1 00:03:37,898 --> 00:03:40,867 Visit the WWW.FORTUNEBET99.ID 2 00:03:59,152 --> 00:04:03,088 site I have a strange dream. 3 00:04:03,123 --> 00:04:04,886 What do you dream of? 4 00:04:07,427 --> 00:04:09,190 From my mother. 5 00:04:13,300 --> 00:04:15,894 - Nightmare? - Yes 6 00:04:21,341 --> 00:04:23,536 Rain? 7 00:04:27,714 --> 00:04:29,511 We go to bed. 8 00:04:55,108 --> 00:04:57,474 Lithium overdose 9 00:04:57,510 --> 00:05:04,143 Prognosis: Lithium toxicity can turn off... 10 00:05:12,859 --> 00:05:15,521 Maggie, this is Jonathan Caouette. 11 00:05:15,562 --> 00:05:19,089 This is about my mother, Renée LeBlanc. 12 00:05:19,132 --> 00:05:20,929 He still hasn't spoken? 13 00:05:20,967 --> 00:05:23,299 They started dialysis? 14 00:05:23,336 --> 00:05:27,204 Which one is 15 00:05:27,240 --> 00:05:30,300 I search the Internet, It looks serious. 16 00:05:39,119 --> 00:05:43,920 I save the key before going to the train station. 17 00:05:43,957 --> 00:05:46,255 I will experience an anxiety attack. 18 00:05:50,697 --> 00:05:56,294 And I'm sick, I have 40% fever. It must be stressful. 19 00:06:17,290 --> 00:06:18,689 Go forward with worry 20 00:06:18,725 --> 00:06:23,094 in the midst of noise and anger, and find peace in comfort. 21 00:06:23,129 --> 00:06:27,532 Have a good relationship with all, without making concessions. 22 00:06:27,567 --> 00:06:29,831 Express your truth calmly and clearly. 23 00:06:29,869 --> 00:06:34,499 Listen to the others, the boring and fools also have stories. 24 00:06:58,531 --> 00:07:02,490 Avoid people who are loud and noisy. They attack the mind. 25 00:07:02,535 --> 00:07:06,869 If you measure yourself to others, you will be in vain and bitter 26 00:07:06,906 --> 00:07:10,342 because we always find stronger and are less powerful than ourselves. 27 00:07:10,376 --> 00:07:13,277 Enjoy your success by praying. 28 00:07:13,313 --> 00:07:16,009 Concentrate on your career, even humble. 29 00:07:16,049 --> 00:07:19,485 This is an asset faces a setback of luck. 30 00:07:19,519 --> 00:07:24,650 Be careful in business, the world is full of fraudsters. 31 00:07:24,691 --> 00:07:28,457 But know how to recognize the virtues of 32 00:07:28,495 --> 00:07:33,023 Many are pursuing ideals. Life is full of heroism. 33 00:07:45,778 --> 00:07:48,770 Small, two small, three small Indians... 34 00:07:58,691 --> 00:08:01,990 - I don't know what will happen. - Terrible! 35 00:08:02,028 --> 00:08:04,553 Johnny Carson must invite us! 36 00:08:06,733 --> 00:08:08,132 We will make a screen! 37 00:08:08,168 --> 00:08:10,728 Once upon a time in a village in Texas... 38 00:08:12,639 --> 00:08:14,766 in the early 1950s 39 00:08:15,275 --> 00:08:17,641 an excellent man who met a very good woman 40 00:08:19,312 --> 00:08:21,405 He, Adolph, and him, Rosemary 41 00:08:21,981 --> 00:08:24,449 love and marriage 42 00:08:30,890 --> 00:08:33,120 They have a beautiful little girl 43 00:08:40,934 --> 00:08:43,164 Everything in their lives 44 00:08:43,469 --> 00:08:44,299 bright 45 00:08:44,470 --> 00:08:45,459 happy 46 00:08:45,638 --> 00:08:46,662 and promising 47 00:08:50,376 --> 00:08:52,469 Adolph has a prosperous business 48 00:08:52,979 --> 00:08:55,345 Small family grocery 49 00:08:57,016 --> 00:08:59,007 At the age of 11, 50 00:08:59,652 --> 00:09:02,246 Ren e is representative by a famous photographer 51 00:09:02,722 --> 00:09:05,384 from New York 52 00:09:05,892 --> 00:09:08,554 visiting this Texas village 53 00:09:08,995 --> 00:09:11,828 This photographer is Ren dee 54 00:09:12,298 --> 00:09:14,994 a young model appears on the corner 55 00:09:18,671 --> 00:09:20,400 We see it in emissions, 56 00:09:21,241 --> 00:09:22,799 in fashion magazines, 57 00:09:26,579 --> 00:09:28,513 and in famous ads 58 00:09:29,582 --> 00:09:32,380 When Rene was twelve 59 00:09:32,819 --> 00:09:35,344 everything in his life gets sad 60 00:09:36,723 --> 00:09:39,715 René plays on the roof of the house 61 00:09:40,026 --> 00:09:42,654 René makes the fall 62 00:09:43,029 --> 00:09:46,157 he lands on his feet without bending your knees 63 00:09:47,767 --> 00:09:49,496 Rene is paralyzed 64 00:09:49,969 --> 00:09:51,869 for six months 65 00:09:52,071 --> 00:09:54,198 Rosemary and Adolph wonder 66 00:09:54,607 --> 00:09:57,167 if the paralysis isn't on his head 67 00:09:57,543 --> 00:09:59,636 p> 68 00:10:00,079 --> 00:10:01,808 Neighbors who are family friends 69 00:10:02,548 --> 00:10:04,539 advise Rosemary and Adolph 70 00:10:05,151 --> 00:10:07,346 for electric shocks 71 00:10:08,154 --> 00:10:10,384 twice a week 72 00:10:13,259 --> 00:10:15,318 for two year 73 00:10:16,296 --> 00:10:18,730 During his treatment 74 00:10:28,007 --> 00:10:30,066 René defends his beauty 75 00:10:31,110 --> 00:10:33,476 After he is cured 76 00:10:33,813 --> 00:10:36,145 when he goes out, 77 00:10:36,616 --> 00:10:38,811 it looks like she sunbathing 78 00:10:43,189 --> 00:10:46,181 will make her yawn 79 00:10:49,362 --> 00:10:51,125 In 1972, Renée met sales representatives 80 00:10:52,165 --> 00:10:53,996 Ren e and Steve fall in love 81 00:10:54,300 --> 00:10:55,892 they get married quickly, but soon separate. 82 00:10:58,171 --> 00:11:00,071 Ren e has bb... 83 00:11:00,206 --> 00:11:02,970 Did you read the alphabet? 84 00:11:05,044 --> 00:11:08,036 Don't know she's pregnant 85 00:11:09,248 --> 00:11:12,411 and can't assume her family 86 00:11:21,361 --> 00:11:22,988 Steve has left. 87 00:11:31,804 --> 00:11:34,272 From 1965 to 1999 88 00:11:34,574 --> 00:11:37,907 Renée looks deeper 100 mental hospitals 89 00:11:38,277 --> 00:11:39,801 The notes show 90 00:11:40,146 --> 00:11:41,636 which he did not initially 91 00:11:42,215 --> 00:11:43,910 certain problems... 92 00:12:04,771 --> 00:12:07,740 Whatever you say registered, mother. 93 00:12:07,774 --> 00:12:09,036 What do you mean? 94 00:12:09,075 --> 00:12:12,044 During the winter of 1977 95 00:12:13,079 --> 00:12:16,947 Adolph's shopping meat burned. 96 00:12:18,184 --> 00:12:21,847 Rosemary had a hysterectomy. 97 00:12:22,522 --> 00:12:26,583 René, in a psychotic state 98 00:12:27,627 --> 00:12:28,889 take Jonathan to Chicago 99 00:12:28,928 --> 00:12:32,329 Monday, February 24, 1975... 100 00:12:32,365 --> 00:12:36,392 without money or housing. 101 00:12:37,403 --> 00:12:41,100 The problem is not long. 102 00:12:42,041 --> 00:12:46,068 Rene is raped before Jonathan 103 00:12:46,846 --> 00:12:51,249 by a man who has gathered them on the road. 104 00:12:51,884 --> 00:12:55,877 René asks Adolph to send him money 105 00:12:56,656 --> 00:13:00,854 to return by bus. 106 00:13:01,461 --> 00:13:05,454 After a few hours of traveling 107 00:13:06,265 --> 00:13:10,326 Renée and Jonathan are thrown from the bus. 108 00:13:11,170 --> 00:13:15,004 Renée disturbs passengers. p> 109 00:13:16,109 --> 00:13:19,772 Jonathan is in the family. 110 00:13:20,279 --> 00:13:24,978 Rene goes to jail 111 00:13:25,218 --> 00:13:29,882 for six weeks Marion, in Illinois. 112 00:13:30,923 --> 00:13:34,086 Return to Texas , 113 00:13:35,094 --> 00:13:39,292 Jonathan was kidnapped Rosemary and Adolph 114 00:13:40,166 --> 00:13:44,227 by children's services 115 00:13:45,204 --> 00:13:49,231 and placed in families in Texas 116 00:13:49,809 --> 00:13:53,643 as long as these two years. 117 00:13:54,881 --> 00:13:58,874 Jonathan is a victim of abuse 118 00:13:59,385 --> 00:14:03,685 psychic and physical 119 00:14:04,257 --> 00:14:08,284 she was tied and beaten 120 00:14:08,995 --> 00:14:13,091 by her adoptive parents. 121 00:14:14,133 --> 00:14:18,126 Jonathan was 4 years old. 122 00:14:18,604 --> 00:14:22,904 That's when Rosemary and Adolph 123 00:14:23,476 --> 00:14:27,742 agree that Rene 124 00:14:28,347 --> 00:14:32,113 continue the electric shock. 125 00:14:32,952 --> 00:14:36,615 After the last treatment 126 00:14:36,989 --> 00:14:42,120 there is almost nothing left 127 00:14:42,862 --> 00:14:46,764 René's personality 128 00:14:48,034 --> 00:14:52,027 or his thoughts. 129 00:14:52,638 --> 00:14:56,665 Rene is 25 years old. 130 00:14:57,476 --> 00:15:00,934 Rosemary and Adolph have custody of Jonathan 131 00:15:01,614 --> 00:15:05,380 in 1979. 132 00:15:08,988 --> 00:15:12,719 In his adopted family 133 00:15:13,559 --> 00:15:17,256 Jonathan had Ren forgottene that was a little forgotten. 134 00:15:17,930 --> 00:15:21,923 Ren e stay 135 00:15:22,301 --> 00:15:26,397 Hospital Austin 136 00:15:26,839 --> 00:15:30,741 from 1977 to 1980 137 00:15:35,147 --> 00:15:38,913 Rosemary and Adolph Jonathan's adoption 138 00:15:39,752 --> 00:15:43,188 towards the end of 1981 139 00:16:00,006 --> 00:16:01,769 Did it work? 140 00:16:03,075 --> 00:16:07,535 My name is... 141 00:16:07,580 --> 00:16:12,142 Hilary Chapman Laura Lou Gerina. 142 00:16:12,385 --> 00:16:16,185 People will believe a statement! 143 00:16:18,791 --> 00:16:25,060 Jimmy said that if I wear too much makeup, I look like a slut. 144 00:16:30,036 --> 00:16:33,836 145 00:16:33,873 --> 00:16:40,301 p> 146 00:16:41,213 --> 00:16:44,512 I gave my name. 147 00:16:44,550 --> 00:16:47,678 I talked about myself and my baby, Caroline. 148 00:16:50,790 --> 00:16:54,191 I live in hell. 149 00:16:54,226 --> 00:16:57,024 You made me nervous. 150 00:16:58,130 --> 00:17:05,127 What year, 1969! 151 00:17:06,972 --> 00:17:10,601 I am a modern wife. 152 00:17:10,643 --> 00:17:15,080 It started when Jimmy came home late. 153 00:17:15,114 --> 00:17:19,312 He started drinking. 154 00:17:19,352 --> 00:17:21,684 I was waiting for Caroline... 155 00:17:25,791 --> 00:17:29,022 and I became fat. 156 00:17:29,929 --> 00:17:34,662 She is two years old now. 157 00:17:34,700 --> 00:17:36,725 He hit me. 158 00:17:40,473 --> 00:17:48,471 When he came home drunk 159 00:17:51,951 --> 00:17:57,253 he hit me. 160 00:17:58,591 --> 00:18:03,585 He sucks this medicine and it rises to him in the brain. 161 00:18:07,299 --> 00:18:09,563 I can't speak. 162 00:18:13,639 --> 00:18:18,133 It's hard for me. 163 00:18:18,677 --> 00:18:22,204 One night , he has a weapon, 164 00:18:22,248 --> 00:18:25,706 I am tied to a bed 165 00:18:25,751 --> 00:18:31,280 he looks at my head 166 00:18:31,323 --> 00:18:37,193 and he says: "I will kill you, bitch." 167 00:18:37,229 --> 00:18:40,630 That's the opposite that happened. 168 00:18:44,837 --> 00:18:47,237 One night, I took a gun 169 00:18:49,442 --> 00:18:51,273 and I shot it. 170 00:18:59,685 --> 00:19:01,744 Wake up, my angel. 171 00:19:03,989 --> 00:19:05,854 Come on, my love. 172 00:19:12,898 --> 00:19:14,195 Like a. 173 00:19:19,538 --> 00:19:21,335 Come on now. 174 00:20:02,047 --> 00:20:03,605 Hello cam ra! 175 00:20:05,050 --> 00:20:07,075 I must be terrible. 176 00:20:07,119 --> 00:20:08,552 Rosemary, Jonathan's grandmother 177 00:20:10,789 --> 00:20:13,349 I have "TB". 178 00:20:16,595 --> 00:20:20,929 I have "TB": My illness is called tobacco and beer. 179 00:20:22,935 --> 00:20:25,563 Don't show my beautiful legs. 180 00:20:25,604 --> 00:20:28,698 I have to buy shoes. 181 00:20:30,843 --> 00:20:33,107 You are stubborn. 182 00:20:44,323 --> 00:20:47,554 I'm Charlie from the Chocolate Factory. 183 00:20:47,593 --> 00:20:50,756 "Charlie from the Chocolate Factory." 184 00:21:07,680 --> 00:21:10,046 I will dye my hair. 185 00:21:13,285 --> 00:21:14,843 What color do you think? 186 00:21:14,887 --> 00:21:16,286 In blonde. 187 00:21:16,322 --> 00:21:21,521 No, it's too old to be blonde. 188 00:21:23,362 --> 00:21:25,091 Lots of nicotine. 189 00:21:25,130 --> 00:21:30,261 Cigarettes stick to the lips, on each side. 190 00:21:30,302 --> 00:21:31,667 That's not true, John? 191 00:21:31,704 --> 00:21:37,665 You collected testimonies, < br /> and I will tell the truth. 192 00:21:38,744 --> 00:21:40,405 Hello, Pokus! 193 00:21:40,446 --> 00:21:43,381 My name is Shirelle. 194 00:21:43,415 --> 00:21:46,714 It happened to you to sit... . 195 00:21:46,752 --> 00:21:49,687 Do you like my hair style? 196 00:21:49,722 --> 00:21:52,919 It's over? Fini. 197 00:21:54,393 --> 00:21:57,521 My secret is crazy. 198 00:21:57,563 --> 00:22:00,088 My name is Shirelle. 199 00:22:00,132 --> 00:22:01,929 And you see... 200 00:22:04,970 --> 00:22:07,200 I'm fine, now. 201 00:22:07,239 --> 00:22:10,299 I don't take anything. I'm not a camera. 202 00:22:28,894 --> 00:22:31,692 My throat hurts. 203 00:22:31,730 --> 00:22:33,994 I forgot my birth. 204 00:22:35,034 --> 00:22:37,400 They diagnosed him as a schizophrenic. 205 00:22:37,436 --> 00:22:40,371 I really don't know what he has. 206 00:22:40,406 --> 00:22:43,569 He suffered skull trauma fell from the roof. 207 00:22:43,609 --> 00:22:48,740 He took LSD, PCP. He was a hippie from the 60's. 208 00:22:48,781 --> 00:22:50,874 I'm very disturbed. 209 00:22:50,916 --> 00:22:54,283 Even if I'm not tall yet in a perfect environment. 210 00:22:54,319 --> 00:22:55,877 That makes me fin. 211 00:22:55,921 --> 00:22:59,789 I have this idea that we are in another dimension. 212 00:22:59,825 --> 00:23:03,556 I took this medicine. What exactly, I don't know. 213 00:23:03,595 --> 00:23:08,191 PCP or LSD. I have misidentified my brain. 214 00:23:10,636 --> 00:23:13,696 I was given a joint. 215 00:23:14,673 --> 00:23:16,402 I hope I won't die. 216 00:23:16,442 --> 00:23:20,310 I am not personalized. It has reached the brain. 217 00:23:20,345 --> 00:23:22,245 I have the impression to dream all the time. 218 00:23:22,281 --> 00:23:25,773 I forgot how it felt to be normal. 219 00:23:25,818 --> 00:23:27,718 Sometimes I'm scared. 220 00:23:27,753 --> 00:23:33,385 That's both where I talked about him and his vagina. 221 00:23:33,425 --> 00:23:36,451 It's not my style, grossi ret s. 222 00:23:38,530 --> 00:23:40,657 Life is a journey. 223 00:23:42,468 --> 00:23:44,333 It's like an endless dream. 224 00:23:44,369 --> 00:23:48,100 I am not influenced by homo. 225 00:23:48,140 --> 00:23:51,667 From that moment on I became gay. 226 00:23:51,710 --> 00:23:54,076 Maybe sexual harassment. 227 00:23:54,113 --> 00:23:57,014 I want everything. 228 00:23:57,049 --> 00:24:00,143 I don't even like to suck such things. 229 00:24:00,185 --> 00:24:03,882 That's just an idea... I don't like doing it. 230 00:24:03,922 --> 00:24:05,685 Absolutely not. 231 00:24:05,724 --> 00:24:07,658 I really love my mother. 232 00:24:07,693 --> 00:24:10,821 I can't stand it anymore. 233 00:24:10,863 --> 00:24:13,093 The day is rotten. 234 00:24:15,167 --> 00:24:18,261 I don't want to die. 235 00:24:19,471 --> 00:24:22,463 I'm not crazy. 236 00:24:22,508 --> 00:24:24,339 I didn't go home. 237 00:24:25,210 --> 00:24:28,577 I live here. 238 00:24:28,614 --> 00:24:30,275 For others of my bad life. 239 00:24:30,315 --> 00:24:33,478 He kidnapped me, was taken to Chicago. 240 00:24:33,519 --> 00:24:34,952 He was raped in front of me. 241 00:24:34,987 --> 00:24:41,358 All stories about this tunnel, underground... 242 00:24:41,393 --> 00:24:44,885 The framework we found... 243 00:24:44,930 --> 00:24:47,296 Don't know if I'm gay. 244 00:24:47,332 --> 00:24:51,200 Except that I have homosexual tendencies. 245 00:24:51,236 --> 00:24:54,433 I don't know why, I am a wise writer. 246 00:24:58,243 --> 00:25:03,510 They think I'm crazy. I'm not crazy, I'm just stupid. 247 00:25:03,549 --> 00:25:05,847 I'm falling apart. 248 00:25:05,884 --> 00:25:09,479 That's a really annoying idea. 249 00:25:09,521 --> 00:25:11,250 Because of that voice... 250 00:25:13,425 --> 00:25:14,915 He tortured me. 251 00:25:14,960 --> 00:25:16,484 I want to die. 252 00:25:28,073 --> 00:25:32,066 Between 1987 and 1993 253 00:25:32,644 --> 00:25:36,637 Rosemary and Adolph Jonathan's hospitalization eight times. 254 00:25:37,216 --> 00:25:41,084 The first hospitalization was triggered 255 00:25:41,653 --> 00:25:45,749 by certain incidents. 256 00:25:46,091 --> 00:25:50,152 In the fall of 1986 257 00:25:50,629 --> 00:25:54,793 Jonathan visited Ren e 258 00:25:55,434 --> 00:25:59,063 at home. 259 00:25:59,838 --> 00:26:03,296 He met a merchant. 260 00:26:03,342 --> 00:26:07,676 He wanted to try marijuana. 261 00:26:08,614 --> 00:26:12,550 The dealer gave him two connections. 262 00:26:13,151 --> 00:26:16,917 Jonathan went home 263 00:26:17,723 --> 00:26:21,557 and smoked both joints. 264 00:26:22,194 --> 00:26:26,028 It is known later that these joints 265 00:26:26,765 --> 00:26:30,462 contain PCP 266 00:26:31,303 --> 00:26:35,034 and formaldehyde. 267 00:26:35,707 --> 00:26:39,370 Since that night. 268 00:26:40,312 --> 00:26:43,975 > 269 00:26:44,850 --> 00:26:48,911 Jonathan can't focus anymore 270 00:26:53,225 --> 00:26:55,523 and feels like you are living in a dream. 271 00:26:55,560 --> 00:27:00,293 Repeated episodes emotional detachment 272 00:27:00,332 --> 00:27:05,793 where the subject observes his mental and physical abilities 273 00:27:05,837 --> 00:27:10,740 as in a dream. 274 00:27:23,722 --> 00:27:27,385 Are you see my transplant? I mean my implant. 275 00:27:27,426 --> 00:27:32,693 If you cut your hair like this person? 276 00:27:32,731 --> 00:27:38,033 Length on one side and short on the other. 277 00:27:44,009 --> 00:27:48,036 At the age of 13, Jonathan attended "Visions", 278 00:27:48,080 --> 00:27:52,608 New gay Wave club for adults. 279 00:27:53,785 --> 00:27:57,881 He interpreted play-back 280 00:27:57,923 --> 00:28:02,053 and participate in screening marathons 281 00:28:02,094 --> 00:28:06,827 films such as Liquid Sky , 282 00:28:06,865 --> 00:28:11,268 Christiane F . and Dirty Duck . 283 00:28:11,303 --> 00:28:14,898 Because he is underage, 284 00:28:14,940 --> 00:28:19,309 he is shaky... 285 00:28:22,581 --> 00:28:25,880 in a Gothic girl 286 00:29:10,662 --> 00:29:15,258 At the "Visions" club, Jonathan meets three people 287 00:29:29,981 --> 00:29:33,348 Spooky introduces Jonathan to punk rock 288 00:29:37,722 --> 00:29:42,318 Stacey and Bam Bam 289 00:29:42,360 --> 00:29:45,193 start Jonathan 290 00:29:47,165 --> 00:29:49,429 in the underground cinema. 291 00:30:01,746 --> 00:30:04,738 The Ankle Cutter , 1988 292 00:30:04,783 --> 00:30:07,809 Jonathan's first film in super 8 293 00:30:21,533 --> 00:30:23,524 Dirty Whore , 1987 294 00:30:23,568 --> 00:30:27,368 What is chaos this? I need a tooth! 295 00:30:27,405 --> 00:30:29,202 Please! 296 00:30:32,177 --> 00:30:34,111 You made me a sinner! 297 00:30:35,614 --> 00:30:41,951 Garyon saliva and blood , 1988 298 00:31:06,545 --> 00:31:11,005 - You're not forced... - What's red? 299 00:31:11,049 --> 00:31:13,950 What, red? The color is black and white. 300 00:31:13,985 --> 00:31:15,816 I see a red light, John. 301 00:31:15,854 --> 00:31:18,414 - It's nothing. - Put AC! 302 00:31:18,456 --> 00:31:21,448 - Grandma, be careful...
- I don't want to! 303 00:31:21,493 --> 00:31:23,893 Look and hold the camera like that. 304 00:31:23,929 --> 00:31:27,797 Hold it like this and frame it to me. 305 00:31:27,832 --> 00:31:30,733 Put it on your lap. 306 00:31:30,769 --> 00:31:32,236 - Like that? - Yes 307 00:31:48,453 --> 00:31:51,616 The weather is getting brighter but it's still raining. 308 00:31:51,656 --> 00:31:56,719 Everything is back to normal. 309 00:31:56,761 --> 00:32:00,288 It's funny when times change, 310 00:32:00,332 --> 00:32:05,770 from the sun to the storm. 311 00:32:05,804 --> 00:32:08,671 I don't have teeth anymore. 312 00:32:11,977 --> 00:32:16,311 Houston is a good city for baseball. 313 00:32:16,348 --> 00:32:19,511 I like baseball, it's a favorite sport for parents. 314 00:32:19,551 --> 00:32:24,648 I'm proud of Houston, and don't bother Texas. 315 00:32:35,834 --> 00:32:37,961 I have something to say. 316 00:32:38,003 --> 00:32:40,699 And if you don't sit there, right now, 317 00:32:40,739 --> 00:32:42,536 I explode your head. 318 00:32:52,584 --> 00:32:55,917 I have some things to do, I have to alone. 319 00:32:55,954 --> 00:32:59,048 I have a resolution to take about my con life. 320 00:32:59,090 --> 00:33:02,218 I can't bite my nails. 321 00:33:02,260 --> 00:33:06,993 I can't let them grow , because I'm nervous. 322 00:33:07,032 --> 00:33:10,024 When did you return it, camera? 323 00:33:26,084 --> 00:33:30,418 Jonathan, I want to go to the bathroom. Don't film me. 324 00:33:30,455 --> 00:33:32,514 That is pornography. 325 00:33:32,557 --> 00:33:35,549 I told you to use the handle. 326 00:33:39,464 --> 00:33:41,762 Get blind, Jonathan! 327 00:33:41,800 --> 00:33:44,064 I told you to always be in control. 328 00:33:47,372 --> 00:33:51,468 Talk to the camera. You are ready. Please. 329 00:33:51,509 --> 00:33:54,069 Hello, Houston. I am better. 330 00:33:54,112 --> 00:33:57,741 Therapy helps me, I'm better. 331 00:33:57,782 --> 00:34:00,910 Okay, Houston, can you hear me? 332 00:34:00,952 --> 00:34:04,012 Have a nice day. I love you too. 333 00:34:04,055 --> 00:34:05,852 - I love you. - I love you. 334 00:34:05,890 --> 00:34:07,687 Will we leave? 335 00:34:24,909 --> 00:34:26,240 He woke up, he saw. 336 00:34:26,277 --> 00:34:30,543 He can't see or hear, he is like dead. 337 00:35:48,860 --> 00:35:51,420 At the age of 14, Jonathan had a recurring dream. 338 00:35:52,297 --> 00:35:55,562 He dreamed of a tall blonde boy 339 00:35:56,601 --> 00:36:00,230 who looked like an adult version 340 00:36:01,439 --> 00:36:04,465 from Little Prince . 341 00:36:05,577 --> 00:36:08,410 He began to imagine 342 00:36:09,280 --> 00:36:12,306 in rock shows like Hair. 343 00:36:12,951 --> 00:36:16,079 Jonathan thinks if someday 344 00:36:16,588 --> 00:36:19,648 he meets producer Robert Stigwood 345 00:36:20,258 --> 00:36:23,421 they can collaborate 346 00:36:23,995 --> 00:36:27,055 an opera stone on Jonathan's life. 347 00:36:27,665 --> 00:36:30,657 Zero Mostel will play Adolph. 348 00:36:31,436 --> 00:36:34,428 Louise Lasser: Rosemary. 349 00:36:35,106 --> 00:36:38,098 Robbie Benson: Jonathan. 350 00:36:38,643 --> 00:36:41,635 Joni Mitchell: Ren e. 351 00:36:42,313 --> 00:36:45,214 Mavis Staples will be a social worker. 352 00:36:45,750 --> 00:36:47,342 Nina Hagen and Klaus Nomi will play 353 00:36:47,385 --> 00:36:48,909 adoptive parents 354 00:36:49,187 --> 00:36:52,156 and the Zoom 355 00:36:52,357 --> 00:36:55,349 forces will be ch? 356 00:36:55,994 --> 00:36:58,986 The adopted child. 357 00:36:59,297 --> 00:37:02,289 That's incomparable. 358 00:37:04,335 --> 00:37:05,825 That's cool. 359 00:37:08,873 --> 00:37:13,572 But we're lucky. It's cooler in other places. 360 00:37:13,611 --> 00:37:20,278 That's why I like Houston. Cold but not lasting. 361 00:39:32,450 --> 00:39:35,248 Rene at home 362 00:39:40,625 --> 00:39:43,355 I want to show you my earrings 363 00:39:43,394 --> 00:39:50,027 are bought at a boutique Elizabeth Taylor, in California, 364 00:39:50,068 --> 00:39:53,526 San Francisco. 365 00:39:53,571 --> 00:39:56,597 He has another shop in Houston. 366 00:39:56,641 --> 00:40:00,543 He wears it in the pub for White Diamonds. 367 00:40:04,148 --> 00:40:08,482 I like this curly 368 00:40:08,519 --> 00:40:13,149 because they are white diamonds. 369 00:40:13,191 --> 00:40:19,255 They belong to Elizabeth Taylor, who brought them. > 370 00:40:19,297 --> 00:40:22,698 I have to go LA 371 00:40:22,733 --> 00:40:26,328 take business 372 00:40:26,370 --> 00:40:29,862 for my son who lives in Houston. 373 00:40:29,907 --> 00:40:33,866 That doesn't make sense but only that comes to me. 374 00:40:51,028 --> 00:40:55,761 I am captivated by this type of course dramatic that looks like Nick Drake. 375 00:40:55,800 --> 00:40:59,099 He lives in the forest and makes music. 376 00:40:59,137 --> 00:41:02,368 He tattooed DK and ZZ Top on the legs. 377 00:41:19,190 --> 00:41:24,184 15 o'clock, Jonathan has his first girlfriend 378 00:41:38,876 --> 00:41:43,643 They read Carrie and The Exorcist < / i>. 379 00:41:43,681 --> 00:41:45,911 Who are you, Regan? 380 00:41:45,950 --> 00:41:49,215 I am Pazuzu! 381 00:41:51,322 --> 00:41:56,259 Their relationship lasts until bac. 382 00:42:08,306 --> 00:42:13,403 Meet you, bitch! I disturb all the bastards. 383 00:42:14,445 --> 00:42:18,745 In high school, Jonathan and Michael mount a piece 384 00:42:24,522 --> 00:42:26,387 Music version 385 00:42:27,458 --> 00:42:30,427 David Lynch movie 386 00:42:40,204 --> 00:42:42,604 All actors interpret 387 00:42:42,640 --> 00:42:45,609 Marianne Faithfull in playing again. 388 00:42:45,643 --> 00:42:52,139 Lyceum of Gloversville, Houston, Texas, 1988 389 00:42:56,821 --> 00:43:01,588 This same one sees Marianne Faithfull 390 00:43:01,626 --> 00:43:04,891 and her report is Mick Jagger 391 00:43:04,929 --> 00:43:07,022 like a metaphor 392 00:43:07,064 --> 00:43:08,554 for the role of Dorothy Vallens. 393 00:43:08,599 --> 00:43:12,330 Whether you are rock, 394 00:43:12,370 --> 00:43:17,569 where you are wiser when others stretch. 395 00:43:17,608 --> 00:43:22,068 You move your fingers, your hips, and you move your shoulders. 396 00:43:50,975 --> 00:43:53,637 < i> I like this rhythm! 397 00:43:54,812 --> 00:43:56,473 I will duplicate it. 398 00:44:01,319 --> 00:44:04,846 It's like being someone else! 399 00:44:05,823 --> 00:44:06,949 Do you see that? 400 00:44:06,991 --> 00:44:08,481 Why did you save this? 401 00:44:08,526 --> 00:44:13,225 Why? For my protection. He is sued at night. 402 00:44:13,264 --> 00:44:14,891 Too many robberies. 403 00:44:14,932 --> 00:44:16,263 Aku sayang kamu, ayah. 404 00:44:16,300 --> 00:44:17,289 Me too... 405 00:44:17,335 --> 00:44:19,462 - My new cellphone. - Great! 406 00:44:22,106 --> 00:44:27,738 There are no people at the end of the line. He's new. 407 00:45:36,047 --> 00:45:41,007 Rene entered and left the hospital 408 00:46:24,728 --> 00:46:28,824 Between 1986 and 1991, 409 00:46:28,866 --> 00:46:32,893 Jonathan's adolescence, 410 00:46:33,037 --> 00:46:35,597 was a reaction to his mental illness, 411 00:46:35,639 --> 00:46:38,574 chaos and lack of "structure" 412 00:46:38,609 --> 00:46:41,077 in his family unit, 413 00:46:41,278 --> 00:46:45,271 Jonathan "skip acting" 414 00:46:45,316 --> 00:46:49,275 by destroying the house and himself. 415 00:46:49,487 --> 00:46:51,614 He broke the window and the furniture, 416 00:46:51,655 --> 00:46:54,624 cursed and insulted his family 417 00:46:54,658 --> 00:46:57,627 and committed a suicide per week. 418 00:47:28,092 --> 00:47:31,323 Say hello, how how are you? How old are you, Jonathan? 419 00:47:31,362 --> 00:47:34,354 - 20 years. - Will you have 21 soon? 420 00:47:34,398 --> 00:47:35,990 In two months. 421 00:47:36,033 --> 00:47:37,432 How old do you have David? 422 00:47:37,468 --> 00:47:38,492 13 years. 423 00:47:38,536 --> 00:47:40,265 When are you 14 years old? 424 00:47:40,304 --> 00:47:41,601 In December. 425 00:47:41,639 --> 00:47:45,234 It's been three months? 426 00:47:45,276 --> 00:47:50,612 This is September 1993 and I always smoke. 427 00:47:52,650 --> 00:47:56,177 I have to be in New York. 428 00:48:16,040 --> 00:48:19,100 You will be without family if I die. 429 00:48:21,712 --> 00:48:23,509 You will not have anyone. 430 00:48:26,717 --> 00:48:29,185 - That not true. - Yes 431 00:48:30,588 --> 00:48:33,648 You only have me. 432 00:48:33,691 --> 00:48:37,752 You never like me for who I am. 433 00:48:42,933 --> 00:48:46,562 We all have a brand here. 434 00:48:46,604 --> 00:48:49,767 Before birth, 435 00:48:49,807 --> 00:48:52,298 God shows the way. 436 00:48:52,343 --> 00:48:54,208 Heaven and everything. 437 00:48:54,244 --> 00:48:59,614 But before birth, God wants us to forget. 438 00:48:59,650 --> 00:49:04,417 So an angel touches... 439 00:49:04,455 --> 00:49:09,017 He touches me, like a newborn baby. 440 00:49:09,059 --> 00:49:12,495 Everyone has a sign. Here it is. 441 00:49:12,529 --> 00:49:16,522 Seorang malaikat menyentuh Anda saat lahir. Agar kamu lupa. 442 00:49:33,450 --> 00:49:38,717 Rosemary gets attacked a few months ago. 443 00:49:38,756 --> 00:49:46,356 We know that it will be restored. 444 00:49:46,397 --> 00:49:50,231 The right regime is the key. 445 00:49:50,267 --> 00:49:56,763 Slightly salt and lots of fresh vegetables. 446 00:49:56,807 --> 00:49:59,367 Still 30 60 days and... 447 00:49:59,410 --> 00:50:05,974 he will get better and better. 448 00:50:29,773 --> 00:50:33,174 Imitate Bette Davis, grandmother. 449 00:50:40,317 --> 00:50:43,343 You see how beautiful you are. 450 00:50:45,956 --> 00:50:48,083 You're beautiful, grandmother. 451 00:50:51,628 --> 00:50:54,358 Grandma, say hello. Speak. 452 00:50:54,398 --> 00:50:59,597 - Look at the camera and talk. - Speak right. 453 00:51:00,571 --> 00:51:02,732 Do you want me to say what? 454 00:51:02,773 --> 00:51:05,367 Talk about things. 455 00:51:13,584 --> 00:51:16,075 I don't want to. 456 00:51:20,090 --> 00:51:23,184 Remove your wig. 457 00:51:23,227 --> 00:51:25,422 Remove it. 458 00:51:27,998 --> 00:51:29,659 Next to it. 459 00:51:32,736 --> 00:51:35,830 Jonathan dreams.... 460 00:51:36,306 --> 00:51:39,742 that he found his father, Steve Caouette... 461 00:51:40,144 --> 00:51:44,808 over the phone all of Steve Caouette's world. 462 00:51:45,249 --> 00:51:49,413 In that dream, Steve told him... 463 00:51:49,953 --> 00:51:54,652 "I don't know where you are." 464 00:51:55,092 --> 00:52:00,428 "I don't know Renée is pregnant." 465 00:52:00,964 --> 00:52:07,733 "I was young at the time." 466 00:52:08,672 --> 00:52:12,768 "If I knew, I would come for you." 467 00:52:13,343 --> 00:52:19,339 "I will be a part of your life." 468 00:52:59,289 --> 00:53:01,814 p> 469 00:53:01,859 --> 00:53:04,521 War songs who did not leave me. 470 00:53:04,561 --> 00:53:07,724 "On wings and prayers." 471 00:53:07,764 --> 00:53:11,131 They all have meaning. 472 00:53:23,447 --> 00:53:29,852 Touch me, give me hope. 473 00:53:30,420 --> 00:53:35,084 Jonathan starts imagining plans 474 00:54:12,029 --> 00:54:13,291 to escape from there. 475 00:54:13,330 --> 00:54:16,163 We are sleeping 476 00:54:16,199 --> 00:54:17,928 and they have awakened us, they knock on our door 477 00:54:20,637 --> 00:54:24,971 and ask us to evacuate. 478 00:54:26,043 --> 00:54:30,742 You must know, I believe in you. 479 00:54:30,781 --> 00:54:34,615 You impress me and you make me happy. 480 00:54:48,198 --> 00:54:53,864 Jonathan left for New York in 1997 481 00:55:14,358 --> 00:55:16,952 He was relieved but worried 482 00:56:30,667 --> 00:56:33,261 Can I serving coffee? 483 00:56:33,303 --> 00:56:35,032 - Yes, yes. - Sure? 484 00:56:35,072 --> 00:56:36,300 What is your name? 485 00:56:44,114 --> 00:56:47,550 You didn't notice, you didn't listen . 486 00:56:47,651 --> 00:56:52,054 A year later 487 00:56:56,960 --> 00:57:01,329 Jonathan works as an actor 488 00:57:11,174 --> 00:57:15,270 He plays on Hair 489 00:57:21,885 --> 00:57:25,286 an ad 490 00:57:29,559 --> 00:57:33,620 and 17 student films 491 00:58:02,425 --> 00:58:06,521 In October 1998, Jonathan met David 492 00:59:53,136 --> 00:59:56,537 Renée came to New York for the first time in 2000 493 01:00:11,321 --> 01:00:14,813 Renée and Jonathan closer than before 494 01:00:53,496 --> 01:00:56,624 Oh! This is incredible. 495 01:00:56,666 --> 01:00:58,566 We will explode. 496 01:01:08,178 --> 01:01:09,509 Happy New Year. 497 01:01:09,546 --> 01:01:11,036 Happy New Year. 498 01:01:14,184 --> 01:01:15,913 What are you doing? 499 01:01:15,952 --> 01:01:17,544 Angel. 500 01:01:22,158 --> 01:01:23,989 Arises. 501 01:01:24,027 --> 01:01:26,052 Let's see the results. 502 01:01:32,369 --> 01:01:36,032 It looks like a nuclear angel. 503 01:01:38,608 --> 01:01:40,235 Where are we? 504 01:01:40,276 --> 01:01:41,504 At home. 505 01:01:41,544 --> 01:01:43,535 Where are we? 506 01:01:47,584 --> 01:01:49,950 - WHERE? - Where do we live? 507 01:01:49,986 --> 01:01:52,318 Greenpoint , 508 01:01:52,355 --> 01:01:53,754 Brooklyn. 509 01:01:54,557 --> 01:01:56,923 This is our New York apartment. 510 01:02:00,030 --> 01:02:01,463 You see how big it is! 511 01:02:16,846 --> 01:02:21,806 I read that Elizabeth Taylor < 512 01:02:21,851 --> 01:02:23,682 and I want it. 513 01:02:47,010 --> 01:02:51,538 I have been a victim of continuous abuse. 514 01:02:51,581 --> 01:02:53,879 It never stops. 515 01:02:53,917 --> 01:02:57,876 I'm still waiting to be hit, 516 01:02:57,921 --> 01:03:01,687 slapped or pulled by hair 517 01:03:01,724 --> 01:03:04,784 by the people who raised me. 518 01:03:04,828 --> 01:03:09,458 Old people who are sick > produce sick children. 519 01:03:09,499 --> 01:03:13,060 My children are Jonathan and David. 520 01:03:13,103 --> 01:03:16,266 They are amazing. 521 01:03:16,306 --> 01:03:20,402 When I was little, the mother who raised me 522 01:03:20,443 --> 01:03:25,142 chased me with a belt. 523 01:03:25,181 --> 01:03:28,446 I dropped myself in 524 01:03:28,485 --> 01:03:31,283 and he hit me from behind. 525 01:03:31,321 --> 01:03:34,518 Rosemary lifted me up. 526 01:03:34,557 --> 01:03:37,390 He suffered from schizophrenia. 527 01:03:37,427 --> 01:03:41,693 Very neurotic and very psychotic. 528 01:03:41,731 --> 01:03:44,393 He hit me from behind. 529 01:03:44,434 --> 01:03:48,928 He hit me for no reason. 530 01:03:48,972 --> 01:03:52,601 I am a victim of serious abuse 531 01:03:52,642 --> 01:03:59,070 and fortunately,
I don't reproduce it to my children. 532 01:03:59,115 --> 01:04:01,675 I want to break the cycle. 533 01:04:01,718 --> 01:04:03,879 Tell me the accident. 534 01:04:03,920 --> 01:04:06,081 I fell in the window. 535 01:04:06,122 --> 01:04:08,056 I fell! 536 01:04:08,091 --> 01:04:12,289 You remember the first time you stayed in a mental hospital? 537 01:04:12,328 --> 01:04:15,820 Tell me. It's not your fault. 538 01:04:15,865 --> 01:04:17,730 - Tidak - Itu bukan salahmu. 539 01:04:17,767 --> 01:04:19,667 No, no 540 01:04:19,702 --> 01:04:21,567 I am sick, okay? 541 01:04:21,604 --> 01:04:24,767 - You are not sick! - Yes, I am now! 542 01:04:25,742 --> 01:04:28,575 You don't want help me make this movie stupid? 543 01:04:28,611 --> 01:04:30,169 I don't have a stomach. 544 01:04:30,213 --> 01:04:35,116 Talk to me, mother. From the things you experience. 545 01:04:35,151 --> 01:04:38,678 p> 546 01:04:38,721 --> 01:04:40,848 It was you who spoke endlessly from these stories. 547 01:04:40,890 --> 01:04:42,585 From Rosemary and Adolph, and your doctor 548 01:04:42,625 --> 01:04:46,618 and how they screwed you up. 549 01:04:46,663 --> 01:04:52,533 Your father is Steve. 550 01:04:52,569 --> 01:04:56,061 He takes good care of us as long as we get married. 551 01:04:56,105 --> 01:04:59,233 We have a nice apartment. 552 01:04:59,275 --> 01:05:04,941 Beautiful furniture, we eat well 553 01:05:04,981 --> 01:05:07,916 and she is a loyal friend and husband 554 01:05:10,186 --> 01:05:12,654 at marriage. 555 01:05:12,689 --> 01:05:14,782 How did you meet? 556 01:05:15,792 --> 01:05:20,593 Oh my God! 557 01:05:20,630 --> 01:05:24,430 My therapist told me not to go back in time. 558 01:05:27,237 --> 01:05:30,934 I also have a lot of things To find out about me. 559 01:05:30,974 --> 01:05:33,875 We can talk each other, John. Without filming. 560 01:05:36,045 --> 01:05:40,072 In early 2002, Jonathan found his father again. 561 01:05:40,783 --> 01:05:43,513 Steve was in town for his work. 562 01:05:43,853 --> 01:05:47,846 He wants to come to Jonathan 563 01:05:50,093 --> 01:05:55,395 Rene is there by chance. 564 01:05:56,499 --> 01:06:01,835 This is the first time that the three met again 565 01:06:02,505 --> 01:06:07,841 in thirty years 566 01:06:09,145 --> 01:06:11,204 Hello, I'm in New York. 567 01:06:12,248 --> 01:06:15,240 Steve and I aren't close... 568 01:06:15,284 --> 01:06:19,152 but we end briefly. 569 01:06:19,422 --> 01:06:22,186 There's nothing worth a! 570 01:06:22,992 --> 01:06:25,119 Do you live near your father? 571 01:06:25,595 --> 01:06:27,563 I told you where I live. 572 01:06:27,897 --> 01:06:30,127 I don't know Houston, Rene. 573 01:06:30,867 --> 01:06:31,697 I love you! 574 01:06:32,001 --> 01:06:34,469 I am Dolly Parton's younger sister. 575 01:06:36,839 --> 01:06:39,706 I am a girl from the countryside. 576 01:06:39,909 --> 01:06:43,208 This goes beyond understanding, I say that. 577 01:06:44,080 --> 01:06:45,604 This is too much of us... . 578 01:06:45,648 --> 01:06:47,707 Leave everyone together. 579 01:06:47,917 --> 01:06:51,546 In New York. In this situation. 580 01:06:51,587 --> 01:06:52,645 I like this song. 581 01:06:52,855 --> 01:06:56,586 He licked, "Honey, I'm helping you!" 582 01:06:56,793 --> 01:06:58,658 I said, "Okay!" 583 01:06:58,695 --> 01:07:00,162 and we got married. 584 01:07:00,396 --> 01:07:03,888 Your mother died five years ago? 585 01:07:04,300 --> 01:07:06,598 I saw her before her death. 586 01:07:06,903 --> 01:07:08,837 She died for what? An attack? 587 01:07:09,072 --> 01:07:12,508 Attacks, Parkinson's disease. 588 01:07:12,742 --> 01:07:15,006 Have you had Parkinson's disease? 589 01:07:15,311 --> 01:07:17,211 Since when? 590 01:07:17,246 --> 01:07:18,941 Recently. I won't say anything. 591 01:07:19,148 --> 01:07:23,448 Why throw something like this? 592 01:07:23,753 --> 01:07:25,152 Saya tidak mengatakan apa pun. 593 01:07:25,188 --> 01:07:26,348 Yes, it's finished. 594 01:07:26,489 --> 01:07:28,480 Leave me alone. 595 01:07:28,524 --> 01:07:30,219 That's because of drugs. 596 01:07:30,460 --> 01:07:34,590 Listen, it's not polite to bring it back. 597 01:07:34,831 --> 01:07:36,799 Steve, I'm polite if it's okay. 598 01:07:42,438 --> 01:07:45,771 I don't have to justify myself. 599 01:07:46,075 --> 01:07:50,239 Don't save it yourself, talk. 600 01:07:50,513 --> 01:07:54,313 Stop the game this, Steve. Out of my life. 601 01:07:54,584 --> 01:07:56,745 He has come out of your life. 602 01:07:56,786 --> 01:08:01,052 I don't like how you told him about me. 603 01:08:01,758 --> 01:08:05,159 Stop, I have no power. > 604 01:08:05,528 --> 01:08:06,790 Sit down. 605 01:08:06,829 --> 01:08:08,057 I sit where I want. 606 01:08:08,431 --> 01:08:10,399 But you don't sit down to talk, 607 01:08:10,433 --> 01:08:12,958 you make us turn your head and body. 608 01:08:13,369 --> 01:08:14,961 Conflict of interest! 609 01:08:15,171 --> 01:08:17,503 You are outside the circle, 610 01:08:17,540 --> 01:08:19,599 we invite you to the circle. 611 01:08:19,876 --> 01:08:23,175 For sex parties, Steve? 612 01:08:25,548 --> 01:08:29,211 Steve and Jonathan keep in touch. 613 01:08:29,719 --> 01:08:32,745 The next day Ren e is back in Texas. 614 01:08:49,305 --> 01:08:53,105 Jonathan, Adolph will keep me locked up, < br /> I can't stand it anymore. 615 01:08:53,142 --> 01:08:57,943 He shouted at me, I could no longer. 616 01:08:57,980 --> 01:09:02,076 Call your mother, 617 01:09:02,118 --> 01:09:04,313 this is an emergency. 618 01:09:04,353 --> 01:09:06,548 Call. 619 01:09:06,589 --> 01:09:11,492 Adolph sent me to the hospital, he made me look like a patient. 620 01:09:11,527 --> 01:09:15,327 They will pick me up, handcuff me 621 01:09:15,364 --> 01:09:18,527 and take me God knows Where. 622 01:09:18,568 --> 01:09:23,301 must be banned. I'm desperate. 623 01:09:23,339 --> 01:09:28,971 I took my lithium, I'm a good girl, I'm normal. 624 01:09:29,011 --> 01:09:33,243 Jonathan, I will leave Texas, 625 01:09:33,282 --> 01:09:36,547 I will stay with you. 626 01:09:36,586 --> 01:09:40,420 David or Jonathan, call Rene. 627 01:09:40,456 --> 01:09:44,483 David or Jonathan, call Rene. 628 01:10:20,296 --> 01:10:24,289 Upon arrival in Texas 629 01:10:25,368 --> 01:10:29,099 After five years of absence 630 01:10:29,972 --> 01:10:33,635 Jonathan found 631 01:10:34,543 --> 01:10:38,570 a house that was damaged 632 01:10:39,215 --> 01:10:47,452 and his mother Rene, 633 01:10:48,457 --> 01:10:50,049 brain... 634 01:10:50,092 --> 01:10:52,083 I returned. 635 01:10:53,262 --> 01:10:55,457 by lithium overdose 636 01:10:55,498 --> 01:10:58,023 My apartment became very dirty. 637 01:10:59,368 --> 01:11:02,030 I fell. 638 01:11:04,907 --> 01:11:06,568 How are you doing? 639 01:11:06,609 --> 01:11:08,099 Good. 640 01:11:10,313 --> 01:11:12,304 You are beautiful. 641 01:11:41,077 --> 01:11:44,410 Everything is fine . 642 01:11:51,253 --> 01:11:53,551 Jonathan lives 643 01:11:53,589 --> 01:11:55,716 longer than expected 644 01:11:56,258 --> 01:12:00,217 Jonathan contacted social services 645 01:12:01,097 --> 01:12:03,065 Jonathan stayed at Michael's house, 646 01:12:03,099 --> 01:12:05,033 his first girlfriend 647 01:12:07,703 --> 01:12:10,866 Your mother loved you so much. 648 01:12:10,906 --> 01:12:12,669 Don't touch it . 649 01:12:12,708 --> 01:12:14,938 I don't touch anything, leave me. 650 01:12:14,977 --> 01:12:19,175 You tremble. You will lower my camera. 651 01:12:19,215 --> 01:12:21,479 Fourteen, fourteen. .. 652 01:12:33,262 --> 01:12:35,025 I say fourteen? 653 01:12:35,965 --> 01:12:40,299 That is not my fault. I speak strange, this is me. 654 01:12:58,521 --> 01:13:02,150 This is a pumpkin, little pumpkin. 655 01:13:09,265 --> 01:13:11,927 I swear it's a pumpkin. 656 01:13:16,939 --> 01:13:21,967 Smile, you're filmed! 657 01:13:26,849 --> 01:13:28,874 "Smashing Pumpkins"! 658 01:13:31,821 --> 01:13:33,686 It's snowing . 659 01:13:37,993 --> 01:13:40,018 Real temptation. 660 01:13:41,363 --> 01:13:43,797 Jonathan went crazy. 661 01:13:45,534 --> 01:13:51,097 A small pumpkin that is dense. Return me and empty me... 662 01:14:16,232 --> 01:14:19,360 I kiss the pumpkin... 663 01:14:21,470 --> 01:14:22,835 It's cha cha cha. 664 01:14:22,872 --> 01:14:24,897 It's just rumba. 665 01:14:36,585 --> 01:14:39,019 Dance the pumpkin... 666 01:14:44,293 --> 01:14:46,488 Dancing rumba. 667 01:14:47,963 --> 01:14:50,261 Make a show. 668 01:15:13,489 --> 01:15:16,151 Play the doll. 669 01:15:18,761 --> 01:15:20,524 She's cute. 670 01:15:46,622 --> 01:15:48,681 She's cute. 671 01:15:48,724 --> 01:15:51,249 672 01:15:57,266 --> 01:16:00,201 p> 673 01:16:04,340 --> 01:16:06,740 Here I am 674 01:16:13,682 --> 01:16:17,482 This was my dinner yesterday. 675 01:16:17,519 --> 01:16:19,953 I went up before I experienced an attack. 676 01:16:19,989 --> 01:16:21,718 Close the door. 677 01:16:21,757 --> 01:16:22,985 Who which encourages you to set it 678 01:16:23,025 --> 01:16:27,689 electric shock again and again? 679 01:16:27,730 --> 01:16:28,856 Who? 680 01:16:28,898 --> 01:16:34,268 Doctor. 681 01:16:34,303 --> 01:16:37,670 You don't know that electricity on the head is dangerous? 682 01:16:37,706 --> 01:16:41,142 No. 683 01:16:41,176 --> 01:16:42,507 I want to know if he will be normal without electric shock. 684 01:16:42,544 --> 01:16:47,504 If everything will happen to him . 685 01:16:47,549 --> 01:16:52,953 He is normal. Only depressed from time to time. 686 01:16:52,988 --> 01:16:56,515 He deceives. 687 01:16:56,558 --> 01:17:00,688 That your mother abused her, stroking her pussy 688 01:17:00,729 --> 01:17:02,822 and she thought you weren't not her biological parents. 689 01:17:02,865 --> 01:17:05,925 Sometimes she believed that Elizabeth Taylor is her mother. 690 01:17:05,968 --> 01:17:07,401 Elizabeth Taylor! 691 01:17:07,436 --> 01:17:09,199 Do you know what she said to me? 692 01:17:09,238 --> 01:17:12,071 That she was born with four ends of the breast. 693 01:17:12,107 --> 01:17:16,134 And a hermaphrodite. Man. 694 01:17:16,178 --> 01:17:19,807 Either he deceives and believes what he says. 695 01:17:19,848 --> 01:17:21,713 Or there is a part of v rit. 696 01:17:21,750 --> 01:17:25,208 We are happy with the family, we love God. 697 01:17:25,254 --> 01:17:28,746 I know more than you. 698 01:17:28,791 --> 01:17:31,259 Father, a world full of hatred. 699 01:17:31,293 --> 01:17:33,022 - No, just a little. - If father. 700 01:17:33,062 --> 01:17:35,963 This family serves experience in government? 701 01:17:35,998 --> 01:17:37,363 Yes, of course. 702 01:17:37,399 --> 01:17:43,395 Adolphe, your memory side. Shut up! 703 01:17:43,439 --> 01:17:45,634 - Let's see, baby. - Your memories are fucking! 704 01:17:45,674 --> 01:17:48,040 Bad words in beautiful mouths. 705 01:17:48,077 --> 01:17:49,135 Damn you! 706 01:17:49,178 --> 01:17:51,612 Father , you lock Rene in the closet? 707 01:17:51,647 --> 01:17:55,139 Jonathan, don't talk about a! 708 01:17:55,184 --> 01:17:56,412 No. I... 709 01:17:56,452 --> 01:17:59,944 Adolph, don't talk about a. And you are Jonathan, stop! 710 01:17:59,988 --> 01:18:02,218 It's enough now. 711 01:18:02,257 --> 01:18:04,020 Why do you want me ? 712 01:18:04,059 --> 01:18:07,893 The questions that you asked me! I didn't do anything 713 01:18:07,930 --> 01:18:11,058 You quipped something. 714 01:18:11,100 --> 01:18:13,091 I didn't quip anything. 715 01:18:13,135 --> 01:18:15,968 Give me peace, and do what you have to do. 716 01:18:16,005 --> 01:18:18,473 I don't insinuate anything. 717 01:18:18,507 --> 01:18:21,533 AIl, police. I want to talk... 718 01:18:21,577 --> 01:18:23,807 Adolph, are you crazy? 719 01:18:23,846 --> 01:18:25,814 - Tidak, saya ingin bicara ... - Ya, kamu gila. 720 01:18:25,848 --> 01:18:28,578 I want to talk to Buddy. 721 01:18:28,617 --> 01:18:31,142 Come now. 722 01:18:31,186 --> 01:18:35,646 We have an agitated man here. Come. 723 01:18:35,691 --> 01:18:39,286 Take me out a. 724 01:18:39,328 --> 01:18:42,024 I don't want him to film me. 725 01:19:11,660 --> 01:19:17,326 Jonathan returns to New York with Ren e 726 01:19:34,750 --> 01:19:38,311 Will we get my paper tomorrow? 727 01:19:38,353 --> 01:19:42,346 Yes, what time should you be there? 728 01:19:42,491 --> 01:19:45,688 You have to wake me up, my sleep is stale. 729 01:21:17,553 --> 01:21:19,453 Now at five o'clock in the morning 730 01:21:19,488 --> 01:21:23,288 and I want to make a movie in shadow, 731 01:21:23,325 --> 01:21:25,486 like when I was a child. 732 01:21:25,527 --> 01:21:28,655 The sun will rise and I must hurry up. 733 01:21:31,033 --> 01:21:36,130 My mother doesn't sleep, she suffers from insomnia. 734 01:21:38,307 --> 01:21:42,903 She's in the bottom and she's spinning around. 735 01:21:42,945 --> 01:21:51,284 I'm afraid to let myself talking. 736 01:21:55,057 --> 01:22:01,690 Is it because I am an adult 737 01:22:01,730 --> 01:22:05,860 that they told me: "You look worried!" 738 01:22:08,237 --> 01:22:12,003 or "Why is this tense face"? 739 01:22:13,475 --> 01:22:16,706 or "Can't you take one sentence? " 740 01:22:16,745 --> 01:22:19,339 or" What's your problem? " 741 01:22:22,184 --> 01:22:27,383 We saw three times Like in the good past 742 01:22:27,422 --> 01:22:30,255 with Goldie Hawn and Chevy Chase. 743 01:22:30,292 --> 01:22:34,729 Previously we could do this, watching movies several times. 744 01:22:40,602 --> 01:22:43,594 And damn it! 745 01:22:50,245 --> 01:22:53,772 I don't want to finish like my mother 746 01:22:53,815 --> 01:22:56,147 and I was afraid because, 747 01:23:02,891 --> 01:23:05,052 when I was a child 748 01:23:05,093 --> 01:23:10,190 and she was my age, 31 years old 749 01:23:16,471 --> 01:23:20,805 she was better than today. 750 01:23:26,748 --> 01:23:29,148 I really love my mother. 751 01:23:29,184 --> 01:23:32,585 Maybe crazy, 752 01:23:34,423 --> 01:23:37,085 but I can't avoid it. 753 01:23:38,760 --> 01:23:41,092 He lives in me . 754 01:23:43,098 --> 01:23:46,431 He is in my hair, Behind my eyes... 755 01:23:49,304 --> 01:23:51,636 under my skin. 756 01:23:54,142 --> 01:23:56,133 He... 757 01:23:57,012 --> 01:23:58,639 at the bottom. 758 01:24:02,217 --> 01:24:03,946 I stopped. 759 01:24:09,291 --> 01:24:11,282 I love you 760 01:24:47,696 --> 01:24:51,757 I love you 761 01:24:51,800 --> 01:24:54,496 p> 762 01:24:54,536 --> 01:24:57,130 Clean your mind to face a setback of luck. 763 01:24:57,172 --> 01:25:00,232 Don't panic with too much fantasizing. 764 01:25:00,275 --> 01:25:04,473 Fatigue and loneliness cause fear. 765 01:25:04,513 --> 01:25:06,276 Discipline but tolerant of yourself. 766 01:25:06,314 --> 01:25:10,910 You are a child from this universe, like a tree and a star. 767 01:25:10,952 --> 01:25:14,444 You have the right to be here. 768 01:25:14,489 --> 01:25:18,585 Apart from sadness and aspirations, in the confusing noise of life 769 01:25:18,627 --> 01:25:20,356 remains calm with your soul. 770 01:25:20,395 --> 01:25:23,956 With his deception, his work and dreams were destroyed, 771 01:25:23,999 --> 01:25:26,092 this world beautiful. 772 01:31:04,973 --> 01:31:07,965 Adaptation: Claudine Mulard 773 01:31:08,009 --> 01:31:11,001 Worldsrc.com