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[man] I'm a child type
it's shy,

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but only outside my house.

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When I am alone in my room, I can feel like myself.

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But when I am in my room
and in front of others,

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I feel like I have to wear it
sort of ahead

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and act like everyone else.

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But I know I don't like others.

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There is special excitement
in the air for 40,000 fans

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who is waiting for Madonna
to go onstage.

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In fact, at every stop along the 90,000 mile tour,

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Madonna has caused a commotion.

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[dance music]

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[cheering]

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I definitely know why we were chosen,
why Jose and I were chosen.

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Because he definitely wants us
to choreograph Vogue videos...

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then tour afterwards.

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We already have strange things like this.

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Our group is well known

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in the underground scene in New York City.

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[man # 2]
Madonna comes to New York to meet us.

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He is like, "Hey, what's wrong?
I hear a lot about you

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and these cool things you do.

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I want to see.
Will you show me? "

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[woman] Very clear.

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Jose is very young.
He is gifted in various forms of dance. the best.

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I think, like he does.

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We bring our flamboyant as a warning.

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Yes, we have earrings.
Yes, we have eyeliner.

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But don't mistake this--
[chuckles] for weaknesses.

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[Male] I remember seeing that ad.

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I have just experienced the worst summer
in my life.

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I don't have money to eat.
I don't have money, like, traveling around.

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I experienced a very bad mullet.

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I have never seen so many people at an audition.
It's madness.

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It runs along the block.

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[Male] I'm still young and I'm hungry
and America is new to me.

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I arrived, eh, June & apos; 87.

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June 20, & 87;

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And then after that
three years in New York,

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I get a job with Madonna.

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It's very wild.
I'm panicking now.
Belgian stress.

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I always want everyone to see me,
like, all the time.

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Like, dancing,
I always want to be the best dancer.

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I want to be the best artist.
I want
to be the best in everything, huh.

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And by dancing, I mean, I'm mostly.

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[Male] I remember coming home

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and I have an
message on my answering machine.

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No one has an answering machine anymore.

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I answer and it's like,

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"Um, hi.
I tried to reach Carlton.
This is Madonna. "

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And I'm like, "What is this?
He called my house."

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And he said that he would be
going to a club called Club Louis.

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And he invited me to come.

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And all the boys there,
you know--

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Kevin is there.
I remember
Oliver was there, Jose and Luis.

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I think basically the players who ended
were there that night.

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Oh man.
I went home and I said, "Mom, I succeeded."

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And I fell to my knees
and started crying.
And that's it.

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[playing music]

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[cheering]

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Posing.

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[Kevin] For this tour,
Madonna has seen many great dancers.

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So I think once you see it
the great dancers,

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what stands out next
is style and personality.

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There is a statement
that I always sit on  which represents how he handles us,

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and that - Give me more than you.

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Give me more than you.

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Liberal.

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Expressive.
You know, we are just
like what he did then.

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Pressing the button and not afraid
to say who we are.

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♪ Don't go for the second best, baby ♪

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♪ Put your love on the test ♪

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♪ You know, you know, you have to ♪

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[Carlton] The show is about freedom.

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Freedom as an artist,
freedom as a human.

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Freedom in terms of
to damn speak the truth.

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♪ Express yourself ♪

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[Luis] Express yourself, you know,
and not be ashamed of that.

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♪ Hey, hey, hey, hey ♪

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We have our own items,
our own attitude, our own style, we--

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We all grew up differently.

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Even though the six of them are gay, they are all raised differently.

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I mean, we all have stories to tell.

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♪ Ah yeah, ah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

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♪ They can say anything
I will do anything ♪

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♪ There is no lasting pain
Yup, you know this ♪

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♪ Louder than a lion
No need to try ♪

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♪ I live where the sky ends, yup ♪

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[Salim] Oh my God, we let Oliver
sometimes, you know.

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We are all classically trained
dancers too.

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He is the only one who just came
of a type like hip-hop background.

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We usually call him
not like a real dancer, huh.

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Before I meet them, if someone is gay,

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I might hit it.

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[Luis] We saw a leather jacket
with many colors on it...

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and he has blonde hair.

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You know we are very
and flamboyant ourselves that, you know,

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that's the first thing we noticed.

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You know, other flamboyant people.

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Come to find out others
flamboyant people not even gay.

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Of course, everything is color coordinated.

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The sad part is
I have more clothes than my wife.

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The good thing is that my wife is not materialistic.

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The ring is simple, our lives--

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Yes, life is simple.
My life is not.

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I... I'm just that person.
I am always like that.

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But give someone's name--

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Name someone,
the name of a man who has a pink Adidas suid.

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Right.

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[Luis] He certainly doesn't look like that
a homophobe,

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as, I mean, not the way he is dressed.

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You know, how can you be homophobic?

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I mean...

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You are like a parrot.

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[Luis] When you are attacked
in this situation,

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it's almost like a fish aquarium situation.

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You know, we are here and then
everyone outside.

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[cheering]

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[Kevin] This is a wave--

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That is a physical wave.
That is the wind of shouting.

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Hurricanes, like
screaming sounds and sounds, like, hit you clearly.

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It's not like you just heard it
in the distance.

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It's like hitting you on your face.

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That's crazy, you know.

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We not only see "We love Madonna"
signs out there,

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but we see, you know,
"We love Kevin," "We love Carlton,"

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"We love Luis and Jose,"
"We like--" You know...

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in the audience.

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[woman] This is the first of eight best-selling shows

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that Madonna will appear
in the New York area

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for the next two weeks.

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And like the others
done by Madonna,

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This tour is high in shock value.

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A spokesman for rock singer Madonna said

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Metro Police
and criminal lawyer's office

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threatens to capture stars last night
for obscene and obscene behavior.

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[Madonna] I am aware that the Vatican and certain Catholic communities  accuse my performance of being sinful
and blasphemous.

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That they try to keep people
from seeing it.

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Hi friend.
WELCOME.

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Welcome home I grew up.

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Okay, come in.

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This is the room where I stay now.
Now it's like a junk room.

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-Oh, hi.
I'm Jimmy.
- This is Jimmy, my boyfriend.

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-Hai.
- big head.

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Good.
And come here.

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And this-- this is my mother behind there.

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Mother
[speaks Spanish]

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-Hai.
- That's my mother.
Come on out, please.

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-Hai.
-And that's the woman, people.

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[speaking Spanish]

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He said when we were in Europe--

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Uh huh.
[speaks Spanish]

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that he saw it in news--

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[speaking Spanish]

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that everyone will call him or--

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[speaking Spanish]

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He--

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He said that was a very big problem.
That is very controversial, everything.

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And they say
how are we Hispanic.

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And because of that we-- I and Luis
come from the Hispanic community--

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that is a very big problem.

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So they will call him, you know,

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and when he will come out
shop at the grocery store,

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they are like, "Oh, my God.
We see your son.
Big controversy.

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He is almost captured in Europe
to be anything or anything. "

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[Madonna] When we left Japan,

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I find myself growing
really attached to the dancers,

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and I began to feel
like a mother to them.

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Gabriel,
because you never gave me any attitude,

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You get the oldest and most valuable.

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Thank you.

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Oh, rest calmly.
Oh

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Love him.
[tasting lips]

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Love him very much.

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These two people took care of me:
Kevin and Gabriel.

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They really look after me
when I'm on tour.

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Because they know where I come from.

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Everyone knows about me
and where I come from,

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but they always have my back.

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I'm not saying that my other sons and daughters don't have my back,

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but I am still a baby.

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If I can make it down
back through my shoes.

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I have a problem that I say.

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What do we get here?

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Some pictures from the tour.

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Um... there is Gabriel.

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There is Gabriel.

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I was there.

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[Kevin] He
unofficial beloved child.

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There is something about it
it's just, um, peaceful.

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As usual, like, it's peaceful,
presence is bright.

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-Oh, this is my Christmas gift.
- [man] What is that?

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My Christmas gift from Madonna.
Years ago.

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- [man] What did he say?
- "For my dear little Asian beauty.

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Kevin, baby,
take life with the ball and don't let go. "

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I will call them my first family.

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You know, besides my--
I, you know, blood relatives,

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they must be my first family
that I was really bound.

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Because it's very formative
part of my life.

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My mother was a little absent at the time.

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So, uh, making Madonna really...

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does it kind of fill that space for me,
you know,

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and I think for him too.

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He wants kids and me to sort of--
It's not that I want a mother, but I of course--

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I like to have someone
it will be kind of--

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I know I can rely on it.

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[Jose] It feels like
the instincts of motherhood he feels.

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You know, when you are on that element
become a superstar like that,

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very difficult to find the truth.

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And children can be very honest.

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And gay children can be very,
very honest and flamboyant.

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Here!
We are weird!
Get used to it!

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Here!
We are weird!
Get used to it!

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Here!
We are weird!
Get used to it!

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There are many misconceptions
towards the gay community at the time,

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and, you know, it's not easy to accept.

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It's fun for a little,
You know, gay scene,

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but then, like,
with AIDS coming out and HIV,

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everyone is really scared.

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I think that is the time where, um...

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something new is needed.

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Something new and artistic.

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Something outside the norm.

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That's more than everything
in years & 90s.

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I think it's time
when the world is ready for it.

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And that will require someone like Madonna
to take that to the forefront.

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Well, get ready, America.
This is where the Truth or Dare.

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This summer's Madonna Blond Ambition
_ trip has become a head throughout the world.

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The documentary on the tour
is steamy

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like this exclusive first look.

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[man] Truth or Dare
shot documentary style.

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Some of the more open scenes
are those featuring talking pillows

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with backup singers and dancers.

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There are even
scenes with two men kissing.

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One of the bigger goals of this film
is really to...

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again, press the button.

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Do we want to be accepted by Hollywood?

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No!

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Do we care what people think about us?

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No!

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Our first guest is two men
who started craze on fashion.

247
00:15:54,320 --> 00:15:58,960
They are Madonna's main dancers,
are also featured in the film Truth or Dare.

248
00:15:59,040 --> 00:16:01,560
These are Luis and Jose!
Let's get out!

249
00:16:01,640 --> 00:16:03,080
[clapping]

250
00:16:03,160 --> 00:16:05,200
- [cheering]
- [man] All right.

251
00:16:11,840 --> 00:16:13,720
Jose and Luis.

252
00:16:13,800 --> 00:16:15,960
Madonna, like these people have been proven,

253
00:16:16,040 --> 00:16:20,240
get to people in the current order
and set a destructive tone.

254
00:16:20,320 --> 00:16:23,280
If you look at our society now,
Western American Society,

255
00:16:23,360 --> 00:16:26,000
we really become a nation
sexual dysfunction.

256
00:16:26,080 --> 00:16:29,320
Your fans will like this movie.
Some people will find the part offensive.

257
00:16:29,400 --> 00:16:32,040
-Well, that's their problem.
-You do not care?

258
00:16:32,120 --> 00:16:35,120
No, of course not, because, look, these things are in life.

259
00:16:35,200 --> 00:16:38,200
I only present life to people,
you know.

260
00:16:38,280 --> 00:16:44,560
I do not present anything that is possible
they are not exposed, you know,

261
00:16:44,640 --> 00:16:47,240
in everyday life, but maybe
they don't want to face it.

262
00:16:47,320 --> 00:16:49,600
You know, if you keep putting
something on someone's face,

263
00:16:49,680 --> 00:16:53,240
finally, you know,
maybe they can handle it.

264
00:16:54,440 --> 00:16:57,880
[Salim] We are really alone.
Yes, and we don't care.

265
00:16:57,960 --> 00:17:00,800
We are only ourselves
in movies and on tours.

266
00:17:00,880 --> 00:17:05,040
Yes.
It helps him, I think,
reaches his goal too,

267
00:17:05,119 --> 00:17:07,520
from obstacles
he wants to break up at that time.

268
00:17:07,599 --> 00:17:10,319
-Slam, truth or bravery?
-And.

269
00:17:10,400 --> 00:17:11,960
Whoo!

270
00:17:12,040 --> 00:17:15,800
French... kiss... Gabriel.

271
00:17:16,280 --> 00:17:17,359
Good!

272
00:17:17,440 --> 00:17:19,640
[woman] She wakes up.
He is ready and he is ready.

273
00:17:19,720 --> 00:17:20,880
[all shouting]

274
00:17:20,960 --> 00:17:23,280
Do it!
Do it!

275
00:17:24,680 --> 00:17:26,760
They want it.

276
00:17:26,839 --> 00:17:29,600
-Whoo!
Hold that head!
-Oh, yes!
Finish.

277
00:17:29,680 --> 00:17:32,200
Hot kiss.
It's like, I'm sorry.

278
00:17:32,280 --> 00:17:35,000
If you see that even as a straight man,
I mean,

279
00:17:35,080 --> 00:17:37,880
You want to kiss a man
after you see the kiss.

280
00:17:37,960 --> 00:17:39,560
You know, this is a hot kiss.

281
00:17:39,640 --> 00:17:43,760
And I think that
has helped in general,

282
00:17:43,840 --> 00:17:47,480
it doesn't--
has helped many men or women

283
00:17:47,560 --> 00:17:49,720
more comfortable
about their sexuality.

284
00:17:52,800 --> 00:17:56,760
[no dialog can be heard]

285
00:18:03,480 --> 00:18:05,960
[no dialog can be heard]

286
00:18:06,040 --> 00:18:08,680
It's hard to hear yourself.
Can you hear me out there?

287
00:18:08,760 --> 00:18:09,920
[cheering]

288
00:18:10,000 --> 00:18:12,760
Good.
Finally a great audience.

289
00:18:16,360 --> 00:18:18,600
A very special person just entered.

290
00:18:19,320 --> 00:18:21,480
A dancer from Madonna
Tour Ambis Ambisi!

291
00:18:21,560 --> 00:18:23,840
[cheering]

292
00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:27,640
It's great that you are here.

293
00:18:28,920 --> 00:18:31,320
Make a noise, Stonewall!

294
00:18:31,400 --> 00:18:33,400
[cheering]

295
00:18:35,240 --> 00:18:38,480
[Kevin] This kind of brave and
progressive message in this film

296
00:18:38,560 --> 00:18:40,800
is that you can be gay and human.

297
00:18:40,880 --> 00:18:42,600
Because until now,

298
00:18:42,680 --> 00:18:47,480
being gay is becoming another
and being subversive and evil.

299
00:18:47,920 --> 00:18:50,680
And suddenly,
there is this big message

300
00:18:50,760 --> 00:18:55,040
you can become gay
and be happy and successful

301
00:18:55,120 --> 00:18:58,520
and full of life and being young,
you know.

302
00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:01,640
You don't have to hide
in the back alley

303
00:19:01,720 --> 00:19:04,320
of some rotten bars somewhere

304
00:19:04,400 --> 00:19:08,560
and hiding and marrying
and pretending and--

305
00:19:08,640 --> 00:19:13,320
You can be yourself and happy
and-and still be gay.

306
00:19:16,640 --> 00:19:19,680
I remember watching this movie
when I, like, in middle school,

307
00:19:19,760 --> 00:19:20,920
and that's the first--

308
00:19:21,000 --> 00:19:23,080
You know, this was before the internet.

309
00:19:23,160 --> 00:19:26,040
I rent it from the video store,

310
00:19:26,120 --> 00:19:31,120
and it's like the first time
that I see like... gay people.

311
00:19:31,200 --> 00:19:35,720
Like, real, like, gay people,
only talk un-- without censorship,

312
00:19:35,800 --> 00:19:37,720
like, being themselves

313
00:19:37,800 --> 00:19:41,040
and with this, you know, extraordinary woman

314
00:19:41,120 --> 00:19:43,480
who is like,
"Yes, that's all cool."

315
00:19:43,560 --> 00:19:45,120
I want to be like those people.

316
00:19:45,200 --> 00:19:46,800
I want to, like...

317
00:19:47,920 --> 00:19:52,160
being kind of free and open and-and-and,
you know.

318
00:19:53,000 --> 00:19:54,720
Like... you know.

319
00:19:55,360 --> 00:20:00,240
I saw two men kiss for the first time,
and I knew that I was fine with that.

320
00:20:00,320 --> 00:20:03,440
I grew up in Michigan
in the Midwest on a farm.

321
00:20:03,520 --> 00:20:07,360
So when I see gay kisses,
this is the first time I've seen that,

322
00:20:07,440 --> 00:20:09,320
and that is very liberating for me.

323
00:20:10,400 --> 00:20:12,000
I understand...

324
00:20:13,320 --> 00:20:16,920
right at the beginning--
this new year.

325
00:20:18,080 --> 00:20:21,760
30 December 2014.

326
00:20:21,840 --> 00:20:23,640
"Hi, Luis.

327
00:20:23,720 --> 00:20:27,160
I just want to tell you
that as gay children grow up

328
00:20:27,240 --> 00:20:29,560
in a rough part of East LA,

329
00:20:29,640 --> 00:20:32,000
I really admire you.

330
00:20:32,080 --> 00:20:35,760
I will never forget my mother
took me to watch Truth or Dare

331
00:20:35,840 --> 00:20:39,040
after school when I was in sixth grade.

332
00:20:39,720 --> 00:20:44,000
And see you and other dancers
on stage with Madonna,

333
00:20:44,080 --> 00:20:47,920
I am very relieved finally
I can identify with someone

334
00:20:48,000 --> 00:20:50,320
and everything will be fine.

335
00:20:50,400 --> 00:20:54,520
I learn all your movements.
LOL. "[Chuckles]

336
00:20:54,600 --> 00:20:57,760
"You are still and still my hero.

337
00:20:57,840 --> 00:21:02,120
You give me hope when it's not there.
Thank you, Luis. "

338
00:21:02,840 --> 00:21:04,960
" When turning the channel on TV last night,

339
00:21:05,040 --> 00:21:08,960
I found a random show
from the movie Truth or Dare.

340
00:21:09,040 --> 00:21:12,600
I was immediately taken back to my youth

341
00:21:12,680 --> 00:21:15,600
and everything I faced
when that in my life.

342
00:21:15,680 --> 00:21:19,240
I grew up in a very small time,
a homogeneous city.

343
00:21:19,320 --> 00:21:22,880
This film suddenly opens
the world is possible for me. "

344
00:21:22,960 --> 00:21:26,800
Wow.
Grow in the Midwest, huh.

345
00:21:29,400 --> 00:21:34,040
And then everything - I mean,
my father is a very strict Muslim.

346
00:21:34,120 --> 00:21:36,720
You know, too, I mean,
that is also the time I remember

347
00:21:36,800 --> 00:21:40,520
when he moved with us for a while,
I have to like -

348
00:21:40,600 --> 00:21:42,280
Because I used to have Barbie too.

349
00:21:42,360 --> 00:21:44,800
It was really fun.
I love Barbie when I was little.

350
00:21:44,880 --> 00:21:47,120
And I really can buy it with my mom.

351
00:21:47,200 --> 00:21:50,640
But when my father came
in the picture for several years,

352
00:21:50,720 --> 00:21:55,720
um, I had to hide it, yes,
but I never threw it away. place.
Yes, I remember that actually now, huh.

353
00:21:55,800 --> 00:21:59,080


354
00:21:59,160 --> 00:22:01,160
Then when my father and mother split,

355
00:22:01,240 --> 00:22:05,560
I really want to play with them again
and do more girlie things, huh.

356
00:22:06,640 --> 00:22:08,400
Estoy Caliente.

357
00:22:08,480 --> 00:22:10,880
[cheering]

358
00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:13,320
¿Estáis calientes?

359
00:22:13,400 --> 00:22:15,080
- ¡Sí!
- ¿Sí?

360
00:22:15,160 --> 00:22:16,840
- ¡Sí!
- ¿Sí?

361
00:22:16,920 --> 00:22:18,240
¡Sí!

362
00:22:18,320 --> 00:22:19,720
Whoo!

363
00:22:19,800 --> 00:22:21,880
Oh my God!

364
00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:24,600
Oh, rubber!
Condoms, I mean!

365
00:22:24,680 --> 00:22:26,480
-Hei.
-Hi, you guys!

366
00:22:26,560 --> 00:22:28,640
-Hei, honest or brave?
-Truth or challenge?

367
00:22:28,720 --> 00:22:29,760
Truth or challenge?

368
00:22:29,840 --> 00:22:30,920
Do you want to make love with us?

369
00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:33,480
[laughs]

370
00:22:34,720 --> 00:22:39,320
You never really know a man
until you ask him to use a condom.

371
00:22:39,400 --> 00:22:41,760
-Better!
-In fact!

372
00:22:41,840 --> 00:22:46,480
Hey you!
Do not be stupid!
Put the condom on your willy!

373
00:22:46,560 --> 00:22:48,360
- [music starts]
-Good?

374
00:22:48,440 --> 00:22:51,160
When we tour, I think,

375
00:22:51,240 --> 00:22:55,760
the problem of homosexuality,
gay rights and prevention of AIDS

376
00:22:55,840 --> 00:22:58,320
and sexuality and sexual strength,

377
00:22:58,400 --> 00:23:00,960
I think they are all
on the front lines of their minds,

378
00:23:01,040 --> 00:23:06,400
because--
because of the death of his friends, you know.

379
00:23:12,840 --> 00:23:16,240
[Madonna] Now, you might know
Keith Haring as an artist.

380
00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:21,640
But I know him as a man
who has the courage to tell the truth.

381
00:23:21,720 --> 00:23:24,560
Actually, he's gay.

382
00:23:24,640 --> 00:23:27,440
Actually, he has AIDS...

383
00:23:28,080 --> 00:23:31,600
and he said that
to anyone who would listen.

384
00:23:34,680 --> 00:23:39,640
To commemorate Keith,
let's be honest with ourselves.

385
00:23:39,720 --> 00:23:42,280
Let us tell each other.

386
00:23:42,360 --> 00:23:44,360
Let's face it together.

387
00:24:34,840 --> 00:24:38,680
I learned a lot.
Man, I learned a lot from them.

388
00:24:38,760 --> 00:24:41,640
I thank God.
Madonna - I toured with him,

389
00:24:41,720 --> 00:24:46,840
because I changed from homophobic
to love everyone.

390
00:24:47,480 --> 00:24:52,480
I know that they may not realize it,
but years have passed...

391
00:24:52,560 --> 00:24:55,960
but, yes, I brought it
in a very special place, those people.

392
00:24:58,200 --> 00:25:01,600
You don't think of that moment
when it's over.

393
00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:04,880
And that is a hard blow.
Forgive me.
That is very difficult, huh.

394
00:25:04,960 --> 00:25:08,920
That's why I'm so emotional
at the end of the film.
Crying, huh.

395
00:25:13,680 --> 00:25:15,440
Very good...

396
00:25:17,040 --> 00:25:18,760
each other.

397
00:25:22,200 --> 00:25:24,280
Grow each other, like--

398
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:27,800
as we grow together, it feels like.

399
00:25:29,080 --> 00:25:31,440
In a short time.

400
00:25:31,920 --> 00:25:36,000
Symbolic like that - we are very young--
symbolic time for me.

401
00:25:36,080 --> 00:25:40,240
I can imagine for them,
growing up, very young.

402
00:25:46,120 --> 00:25:49,560
We will each take it
a bullet for each of us.

403
00:25:49,640 --> 00:25:52,160
For everyone.
That's how close we are.

404
00:25:53,600 --> 00:25:57,520
I want it to continue forever, you know.

405
00:25:57,600 --> 00:25:59,600
Who wants to get off the trip?
Not me.

406
00:25:59,680 --> 00:26:01,920
[cheering]

407
00:26:07,320 --> 00:26:08,960
Posing.

408
00:26:09,040 --> 00:26:10,560
[cheering]

409
00:26:51,520 --> 00:26:52,920
[chuckles]

410
00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:00,400
And good.

411
00:27:00,480 --> 00:27:01,600
Better.
Yes.

412
00:27:03,560 --> 00:27:05,200
Good.
Ho, ho.

413
00:27:07,040 --> 00:27:09,160
Good.
A little right.
Good.

414
00:27:09,240 --> 00:27:12,440
You know, you have a difficult life
and it is very difficult to destroy

415
00:27:12,520 --> 00:27:15,880
and some types of energy take over you.

416
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:20,000
That's good, Jennifer, huh.
Good.

417
00:27:21,360 --> 00:27:25,600
[Salim] Film Truth or Dare,
that is the reality behind the scenes

418
00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:27,280
about what is happening on the tour,

419
00:27:27,360 --> 00:27:30,920
but then there's another
backstage that you can't see.

420
00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:34,760
And it's clear that none of us is ready to talk about.

421
00:27:56,800 --> 00:27:58,120
Wow.

422
00:28:08,960 --> 00:28:11,360
[Carlton] When you look in the mirror,
before I perform,

423
00:28:11,440 --> 00:28:13,960
first, I see myself going,

424
00:28:14,040 --> 00:28:16,040
"You know that you are a liar."

425
00:28:18,360 --> 00:28:23,400
No one in the crew, in that team,
no one knows my secret.

426
00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:27,240
He will be there soon, okay?
OK.

427
00:28:29,680 --> 00:28:31,000
Ahh

428
00:28:31,080 --> 00:28:32,760
Good.

429
00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:37,520
What are you looking for
when you do that?

430
00:28:37,600 --> 00:28:39,360
So many things.

431
00:28:39,440 --> 00:28:41,680
I see what is happening
in your mouth.

432
00:28:41,760 --> 00:28:43,880
Um, just something specific.

433
00:28:43,960 --> 00:28:46,280
Um, look at your throat.

434
00:28:46,360 --> 00:28:49,640
Um, specifically related to HIV.

435
00:28:49,720 --> 00:28:52,680
Um, you see, uh,
the edge of the tongue,

436
00:28:52,760 --> 00:28:55,960
Because there is something people get
called hairy leukoplakia.

437
00:28:56,040 --> 00:28:58,360
-Um...
-What's seen-- What is that?

438
00:28:58,440 --> 00:29:03,480
This is like a type of small white growth
along the side of the tongue.
Swallowing.

439
00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:08,920
[Carlton] I feel like cramps

440
00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:12,160
or something is happening
with my body when we are in Japan.

441
00:29:12,240 --> 00:29:15,640
And I went to the doctor
that they sent me to,

442
00:29:15,720 --> 00:29:18,440
and they see something

443
00:29:18,520 --> 00:29:21,240
and they say so
will have to tell him.

444
00:29:21,920 --> 00:29:27,280
And I like, "There is no bad way
You will tell them anything. "

445
00:29:28,080 --> 00:29:31,240
I froze after that.

446
00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:34,120
You know,
You never really knew a man

447
00:29:34,200 --> 00:29:36,440
until you asked him to use a condom.
Don't be stupid!
Put a condom on your willy!

448
00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:39,000


449
00:29:39,080 --> 00:29:43,640


450
00:29:44,960 --> 00:29:49,360
[Carlton] The irony for me, like,
I'm in production to express yourself.

451
00:29:51,080 --> 00:29:53,920
I am not at all like that
with myself.

452
00:30:33,720 --> 00:30:35,320
I really like this.

453
00:30:35,400 --> 00:30:40,360
Of course, he looks very happy,
and he still supports.

454
00:30:42,760 --> 00:30:48,200
I just hope that he will be remembered,
You know, he-- the dance.

455
00:30:49,040 --> 00:30:54,680
But, um, it's a pity that he would like that
be remembered for the Truth or Brave scene.

456
00:30:54,760 --> 00:30:57,160
- [man] That kiss?
That kiss, huh.

457
00:30:57,240 --> 00:30:59,640
[all shouting]

458
00:30:59,720 --> 00:31:02,760
[woman] She's embarrassed and she, um,

459
00:31:02,840 --> 00:31:06,760
shame to be
caught like that.

460
00:31:09,760 --> 00:31:12,720
He hasn't been there yet.
He is not ready yet.

461
00:31:12,800 --> 00:31:18,600
He doesn't hold the flag and tries
to make it more acceptable to anyone.

462
00:31:18,680 --> 00:31:22,720
He just wants to live his life and no,
um...

463
00:31:23,560 --> 00:31:27,560
uh, be an advocate for something.

464
00:31:28,600 --> 00:31:30,720
That is not an
statement he wants to make.

465
00:31:30,800 --> 00:31:32,840
That-- That is the statement.

466
00:31:39,720 --> 00:31:41,400
[Kevin] He loves Gabriel.

467
00:31:42,640 --> 00:31:45,280
I think it never happened
his intention to hurt him.

468
00:31:45,360 --> 00:31:47,920
- He really likes it.
- [no dialog can be heard]

469
00:31:48,000 --> 00:31:49,480
I just think life is unfair.

470
00:31:49,560 --> 00:31:53,000
Like, here I am, this person all
thinks I have everything I want, right?

471
00:31:53,080 --> 00:31:54,640
I want you and can't have you.

472
00:31:54,720 --> 00:31:56,880
He begged him not to use it,

473
00:31:56,960 --> 00:32:01,960
and, um, he won't, uh, sorry.

474
00:32:03,560 --> 00:32:07,080
This, um,
Gabriel's lawsuit against Madonna.

475
00:32:07,160 --> 00:32:13,120
This is a deposition given
under oath to the lawyers.

476
00:32:14,520 --> 00:32:18,040
"Before this, at least, you wouldn't
see me and say" She's gay. "

477
00:32:18,120 --> 00:32:20,240
You won't know me

478
00:32:20,320 --> 00:32:23,120
unless you are close friends
or I choose to tell.

479
00:32:24,880 --> 00:32:26,480
At dinner at a restaurant,

480
00:32:26,560 --> 00:32:28,960
I told him how this
hurt me emotionally,

481
00:32:29,040 --> 00:32:30,760
it's a problem.

482
00:32:30,840 --> 00:32:34,480
This is when he told me
I was just ashamed of myself.

483
00:32:35,480 --> 00:32:38,040
Question:
He says you are ashamed of yourself?

484
00:32:38,120 --> 00:32:41,160
Answer:
Yes, he said I was ashamed of myself.

485
00:32:41,240 --> 00:32:42,920
He told me to forget it. "

486
00:32:43,000 --> 00:32:45,600
[Maury Povich] Welcome
Madonna dancers from Truth or Dare,

487
00:32:45,680 --> 00:32:47,400
Kevin Stea and Oliver Crumes

488
00:32:47,480 --> 00:32:50,440
and lawyers representing them
in their lawsuit, Debra Johnson.

489
00:32:53,080 --> 00:32:55,120
Oliver and I are on the same boat.

490
00:32:55,200 --> 00:32:57,040
That's really a clause
in our contract.

491
00:32:57,120 --> 00:33:00,080
Gabriel, however,
is in a very unique position.

492
00:33:00,160 --> 00:33:04,560
He basically demands to be forced out.

493
00:33:04,640 --> 00:33:07,480
Gabriel is not here today.
She's the third dancer

494
00:33:07,560 --> 00:33:10,240
-Who are also involved in this lawsuit.
-Persis.

495
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:13,000
With Oliver and Kevin.

496
00:33:13,080 --> 00:33:15,960
We have been pursuing this since
when we got off the tour.
Since--

497
00:33:16,040 --> 00:33:19,520
[Kevin] The clause is for certain
the amount of money that must be paid to us.

498
00:33:19,600 --> 00:33:21,760
Not too.
I just feel that, um--

499
00:33:21,840 --> 00:33:24,560
We are not in court,
but we are in this office.

500
00:33:24,640 --> 00:33:29,720
And there are me, Kevin and Gabriel
and Madonna sits in front of us.

501
00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:35,720
And I just-- I feel bad, but I look for her, like, go, "Really, Madonna?"

502
00:33:35,800 --> 00:33:40,000
I mean, do we have to go through this,
you know?

503
00:33:40,080 --> 00:33:43,640
And the expression on his face is like,
"How can you do this to me?"

504
00:33:43,720 --> 00:33:45,680
But we look like,

505
00:33:45,760 --> 00:33:48,680
"Well, by the way...

506
00:33:49,760 --> 00:33:51,720
if it's not for us...

507
00:33:52,920 --> 00:33:54,880
there won't be a movie."

508
00:33:54,960 --> 00:33:57,280
-Do you ever try to solve it?
-Yes.

509
00:33:57,360 --> 00:33:58,560
What what did he say to you?

510
00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:01,280
I sent him a very personal letter
said that I wanted to talk.
"You are on my list..."  Yes, this--

511
00:34:01,360 --> 00:34:04,760
Oh wow!

512
00:34:04,840 --> 00:34:08,960
All of these items.
Photos.

513
00:34:28,600 --> 00:34:30,520
Ah.

514
00:34:30,600 --> 00:34:32,120
Here it is.
This is recording of Jose & Luis artists.

515
00:34:34,040 --> 00:34:36,360
Huh?
English Queen.

516
00:34:36,440 --> 00:34:37,639
Yes.

517
00:34:38,480 --> 00:34:42,440
[Luis] As soon as we arrived in New York,

518
00:34:42,520 --> 00:34:44,360


519
00:34:44,440 --> 00:34:45,679


520
00:34:47,000 --> 00:34:48,679


521
00:34:48,760 --> 00:34:55,159
we drive this local celebrity
such fame.

522
00:34:55,239 --> 00:34:59,080
So we decided to, you know--
to do the recording.

523
00:34:59,160 --> 00:35:01,840
[dancing]

524
00:35:04,760 --> 00:35:06,640
- ♪ Hey, Luis ♪
- ♪ Yes?
♪

525
00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:08,680
- ♪ Hey, Luis ♪
- ♪ Yes?
♪

526
00:35:08,760 --> 00:35:10,560
- ♪ Introduce yourself ♪
- ♪ All right ♪

527
00:35:10,640 --> 00:35:11,880
♪ Introduce yourself ♪

528
00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:13,800
♪ Alright, my name is Luis ♪

529
00:35:13,880 --> 00:35:16,040
♪ I come from downtown ♪

530
00:35:16,120 --> 00:35:18,400
♪ And I go down ♪

531
00:35:18,480 --> 00:35:20,400
♪ And I know that ♪

532
00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:24,240
[Luis] He helped us.
He knows, you know,
some backup vocals for us.

533
00:35:24,320 --> 00:35:27,800
That's good.
I mean, he's really generous.

534
00:35:29,680 --> 00:35:32,960
[Madonna]
♪ If you can't speak English Queen ♪

535
00:35:33,040 --> 00:35:36,960
♪ If you can't read Queen & apos's English ♪

536
00:35:37,040 --> 00:35:41,240
♪ If you can't speak English Queen ♪

537
00:35:41,320 --> 00:35:42,560
♪ Then just walk ♪

538
00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:44,520
[Luis] It's easy to, uh,

539
00:35:44,600 --> 00:35:48,880
losing contact with reality
when you live in this kind, like,

540
00:35:48,960 --> 00:35:51,400
celeb bubble.

541
00:35:54,400 --> 00:35:56,360
Life hinders my path.

542
00:35:58,640 --> 00:36:01,080
I think Luis is blocking my way.

543
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:03,240
[blurred]

544
00:36:03,320 --> 00:36:05,480
Hey, is that baby material
there?

545
00:36:05,560 --> 00:36:07,680
[Oliver] When I got off the tour,
I was bigheaded.

546
00:36:07,760 --> 00:36:11,120
I walk like my dirt doesn't smell.
I will not lie.

547
00:36:15,000 --> 00:36:18,760
Even when I moved to Vegas on 94,
I was that man.

548
00:36:22,120 --> 00:36:24,000
I was on my Splash show.

549
00:36:24,080 --> 00:36:28,400
One of the best dance performances that...
is in Vegas.

550
00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:30,320
They have a Madonna impersonator.

551
00:36:30,400 --> 00:36:34,920
I have to do and choreograph my place.

552
00:36:36,000 --> 00:36:40,080
I used to come here every night.
I have never missed a club.

553
00:36:43,760 --> 00:36:46,520
I go to the club.
Everybody knows me.

554
00:36:46,600 --> 00:36:49,960
That's very beautiful.
I don't have to pay for drinks.

555
00:36:50,920 --> 00:36:53,400
I drink very much.

556
00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:56,760
I will, every day, buy a bottle of vodka.

557
00:36:57,800 --> 00:37:00,600
I will go buy the cheapest vodka.
I don't even care.

558
00:37:35,800 --> 00:37:38,480
[Salim] You just came out, you know,
with Jose.

559
00:37:38,560 --> 00:37:41,920
We party a lot.
We will only come out.
We go to the club.

560
00:37:42,000 --> 00:37:45,840
Hang out with the House of Xtravaganza.
We can have a small house party there.

561
00:37:45,920 --> 00:37:48,800
Then we just go
the whole city and party, huh.

562
00:37:57,200 --> 00:37:59,720
When you are in it - in that bubble,

563
00:37:59,800 --> 00:38:04,360
You don't care about anything,
you don't care about anyone.

564
00:38:06,600 --> 00:38:08,480
[Luis] At first, it was very glamorous.

565
00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:12,880
And all beautiful and visible people
beautiful and wearing expensive clothes.

566
00:38:12,960 --> 00:38:15,280
And we are in an expensive setting.

567
00:38:16,200 --> 00:38:20,680
So, you know,
drugs look glamorous.

568
00:38:20,760 --> 00:38:26,160
As soon as the drug
becomes more important...

569
00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:31,480
the less glamorous they become.

570
00:38:31,560 --> 00:38:35,560
So you start doing it
in less glamorous places.

571
00:38:44,600 --> 00:38:48,560
That's as bad, you know,
I live in an apartment,

572
00:38:48,640 --> 00:38:51,840
you know,
with two chests and television...

573
00:38:52,800 --> 00:38:56,120
and the wardrobe is full of expensive clothes.

574
00:38:59,120 --> 00:39:00,560
[Salim] I am very evil.

575
00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:03,080
I don't want to see this one.
I don't care about that.

576
00:39:03,160 --> 00:39:06,120
Just cut your feelings.
That's what I did.

577
00:39:06,200 --> 00:39:10,440
I don't care about anyone.
I only lived at that time,

578
00:39:10,520 --> 00:39:15,160
do all the things that I always do
just don't think about anything.

579
00:39:15,240 --> 00:39:18,400
[man] Sounds like that
You have almost no life.

580
00:39:18,480 --> 00:39:21,720
Yes, it's not life.
It's not life.
It's partying.

581
00:39:21,800 --> 00:39:25,960
Sometimes, you know, I don't have
funds, so I will come out too.

582
00:39:26,040 --> 00:39:29,360
Oh, that was terrible.
And sometimes, you know,

583
00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:32,680
have no place to sleep
no and then, you know, i will--

584
00:39:32,760 --> 00:39:34,240
I can always be at the club.

585
00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:37,240
I like, "Please, let me find
someone where I can crash. "

586
00:39:37,320 --> 00:39:40,560
That's mainly because I have a lot of friends
and I can fall somewhere.

587
00:39:40,640 --> 00:39:43,920
But many times, I have no place
to live too.
It's terrible.

588
00:39:44,000 --> 00:39:46,800
It's like-- And I'm not -
What will I do?
Call my mother?

589
00:39:46,880 --> 00:39:49,400
"Listen, Mom,
I have no place to live."

590
00:39:49,480 --> 00:39:54,040
You know, so I never want to--
I think I did it not to hurt him.

591
00:39:54,120 --> 00:39:59,760
But I hurt him more by not telling
that is actually happening.

592
00:40:33,800 --> 00:40:39,000
[woman] I remember sending her away
to New York and crying in the car,

593
00:40:39,080 --> 00:40:41,320
that she is in danger.

594
00:40:42,520 --> 00:40:44,640
And, uh...

595
00:40:45,400 --> 00:40:48,520
What should I say to him?

596
00:40:48,600 --> 00:40:51,200
What else can be said?

597
00:40:51,800 --> 00:40:53,640
"Be careful."

598
00:40:55,080 --> 00:40:57,400
But that doesn't work.

599
00:40:58,440 --> 00:41:02,480
[Kevin] I don't know it's Gabriel
HIV positive or AIDS,

600
00:41:02,560 --> 00:41:04,320
Because of him not say it.

601
00:41:05,240 --> 00:41:10,200
When I go to Italy,
I have called quite often from the set.

602
00:41:10,280 --> 00:41:14,560
Like, after the show, I will call,
almost every Sunday.

603
00:41:14,640 --> 00:41:17,840
And then I called and her mother answered.

604
00:41:17,920 --> 00:41:19,920
And I said, "Oh, is Gabriel there?"  He said,
"No, and he will never be there again."

605
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:23,280
And I like, "What?

606
00:41:25,680 --> 00:41:27,960
What do you say to me now? "

607
00:41:30,320 --> 00:41:32,440
He doesn't tell me until
he can't help but tell me again and...

608
00:41:32,520 --> 00:41:37,720
I - It-It-That is a gift, but on the one hand,

609
00:41:38,920 --> 00:41:44,160
but what I regret is
that he must, um...

610
00:41:44,240 --> 00:41:46,920
You know, that he--
that he must, uh, keep it a secret,

611
00:41:48,240 --> 00:41:52,680
and what feels
worried about having to tell it.

612
00:41:52,760 --> 00:41:56,440
That's scary.

613
00:41:59,360 --> 00:42:00,960
That is scary enough
to scare people into silence.

614
00:42:01,600 --> 00:42:06,640
That is the soundless battle
that you bring yourself.

615
00:42:10,680 --> 00:42:16,240
A few days I will enter and he will cry,

616
00:42:18,000 --> 00:42:20,240


617
00:42:20,320 --> 00:42:24,800
and... he will, you know, uh...

618
00:42:26,200 --> 00:42:29,240
just entertained...

619
00:42:31,040 --> 00:42:35,960
and-and scared, you know,
are in pain and...

620
00:42:36,560 --> 00:42:37,880
Um...

621
00:42:41,240 --> 00:42:47,120
Just worry about what happens next,
what will happen next.

622
00:42:47,200 --> 00:42:49,960
And he just became, you know, less...

623
00:42:51,200 --> 00:42:53,480
You know,
I remember him talking to dogs,

624
00:42:53,560 --> 00:42:57,320
and he said the dogs
stop listening to you

625
00:42:57,400 --> 00:43:00,440
because your voice changes
when you get sick

626
00:43:00,520 --> 00:43:02,280
and you don't have
strength in your voice.

627
00:43:02,360 --> 00:43:04,640
Then you become a different person.

628
00:43:04,720 --> 00:43:07,720
And the dogs take it
and they don't want to listen to it,

629
00:43:07,800 --> 00:43:10,240
Because they know he is sick.

630
00:43:10,880 --> 00:43:12,880
Dan-- And, uh...

631
00:43:13,760 --> 00:43:17,360
So in everything he changes, you know.

632
00:43:17,800 --> 00:43:20,880
And from this, you know,
beautiful, strong...

633
00:43:22,240 --> 00:43:27,760
this young man,
you know, a sickly being.

634
00:43:27,840 --> 00:43:30,080
[no sound]

635
00:43:34,680 --> 00:43:39,120
[man] Do you think Gabriel knows he is HIV positive during the tour?

636
00:43:39,200 --> 00:43:40,800
[mother] Yes, I think he did it.

637
00:43:41,040 --> 00:43:42,160
Yes.

638
00:43:43,320 --> 00:43:47,640
It's hard for Gabriel to, um,
be honest about being gay

639
00:43:47,720 --> 00:43:50,800
and then honest about being infected.

640
00:43:50,880 --> 00:43:55,840
So he must continue
a large part of himself being locked up.

641
00:43:55,920 --> 00:44:02,680
And there's irony
with a message from, uh, tour.

642
00:44:03,240 --> 00:44:07,840
But when he dances,
he can really get off,

643
00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:14,160
and it's a safe way
to-- be expressive.

644
00:44:15,280 --> 00:44:18,600
So I think he took refuge in dance

645
00:44:18,680 --> 00:44:21,720
as a way to be himself

646
00:44:21,800 --> 00:44:25,040
without having to
to express these other things.

647
00:44:29,120 --> 00:44:30,400
Sorry.

648
00:44:41,960 --> 00:44:43,080
Good.

649
00:44:44,480 --> 00:44:46,120
[man] What do you think?

650
00:44:48,480 --> 00:44:49,880
[sniffles]

651
00:44:54,160 --> 00:44:57,480
Only Gabriel and Carlton.

652
00:45:02,520 --> 00:45:03,400
Good.

653
00:45:04,320 --> 00:45:05,160
Good.

654
00:45:11,880 --> 00:45:13,000
Good.

655
00:45:16,200 --> 00:45:18,320
[man] Do you wish they told you?

656
00:45:18,400 --> 00:45:21,400
Yes, because that's fine.

657
00:45:22,440 --> 00:45:23,880
That's fine.

658
00:45:27,360 --> 00:45:29,520
[crackling pills]

659
00:46:00,920 --> 00:46:02,480
[man on TV] And-- And continue.

660
00:46:02,560 --> 00:46:07,840
Because there is something extraordinary,
great strength in learning to love.

661
00:46:07,920 --> 00:46:10,120
[Oprah Winfrey] Well, this is our show for tonight.

662
00:46:10,200 --> 00:46:12,080
Tweet me or e-mail us.

663
00:46:12,160 --> 00:46:14,920
Who do you want to see
where are they now?

664
00:46:15,000 --> 00:46:17,120
Thank you for watching.
We will see you next week.

665
00:46:17,200 --> 00:46:20,000
[Carlton] When I was diagnosed in 1985,

666
00:46:20,080 --> 00:46:24,400
You know,
I already have a big circle to--

667
00:46:24,480 --> 00:46:28,520
85, 6, 7, 8, 9, 1990 - five years.

668
00:46:29,000 --> 00:46:34,880
I have just been overthrown, you know,
fear and hatred from lepers.

669
00:46:35,720 --> 00:46:37,320
That's how it feels.

670
00:46:39,320 --> 00:46:42,880
Internal storms just try

671
00:46:42,960 --> 00:46:48,320
falsify your way to be accepted.

672
00:46:49,120 --> 00:46:52,600
Faking that you are strong.
Faking that you are confident.

673
00:46:52,680 --> 00:46:56,000
Pretend that you think you look good.

674
00:46:56,080 --> 00:47:01,000
Faking that you believe people
care deeply about you.

675
00:47:01,080 --> 00:47:04,080
Faking almost everything.

676
00:47:08,280 --> 00:47:10,360
[man] I want to go to some...

677
00:47:10,440 --> 00:47:13,840
only a few people you have
work with your long career.

678
00:47:13,920 --> 00:47:16,200
Prince, Ricky Martin,
Janet Jackson, David Bowie,

679
00:47:16,280 --> 00:47:20,120
Céline Dion, George Michael,
Lady Gaga, Beyoncé.

680
00:47:20,200 --> 00:47:22,440
But I want to go...

681
00:47:22,520 --> 00:47:26,080
How can it happen to you
even start working with Madonna?

682
00:47:26,160 --> 00:47:28,360
I think many people know you the best

683
00:47:28,440 --> 00:47:31,720
from, you know,
tour the Hairy and Truthful Ambis.

684
00:47:31,800 --> 00:47:32,680
So how...

685
00:47:32,760 --> 00:47:35,680
[Kevin] I began to feel very depressed
about the whole situation.

686
00:47:35,760 --> 00:47:39,280
As much as I will try to sort it out
like pushing it to the background

687
00:47:39,360 --> 00:47:44,240
and ignore the lawsuit or what happened,

688
00:47:44,320 --> 00:47:47,280
um, he's the most visible person
in the world.

689
00:47:47,360 --> 00:47:48,640
[chuckles] Like, everywhere.

690
00:47:48,720 --> 00:47:50,760
You know,
on every cover of each magazine.

691
00:47:50,840 --> 00:47:53,640
There are photos of him everywhere.
People talk about it all the time.

692
00:47:53,720 --> 00:47:56,600
People come to me
to talk about him all the time.

693
00:47:56,680 --> 00:48:01,680
And what happened--
Every time he came in a conversation

694
00:48:01,760 --> 00:48:05,240
is someone in the world
angry with me.

695
00:48:10,080 --> 00:48:13,480
I suffer a lot
don't have him in my life.

696
00:48:13,560 --> 00:48:16,360
You know, not as boss,

697
00:48:16,440 --> 00:48:19,120
but literally just as a person in my life

698
00:48:19,200 --> 00:48:23,000
that I admire and love
and can relate to.

699
00:48:41,440 --> 00:48:42,520
Corner.

700
00:48:43,400 --> 00:48:44,320
Corner.

701
00:48:51,240 --> 00:48:52,160
Soup?

702
00:48:55,760 --> 00:48:58,360
[Oliver] I almost lost my family.
I have to beg my family again.

703
00:48:58,440 --> 00:49:01,880
My mother, my father,
my brothers and sisters.

704
00:49:01,960 --> 00:49:04,480
Um, because I'm acting like that.

705
00:49:06,200 --> 00:49:08,520
I do the right thing.
I stopped drinking.

706
00:49:08,600 --> 00:49:11,960
But then I--
Because it will be a cold turkey.
I see...

707
00:49:12,040 --> 00:49:14,800
But of course, you know--
Because years later he...

708
00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:18,280
-Oh.
In 2006.
-... what they call Bell's apalsy.

709
00:49:18,360 --> 00:49:20,000
And sometimes you can see it.

710
00:49:20,080 --> 00:49:23,720
So when you smile, you can see
that this part is not that big

711
00:49:23,800 --> 00:49:26,960
and the eyes are sometimes squinted,
especially when he is tired.

712
00:49:27,040 --> 00:49:29,680
It's a nervous system, you know, and--

713
00:49:29,760 --> 00:49:31,880
Twice in my life
something bad has happened.

714
00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:35,280
They tell him and me,
"Oh, that's just something that can happen.

715
00:49:35,360 --> 00:49:37,480
One in one hundred people get it. "

716
00:49:37,560 --> 00:49:39,360
That can happen to anyone.

717
00:49:39,440 --> 00:49:42,840
However, we always think that
maybe because you have a seizure,

718
00:49:42,920 --> 00:49:45,320
and your nervous system shock,
you know.

719
00:49:45,400 --> 00:49:47,720
But that can happen to you now,
when we speak.

720
00:49:47,800 --> 00:49:51,240
They say anyone-- No,
you have some kind of - you wake up with that.

721
00:49:51,320 --> 00:49:52,400
You wake up with that.
My fault.

722
00:49:52,480 --> 00:49:54,040
Or you have a dramatic moment

723
00:49:54,120 --> 00:49:56,640
and your face
can sort of pause in one place.

724
00:49:56,720 --> 00:49:58,120
And that-- And...

725
00:49:58,200 --> 00:49:59,800
- whole face.
-Yes.

726
00:49:59,880 --> 00:50:00,800
I have been awake--

727
00:50:00,880 --> 00:50:02,920
-He can't blink his eyes.
-I can't blink my eyes.

728
00:50:03,000 --> 00:50:06,080
I wake up, you know, talking like this.

729
00:50:07,400 --> 00:50:09,000
[Salim] Hey, how are you?

730
00:50:09,080 --> 00:50:10,960
Good Class.
-Thank you.

731
00:50:18,120 --> 00:50:19,800
Hey.
How are you?

732
00:50:20,400 --> 00:50:22,240
How are you all?

733
00:50:22,320 --> 00:50:24,240
- [women singing aria]
-and pull again.

734
00:50:24,320 --> 00:50:26,920
Again, all the way down.

735
00:50:30,080 --> 00:50:32,000
and plié.

736
00:50:32,400 --> 00:50:34,680
Slowly roll again.

737
00:50:34,760 --> 00:50:38,040
Stay on a plié.
Push your hips forward.

738
00:50:38,120 --> 00:50:39,120
Good.

739
00:50:40,200 --> 00:50:43,040
And roll again.
Last variation.

740
00:50:43,120 --> 00:50:44,840
All the way down.

741
00:50:47,280 --> 00:50:49,800
That is difficult because
I never talked about it before,

742
00:50:49,880 --> 00:50:52,880
and this is the first time, so... [sob]

743
00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:56,880
Also, um, in 1987--

744
00:50:56,960 --> 00:50:59,280
Uh, surely, like, inside, uh--

745
00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:01,680
uh, must be around December,

746
00:51:01,760 --> 00:51:04,680
uh, I'm not feeling well,
and that is something with my kidney.

747
00:51:04,760 --> 00:51:05,880
And I've been in New York.

748
00:51:05,960 --> 00:51:10,840
And I don't have insurance here,
so I go to Belgium for review,

749
00:51:10,920 --> 00:51:15,080
and that is something with my injury,
but they fix it and everything is fine.

750
00:51:15,160 --> 00:51:17,840
They drain or something,
and they say it doesn't matter.

751
00:51:17,920 --> 00:51:21,240
But for some reason the day before I left,
I got another call,

752
00:51:21,320 --> 00:51:23,680
and they asked me
to go back to the hospital

753
00:51:23,760 --> 00:51:25,480
because they want to talk to me.

754
00:51:25,560 --> 00:51:27,880
And I'm like, "Oh, yeah, that's weird."

755
00:51:28,320 --> 00:51:29,560
So my mother and I left.

756
00:51:29,640 --> 00:51:32,000
I don't remember where the hospital is.

757
00:51:32,080 --> 00:51:35,360
It's close to Antwerp.
And I went to the hospital.

758
00:51:35,440 --> 00:51:37,600
I remember my mother and I
went into the room

759
00:51:37,680 --> 00:51:39,720
and doctors talk to us,

760
00:51:39,800 --> 00:51:42,400
and that's where he told me,
"Yes, I'm sorry, sir,

761
00:51:42,480 --> 00:51:44,720
but I'm sad to tell you that you are HIV."

762
00:51:51,800 --> 00:51:53,160
When someone tells you,

763
00:51:53,240 --> 00:51:55,720
"You know, listen, you only go
to live five to 10 years" -

764
00:51:55,800 --> 00:51:59,120
I mean, everyone falls like a fly.

765
00:52:02,760 --> 00:52:05,360
I actually deleted it.
I don't want to talk about it.

766
00:52:05,440 --> 00:52:07,400
My mother promises me
she won't tell anyone,

767
00:52:07,480 --> 00:52:09,480
so it's only between us.

768
00:52:10,560 --> 00:52:13,560
Even today,
no one knows, you know.

769
00:52:13,640 --> 00:52:16,600
No, I always keep it a secret.

770
00:52:18,480 --> 00:52:22,840
That is a dark and dark time in my life.
Very dark.
Dark.

771
00:52:22,920 --> 00:52:26,960
That brings me to so much,
like, a dark place too, you know.

772
00:52:27,040 --> 00:52:29,920
And can't work and party

773
00:52:30,000 --> 00:52:31,320
and like, "Will I be sick?"

774
00:52:31,400 --> 00:52:34,440
And then this friend died
and the one died, you know.

775
00:52:34,520 --> 00:52:36,560
And then I lose weight.
"Wait.
Am I okay?"

776
00:52:36,640 --> 00:52:39,880
Keep looking at myself.
"Oh, my God, do I look sick?"

777
00:52:40,320 --> 00:52:41,440
And there is no outlet, you know.

778
00:52:41,520 --> 00:52:44,080
It's always the hardest, you know.
That's difficult.

779
00:52:44,160 --> 00:52:45,480
And sometimes--

780
00:52:45,560 --> 00:52:48,720
You know, there's no place to live too, you know.
That's terrible, you know.

781
00:52:48,800 --> 00:52:50,760
But still, I don't want to leave this country.

782
00:52:50,840 --> 00:52:54,280
What will I do, return to Belgium and do what?
You know.

783
00:52:54,360 --> 00:52:55,480
And I didn't call my mother.

784
00:52:55,560 --> 00:52:57,840
It's like, "Hey, Mom, look,
I do a lot of drugs, you know.

785
00:52:57,920 --> 00:52:59,280
And now--

786
00:52:59,360 --> 00:53:00,840
Sorry, ma'am.
I know. "

787
00:53:00,920 --> 00:53:05,520
I do this too because I think a lot
people might in this situation

788
00:53:05,600 --> 00:53:07,320
or be in this situation, you know.

789
00:53:07,400 --> 00:53:11,360
And even if I can touch one person,
you know, that means the world to me,

790
00:53:11,440 --> 00:53:12,840
because I know it's a bitch.

791
00:53:12,920 --> 00:53:15,480
And if you don't have anyone--
And I'm a strong person, you know,

792
00:53:15,560 --> 00:53:18,080
and I think I'm safe too
because I'm strong .

793
00:53:18,160 --> 00:53:19,760
But not everyone is strong like that,

794
00:53:19,840 --> 00:53:23,240
because fucker with your head
is very bad.

795
00:53:23,800 --> 00:53:24,800
[man] Bring it back.  - [camera shutter clicks]
-What's the secret?

796
00:53:24,880 --> 00:53:27,040
Tip your head is slightly more upright.

797
00:53:27,120 --> 00:53:28,680
There.
Chill more.
Good.

798
00:53:29,760 --> 00:53:31,680


799
00:53:32,080 --> 00:53:33,760


800
00:53:33,840 --> 00:53:35,360
- [click the camera shutter]
-Stay there.

801
00:53:36,080 --> 00:53:40,800
Even after my show with it is finished,
I'm still in fake mode, you know.

802
00:53:40,880 --> 00:53:43,440
But I am still in the world,
even though the tour has ended.

803
00:53:43,520 --> 00:53:47,200
I am still in the world trying to represent what they see as me  the super Iron Man.

804
00:53:47,280 --> 00:53:49,640
Kill everything and drop everything.

805
00:53:49,720 --> 00:53:52,480
When I know that I am not like that.
I know that I am not like that.

806
00:53:52,560 --> 00:53:55,120
Because when I have another moment, I am afraid.

807
00:53:55,200 --> 00:53:59,120
And I proved that I was weak
because I did not defend myself.

808
00:54:00,040 --> 00:54:04,160
It's already very, um...

809
00:54:07,120 --> 00:54:09,800
Gripping things must cancel.

810
00:54:14,760 --> 00:54:17,920
From me to me.

811
00:54:19,760 --> 00:54:21,400
[no sound]

812
00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:28,600
If I rest on who I am,

813
00:54:44,200 --> 00:54:46,600
it's not a problem
to get excessive attention at any time.

814
00:54:46,680 --> 00:54:49,600


815
00:54:49,680 --> 00:54:51,320
In the restaurant.
You know?

816
00:54:51,400 --> 00:54:54,080
I am in the restaurant with you,
but then, who is there?

817
00:54:54,160 --> 00:54:56,840
And I have to be very charming
so they say something,

818
00:54:56,920 --> 00:55:01,800
and then I have to give someone else
something so they are locked in on me.

819
00:55:01,880 --> 00:55:04,680
That's a lot of damn stuff.

820
00:55:09,800 --> 00:55:15,120
Very interesting to watch yourself
collapse into nothingness.

821
00:55:16,320 --> 00:55:18,600
With, like, afraid to get out.

822
00:55:18,680 --> 00:55:23,120
I mean, I really became very small.

823
00:56:11,560 --> 00:56:14,360
[crowd cheering on video]

824
00:56:17,760 --> 00:56:20,360
[Madonna] I love you too.
I want to say something.

825
00:56:20,440 --> 00:56:22,760
Oh, my God, I look very uncomfortable.

826
00:56:23,520 --> 00:56:25,120
Nails.

827
00:56:25,200 --> 00:56:29,520
... who is my friend
who died of AIDS a few months ago.

828
00:56:30,600 --> 00:56:33,560
Now, you might know Keith Haring
as an artist.

829
00:56:33,640 --> 00:56:37,160
- [crowd cheering]
- His face is already.
I look scared.

830
00:56:37,240 --> 00:56:39,560
... who has the courage to tell the truth.

831
00:56:39,640 --> 00:56:42,480
Actually, he's gay.

832
00:56:42,560 --> 00:56:47,640
Actually, he had AIDS and he said that.

833
00:56:47,720 --> 00:56:50,040
to anyone who wants to listen.

834
00:56:50,840 --> 00:56:55,560
To commemorate Keith,
let's be honest with ourselves.

835
00:56:55,640 --> 00:56:58,120
Let us tell each other.

836
00:56:58,200 --> 00:57:00,280
[crowd cheering]

837
00:57:00,360 --> 00:57:02,440
And can't wait to go down.

838
00:57:15,120 --> 00:57:20,840
[man] What do you think about that tour
with Madonna means in Jose's life?

839
00:57:20,920 --> 00:57:23,480
[speaking Spanish]

840
00:57:37,320 --> 00:57:40,080
He feels that
I still have to dance with him.

841
00:57:40,160 --> 00:57:42,960
That I still have to be there
is what he feels.

842
00:57:43,040 --> 00:57:44,880
And that's when that's good.

843
00:57:44,960 --> 00:57:47,800
[speaking Spanish]

844
00:57:52,640 --> 00:57:54,720
He said - He isn't under--

845
00:58:02,200 --> 00:58:07,760
He said that I had to keep on doing it
dancing with Madonna, with everyone,

846
00:58:07,840 --> 00:58:10,080
because I have many opportunities.

847
00:58:10,160 --> 00:58:12,760
And he said that the same door
that I open

848
00:58:12,840 --> 00:58:14,880
is that I am also closed to myself.

849
00:58:14,960 --> 00:58:17,920
A month ago.
It's Saturday or Sunday.

850
00:58:18,680 --> 00:58:22,360
And we--
I went to his own house.

851
00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:26,680
And... just hang out with him.

852
00:58:27,600 --> 00:58:32,240
And we go to the store to buy a magazine.

853
00:58:34,560 --> 00:58:38,160
And we were photographed.
It's like a paparazzi moment.

854
00:58:41,600 --> 00:58:45,520
I think that's
one of the last times I saw it,

855
00:58:45,600 --> 00:58:49,720
You know, when everything goes down.

856
00:58:49,800 --> 00:58:53,160
You know, heroin
and all the items go down.

857
00:58:54,600 --> 00:58:58,840
He told me that, um, you know...

858
00:58:58,920 --> 00:59:00,520
if I need help,

859
00:59:00,600 --> 00:59:02,840
that we-- that we need help.

860
00:59:03,520 --> 00:59:07,400
But, um, more importantly, I need to get help.

861
00:59:08,080 --> 00:59:09,840
And you know...

862
00:59:12,040 --> 00:59:15,600
that's one reason
why did he start...

863
00:59:16,600 --> 00:59:20,480
slowly retreat from us.

864
00:59:25,000 --> 00:59:26,960
I think that's the moment I realized,

865
00:59:27,040 --> 00:59:31,760
"Oh no, I don't think I will leave,
You know, see it. "

866
00:59:31,840 --> 00:59:34,040
And there is something in my consciousness

867
00:59:34,120 --> 00:59:37,320
or on me, you know--
behind my consciousness

868
00:59:37,400 --> 00:59:40,480
who says this is where it starts...

869
00:59:41,360 --> 00:59:42,640
fade.

870
00:59:42,720 --> 00:59:44,800
[speaking Spanish]

871
00:59:46,240 --> 00:59:48,000
He says when I was little--

872
01:00:03,120 --> 01:00:04,120
Uh huh.

873
01:00:06,960 --> 01:00:10,600
One time he saw
home pictures on a postcard,

874
01:00:10,680 --> 01:00:12,200
and he has shown it to me,

875
01:00:12,280 --> 01:00:14,880
say this is home
that one day you will buy me.

876
01:00:14,960 --> 01:00:16,360
[speaking Spanish]

877
01:00:16,440 --> 01:00:19,280
And then it bothers
because he thinks it's...

878
01:00:19,360 --> 01:00:21,760
[speaking Spanish]

879
01:00:21,840 --> 01:00:23,960
He thinks I have a chance
to be able to give it to him.

880
01:00:24,040 --> 01:00:26,880
[speaking Spanish]

881
01:00:38,600 --> 01:00:42,000
Saying that I do a lot of things,
do lots of big things.

882
01:00:44,040 --> 01:00:46,680
And he said
that I should just continue.

883
01:00:47,640 --> 01:00:49,720
I never took it to that house.

884
01:00:50,680 --> 01:00:52,840
[speaking Spanish]

885
01:01:00,400 --> 01:01:02,600
He said that it bothered him a lot.

886
01:01:02,680 --> 01:01:05,760
Because he said that I could
have it, great opportunity.

887
01:01:05,840 --> 01:01:10,560
And he feels--
still wants the house someday.

888
01:01:10,640 --> 01:01:13,760
[man] What did your mother think
wrong with you?

889
01:01:13,840 --> 01:01:16,280
He doesn't even know what's wrong.

890
01:01:16,360 --> 01:01:18,840
He only knows a lot of things.

891
01:01:18,920 --> 01:01:23,600
I just disappear
and go and live my life, you know.

892
01:01:23,680 --> 01:01:28,440
And, like, he doesn't even know
half of many things, you know.

893
01:01:32,160 --> 01:01:33,920
[speaking Spanish]

894
01:01:35,800 --> 01:01:37,640
[man] He will have it
want you to continue.

895
01:01:37,720 --> 01:01:41,640
To continue my career
which I learned from childhood.

896
01:01:42,120 --> 01:01:44,520
-Do you feel the same way?
-Yes.

897
01:01:44,600 --> 01:01:46,720
I would be stupid not to do it.

898
01:01:50,640 --> 01:01:52,240
Right.

899
01:01:54,400 --> 01:01:56,320
[speaking Spanish]

900
01:01:57,000 --> 01:01:59,360
- He said--
- What do you think happened--

901
01:01:59,440 --> 01:02:02,920
Why can't you
to continue that path?

902
01:02:03,680 --> 01:02:07,040
I can't continue
because I became unsafe.

903
01:02:07,120 --> 01:02:12,600
I get hurt
a lot of things in love and in life.

904
01:02:12,680 --> 01:02:14,040
Do you know?

905
01:02:14,120 --> 01:02:17,840
Start doubting yourself about things

906
01:02:17,920 --> 01:02:22,520
and wonder if I will die next
and things like that.

907
01:02:22,600 --> 01:02:23,960
Do you know?

908
01:02:24,040 --> 01:02:26,560
Yes, there is a very dark moment.

909
01:02:27,480 --> 01:02:29,760
But I am very, like, strong

910
01:02:29,840 --> 01:02:33,960
in the sense that I will never let anyone
know what I am going through.

911
01:02:35,080 --> 01:02:36,480
Many times, you know.

912
01:02:36,560 --> 01:02:38,400
Doesn't matter that my mother-- I never--

913
01:02:38,480 --> 01:02:41,000
I have left, so-- You know.

914
01:02:41,080 --> 01:02:42,920
I don't feel--

915
01:02:45,640 --> 01:02:48,920
I feel because of that fact
that I can't succeed,

916
01:02:49,000 --> 01:02:50,960
I have messed things up.

917
01:02:51,040 --> 01:02:53,480
There's no point I'm around.

918
01:02:54,320 --> 01:02:57,920
So I disappeared for a certain period of time.

919
01:02:59,560 --> 01:03:02,600
Brisé, jeté, jeté, assemblé.

920
01:03:02,680 --> 01:03:04,920
Tours en, tours en.

921
01:03:05,000 --> 01:03:08,600
Ah, ah, ah, ah.
Ah ah.

922
01:03:08,680 --> 01:03:11,080
Attitudes and attitudes.

923
01:03:13,560 --> 01:03:14,720
Ta-da!

924
01:03:15,280 --> 01:03:16,920
My bow.

925
01:03:17,000 --> 01:03:18,480
Right?

926
01:03:52,600 --> 01:03:56,120
[man] And still many people see you
and get inspiration to be--

927
01:03:56,200 --> 01:03:58,760
Still amazed.
Still amazed.

928
01:03:58,840 --> 01:04:01,080
I'm like, "How is that possible

929
01:04:01,160 --> 01:04:04,800
so many people
can be so inspired by me? "

930
01:04:04,880 --> 01:04:06,080
You know?

931
01:04:06,160 --> 01:04:10,720
They are not my intention at all--
to move so many people.

932
01:04:11,280 --> 01:04:12,840
And at that moment I didn't realize it. realized what I had done.

933
01:04:12,920 --> 01:04:16,400
I said, "Wait a minute.
You actually have
touching people with what you bring."

934
01:04:17,320 --> 01:04:22,400
-Is it entertaining now in a way?
-Oh, yes.

935
01:04:24,720 --> 01:04:27,600
If I don't have anything else...

936
01:04:32,280 --> 01:04:34,520
That is enough for me.

937
01:04:35,680 --> 01:04:38,320
[no audio in video]

938
01:04:40,360 --> 01:04:42,600
[sighs]

939
01:04:57,680 --> 01:05:00,320
[chat]

940
01:05:03,480 --> 01:05:05,680
Carlton.

941
01:05:31,080 --> 01:05:32,280
[chuckles]

942
01:05:32,360 --> 01:05:34,000
[applause]

943
01:05:34,720 --> 01:05:35,960
- Shut up.
-How are you?

944
01:05:37,160 --> 01:05:39,800


945
01:05:40,960 --> 01:05:44,840
- [kissing]
-Yes God!

946
01:05:46,120 --> 01:05:47,600
Slamming!

947
01:05:47,680 --> 01:05:49,440
Carlton, how are you?

948
01:05:49,520 --> 01:05:51,920
Jesus!
Hai, adult man.
Look at you.

949
01:05:52,000 --> 01:05:54,000
Ahh!

950
01:05:54,960 --> 01:05:56,880
-This is number three.
-Hey brother!

951
01:05:56,960 --> 01:05:58,600
Luis!

952
01:05:59,240 --> 01:06:00,880
[Carlton] Oh, my God!

953
01:06:03,080 --> 01:06:05,840
-What are you doing?
-I am fine.
Nice to meet you.

954
01:06:05,920 --> 01:06:07,280
-What are you doing?
-Good.

955
01:06:07,360 --> 01:06:10,000
Release your glasses.
I want to see your eyes.

956
01:06:10,080 --> 01:06:11,760
No kidding.

957
01:06:12,960 --> 01:06:14,720
Oh my God.

958
01:06:18,360 --> 01:06:21,320
[Carlton] Wow!

959
01:06:23,520 --> 01:06:25,760
Hello dear.
How are you?

960
01:06:25,840 --> 01:06:28,840
-Who is this?
- [all] Aw!

961
01:06:30,560 --> 01:06:32,640
[Carlton] Small jazz hands.

962
01:06:35,520 --> 01:06:37,440
Oh my God!

963
01:06:38,880 --> 01:06:39,960
-Baby!
-What is wrong?

964
01:06:40,040 --> 01:06:41,480
Oh my God!

965
01:06:41,560 --> 01:06:42,800
Like him.

966
01:06:42,880 --> 01:06:44,840
Oh my God.

967
01:06:47,800 --> 01:06:49,920
Wait a minute.
Wait.
Hold.

968
01:06:50,760 --> 01:06:52,400
Jose!

969
01:06:52,480 --> 01:06:55,000
-Wow!
-Oh, my God!

970
01:06:55,080 --> 01:06:56,360
[Carlton] You look beautiful.

971
01:06:56,440 --> 01:06:58,960
-Yes God!
-Hello dear.

972
01:06:59,040 --> 01:07:00,840
-Yes God.
I like your jacket.
-Jose.

973
01:07:00,920 --> 01:07:03,200
[Carlton] This is a beautiful jacket.

974
01:07:03,280 --> 01:07:04,800
How are you?

975
01:07:04,880 --> 01:07:06,960
-Jose.
-Jose.

976
01:07:07,320 --> 01:07:08,800
[Kevin] Oh, it smells good.

977
01:07:11,440 --> 01:07:14,720
[Carlton] Oh, my God, friend.
Nice to meet you.

978
01:07:17,760 --> 01:07:19,000
Oh!

979
01:07:19,640 --> 01:07:20,840
Hi friend.

980
01:07:20,920 --> 01:07:23,360
I like it, look at men today.

981
01:07:23,440 --> 01:07:26,680
- [Salim] We all have-- We grew up.
-Oh, my God, we are growing up.

982
01:07:26,760 --> 01:07:28,080
[Carlton] Cheers!

983
01:07:28,160 --> 01:07:29,560
- [all] Cheers!
-Wow.

984
01:07:29,640 --> 01:07:31,960
[Jose] For family and brotherhood, right?

985
01:07:32,040 --> 01:07:34,880
-and brotherhood.
With the exception...
-Let me tell you--

986
01:07:34,960 --> 01:07:36,560
There is no number tonight.

987
01:07:36,640 --> 01:07:38,440
What is it, for example, 25 years?

988
01:07:38,520 --> 01:07:41,040
Can't we say it's been a long time?

989
01:07:41,120 --> 01:07:44,800
I get a message saying--
all of you--

990
01:07:44,880 --> 01:07:47,440
- The tour changed my life.
- [Salim] I know.
I know.

991
01:07:47,520 --> 01:07:49,800
The film changes my life.

992
01:07:49,880 --> 01:07:52,640
Each of you.
I mean--

993
01:07:53,600 --> 01:07:56,400
- [Salim] I know.
No, that's right.
-We don't realize it.

994
01:07:56,480 --> 01:07:59,360
- [Oliver] We don't... We don't...
-I don't realize it too.

995
01:07:59,440 --> 01:08:03,680
I have to do many things.
That one finger
wrong, and he will, like, come out.

996
01:08:03,760 --> 01:08:05,600
The same dirt.
Yes, yes.

997
01:08:05,680 --> 01:08:07,840
[all laughs]

998
01:08:08,720 --> 01:08:10,760
[chat]

999
01:08:12,400 --> 01:08:14,680
No, one night he was like,
"I can't see his hand.

1000
01:08:14,760 --> 01:08:17,160
I can't see his hand. "I like," Really? "

1001
01:08:17,240 --> 01:08:19,520
[chatting]

1002
01:08:21,160 --> 01:08:22,640
[Carlton] What is your life like?

1003
01:08:22,720 --> 01:08:27,160
Like, how-- Do you feel like dropping out of school,
or is it challenging, or...?

1004
01:08:27,240 --> 01:08:30,319
Very strange.
I feel like,
because I started auditioning again,

1005
01:08:30,399 --> 01:08:32,680
but I feel like every time
I went to audition,

1006
01:08:32,760 --> 01:08:35,479
I never auditioned
as an ordinary dancer again.

1007
01:08:35,560 --> 01:08:37,279
That is always a Madonna dancer.

1008
01:08:37,359 --> 01:08:40,920
And then they hate me for no reason.
They don't know who I am.

1009
01:08:41,000 --> 01:08:42,920
- Or they hate it.
- [Jose] or love you.

1010
01:08:43,000 --> 01:08:46,000
So I never auditioned again
only as a good dancer.

1011
01:08:46,080 --> 01:08:49,160
- [Jose] As an ordinary dancer.
-It is always connected.

1012
01:08:49,240 --> 01:08:52,520
And that opens many doors,
but that is also a curse at the same time.

1013
01:08:52,600 --> 01:08:55,840
I want him to be here
because it's not like--

1014
01:08:55,920 --> 01:08:57,080
That's more--

1015
01:08:57,160 --> 01:09:01,800
It's not like dancers and pop stars,
dancers who work for a pop star.

1016
01:09:01,880 --> 01:09:03,840
- That-- You know, like--
- [Oliver] Deeper.

1017
01:09:03,920 --> 01:09:05,319
Yes, it's getting deeper.
Exactly.

1018
01:09:05,399 --> 01:09:08,520
We become family, and we are all young.

1019
01:09:08,600 --> 01:09:10,920
And for all that happens

1020
01:09:11,000 --> 01:09:14,200
and for that
doesn't become anything after that,

1021
01:09:14,279 --> 01:09:16,200
is it to say, "Oh, you messed up"

1022
01:09:16,279 --> 01:09:21,120
or, "You guys are messy and I just
can't deal with you and your antics

1023
01:09:21,200 --> 01:09:22,840
and you and Luis and you.

1024
01:09:22,920 --> 01:09:26,040
That's too much.
They sued me, and I was - "

1025
01:09:26,120 --> 01:09:28,720
-Something
You know, it's okay.
- [Salim] Yes, yes.

1026
01:09:28,800 --> 01:09:32,040
I don't feel like I have--
I have no intention bad to him at all.

1027
01:09:32,120 --> 01:09:37,319
I think the greatest shame
or the thing I miss is love.

1028
01:09:37,399 --> 01:09:41,160
I really love him and I always,
and I never say bad things about him.

1029
01:09:41,240 --> 01:09:43,520
And I hope he is here

1030
01:09:43,600 --> 01:09:49,160
just because I feel like that
would be nice to have a chance

1031
01:09:49,240 --> 01:09:50,880
to connect with him as an adult.

1032
01:09:51,760 --> 01:09:54,600
I don't think
he owes us a debt.

1033
01:09:55,320 --> 01:09:58,320
I think he gave us
fantastic opportunities.

1034
01:09:58,400 --> 01:10:00,320
And you know--

1035
01:10:03,720 --> 01:10:06,400
I mean, we have lived our lives.

1036
01:10:11,280 --> 01:10:12,440
I'm not--

1037
01:10:13,000 --> 01:10:16,880
I just said that
he didn't really owe us anything.

1038
01:10:16,960 --> 01:10:19,040
- [Oliver] Anything.
-Do you know what I'm saying?

1039
01:10:19,120 --> 01:10:23,480
I mean, what comes out of that experience

1040
01:10:23,560 --> 01:10:25,880
is our action.

1041
01:10:26,640 --> 01:10:30,800
We are who we are today because of us.

1042
01:10:30,880 --> 01:10:32,000
Do you know what I say?

1043
01:10:32,080 --> 01:10:36,760
And you know,
that's amazing that happened to him.

1044
01:10:36,840 --> 01:10:40,000
That's really.
That is the right time, you know.

1045
01:10:40,080 --> 01:10:44,800
And all stars are aligned correctly
for me and Jose and for you.

1046
01:10:44,880 --> 01:10:50,520
I mean, you know, our
is revoked because it doesn't exist.

1047
01:10:50,600 --> 01:10:52,080
And we become--

1048
01:10:52,160 --> 01:10:53,600
- [Jose] Existence.
-There.

1049
01:10:53,680 --> 01:10:54,640
[Oliver] Guys.

1050
01:10:54,880 --> 01:10:57,560
Gabriel, I love you,
so I want you to hear this.

1051
01:10:59,120 --> 01:11:02,720
You change my life.

1052
01:11:03,840 --> 01:11:05,840
You change my life,

1053
01:11:06,040 --> 01:11:10,760
because I come from a tent,
that you don't understand,

1054
01:11:10,840 --> 01:11:12,800
from New Orleans, not N'awlins.

1055
01:11:12,880 --> 01:11:16,160
New Orleans, at the Lafayette Project.

1056
01:11:16,960 --> 01:11:18,120
That's not...

1057
01:11:20,440 --> 01:11:24,520
part of I hear-- from gays, whatever,
this and that.

1058
01:11:24,600 --> 01:11:28,280
And come to the world...

1059
01:11:29,040 --> 01:11:30,480
of you...

1060
01:11:31,960 --> 01:11:35,600
I am very blessed and I am very grateful.

1061
01:11:35,680 --> 01:11:38,880
You like family to me, you know.

1062
01:11:39,480 --> 01:11:42,440
And no matter how many years have passed,

1063
01:11:42,520 --> 01:11:44,560
like, I'm sitting here now

1064
01:11:44,640 --> 01:11:47,240
and it seems like I have never left you.

1065
01:11:49,920 --> 01:11:51,920
And I don't know why I'm emotional.

1066
01:11:52,000 --> 01:11:54,000
It's not because of sadness or anything.

1067
01:11:54,080 --> 01:11:57,440
That, like, extraordinary love.

1068
01:11:57,520 --> 01:11:58,680
[Oliver] Cool.

1069
01:11:58,760 --> 01:12:00,680
That's a lot of love.
That is it.

1070
01:12:00,760 --> 01:12:01,880
There is no sadness.

1071
01:12:01,960 --> 01:12:05,000
Just as you are my brothers.

1072
01:12:05,080 --> 01:12:07,480
- [Carlton] Be right or brave, sir.
- [Kevin] Oh, my God.

1073
01:12:07,560 --> 01:12:09,720
Uh, honest or brave.
Uh, right.

1074
01:12:09,800 --> 01:12:11,440
[Carlton] Truth.

1075
01:12:12,440 --> 01:12:13,800
What has--

1076
01:12:13,880 --> 01:12:17,480
What is the biggest thing
in your life that you have to overcome?

1077
01:12:18,520 --> 01:12:20,320
Uh, drugs and alcohol.

1078
01:12:22,040 --> 01:12:24,520
I think only grace...

1079
01:12:25,320 --> 01:12:27,680
um, is my mother.

1080
01:12:28,680 --> 01:12:31,680
He sent me to Los Angeles to...

1081
01:12:32,600 --> 01:12:33,800
dries.

1082
01:12:34,680 --> 01:12:36,480
And, um...

1083
01:12:38,080 --> 01:12:40,640
I dry heroin.

1084
01:12:40,720 --> 01:12:43,280
Heroin - Heroin takes me to my knee.

1085
01:12:43,760 --> 01:12:44,800
Yes.

1086
01:12:44,880 --> 01:12:50,800
Tell us what has become the biggest lesson
You have learned in your life,

1087
01:12:50,880 --> 01:12:53,240
the biggest piece of wisdom
that you have learned.

1088
01:12:56,400 --> 01:12:58,600
How far?
Like--

1089
01:12:58,680 --> 01:13:02,800
[Kevin] That's what you learn.
You told us.
What stands out...

1090
01:13:07,280 --> 01:13:09,160
-No to judge, I think.
- [Kevin] Hmm.

1091
01:13:09,240 --> 01:13:12,440
The biggest piece of wisdom,
yes, don't judge anyone, huh.

1092
01:13:12,520 --> 01:13:15,600
And just knowing all those people
through something,

1093
01:13:15,680 --> 01:13:17,640
and everyone acts at the end, you know--

1094
01:13:17,720 --> 01:13:21,200
Everyone goes through something
and doesn't just really judge them.

1095
01:13:21,280 --> 01:13:24,840
That's the greatest thing, I think,
I've learned in my life so far,

1096
01:13:24,920 --> 01:13:27,760
46 years old, yes.

1097
01:13:27,840 --> 01:13:29,280
Truth, right?

1098
01:13:29,360 --> 01:13:30,400
If you--

1099
01:13:30,480 --> 01:13:32,560
Now you
in a slightly different place

1100
01:13:32,640 --> 01:13:34,560
around all gays...

1101
01:13:35,200 --> 01:13:38,560
if you have sex with a man,

1102
01:13:38,640 --> 01:13:40,440
Which man on this table?

1103
01:13:40,520 --> 01:13:42,160
- [laughter]
- [Jose] Oh, my God.

1104
01:13:42,240 --> 01:13:43,160
Good.

1105
01:13:43,240 --> 01:13:45,360
There is no answer for that.

1106
01:13:45,440 --> 01:13:47,840
Let me finish.
Reason why?

1107
01:13:48,600 --> 01:13:54,280
Because you, you, you, you,
you and you are my brother.

1108
01:13:54,360 --> 01:13:56,240
-Okay, but that isn't--
-No no.

1109
01:13:56,320 --> 01:13:57,240
No no No.

1110
01:13:57,320 --> 01:13:59,320
The question is truth or challenge.

1111
01:13:59,840 --> 01:14:02,400
-Game is Truth or Dare.
-And you tell the truth.

1112
01:14:02,480 --> 01:14:04,840
-I am honest.
-And I gave you the truth to answer.

1113
01:14:04,920 --> 01:14:06,080
- Yes.
-Which one?

1114
01:14:06,160 --> 01:14:08,280
You won't or not.

1115
01:14:08,360 --> 01:14:12,880
The question is, which one would you do if you had to do it?

1116
01:14:12,960 --> 01:14:14,040
-Good.
- [Kevin] Choose.
Select it.

1117
01:14:14,120 --> 01:14:16,160
-And why?
-Good.
All of you.

1118
01:14:16,240 --> 01:14:17,760
No. Which one?
One.

1119
01:14:17,840 --> 01:14:19,680
- [Salim] You can only choose one.
-One.

1120
01:14:20,480 --> 01:14:22,440
- [Salim] And we don't judge you.
-Yes.

1121
01:14:22,520 --> 01:14:24,000
- [Salim] Hypothetically speaking.
- I have to go up one?

1122
01:14:24,080 --> 01:14:26,120
- [Salim] Yes.
Only one.
-Yes.
And why.

1123
01:14:26,200 --> 01:14:27,480
[Jose] And why.

1124
01:14:28,840 --> 01:14:29,880
Gabriel.

1125
01:14:31,640 --> 01:14:33,200
[Jose] Okay.
Why?

1126
01:14:33,280 --> 01:14:34,720
-Why?
- [Kevin] Yes.

1127
01:14:37,560 --> 01:14:39,280
[Kevin] Because he's younger forever
from all of us.

1128
01:14:39,360 --> 01:14:40,800
[laughter]

1129
01:14:40,880 --> 01:14:43,000
- [Carlton] Why?
- [Luis] Because he's not here.

1130
01:14:43,080 --> 01:14:44,440
- [Carlton] Why?
-No.

1131
01:14:47,720 --> 01:14:49,400
Because he is innocent.

1132
01:14:49,960 --> 01:14:51,920
-Hmm.
-For me.

1133
01:14:52,440 --> 01:14:53,320
Good.

1134
01:14:53,920 --> 01:14:55,920
[Luis] Slam, honest or brave?

1135
01:14:56,600 --> 01:14:58,720
[Oliver] He's drunk.
& apos; Because you breathe.

1136
01:14:58,800 --> 01:14:59,800
[inhaling]

1137
01:15:00,480 --> 01:15:03,400
Truth, truth.
Because I don't want to kiss anyone, no.

1138
01:15:03,480 --> 01:15:05,760
You are like all my sisters.
I take the truth.

1139
01:15:06,040 --> 01:15:08,320
You can take courage, and you can
continue and kiss me.
No problem.

1140
01:15:08,400 --> 01:15:10,680
No no.
I don't want to kiss you.
Look.

1141
01:15:11,760 --> 01:15:14,360
-I will take the truth.
- [Luis] All right.

1142
01:15:14,440 --> 01:15:16,520
What is your biggest fear?

1143
01:15:18,000 --> 01:15:19,040
[Kevin] Wow.

1144
01:15:19,120 --> 01:15:22,360
What is my biggest fear?
Uh...

1145
01:15:25,680 --> 01:15:27,560
Uh, to say it, I will see Jose

1146
01:15:27,640 --> 01:15:30,520
because, you know,
you give me the greatest strength always.

1147
01:15:30,600 --> 01:15:34,320
I think my biggest fear is and was--

1148
01:15:34,960 --> 01:15:39,200
always find out people
that I am HIV positive.

1149
01:15:40,120 --> 01:15:41,520
That is my biggest fear.

1150
01:15:41,600 --> 01:15:46,480
I was diagnosed in 1987,
yes, became HIV positive.

1151
01:15:46,560 --> 01:15:48,840
And I think that
is my biggest fear always--

1152
01:15:48,920 --> 01:15:52,200
for people to find out, huh.

1153
01:15:52,280 --> 01:15:54,480
And I feel that way, you know--
It's like, I don't know.

1154
01:15:54,560 --> 01:15:58,040
I never want to share this story
with other people but you, you know.

1155
01:15:58,120 --> 01:16:01,680
I mean, I, yes, was diagnosed on & apos; 87,

1156
01:16:01,840 --> 01:16:07,200
and, you know, finally in 2015, you know,
I just - I want to be free, you know.

1157
01:16:07,280 --> 01:16:09,440
[Kevin] Oh, honey.

1158
01:16:10,120 --> 01:16:11,200
[sniffles]

1159
01:16:11,280 --> 01:16:14,800
You too.
You too.
You too.

1160
01:16:14,880 --> 01:16:17,040
-and, you know, it's like three people.
- [Kevin] Oh, my God.

1161
01:16:17,120 --> 01:16:18,280
I know.
I know.

1162
01:16:18,360 --> 01:16:22,640
And that was my first sexual experience.
Yes.

1163
01:16:23,440 --> 01:16:26,480
Because, you know, I just don't know anything about it, huh.

1164
01:16:26,560 --> 01:16:28,880
[Luis] Well, the good news is that you are living proof  that it's not a death sentence.

1165
01:16:28,960 --> 01:16:30,080
I know,
and that's why I tell my story

1166
01:16:30,160 --> 01:16:32,400
Because of that, you know, I want to share my story like Carlton, you know.

1167
01:16:32,480 --> 01:16:35,160
I just want to share with him, yes, yes.

1168
01:16:35,240 --> 01:16:37,680
- [sobbing]
-I can't believe we all heard this.

1169
01:16:37,760 --> 01:16:40,680
And I always want to tell someone,
you know--

1170
01:16:42,600 --> 01:16:44,560
- [Oliver] Oh, my God.
Thank you.
-but it's difficult, you know.

1171
01:16:44,640 --> 01:16:48,240
- [Oliver] Thank you.
-and I never-- I never--

1172
01:16:48,320 --> 01:16:49,760


1173
01:16:49,840 --> 01:16:52,440
I just found out the moment was coming.

1174
01:16:52,520 --> 01:16:55,400
I just, you know... It's never
the right time, you know.

1175
01:16:55,480 --> 01:17:00,240
Can I say something to you two?
Beyond the Truth or Dare?

1176
01:17:00,320 --> 01:17:01,680
With us.

1177
01:17:01,760 --> 01:17:04,920
May I say something
beyond this?

1178
01:17:05,760 --> 01:17:09,680
If this is before Madonna,
I will be afraid of this.

1179
01:17:10,520 --> 01:17:11,960
I won't--

1180
01:17:13,480 --> 01:17:15,800
-Yes God.
- [Luis] And how do you feel now?

1181
01:17:15,880 --> 01:17:20,400
Oh my God.
It's a beautiful thing
to get out and express yourself

1182
01:17:20,480 --> 01:17:22,200
because you hold something.

1183
01:17:22,280 --> 01:17:24,200
Yes yes.
And, you know, I just--

1184
01:17:24,280 --> 01:17:26,160
And... Oh, my God, friend.

1185
01:17:26,240 --> 01:17:30,120
[Salim] Yes.
But at the same time,
You know, it's a blessing, you know,

1186
01:17:30,200 --> 01:17:33,760
because it's like--
it makes me who I am, you know.

1187
01:17:33,840 --> 01:17:35,480
That's like-- It changes a lot of things.

1188
01:17:35,560 --> 01:17:38,520
But you know,
when you were diagnosed,

1189
01:17:38,600 --> 01:17:42,120
You know, it's like
your whole world is falling, you know.

1190
01:17:42,200 --> 01:17:43,560
[Carlton] No,
but I just want you to know

1191
01:17:43,640 --> 01:17:48,440
there is a very large new light level
for everything you do

1192
01:17:48,520 --> 01:17:50,760
it will happen
because you took this step today.

1193
01:17:50,840 --> 01:17:53,040
-Yes.
-That's really amazing, Slam.

1194
01:17:53,120 --> 01:17:55,840
-Thank you.
-Yes, of course.

1195
01:17:57,640 --> 01:18:00,560
[piano intro]

1196
01:18:19,280 --> 01:18:24,680
[human]
♪ There is a house built of stone ♪

1197
01:18:27,280 --> 01:18:33,120
♪ Wooden floors, walls and window sills ♪

1198
01:18:36,160 --> 01:18:41,880
♪ Tables and chairs
are used by all dust ♪

1199
01:18:44,040 --> 01:18:50,000
♪ This is a place
where I don't feel alone ♪

1200
01:18:54,120 --> 01:18:59,640
♪ This is the place where I feel at home ♪

1201
01:18:59,720 --> 01:19:01,040
Four, five!

1202
01:19:01,560 --> 01:19:03,840
Ha!
I'm not angry with it!

1203
01:19:03,920 --> 01:19:07,160
If you have to get something else and you
want to get "vroom" as your last pose,

1204
01:19:07,240 --> 01:19:08,240
solve it.

1205
01:19:24,680 --> 01:19:27,800
♪ I ♪

1206
01:19:27,880 --> 01:19:29,360
♪ Built ♪

1207
01:19:30,480 --> 01:19:32,720
♪ A home ♪

1208
01:19:33,880 --> 01:19:35,960
♪ For you ♪

1209
01:19:37,040 --> 01:19:40,320
♪ For me ♪

1210
01:19:42,240 --> 01:19:45,360
You want to read it.
Body language is everything, okay?

1211
01:19:45,440 --> 01:19:46,960
So, come on.
Let's take it again.

1212
01:19:47,040 --> 01:19:48,960
Five six,

1213
01:19:49,040 --> 01:19:51,040
five, six, seven,

1214
01:19:51,120 --> 01:19:52,800
and very slow,

1215
01:19:52,880 --> 01:19:54,960
slow slowly.

1216
01:19:55,040 --> 01:19:56,520
La la.

1217
01:19:56,600 --> 01:19:58,480
Good.
La la.

1218
01:19:58,560 --> 01:20:00,160
Last.

1219
01:20:00,240 --> 01:20:01,720
Proud.

1220
01:20:01,800 --> 01:20:04,040
You know, proud, whatever it is.

1221
01:20:04,120 --> 01:20:06,480
Because everyone is someone.

1222
01:20:08,800 --> 01:20:10,040
Yes!

1223
01:20:13,520 --> 01:20:16,240
One of the things we do every year

1224
01:20:16,320 --> 01:20:21,000
is respecting someone
who grows up with Jazz Camp,

1225
01:20:21,080 --> 01:20:25,640
um, is a very important part
inheritance from this program:

1226
01:20:25,720 --> 01:20:28,360
Mr. Gabriel Trupin,

1227
01:20:28,440 --> 01:20:32,760
which is the son of Sue Trupin that we love.

1228
01:20:32,840 --> 01:20:34,880
[applause]

1229
01:20:41,960 --> 01:20:48,200
♪ When gusts come
to blow me up ♪

1230
01:20:50,640 --> 01:20:56,920
♪ I hold on tight as you hold me ♪

1231
01:20:59,400 --> 01:21:06,640
♪ I hold on tight as you hold me ♪

1232
01:21:26,200 --> 01:21:29,360
♪ And I'm ♪

1233
01:21:29,880 --> 01:21:31,360
♪ Built ♪

1234
01:21:32,400 --> 01:21:34,480
♪ A home ♪

1235
01:21:35,560 --> 01:21:37,400
♪ For you ♪

1236
01:21:38,800 --> 01:21:42,400
♪ For me ♪

1237
01:21:42,480 --> 01:21:45,320
♪ Until ♪

1238
01:21:45,400 --> 01:21:50,960
♪ This disappears ♪

1239
01:21:51,720 --> 01:21:53,920
♪ From me ♪

1240
01:21:54,880 --> 01:21:58,680
♪ From you ♪

1241
01:21:58,760 --> 01:22:01,400
♪ And now ♪

1242
01:22:01,480 --> 01:22:03,560
♪ It's time ♪

1243
01:22:04,720 --> 01:22:10,560
♪ To go ♪

1244
01:22:10,640 --> 01:22:13,800
♪ And rotate ♪

1245
01:22:14,800 --> 01:22:20,280
♪ Become dust ♪

