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site I have a strange dream.
What do you dream of?
From my mother.
- Nightmare? - Yes
Rain? </ P>
We go to bed. </ P>
Lithium overdose
Prognosis: Lithium toxicity can turn off...
Maggie, this is Jonathan Caouette.
This is about my mother, Renée LeBlanc.
He still hasn't spoken?
They started dialysis?
Which one is
I search the Internet, It looks serious. </ P>
I save the key before going to the train station. </ P>
I will experience an anxiety attack. </ P>
And I'm sick, I have 40% fever. It must be stressful.
Go forward with worry
in the midst of noise and anger, and find peace in comfort.
Have a good relationship with all, without making concessions.
Express your truth calmly and clearly.
Listen to the others, the boring and fools also have stories.
Avoid people who are loud and noisy. They attack the mind.
If you measure yourself to others, you will be in vain and bitter
because we always find stronger and are less powerful than ourselves.
Enjoy your success by praying.
Concentrate on your career, even humble.
This is an asset faces a setback of luck.
Be careful in business, the world is full of fraudsters.
But know how to recognize the virtues of
Many are pursuing ideals. Life is full of heroism.
Small, two small, three small Indians...
- I don't know what will happen. - Terrible!
Johnny Carson must invite us!
We will make a screen!
Once upon a time in a village in Texas...
in the early 1950s
an excellent man who met a very good woman
He, Adolph, and him, Rosemary
love and marriage
They have a beautiful little girl
Everything in their lives
bright
happy
and promising
Adolph has a prosperous business
Small family grocery
At the age of 11,
Ren e is representative by a famous photographer
from New York
visiting this Texas village
This photographer is Ren dee
a young model appears on the corner
We see it in emissions,
in fashion magazines,
and in famous ads
When Rene was twelve
everything in his life gets sad
René plays on the roof of the house
René makes the fall
he lands on his feet without bending your knees
Rene is paralyzed
for six months
Rosemary and Adolph wonder
if the paralysis isn't on his head
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Neighbors who are family friends
advise Rosemary and Adolph
for electric shocks
twice a week
for two year
During his treatment
René defends his beauty
After he is cured
when he goes out,
it looks like she sunbathing
will make her yawn
In 1972, Renée met sales representatives
Ren e and Steve fall in love
they get married quickly, but soon separate.
Ren e has bb...
Did you read the alphabet?
Don't know she's pregnant
and can't assume her family
Steve has left.
From 1965 to 1999
Renée looks deeper 100 mental hospitals
The notes show
which he did not initially
certain problems...
Whatever you say registered, mother.
What do you mean?
During the winter of 1977
Adolph's shopping meat burned.
Rosemary had a hysterectomy.
René, in a psychotic state
take Jonathan to Chicago
Monday, February 24, 1975...
without money or housing.
The problem is not long.
Rene is raped before Jonathan
by a man who has gathered them on the road.
René asks Adolph to send him money
to return by bus.
After a few hours of traveling
Renée and Jonathan are thrown from the bus.
Renée disturbs passengers. p>
Jonathan is in the family.
Rene goes to jail
for six weeks Marion, in Illinois.
Return to Texas ,
Jonathan was kidnapped Rosemary and Adolph
by children's services
and placed in families in Texas
as long as these two years.
Jonathan is a victim of abuse
psychic and physical
she was tied and beaten
by her adoptive parents.
Jonathan was 4 years old.
That's when Rosemary and Adolph
agree that Rene
continue the electric shock. </ P>
After the last treatment
there is almost nothing left
René's personality
or his thoughts.
Rene is 25 years old.
Rosemary and Adolph have custody of Jonathan
in 1979.
In his adopted family
Jonathan had Ren forgottene that was a little forgotten.
Ren e stay
Hospital Austin
from 1977 to 1980
Rosemary and Adolph Jonathan's adoption
towards the end of 1981
Did it work?
My name is...
Hilary Chapman Laura Lou Gerina.
People will believe a statement!
Jimmy said that if I wear too much makeup, I look like a slut.
p>
I gave my name.
I talked about myself and my baby, Caroline.
I live in hell.
You made me nervous.
What year, 1969!
I am a modern wife.
It started when Jimmy came home late.
He started drinking.
I was waiting for Caroline...
and I became fat.
She is two years old now.
He hit me.
When he came home drunk
he hit me.
He sucks this medicine and it rises to him in the brain.
I can't speak.
It's hard for me.
One night , he has a weapon,
I am tied to a bed
he looks at my head
and he says: "I will kill you, bitch."
That's the opposite that happened.
One night, I took a gun
and I shot it.
Wake up, my angel.
Come on, my love.
Like a.
Come on now.
Hello cam ra!
I must be terrible.
Rosemary, Jonathan's grandmother
I have "TB".
I have "TB": My illness is called tobacco and beer.
Don't show my beautiful legs.
I have to buy shoes.
You are stubborn.
I'm Charlie from the Chocolate Factory.
"Charlie from the Chocolate Factory."
I will dye my hair.
What color do you think?
In blonde.
No, it's too old to be blonde.
Lots of nicotine.
Cigarettes stick to the lips, on each side.
That's not true, John?
You collected testimonies, < br /> and I will tell the truth.
Hello, Pokus!
My name is Shirelle.
It happened to you to sit... .
Do you like my hair style?
It's over? Fini. </ P>
My secret is crazy. </ P>
My name is Shirelle. </ P>
And you see...
I'm fine, now.
I don't take anything. I'm not a camera.
My throat hurts.
I forgot my birth.
They diagnosed him as a schizophrenic.
I really don't know what he has.
He suffered skull trauma fell from the roof.
He took LSD, PCP. He was a hippie from the 60's.
I'm very disturbed.
Even if I'm not tall yet in a perfect environment.
That makes me fin.
I have this idea that we are in another dimension.
I took this medicine. What exactly, I don't know.
PCP or LSD. I have misidentified my brain.
I was given a joint.
I hope I won't die.
I am not personalized. It has reached the brain.
I have the impression to dream all the time.
I forgot how it felt to be normal.
Sometimes I'm scared.
That's both where I talked about him and his vagina.
It's not my style, grossi ret s.
Life is a journey.
It's like an endless dream.
I am not influenced by homo.
From that moment on I became gay.
Maybe sexual harassment.
I want everything.
I don't even like to suck such things.
That's just an idea... I don't like doing it.
Absolutely not.
I really love my mother.
I can't stand it anymore.
The day is rotten.
I don't want to die.
I'm not crazy.
I didn't go home.
I live here.
For others of my bad life.
He kidnapped me, was taken to Chicago.
He was raped in front of me.
All stories about this tunnel, underground...
The framework we found...
Don't know if I'm gay.
Except that I have homosexual tendencies.
I don't know why, I am a wise writer.
They think I'm crazy. I'm not crazy, I'm just stupid.
I'm falling apart.
That's a really annoying idea.
Because of that voice...
He tortured me.
I want to die.
Between 1987 and 1993
Rosemary and Adolph Jonathan's hospitalization eight times.
The first hospitalization was triggered
by certain incidents.
In the fall of 1986
Jonathan visited Ren e
at home.
He met a merchant. </ P>
He wanted to try marijuana. </ P>
The dealer gave him two connections. </ P>
Jonathan went home
and smoked both joints.
It is known later that these joints
contain PCP
and formaldehyde.
Since that night.
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Jonathan can't focus anymore
and feels like you are living in a dream.
Repeated episodes emotional detachment
where the subject observes his mental and physical abilities
as in a dream.
Are you see my transplant? I mean my implant.
If you cut your hair like this person?
Length on one side and short on the other.
At the age of 13, Jonathan attended "Visions",
New gay Wave club for adults.
He interpreted play-back
and participate in screening marathons
films such as Liquid Sky ,
Christiane F . and Dirty Duck .
Because he is underage,
he is shaky...
in a Gothic girl </ p >
At the "Visions" club, Jonathan meets three people
Spooky introduces Jonathan to punk rock
Stacey and Bam Bam
start Jonathan
in the underground cinema.
The Ankle Cutter , 1988
Jonathan's first film in super 8
Dirty Whore , 1987
What is chaos this? I need a tooth!
Please!
You made me a sinner!
Garyon saliva and blood , 1988
- You're not forced... - What's red? </ P>
What, red? The color is black and white. </ P>
I see a red light, John.
- It's nothing. - Put AC!
- Grandma, be careful... - I don't want to! </ P>
Look and hold the camera like that. </ P>
Hold it like this and frame it to me. </ P>
Put it on your lap.
- Like that? - Yes
The weather is getting brighter but it's still raining.
Everything is back to normal.
It's funny when times change,
from the sun to the storm.
I don't have teeth anymore.
Houston is a good city for baseball.
I like baseball, it's a favorite sport for parents. </ P>
I'm proud of Houston, and don't bother Texas. </ P>
I have something to say.
And if you don't sit there, right now,
I explode your head.
I have some things to do, I have to alone.
I have a resolution to take about my con life.
I can't bite my nails.
I can't let them grow , because I'm nervous.
When did you return it, camera?
Jonathan, I want to go to the bathroom. Don't film me.
That is pornography.
I told you to use the handle. </ P>
Get blind, Jonathan! </ P>
I told you to always be in control. </ P>
Talk to the camera. You are ready. Please. </ P>
Hello, Houston. I am better.
Therapy helps me, I'm better.
Okay, Houston, can you hear me?
Have a nice day. I love you too.
- I love you. - I love you.
Will we leave?
He woke up, he saw.
He can't see or hear, he is like dead.
At the age of 14, Jonathan had a recurring dream.
He dreamed of a tall blonde boy
who looked like an adult version
from Little Prince .
He began to imagine
in rock shows like Hair.
Jonathan thinks if someday
he meets producer Robert Stigwood
they can collaborate
an opera stone on Jonathan's life.
Zero Mostel will play Adolph.
Louise Lasser: Rosemary.
Robbie Benson: Jonathan.
Joni Mitchell: Ren e. </ P>
Mavis Staples will be a social worker. </ P>
Nina Hagen and Klaus Nomi will play
adoptive parents
and the Zoom
forces will be ch?
The adopted child.
That's incomparable.
That's cool.
But we're lucky. It's cooler in other places.
That's why I like Houston. Cold but not lasting.
Rene at home
I want to show you my earrings
are bought at a boutique Elizabeth Taylor, in California,
San Francisco. </ P>
He has another shop in Houston. </ P>
He wears it in the pub for White Diamonds. </ P>
I like this curly
because they are white diamonds. </ P>
They belong to Elizabeth Taylor, who brought them. </ P> >
I have to go LA
take business
for my son who lives in Houston.
That doesn't make sense but only that comes to me.
I am captivated by this type of course dramatic that looks like Nick Drake.
He lives in the forest and makes music.
He tattooed DK and ZZ Top on the legs.
15 o'clock, Jonathan has his first girlfriend
They read Carrie and The Exorcist .
Who are you, Regan?
I am Pazuzu!
Their relationship lasts until bac.
Meet you, bitch! I disturb all the bastards.
In high school, Jonathan and Michael mount a piece
Music version
David Lynch movie
All actors interpret
Marianne Faithfull in playing again.
Lyceum of Gloversville, Houston, Texas, 1988
This same one sees Marianne Faithfull
and her report is Mick Jagger
like a metaphor
for the role of Dorothy Vallens. </ P>
Whether you are rock,
where you are wiser when others stretch.
You move your fingers, your hips, and you move your shoulders.
I like this rhythm!
I will duplicate it.
It's like being someone else!
Do you see that?
Why did you save this?
Why? For my protection. He is sued at night. </ P>
Too many robberies. </ P>
Aku sayang kamu, ayah.
Me too...
- My new cellphone. - Great!
There are no people at the end of the line. He's new. </ p >
Rene entered and left the hospital
Between 1986 and 1991,
Jonathan's adolescence,
was a reaction to his mental illness,
chaos and lack of "structure"
in his family unit,
Jonathan "skip acting"
by destroying the house and himself.
He broke the window and the furniture,
cursed and insulted his family
and committed a suicide per week.
Say hello, how how are you? How old are you, Jonathan?
- 20 years. - Will you have 21 soon?
In two months.
How old do you have David?
13 years.
When are you 14 years old?
In December.
It's been three months?
This is September 1993 and I always smoke.
I have to be in New York.
You will be without family if I die.
You will not have anyone.
- That not true. - Yes
You only have me.
You never like me for who I am.
We all have a brand here.
Before birth,
God shows the way.
Heaven and everything.
But before birth, God wants us to forget. </ P>
So an angel touches...
He touches me, like a newborn baby. </ P>
Everyone has a sign. Here it is. </ P>
Seorang malaikat menyentuh Anda saat lahir. Agar kamu lupa.
Rosemary gets attacked a few months ago.
We know that it will be restored.
The right regime is the key.
Slightly salt and lots of fresh vegetables.
Still 30 60 days and...
he will get better and better.
Imitate Bette Davis, grandmother.
You see how beautiful you are.
You're beautiful, grandmother.
Grandma, say hello. Speak. </ P>
- Look at the camera and talk. - Speak right. </ P>
Do you want me to say what? </ P>
Talk about things.
I don't want to.
Remove your wig.
Remove it.
Next to it.
Jonathan dreams....
that he found his father, Steve Caouette...
over the phone all of Steve Caouette's world.
In that dream, Steve told him...
"I don't know where you are."
"I don't know Renée is pregnant."
"I was young at the time."
"If I knew, I would come for you."
"I will be a part of your life."
p>
War songs who did not leave me.
"On wings and prayers."
They all have meaning.
Touch me, give me hope. </ P>
Jonathan starts imagining plans
to escape from there. </ P>
We are sleeping
and they have awakened us, they knock on our door
and ask us to evacuate.
You must know, I believe in you.
You impress me and you make me happy.
Jonathan left for New York in 1997
He was relieved but worried
Can I serving coffee?
- Yes, yes. - Sure?
What is your name?
You didn't notice, you didn't listen .
A year later
Jonathan works as an actor
He plays on Hair
an ad
and 17 student films
In October 1998, Jonathan met David
Renée came to New York for the first time in 2000
Renée and Jonathan closer than before
Oh! This is incredible. </ P>
We will explode. </ P>
Happy New Year. </ P>
What are you doing?
Angel.
Arises.
Let's see the results.
It looks like a nuclear angel.
Where are we?
At home.
Where are we?
- WHERE? - Where do we live?
Greenpoint ,
Brooklyn.
This is our New York apartment.
You see how big it is!
I read that Elizabeth Taylor <
and I want it.
I have been a victim of continuous abuse.
It never stops.
I'm still waiting to be hit,
slapped or pulled by hair
by the people who raised me.
Old people who are sick > produce sick children.
My children are Jonathan and David.
They are amazing.
When I was little, the mother who raised me
chased me with a belt.
I dropped myself in
and he hit me from behind.
Rosemary lifted me up.
He suffered from schizophrenia.
Very neurotic and very psychotic.
He hit me from behind.
He hit me for no reason.
I am a victim of serious abuse
and fortunately, I don't reproduce it to my children. </ P>
I want to break the cycle. </ P>
Tell me the accident. </ P>
I fell in the window. </ P>
I fell!
You remember the first time you stayed in a mental hospital?
Tell me. It's not your fault. </ P>
- Tidak - Itu bukan salahmu.
No, no
I am sick, okay?
- You are not sick! - Yes, I am now!
You don't want help me make this movie stupid?
I don't have a stomach.
Talk to me, mother. From the things you experience.
p>
It was you who spoke endlessly from these stories.
From Rosemary and Adolph, and your doctor
and how they screwed you up.
Your father is Steve.
He takes good care of us as long as we get married.
We have a nice apartment.
Beautiful furniture, we eat well
and she is a loyal friend and husband
at marriage. </ P>
How did you meet? </ P>
Oh my God! </ P>
My therapist told me not to go back in time.
I also have a lot of things To find out about me.
We can talk each other, John. Without filming.
In early 2002, Jonathan found his father again.
Steve was in town for his work.
He wants to come to Jonathan
Rene is there by chance. </ P>
This is the first time that the three met again
in thirty years
Hello, I'm in New York.
Steve and I aren't close...
but we end briefly.
There's nothing worth a!
Do you live near your father?
I told you where I live.
I don't know Houston, Rene.
I love you!
I am Dolly Parton's younger sister.
I am a girl from the countryside.
This goes beyond understanding, I say that.
This is too much of us... .
Leave everyone together.
In New York. In this situation. </ P>
I like this song. </ P>
He licked, "Honey, I'm helping you!" </ P>
I said, "Okay!"
and we got married.
Your mother died five years ago?
I saw her before her death.
She died for what? An attack? </ P>
Attacks, Parkinson's disease. </ P>
Have you had Parkinson's disease? </ P>
Since when? </ P>
Recently. I won't say anything. </ P>
Why throw something like this? </ P>
Saya tidak mengatakan apa pun.
Yes, it's finished.
Leave me alone.
That's because of drugs.
Listen, it's not polite to bring it back.
Steve, I'm polite if it's okay.
I don't have to justify myself.
Don't save it yourself, talk.
Stop the game this, Steve. Out of my life. </ P>
He has come out of your life. </ P>
I don't like how you told him about me. </ P>
Stop, I have no power. </ P> >
Sit down.
I sit where I want.
But you don't sit down to talk,
you make us turn your head and body.
Conflict of interest!
You are outside the circle,
we invite you to the circle.
For sex parties, Steve?
Steve and Jonathan keep in touch.
The next day Ren e is back in Texas.
Jonathan, Adolph will keep me locked up, < br /> I can't stand it anymore.
He shouted at me, I could no longer.
Call your mother,
this is an emergency.
Call.
Adolph sent me to the hospital, he made me look like a patient.
They will pick me up, handcuff me
and take me God knows Where.
must be banned. I'm desperate.
I took my lithium, I'm a good girl, I'm normal.
Jonathan, I will leave Texas,
I will stay with you.
David or Jonathan, call Rene.
Upon arrival in Texas
After five years of absence
Jonathan found
a house that was damaged
and his mother Rene,
brain...
I returned.
by lithium overdose
My apartment became very dirty.
I fell.
How are you doing?
Good.
You are beautiful.
Everything is fine .
Jonathan lives
longer than expected
Jonathan contacted social services
Jonathan stayed at Michael's house,
his first girlfriend
Your mother loved you so much.
Don't touch it .
I don't touch anything, leave me.
You tremble. You will lower my camera.
Fourteen, fourteen. ..
I say fourteen?
That is not my fault. I speak strange, this is me.
This is a pumpkin, little pumpkin.
I swear it's a pumpkin.
Smile, you're filmed!
"Smashing Pumpkins"!
It's snowing .
Real temptation.
Jonathan went crazy.
A small pumpkin that is dense. Return me and empty me...
I kiss the pumpkin...
It's cha cha cha.
It's just rumba.
Dance the pumpkin...
Dancing rumba.
Make a show.
Play the doll.
She's cute.
p>
Here I am
This was my dinner yesterday.
I went up before I experienced an attack.
Close the door.
Who which encourages you to set it
electric shock again and again?
Who?
Doctor.
You don't know that electricity on the head is dangerous?
No.
I want to know if he will be normal without electric shock.
If everything will happen to him .
He is normal. Only depressed from time to time.
He deceives.
That your mother abused her, stroking her pussy
and she thought you weren't not her biological parents.
Sometimes she believed that Elizabeth Taylor is her mother. </ P>
Elizabeth Taylor! </ P>
Do you know what she said to me? </ P>
That she was born with four ends of the breast.
And a hermaphrodite. Man. </ P>
Either he deceives and believes what he says. </ P>
Or there is a part of v rit. </ P>
We are happy with the family, we love God.
I know more than you.
Father, a world full of hatred.
- No, just a little. - If father.
This family serves experience in government?
Yes, of course.
Adolphe, your memory side. Shut up!
- Let's see, baby. - Your memories are fucking!
Bad words in beautiful mouths.
Damn you!
Father , you lock Rene in the closet?
Jonathan, don't talk about a!
No. I...
Adolph, don't talk about a. And you are Jonathan, stop! </ P>
It's enough now. </ P>
Why do you want me ?
The questions that you asked me! I didn't do anything
You quipped something.
I didn't quip anything.
Give me peace, and do what you have to do.
I don't insinuate anything.
AIl, police. I want to talk...
Adolph, are you crazy? </ P>
- Tidak, saya ingin bicara ... - Ya, kamu gila.
I want to talk to Buddy.
Come now.
We have an agitated man here. Come. </ P>
Take me out a. </ P>
I don't want him to film me. </ P>
Jonathan returns to New York with Ren e
Will we get my paper tomorrow? </ P>
Yes, what time should you be there? </ P>
You have to wake me up, my sleep is stale. </ P>
Now at five o'clock in the morning
and I want to make a movie in shadow,
like when I was a child. </ P>
The sun will rise and I must hurry up.
My mother doesn't sleep, she suffers from insomnia.
She's in the bottom and she's spinning around.
I'm afraid to let myself talking.
Is it because I am an adult
that they told me: "You look worried!"
or "Why is this tense face"?
or "Can't you take one sentence? "
or" What's your problem? "
We saw three times Like in the good past
with Goldie Hawn and Chevy Chase. </ P>
Previously we could do this, watching movies several times. </ P>
And damn it! </ P>
I don't want to finish like my mother
and I was afraid because,
when I was a child
and she was my age, 31 years old
she was better than today.
I really love my mother.
Maybe crazy,
but I can't avoid it.
He lives in me .
He is in my hair, Behind my eyes...
under my skin.
He...
at the bottom.
I stopped.
I love you
p>
Clean your mind to face a setback of luck.
Don't panic with too much fantasizing.
Fatigue and loneliness cause fear.
Discipline but tolerant of yourself.
You are a child from this universe, like a tree and a star.
You have the right to be here.
Apart from sadness and aspirations, in the confusing noise of life
remains calm with your soul.
With his deception, his work and dreams were destroyed,
this world beautiful.
Adaptation: Claudine Mulard
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