29:56,022 --> 01:29:57,924 " Against the devil's plan. 1265 01:29:58,725 --> 01:30:01,728 "Because our struggle is not against flesh and blood, 1266 01:30:03,730 --> 01:30:05,199 "But against the rulers, 1267 01:30:05,898 --> 01:30:07,802 " against the authorities, 1268 01:30:08,602 --> 01:30:11,839 "against the forces of the world < br /> this dark one. " 1269 01:30:50,677 --> 01:30:52,277 Balq Home Products, 1270 01:30:52,279 --> 01:30:55,850 makers of paper goods, fertilizer, 1271 01:30:56,850 --> 01:30:59,783 everyday items
for households, 1272 01:30:59,785 --> 01:31:02,220 is one of the first companies 1273 01:31:02,222 --> 01:31:07,061 to realize the need to resolve environmental issues. 1274 01:31:07,393 --> 01:31:10,030 Sir? Did you join us? 1275 01:31:10,998 --> 01:31:15,966 This unit makes plastic pens recyclable. 1276 01:31:15,968 --> 01:31:20,270 Balq has facilities or production settings 1277 01:31:20,272 --> 01:31:24,110 with 18 countries all over the world. 1278 01:31:31,151 --> 01:31:34,255 Today, I stopped. I have Miso and fish. 1279 01:31:38,659 --> 01:31:40,594 < i> Such simple pleasures. 1280 01:31:43,362 --> 01:31:45,231 Why do we deny ourselves? 1281 01:32:39,820 --> 01:32:43,857 Every preservation action is an act of creation. 1282 01:32:44,223 --> 01:32:46,860 Everything that is preserved updates the creation. 1283 01:32:47,960 --> 01:32:50,097 This is how we participate in creation. 1284 01:33:39,913 --> 01:33:42,183 I have found another form of prayer. 1285 01:34:02,268 --> 01:34:05,438 Reverend Toller. Come in. Close the door. 1286 01:34:06,539 --> 01:34:08,908 Why aren't you sitting? 1287 01:34:12,212 --> 01:34:13,848 We are concerned about you. 1288 01:34:14,880 --> 01:34:15,950 Who is it? 1289 01:34:16,215 --> 01:34:17,485 How your health? 1290 01:34:19,518 --> 01:34:21,387 I'm doing some tests. 1291 01:34:22,088 --> 01:34:24,221 Hmm? Have you got any results? 1292 01:34:24,223 --> 01:34:25,258 No no. 1293 01:34:26,258 --> 01:34:28,158 What about your diet? 1294 01:34:28,160 --> 01:34:30,297 You know, I will be honest, you don't look that way well. 1295 01:34:31,597 --> 01:34:35,502 I have some... Some stomach problems. 1296 01:34:37,469 --> 01:34:39,507 And I understand you have drunk. 1297 01:34:41,173 --> 01:34:46,277 Hm. What? It's just a little wine with dinner. 1298 01:34:46,279 --> 01:34:47,947 - Wine? - Yes Yes. 1299 01:34:49,249 --> 01:34:52,884 Well, that's not recommended 1300 01:34:52,886 --> 01:34:54,985 for someone who has stomach problems. 1301 01:34:54,987 --> 01:34:56,453 I understand, okay? 1302 01:34:56,455 --> 01:34:58,191 I'll... I'll start taking care of myself. 1303 01:34:59,124 --> 01:35:01,559 You're always in the garden. 1304 01:35:01,561 --> 01:35:05,128 Even Jesus doesn't always in the garden, 1305 01:35:05,130 --> 01:35:07,101 kneels, sweats blood. 1306 01:35:07,467 --> 01:35:09,136 He is on the mountain. 1307 01:35:09,369 --> 01:35:12,839 He's in the market. He's in the temple. 1308 01:35:13,138 --> 01:35:16,109 But you, you're always in the garden. 1309 01:35:16,343 --> 01:35:19,513 For you every hour is Dark Hour. 1310 01:35:20,112 --> 01:35:22,816 I am not aware that I have been offended. 1311 01:35:23,583 --> 01:35:25,449 Jesus did not want our suffering. 1312 01:35:25,451 --> 01:35:27,353 - He suffered for us. - Mmm-mmm. 1313 01:35:27,620 --> 01:35:31,154 He wants commitment and our obedience. 1314 01:35:31,156 --> 01:35:33,091 And what is His creation? 1315 01:35:33,093 --> 01:35:35,092 Heaven declares God's glory. 1316 01:35:35,094 --> 01:35:37,028 God is everywhere, 1317 01:35:37,030 --> 01:35:40,665 in every plant, every river, every small insect. 1318 01:35:40,667 --> 01:35:42,199 The whole world is a manifestation 1319 01:35:42,201 --> 01:35:44,601 of His Holy presence. 1320 01:35:44,603 --> 01:35:46,270 I think this is a problem 1321 01:35:46,272 --> 01:35:48,273 where... Where the church can lead. 1322 01:35:48,275 --> 01:35:50,241 But... But they don't say anything. 1323 01:35:50,243 --> 01:35:51,579 That... 1324 01:35:52,579 --> 01:35:55,349 The US Congress is still denying climate change? 1325 01:35:56,615 --> 01:35:59,185 Where are we when these people are elected? 1326 01:35:59,919 --> 01:36:01,286 The, the, the... 1327 01:36:01,288 --> 01:36:03,387 We know who speaks for big businesses. Right? 1328 01:36:03,389 --> 01:36:05,226 But who speaks for God? 1329 01:36:07,593 --> 01:36:11,028 "Creation awaits hopefully 1330 01:36:11,030 --> 01:36:13,299 " liberation from slavery. " > 1331 01:36:15,200 --> 01:36:18,004 That is Romans 8:23. Do you understand? 1332 01:36:19,239 --> 01:36:22,206 So, we have to pollute so God can restore? 1333 01:36:22,208 --> 01:36:25,009 We must sin so God forgives? 1334 01:36:25,011 --> 01:36:27,311 I don't think that is what the Apostle meant. 1335 01:36:27,313 --> 01:36:28,979 I think we should see 1336 01:36:28,981 --> 01:36:31,582 with the eyes of Jesus to every life... 1337 01:36:31,584 --> 01:36:33,650 You do not live in the real world. 1338 01:36:33,652 --> 01:36:36,520 You don't. You, you are a minister 1339 01:36:36,522 --> 01:36:38,389 in a tourist church that no one is present. 1340 01:36:38,391 --> 01:36:41,693 Do you know what is needed to do God's work? 1341 01:36:41,695 --> 01:36:42,897 I tried... 1342 01:36:43,830 --> 01:36:46,096 To, maintain this big mission? 1343 01:36:46,098 --> 01:36:48,666 Staff , translation, 1344 01:36:48,668 --> 01:36:51,105 the number of people we touch every day. 1345 01:36:51,370 --> 01:36:54,307 Who is the pastor that you really like? 1346 01:36:55,307 --> 01:36:57,274 - Thomas Merton ? - Thomas Merton. He is not alive 1347 01:36:57,276 --> 01:36:59,010 - in the real world too! - Yeah, he did it! He will... 1348 01:36:59,012 --> 01:37:01,011 No. He was a living monk 1349 01:37:01,013 --> 01:37:03,348 in a monastery in Kentucky and wrote a book! 1350 01:37:03,350 --> 01:37:05,582 Well, someone must do something! 1351 01:37:05,584 --> 01:37:07,652 Earth that is dependent on balance. 1352 01:37:07,654 --> 01:37:11,088 Now what if this is the plan? What if we can't see it? 1353 01:37:11,090 --> 01:37:13,457 You think God wants to
destroy his creation? 1354 01:37:13,459 --> 01:37:15,261 He once did it. 1355 01:37:15,628 --> 01:37:18,132 For 40 days and 40 nights. 1356 01:37:25,605 --> 01:37:29,573 Look, Life Abundant, we are with you. 1357 01:37:29,575 --> 01:37:31,775 p> 1358 01:37:31,777 --> 01:37:35,449 Good? We care. 1359 01:37:36,182 --> 01:37:38,319 We do. And I know, this is a hard time for you. 1360 01:37:39,185 --> 01:37:41,752 But we will help you with that. 1361 01:37:41,754 --> 01:37:43,958 After we go through reconciliation services, 1362 01:37:44,356 --> 01:37:47,327 You have to go check out yourself to a medical institution. 1363 01:37:48,194 --> 01:37:50,627 Alright? Maybe go to Nicaragua 1364 01:37:50,629 --> 01:37:53,264 and preach the gospel or build a house . 1365 01:37:53,266 --> 01:37:56,003 But do something in the real world. 1366 01:37:56,201 --> 01:37:58,135 And if you can't do the ceremony, 1367 01:37:58,137 --> 01:37:59,503 I will understand that. 1368 01:37:59,505 --> 01:38:01,271 You are expected to be in there, but look. 1369 01:38:01,273 --> 01:38:03,041 We can only say that you are sick, right. 1370 01:38:03,043 --> 01:38:04,178 No . No... 1371 01:38:05,411 --> 01:38:07,211 It's not about ceremonies. OK? I can... I will... 1372 01:38:07,213 --> 01:38:09,079 I... I want to be there. I have to be there. 1373 01:38:09,081 --> 01:38:11,416 This is my church. It's been 250 years. 1374 01:38:11,418 --> 01:38:14,355 I want to be there. I want to introduce you. Please? 1375 01:38:16,556 --> 01:38:19,290 Well, Ed Balq has decided 1376 01:38:19,292 --> 01:38:21,091 that he wants to comment, 1377 01:38:21,093 --> 01:38:22,827 so the Governor will introduce it. 1378 01:38:22,829 --> 01:38:24,295 Will it be a problem? 1379 01:38:24,297 --> 01:38:27,067 Not everything. Not everything. 1380 01:38:27,667 --> 01:38:29,636 Very good. Good. 1381 01:38:31,204 --> 01:38:33,770 Listen. We will skip this reconciliation. 1382 01:38:33,772 --> 01:38:35,476 That will be special. 1383 01:38:35,842 --> 01:38:38,512 And then we will deal with this other problem. 1384 01:38:44,284 --> 01:38:45,419 Thank Thank you. 1385 01:39:41,773 --> 01:39:42,776 Thank you. 1386 01:42:41,954 --> 01:42:43,753 Where, um... Where is Pastor Toller? 1387 01:42:43,755 --> 01:42:45,491 I'm not sure, ma & apos; am. Inside. 1388 01:44:12,044 --> 01:44:14,014 - Did you see it? - No. 1389 01:44:26,892 --> 01:44:28,462 - Where is he? - I don't know. 1390 01:44:41,507 --> 01:44:42,875 Toller! 1391 01:44:44,910 --> 01:44:47,711 Toller! are you there? 1392 01:45:13,472 --> 01:45:14,807 Start service. 1393 01:45:44,603 --> 01:45:47,003 Really fellowship 1394 01:45:47,005 --> 01:45:51,210 What a divine joy 1395 01:45:51,643 --> 01:45:54,577 Lean 1396 01:45:54,579 --> 01:45:59,218 The eternal arm 1397 01:45:59,651 --> 01:46:03,589 How blessed 1398 01:46:03,822 --> 01:46:08,058 How peaceful for me 1399 01:46:08,060 --> 01:46:11,060 Lean 1400 01:46:11,062 --> 01:46:15,935 Eternal arms 1401 01:46:16,134 --> 01:46:19,869 Lean 1402 01:46:19,871 --> 01:46:23,109 Lean 1403 01:46:23,676 --> 01:46:26,844 Safe and comfortable 1404 01:46:26,846 --> 01:46:31,250 Of all alarms 1405 01:46:31,784 --> 01:46:35,021 Lean 1406 01:46:35,620 --> 01:46:39,189 Leaning 1407 01:46:39,191 --> 01:46:42,126 Lean 1408 01:46:42,128 --> 01:46:46,866 Eternal arms 1409 01:46:47,232 --> 01:46:51,203 Oh, how the sweetness goes 1410 01:46:51,704 --> 01:46:55,706 By the way of this pilgrim 1411 01:46:55,708 --> 01:46:58,908 Leaned 1412 01:46:58,910 --> 01:47:03,616 Arm eternal 1413 01:47:03,883 --> 01:47:07,952 Oh, how bright the way is 1414 01:47:07,954 --> 01:47:12,122 Growing day by day 1415 01:47:12,124 --> 01:47:15,125 Lean 1416 01:47:15,127 --> 01:47:19,766 The eternal arm 1417 01:47:20,098 --> 01:47:23,736 Lean 1418 01:47:23,936 --> 01:47:27,307 Lean 1419 01:47:27,807 --> 01:47:30,707 Safe and comfortable 1420 01:47:30,709 --> 01:47:35,581 Of all the alarms 1421 01:47:35,815 --> 01:47:39,716 Lean 1422 01:47:39,718 --> 01:47:43,319 Lean 1423 01:47:43,321 --> 01:47:46,256 Lean 1424 01:47:46,258 --> 01:47:50,964 Everlasting arms 1425 01:47:51,364 --> 01:47:55,399 What should I fear 1426 01:47:55,401 --> 01:47:59,172 What should I fear 1427 01:47:59,739 --> 01:48:02,342 Lean 1428 01:48:03,142 --> 01:48:04,241 Ernst? 1429 01:48:04,243 --> 01:48:07,144 To the eternal hand i> 1430 01:48:07,146 --> 01:48:11,015 I have blessed peace 1431 01:48:11,017 --> 01:48:14,854 With my Lord so close 1432 01:48:15,053 --> 01:48:18,055 Lean < / i> 1433 01:48:18,057 --> 01:48:22,295 To eternal hands 1434 01:48:23,029 --> 01:48:26,729 Lean 1435 01:48:26,731 --> 01:48:29,902 Lean 1436 01:48:30,236 --> 01:48:33,403 Peacefully and comfortably 1437 01:48:33,405 --> 01:48:38,175 Of all hazards 1438 01:48:38,177 --> 01:48:41,944 Lean 1439 01:48:41,946 --> 01:48:45,217 Lean 1440 01:48:45,450 --> 01:48:48,452 Lean 1441 01:48:48,454 --> 01:48:53,125 To eternal hands 1442 01:48:53,325 --> 01:48:56,830 Lean 1443 01:48:57,163 --> 01:49:00,700 Lean 1444 01:49:00,965 --> 01:49:03,900 Lean 1445 01:49:03,902 --> 01:49:08,307 To the eternal hand 1446 01:49:08,773 --> 01:49:12,178 Lean