1 00: 00: 46,200 --> 00: 00: 49,904 Ladies and gentlemen, we are landed at the JFK airport in New York. 2 00: 00: 49,954 --> 00: 00: 54,117 Please be seated, until the engines are stopped- 3 00: 00: 54,167 --> 00: 00: 57,161 - and the captain has turned off for the sign with the safety belt. 4 00: 00: 57,211 --> 00: 01: 01,524 Thank you for flying with Air Berlin and have a good stay in New York. 5 00: 01: 17,190 --> 00: 01: 20,184 Follow the passport signs. 6 00: 01: 20,234 --> 00: 01: 23,980 US citizens with greencards and residing in the United States on the right. 7 00: 01: 24,030 --> 00: 01: 28,902 All other passes to the left. Please ask in the correct queue. 8 00: 01: 28,952 --> 00: 01: 34,139 No, it's against the center! Cab! 9 00: 02: 19,586 --> 00: 02: 23,373 The last days of his life demanded my father- 10 00: 02: 23,423 --> 00: 02: 28,586 - to some philosophical books should lie on his nightstand. 11 00: 02: 28,636 --> 00: 02: 33,341 For my father taught in philosophy and read it for pleasure. 12 00: 02: 33,391 --> 00: 02: 35,802 I just wrote novels. 13 00: 02: 35,852 --> 00: 02: 40,056 He had the right to believe that I populated a world of banalities- 14 00: 02: 40,106 --> 00: 02: 45,502 - filled with abominable fantasies and silly plot. 15 00: 02: 46,487 --> 00: 02: 51,734 The next day I went through the books in his workroom. 16 00: 02: 51,784 --> 00: 02: 56,948 I found his "criticism of the pure reason "with many stresses- 17 00: 02: 56,998 --> 00: 03: 01,477 - and his well-used copy of Platon's "Symposion". 18 00: 03: 02,086 --> 00: 03: 05,331 I found a thick band of Hegel- 19 00: 03: 05,381 --> 00: 03: 11,087 - and an untouched version of Derek Parfits "On What Matters". 20 00: 03: 11,137 --> 00: 03: 15,925 I put them in a pile of the table, while he was asleep. 21 00: 03: 15,975 --> 00: 03: 18,803 When my dad opened his eyes- 22 00: 03: 18,853 --> 00: 03: 22,515 - I showed him the parfit book, which lay at the top. 23 00: 03: 22,565 --> 00: 03: 26,561 I pronounced the title in my best british english: 24 00: 03: 26,611 --> 00: 03: 29,856 "On What Matters". 25 00: 03: 29,906 --> 00: 03: 34,611 It would have been nice to say, that he smiled, but he did not. 26 00: 03: 34,661 --> 00: 03: 37,196 He spoke. 27 00: 03: 37,246 --> 00: 03: 43,328 "Heinrich, there are only two things, That's important, "he said. 28 00: 03: 43,378 --> 00: 03: 48,875 "What you did as you regret, which can not be done 29 00: 03: 48,925 --> 00: 03: 53,755 - and that's what you did not but should have done- 30 00: 03: 53,805 --> 00: 03: 58,617 - and as you regret but as it's too late to change. " 31 00: 03: 59,560 --> 00: 04: 03,348 "It's easy to say, that it is not important- 32 00: 04: 03,398 --> 00: 04: 07,644 - but it is. It's actually the only important thing. " 33 00: 04: 07,694 --> 00: 04: 11,505 "All of that means nothing." 34 00: 04: 12,699 --> 00: 04: 15,735 "Is it a quote from a book?" I asked. 35 00: 04: 15,785 --> 00: 04: 20,448 Suddenly his voice became almost gentle. 36 00: 04: 20,498 --> 00: 04: 24,786 His tone was full of regret, when he said, 37 00: 04: 24,836 --> 00: 04: 32,026 "No." And then he repeated the word "no" with a sigh. 38 00: 04: 33,636 --> 00: 04: 36,339 It would have been nice to say- 39 00: 04: 36,389 --> 00: 04: 41,427 that he turned around and died and that "no" was his last word- 40 00: 04: 41,477 --> 00: 04: 46,040 - But that did not happen. He lived six to seven weeks longer. 41 00: 04: 48,192 --> 00: 04: 51,837 Is it thunder? 42 00: 04: 53,448 --> 00: 05: 00,763 BACK TO MONTAUK 43 00: 05: 08,463 --> 00: 05: 13,668 The last weeks hit my father's words, What is important, spot. 44 00: 05: 13,718 --> 00: 05: 18,923 I had almost asked the doctor, if he too, if we all 45 00: 05: 18,973 --> 00: 05: 24,596 - the nurses, the other patients, portraits, the other visitors- 46 00: 05: 24,646 --> 00: 05: 27,640 - cleaning staff and taxi drivers- 47 00: 05: 27,690 --> 00: 05: 32,395 - if we all had done something, as we knew was wrong- 48 00: 05: 32,445 --> 00: 05: 38,067 - and if we all do not had done one thing that we regretted. 49 00: 05: 38,117 --> 00: 05: 43,448 And about the two things became the history of our lives- 50 00: 05: 43,498 --> 00: 05: 49,770 - the story of what is more important than anything else important. 51 00: 05: 57,679 --> 00: 06: 02,634 When my father talked about the important thing, I got a picture on the retina- 52 00: 06: 02,684 --> 00: 06: 08,181 - which remained with me. It's a picture of two women. 53 00: 06: 08,231 --> 00: 06: 14,020 One that I hurt, and one that I failed. 54 00: 06: 14,070 --> 00: 06: 16,731 One that I should not have let down- 55 00: 06: 16,781 --> 00: 06: 21,277 - and that I should have lived together with if I had been wiser. 56 00: 06: 21,327 --> 00: 06: 24,889 As I'm still thinking about. 57 00: 06: 36,217 --> 00: 06: 42,799 Thank you, despite the jet lag, to give us a taste of "The Hunter and the Hunted". 58 00: 06: 42,849 --> 00: 06: 46,177 There will be a longer reading in the library tomorrow. 59 00: 06: 46,227 --> 00: 06: 48,680 Congratulations. 60 00: 06: 48,730 --> 00: 06: 53,434 It was a good deal. 61 00: 06: 53,484 --> 00: 06: 55,979 - This is my friend Julia. - Hi Julia. 62 00: 06: 56,029 --> 00: 07: 00,024 I enjoyed your reading. 63 00: 07: 00,074 --> 00: 07: 05,179 So you're Claras guy? Dare to leave her alone in New York all winter? 64 00: 07: 07,165 --> 00: 07: 09,784 It was a strong performance. 65 00: 07: 09,834 --> 00: 07: 13,604 It was a strong performance. 66 00: 07: 16,758 --> 00: 07: 21,320 "Can not we go home?" - Of course. 67 00: 07: 23,139 --> 00: 07: 27,618 Wednesday: Day et 68 00: 07: 37,070 --> 00: 07: 39,939 Max? 69 00: 07: 39,989 --> 00: 07: 42,550 Walter! 70 00: 07: 43,284 --> 00: 07: 46,637 How good to see you again. 71 00: 07: 47,372 --> 00: 07: 52,368 The newspapers wrote that you have arrived to give a presentation. 72 00: 07: 52,418 --> 00: 07: 55,396 Yes, tomorrow at the library. 73 00: 07: 56,214 --> 00: 07: 59,775 Your mother would have been proud of you. 74 00: 08: 01,219 --> 00: 08: 07,992 - Who is the beauty? My wife, Clara. This is Walter. 75 00: 08: 10,895 --> 00: 08: 14,724 - Are you coming to the reading? - No. Tomorrow ... unfortunately. 76 00: 08: 14,774 --> 00: 08: 20,521 I have a friend who keeps screening, and I have promised to come. 77 00: 08: 20,571 --> 00: 08: 25,735 - Do you want to join? - I have to read aloud. 78 00: 08: 25,785 --> 00: 08: 28,613 Well, yes ... I know that. 79 00: 08: 28,663 --> 00: 08: 32,617 I'm not deaf, my age despite. Well but ... 80 00: 08: 32,667 --> 00: 08: 36,871 - You have written a new book? - Yes, a novel. 81 00: 08: 36,921 --> 00: 08: 39,582 A new fiction? 82 00: 08: 39,632 --> 00: 08: 42,502 The truth. 83 00: 08: 42,552 --> 00: 08: 46,381 It is good to see you. There has been too much time. 84 00: 08: 46,431 --> 00: 08: 49,909 It will probably be a big success. 85 00: 08: 52,270 --> 00: 08: 55,890 Is it the first time, you're back after all those years? 86 00: 08: 55,940 --> 00: 08: 58,518 Yes. Otherwise I had given sound from me. 87 00: 08: 58,568 --> 00: 09: 04,173 I would like to invite you and some friends at dinner. 88 00: 09: 05,700 --> 00: 09: 08,570 - Thanks. - Do you call? 89 00: 09: 08,620 --> 00: 09: 11,656 I do. 90 00: 09: 11,706 --> 00: 09: 14,308 Goodbye. 91 00: 09: 15,335 --> 00: 09: 17,954 - You call! - I'll do that. 92 00: 09: 18,004 --> 00: 09: 21,791 - Where do you know him from? - A friend. He paid my studies. 93 00: 09: 21,841 --> 00: 09: 24,252 He also paid so much else. 94 00: 09: 24,302 --> 00: 09: 30,008 He gave the great donation to Met, but did not come to an honorary dinner. 95 00: 09: 30,058 --> 00: 09: 35,079 He should have a huge collection. He looks like a collector. 96 00: 09: 45,281 --> 00: 09: 50,904 Well, so it was Walter? I knew immediately, it was him. 97 00: 09: 50,954 --> 00: 09: 56,117 Did he saddle in the hall when I read out loud? - Perhaps the longest behind. 98 00: 09: 56,167 --> 00: 09: 58,453 He gives me goose skin. 99 00: 09: 58,503 --> 00: 10: 04,108 He is extremely gifted. It was strange to meet him. 100 00: 10: 05,760 --> 00: 10: 08,863 I am so glad that that you finally arrived. 101 00: 10: 09,472 --> 00: 10: 15,511 I just could not say on the phone, that I wanted to go home to you. 102 00: 10: 15,561 --> 00: 10: 20,457 I missed you so much, that I started hating you. 103 00: 10: 21,025 --> 00: 10: 26,422 I was also worried. I panicked a couple of times. 104 00: 10: 26,739 --> 00: 10: 30,509 But I knew where you were. That was the most important thing. 105 00: 10: 34,872 --> 00: 10: 37,075 How do you know all those people? 106 00: 10: 37,125 --> 00: 10: 42,205 Through my work. Marketing and Advertising. 107 00: 10: 42,255 --> 00: 10: 48,319 Even small interns from Germany also meet authors. 108 00: 10: 50,263 --> 00: 10: 53,758 - You looked amazing. - I did? 109 00: 10: 53,808 --> 00: 10: 56,660 Yes, you did. 110 00: 12: 43,084 --> 00: 12: 47,479 I love you. You know that. 111 00: 13: 15,908 --> 00: 13: 17,986 Thursday: Day two 112 00: 13: 18,036 --> 00: 13: 20,989 Double as much as last. 113 00: 13: 21,039 --> 00: 13: 26,536 We have bought a mobile phone for you. I have added some numbers. 114 00: 13: 26,586 --> 00: 13: 30,564 So let's see ... 115 00: 13: 32,091 --> 00: 13: 36,070 - Thanks. - Hello? 116 00: 13: 38,848 --> 00: 13: 44,053 There is high demand on interviews. 117 00: 13: 44,103 --> 00: 13: 47,557 - After a short press release. - Hold it down. 118 00: 13: 47,607 --> 00: 13: 52,061 - It means a lot that you are here. - Do not give my number to anyone. 119 00: 13: 52,111 --> 00: 13: 55,356 What about friends and family? 120 00: 13: 55,406 --> 00: 13: 58,860 - I do not have any. - There's Mr.. Walter. 121 00: 13: 58,910 --> 00: 14: 02,388 Yes, he is an exception. 122 00: 14: 03,331 --> 00: 14: 06,284 Can you call and invite him to the reading? 123 00: 14: 06,334 --> 00: 14: 11,247 - And ask him about Rebecca's number. - Rebecca? 124 00: 14: 11,297 --> 00: 14: 16,610 He knows who it is. It is an old friend I would like to invite. 125 00: 14: 17,679 --> 00: 14: 20,089 Will Clara come down? 126 00: 14: 20,139 --> 00: 14: 24,844 - There she is. Good morning, Lindsey. 127 00: 14: 24,894 --> 00: 14: 28,205 - How are you? - Well. 128 00: 14: 38,992 --> 00: 14: 41,402 He loves your books. 129 00: 14: 41,452 --> 00: 14: 47,725 Now we are going to talk to the wonderful one Scandinavian author Max Zorn. 130 00: 14: 48,167 --> 00: 14: 52,455 - Mr. Zorn. - How did you know? 131 00: 14: 52,505 --> 00: 14: 59,212 I was looking for a man there resembled a European antique dealer. 132 00: 14: 59,262 --> 00: 15: 01,548 This way. 133 00: 15: 01,598 --> 00: 15: 06,118 It would be a good time to call Walter now 134 00: 15: 08,104 --> 00: 15: 14,060 Mr. Zorn, as intellectual, dramatist and author resident in Berlin ... 135 00: 15: 14,110 --> 00: 15: 20,275 Do you think Europe breaks down soon, as many commentators mean? 136 00: 15: 20,325 --> 00: 15: 23,528 Europe is a culture more than one economy. 137 00: 15: 23,578 --> 00: 15: 27,657 It's hard for Americans to understand. 138 00: 15: 27,707 --> 00: 15: 32,203 Maybe because it's a complex culture. Our stories are antiheroic. 139 00: 15: 32,253 --> 00: 15: 35,123 If we see one with power, we laugh 140 00: 15: 35,173 --> 00: 15: 39,002 - for self-esteem is our first gear. 141 00: 15: 39,052 --> 00: 15: 44,716 Our stories are full of idiots and kidding and losers. 142 00: 15: 44,766 --> 00: 15: 50,430 Pinocchio and Don Quijote. The Emperor without clothes, Hamlet or Don Juan. 143 00: 15: 50,480 --> 00: 15: 54,851 And that's the cornerstone, our house is built on. 144 00: 15: 54,901 --> 00: 15: 59,755 Whatever happens in the short term, will Europe keep its soul. 145 00: 16: 00,657 --> 00: 16: 06,112 They have been radical for many years, and then you supported the chancellor- 146 00: 16: 06,162 --> 00: 16: 09,866 - and now you support the green ones and will open the borders even more. 147 00: 16: 09,916 --> 00: 16: 12,493 What is your point of view? 148 00: 16: 12,543 --> 00: 16: 15,788 I'm not a tree. 149 00: 16: 15,838 --> 00: 16: 20,335 A tree has roots and stands somewhere. It has a point of view. 150 00: 16: 20,385 --> 00: 16: 24,380 I'm an animal i'm crazy about. I move, I change my mind. 151 00: 16: 24,430 --> 00: 16: 27,634 - Okay... - What did he say? 152 00: 16: 27,684 --> 00: 16: 32,805 He asked me to spell your name. - Typically Walter. 153 00: 16: 32,855 --> 00: 16: 36,059 And then he confirmed, that he did not come. 154 00: 16: 36,109 --> 00: 16: 41,231 And at last he laughed loudly, when I asked for Rebecca's number. 155 00: 16: 41,281 --> 00: 16: 46,778 "Ms. Epstein, lawyer" said he and asked why you did not call yourself. 156 00: 16: 46,828 --> 00: 16: 50,014 Mrs. Epstein? 157 00: 16: 51,249 --> 00: 16: 56,871 Ms. Epstein, thanks. To Mr. Max Zorn. 158 00: 16: 56,921 --> 00: 17: 03,569 He is the author. She knows him. It is private. 159 00: 17: 08,266 --> 00: 17: 12,804 Ms. Epstein, hello. I am mr. Zorns press secretary. 160 00: 17: 12,854 --> 00: 17: 18,417 He is in town with his new book. He would like to meet you. 161 00: 17: 19,319 --> 00: 17: 22,880 He is sitting here, if you want to talk to him. 162 00: 17: 23,948 --> 00: 17: 30,679 He is in town for Tuesday evening. Yes I understand that. 163 00: 17: 32,373 --> 00: 17: 37,579 - What happens? Why did you do that? - She was supposed to say no, not? 164 00: 17: 37,629 --> 00: 17: 43,126 It is better that the battery died. Do you have her address? 165 00: 17: 43,176 --> 00: 17: 47,446 - It's a law firm. - Nice. Then we'll go there. 166 00: 17: 47,805 --> 00: 17: 51,301 - It's at the center. - We are taking the subway. 167 00: 17: 51,351 --> 00: 17: 54,679 - Why? - To visit her. 168 00: 17: 54,729 --> 00: 17: 59,183 - Now? - Yes. She is there now, right? 169 00: 17: 59,233 --> 00: 18: 03,420 It's not possible. You never get past the guard. 170 00: 18: 04,113 --> 00: 18: 08,192 - Z-o-r-n. Zorn, Max Zorn. - They do not enter without a deal. 171 00: 18: 08,242 --> 00: 18: 12,989 - She's an old friend. - Let me fix it. 172 00: 18: 13,039 --> 00: 18: 16,600 Can I talk to her on the phone? 173 00: 18: 17,710 --> 00: 18: 23,333 We tried to call a little while ago, but the battery died. 174 00: 18: 23,383 --> 00: 18: 26,902 We were right there, so ... 175 00: 18: 28,763 --> 00: 18: 31,574 Okay. Thanks. 176 00: 18: 35,770 --> 00: 18: 39,832 - She said she might come down. - Well. 177 00: 18: 43,278 --> 00: 18: 47,565 - How did she sound? - Short for the head. 178 00: 18: 47,615 --> 00: 18: 51,653 She sounded angry and reminded me of that she had gone to Yale. 179 00: 18: 51,703 --> 00: 18: 56,699 Did she say that? - No, she said almost nothing. 180 00: 18: 56,749 --> 00: 19: 02,372 She has gone to Yale. On one Fulbright fellow after the fall of the wall. 181 00: 19: 02,422 --> 00: 19: 07,401 Directly from East Berlin to Manhattan via Yale. It is the case in a nutshell. 182 00: 19: 08,303 --> 00: 19: 11,464 - She is German? Yes, but I met her in New York. 183 00: 19: 11,514 --> 00: 19: 16,469 - Did you never meet her again? - No. But I was looking for her. 184 00: 19: 16,519 --> 00: 19: 19,847 I did not even know, if she lived in New York. 185 00: 19: 19,897 --> 00: 19: 23,726 How would I find her? under a different name? 186 00: 19: 23,776 --> 00: 19: 28,714 But then I met Walter. He knew us at that time. 187 00: 19: 30,783 --> 00: 19: 34,612 And being here in town ... 188 00: 19: 34,662 --> 00: 19: 41,244 Every street corner reminds me of her. It is important. 189 00: 19: 41,294 --> 00: 19: 44,539 We were not in such a good shape at last. None of us. 190 00: 19: 44,589 --> 00: 19: 47,584 Is it her book? 191 00: 19: 47,634 --> 00: 19: 51,946 No, the book is a novel. 192 00: 20: 04,275 --> 00: 20: 07,836 Surprise, surprise ... 193 00: 20: 08,529 --> 00: 20: 11,382 Hello. 194 00: 20: 13,368 --> 00: 20: 18,347 You look exactly, as I had imagined. 195 00: 20: 22,877 --> 00: 20: 25,914 - How did you find me? - Walter gave me your number. 196 00: 20: 25,964 --> 00: 20: 28,791 Walter? Are you still 197 00: 20: 28,841 --> 00: 20: 32,212 We met by chance yesterday. 198 00: 20: 32,262 --> 00: 20: 38,134 "I have not seen Walter for ten years. Why did he have your number? 199 00: 20: 38,184 --> 00: 20: 41,996 You know how he is. 200 00: 20: 43,273 --> 00: 20: 47,668 "Mrs. Epstein" ... You are married. 201 00: 20: 52,448 --> 00: 20: 57,278 It's the perfect lawyer name, especially in New York. 202 00: 20: 57,328 --> 00: 21: 00,823 You look like yourself. The same old racist. 203 00: 21: 00,873 --> 00: 21: 06,145 - I've never been racist! - Let's not be scared. 204 00: 21: 08,506 --> 00: 21: 12,502 We would invite you to the reading in the evening at the library. 205 00: 21: 12,552 --> 00: 21: 17,615 - You are on the guest list. - Your old place, Max. 206 00: 21: 18,891 --> 00: 21: 22,786 Are you coming? Can we meet? 207 00: 21: 28,901 --> 00: 21: 34,006 That would be a mistake, if we did not. 208 00: 21: 34,407 --> 00: 21: 39,136 We would regret it. 209 00: 21: 39,579 --> 00: 21: 45,410 I have to check my calendar. I'm working on a hard case. 210 00: 21: 45,460 --> 00: 21: 51,023 If it had been another day ... It comes a little suddenly. 211 00: 21: 53,509 --> 00: 21: 57,947 Wait. Did you have a copy more? of the book? 212 00: 21: 58,973 --> 00: 22: 04,679 Here you go. And this is my card. 213 00: 22: 04,729 --> 00: 22: 08,332 I have written Mr. Zorn's number on. 214 00: 22: 25,416 --> 00: 22: 28,244 It's her address. From Mr. Walter. 215 00: 22: 28,294 --> 00: 22: 33,458 He said that he broke all his rules. Whatever they are. 216 00: 22: 33,508 --> 00: 22: 37,069 It was only for you, he said. 217 00: 22: 40,265 --> 00: 22: 43,635 Was Clara your first wife? 218 00: 22: 43,685 --> 00: 22: 47,913 No no no. We were not married. 219 00: 22: 49,482 --> 00: 22: 56,088 Has there been anybody else? Have you been "not married" several times? 220 00: 22: 58,992 --> 00: 23: 02,153 The wives who fled away. 221 00: 23: 02,203 --> 00: 23: 08,767 - Was Ms Epstein one of them? - That's what she may like. 222 00: 23: 09,419 --> 00: 23: 13,689 - Children? - A daughter. She is not Claras. 223 00: 23: 15,466 --> 00: 23: 20,880 Clara has checked everything with your publisher. She puts her whole soul in this. 224 00: 23: 20,930 --> 00: 23: 24,217 She asked everyone for a promotional text. 225 00: 23: 24,267 --> 00: 23: 29,597 She even checked your hotel. She worked as an avid trainee. 226 00: 23: 29,647 --> 00: 23: 32,583 I can not cope without her. 227 00: 23: 36,571 --> 00: 23: 38,982 I think my jacket is wrong. 228 00: 23: 39,032 --> 00: 23: 43,444 Why did you take it? - I do not look like an author. 229 00: 23: 43,494 --> 00: 23: 47,574 No one will look like an author. Would you like it? 230 00: 23: 47,624 --> 00: 23: 51,602 Yes I would like to. Or no, but ... 231 00: 23: 52,378 --> 00: 23: 55,582 I look like a European antique dealer? 232 00: 23: 55,632 --> 00: 23: 59,586 Yes, on a bad day for European antiques. 233 00: 23: 59,636 --> 00: 24: 02,780 Thanks. 234 00: 24: 05,350 --> 00: 24: 08,511 Wow, where are you smart? 235 00: 24: 08,561 --> 00: 24: 12,807 - Do you think it's okay? - Definitely. 236 00: 24: 12,857 --> 00: 24: 18,003 We have rented a car tonight. It's your big night. 237 00: 24: 22,158 --> 00: 24: 26,762 How are you? It's stuffy. 238 00: 24: 27,163 --> 00: 24: 31,659 - See who's here. - Come in. 239 00: 24: 31,709 --> 00: 24: 38,357 Many have already arrived. That is it smartest audience you ever get. 240 00: 24: 38,883 --> 00: 24: 42,128 When my father talked about, what is important- 241 00: 24: 42,178 --> 00: 24: 46,299 - I got a picture on the retina of two women. 242 00: 24: 46,349 --> 00: 24: 49,802 - One that I hurt ... - Excuse me. 243 00: 24: 49,852 --> 00: 24: 54,098 And one that I should have lived together with if I had been wiser. 244 00: 24: 54,148 --> 00: 24: 59,211 I still think of her. I met her in New York. 245 00: 25: 01,656 --> 00: 25: 04,609 It was a few years after the fall of the wall. 246 00: 25: 04,659 --> 00: 25: 07,779 I was glad to get away from the turmoil in Berlin. 247 00: 25: 07,829 --> 00: 25: 14,351 My novel got me a fellow, and I had an office at the library. 248 00: 25: 14,919 --> 00: 25: 18,206 Yes, here on the fourth floor. 249 00: 25: 18,256 --> 00: 25: 22,043 I met her the first time for a fernation. 250 00: 25: 22,093 --> 00: 25: 26,506 Or rather, outside. There were too many people in there. 251 00: 25: 26,556 --> 00: 25: 32,720 I was there with a friend who smoke, and I held him outside company. 252 00: 25: 32,770 --> 00: 25: 34,931 We saw her coming. 253 00: 25: 34,981 --> 00: 25: 40,019 We studied her when she discovered crowd and turned to go. 254 00: 25: 40,069 --> 00: 25: 43,106 Then she turned and smiled at my friend. 255 00: 25: 43,156 --> 00: 25: 47,193 She fainted me, when she gave me my hand. 256 00: 25: 47,243 --> 00: 25: 50,738 Sunday after I studied her again- 257 00: 25: 50,788 --> 00: 25: 56,310 - when she came to Alice Tully Hall to the five concert alone. 258 00: 25: 59,172 --> 00: 26: 03,234 I was also alone and already sat in my seat. 259 00: 26: 05,595 --> 00: 26: 09,340 When she sat down, she looked at me quickly. 260 00: 26: 09,390 --> 00: 26: 14,245 But she did not say anything. I did not think she could know me. 261 00: 26: 17,857 --> 00: 26: 21,919 I liked her. 262 00: 26: 24,614 --> 00: 26: 29,402 But before the concert began, she turned around and said, 263 00: 26: 29,452 --> 00: 26: 33,072 "You are in the library." Then she smiled. 264 00: 26: 33,122 --> 00: 26: 38,119 "It's one of the lovely places," she added. 265 00: 26: 38,169 --> 00: 26: 45,168 As the music was playing, I felt a loneliness that was new to me. 266 00: 26: 45,218 --> 00: 26: 51,174 I did not want she to go afterwards, but did not come up with anything to say. 267 00: 26: 51,224 --> 00: 26: 56,579 So I walked before her towards the end, as if I had a place to go. 268 00: 26: 57,230 --> 00: 26: 59,390 And so it began. 269 00: 26: 59,440 --> 00: 27: 04,729 We met again. We spent many evenings and weekends together. 270 00: 27: 04,779 --> 00: 27: 09,150 We went to the country, where the sky was gray and low-hanging- 271 00: 27: 09,200 --> 00: 27: 12,987 - and the wind is cold, and the roads lay desolate. 272 00: 27: 13,037 --> 00: 27: 18,851 Maybe these were the best times we had, the closest we came to each other. 273 00: 27: 19,460 --> 00: 27: 22,956 I try to stop saying, that I loved her more- 274 00: 27: 23,006 --> 00: 27: 27,210 - than I've ever loved anyone or would ever come to. 275 00: 27: 27,260 --> 00: 27: 31,881 The words are banal. They belong in songs and sentimentality. 276 00: 27: 31,931 --> 00: 27: 37,804 But what else can I say? Are there any other words? 277 00: 27: 37,854 --> 00: 27: 40,557 Maybe I would rather add- 278 00: 27: 40,607 --> 00: 27: 45,711 that she was beautiful, her own and yet reserved. 279 00: 27: 46,195 --> 00: 27: 49,107 And captivating. 280 00: 27: 49,157 --> 00: 27: 54,362 I'm also not sure, that those words can help me now. 281 00: 27: 54,412 --> 00: 27: 57,824 Now that time has passed. 282 00: 27: 57,874 --> 00: 28: 02,728 She was the big chance of my life. One chance I lost. 283 00: 28: 03,713 --> 00: 28: 07,125 The one that meant something. 284 00: 28: 07,175 --> 00: 28: 11,045 Along the way she became one of my ghosts- 285 00: 28: 11,095 --> 00: 28: 15,758 - until one day I thought that I would travel to New York again- 286 00: 28: 15,808 --> 00: 28: 19,596 - when one of my books was released by a publisher there- 287 00: 28: 19,646 --> 00: 28: 26,603 - and experience the city again and maybe run on her and let- 288 00: 28: 26,653 --> 00: 28: 30,481 -som the past does not matter 289 00: 28: 30,531 --> 00: 28: 33,968 And here I am. 290 00: 28: 41,876 --> 00: 28: 45,062 Thanks. 291 00: 28: 48,549 --> 00: 28: 52,069 It may be you in his next book. 292 00: 28: 55,265 --> 00: 28: 59,368 I hope not. 293 00: 29: 23,001 --> 00: 29: 26,871 It makes a difference, if the Hungarians are raised in Hungary? 294 00: 29: 26,921 --> 00: 29: 30,542 To have grown up in that culture. I mean their hairstyles ... 295 00: 29: 30,592 --> 00: 29: 34,337 I liked the second violinist. But I like everyone. 296 00: 29: 34,387 --> 00: 29: 38,675 - Engaged musicians. "My first girlfriend was Hungarians. 297 00: 29: 38,725 --> 00: 29: 42,971 He was not raised there. His parents came here in 1956. 298 00: 29: 43,021 --> 00: 29: 47,850 He contacted me recently. He has a big bouncing Hungarian grin. 299 00: 29: 47,900 --> 00: 29: 50,144 Did you meet? 300 00: 29: 50,194 --> 00: 29: 55,149 He is nice now. He has become thoughtful and thin like another Columbia professor. 301 00: 29: 55,199 --> 00: 29: 57,944 So you met? - Yes, we did. 302 00: 29: 57,994 --> 00: 30: 01,698 We even had ... 303 00: 30: 01,748 --> 00: 30: 04,701 - What? - Yes, we did. 304 00: 30: 04,751 --> 00: 30: 07,912 That was nice. That was sweet. 305 00: 30: 07,962 --> 00: 30: 12,041 That's what you have in New York. And that's why my rent is so high. 306 00: 30: 12,091 --> 00: 30: 15,295 In other cities people disappear, but not here. 307 00: 30: 15,345 --> 00: 30: 20,091 Apropo's old friends, so I got a call from an old friend. 308 00: 30: 20,141 --> 00: 30: 23,845 - Where did he hide? - Berlin. 309 00: 30: 23,895 --> 00: 30: 27,515 No, not a German. I never go to bed with Germans. 310 00: 30: 27,565 --> 00: 30: 33,003 - Not that I've had the chance. - I understand you. 311 00: 30: 33,404 --> 00: 30: 36,691 I met him the first time ... 312 00: 30: 36,741 --> 00: 30: 41,946 No, second time, in the concert hall, we were just in. He is the author. 313 00: 30: 41,996 --> 00: 30: 47,285 He reads out loud at the library tonight. That's why we went to the concert. 314 00: 30: 47,335 --> 00: 30: 51,397 He has a performance, but we went to a concert? 315 00: 30: 53,132 --> 00: 30: 56,961 Was it him there ...? 316 00: 30: 57,011 --> 00: 30: 59,756 It was a long time ago. 317 00: 30: 59,806 --> 00: 31: 04,552 I've never come across it. Others coming, but I did not. 318 00: 31: 04,602 --> 00: 31: 08,622 Nobody ever comes over anything. 319 00: 31: 12,360 --> 00: 31: 15,647 - Should we take one? - Yes. 320 00: 31: 15,697 --> 00: 31: 18,691 Hello mr Zorn. Write "to Bill". 321 00: 31: 18,741 --> 00: 31: 23,596 What a beautiful novel. Thank you. 322 00: 31: 32,589 --> 00: 31: 36,650 - I got lost in your reading. - Thanks. 323 00: 32: 03,828 --> 00: 32: 09,784 Everyone here will be David Foster Wallace. Every single one. Literally. 324 00: 32: 09,834 --> 00: 32: 15,206 - So they'd rather be dead? - Yes, if that means fame. 325 00: 32: 15,256 --> 00: 32: 17,750 They may prefer Don DeLillo. 326 00: 32: 17,800 --> 00: 32: 21,379 - What are you drinking? - Sex on the Beach with an extra twist. 327 00: 32: 21,429 --> 00: 32: 26,158 - Of what? - Jamren. 328 00: 32: 34,359 --> 00: 32: 37,836 - Are you happy? - Yes. 329 00: 32: 38,821 --> 00: 32: 42,066 Now we lift our glass for one- 330 00: 32: 42,116 --> 00: 32: 45,737 - I do not just consider to be a genius 331 00: 32: 45,787 --> 00: 32: 50,015 - but also to be my friend. For Max Zorn! 332 00: 32: 52,585 --> 00: 32: 55,830 Thanks. Thanks. 333 00: 32: 55,880 --> 00: 32: 59,334 - Well done, Max. - Thanks. 334 00: 32: 59,384 --> 00: 33: 04,714 - But I'm not sure about your choices. - Well ...? 335 00: 33: 04,764 --> 00: 33: 09,743 Yes. Maybe a little more pace. 336 00: 33: 10,937 --> 00: 33: 14,874 The roof is boring. 337 00: 33: 16,776 --> 00: 33: 22,023 - Here again! See. - There's nothing up there. 338 00: 33: 22,073 --> 00: 33: 26,069 Try it there. 339 00: 33: 26,119 --> 00: 33: 29,447 Is that the right street? 340 00: 33: 29,497 --> 00: 33: 33,726 Follow the perfume air. 341 00: 33: 54,272 --> 00: 33: 58,560 Henry James said, "It's time to live the life we ​​imagine. " 342 00: 33: 58,610 --> 00: 34: 04,006 But I think it's time we begins to live the life we ​​deserve. 343 00: 34: 32,769 --> 00: 34: 35,597 What makes him there Roderick? 344 00: 34: 35,647 --> 00: 34: 41,502 He does the same as you. Finds stories and thinks of girls. 345 00: 34: 42,654 --> 00: 34: 45,315 Is he good? - He thinks so. 346 00: 34: 45,365 --> 00: 34: 51,720 But he takes enough mistakes. But he is not wrong with girls. 347 00: 34: 52,747 --> 00: 34: 56,367 - Have you known him for a long time? - I have worked on his books. 348 00: 34: 56,417 --> 00: 34: 59,454 I respect him. 349 00: 34: 59,504 --> 00: 35: 03,082 Stop it. He works together with Clara and doing well. 350 00: 35: 03,132 --> 00: 35: 07,086 - Yes, they are doing both of them well. - Stop it. 351 00: 35: 07,136 --> 00: 35: 14,201 Contact Shakespeare and Shakespeare. This call is recorded ... 352 00: 35: 48,094 --> 00: 35: 50,946 Cab! 353 00: 36: 07,530 --> 00: 36: 10,591 Is it not...? 354 00: 36: 14,329 --> 00: 36: 17,073 Is it him? Your philosopher? 355 00: 36: 17,123 --> 00: 36: 19,993 He is not a philosopher. 356 00: 36: 20,043 --> 00: 36: 23,538 The time is quarter to 12. Over my bedtime. 357 00: 36: 23,588 --> 00: 36: 28,501 Let me study him. Do not be nervous. 358 00: 36: 28,551 --> 00: 36: 31,588 - I do not know him anymore. - We will find out. 359 00: 36: 31,638 --> 00: 36: 34,841 Why? I do not know... 360 00: 36: 34,891 --> 00: 36: 38,887 I know it's illogical. 361 00: 36: 38,937 --> 00: 36: 43,391 He can not get along like this. I know who gave him my address. 362 00: 36: 43,441 --> 00: 36: 47,253 Up in the ass with it. Let me meet him. 363 00: 36: 59,832 --> 00: 37: 02,827 You had a reading. How did it go? 364 00: 37: 02,877 --> 00: 37: 08,666 It's Rachel. My best friend and cat mate. 365 00: 37: 08,716 --> 00: 37: 13,112 She also does other things. She leads the whole country. 366 00: 37: 16,140 --> 00: 37: 19,344 Rachel, do not believe. 367 00: 37: 19,394 --> 00: 37: 22,305 - Do you want a drink? - Yes. 368 00: 37: 22,355 --> 00: 37: 25,350 Or ... just coffee maybe. 369 00: 37: 25,400 --> 00: 37: 28,269 I can make a cup of coffee for you. 370 00: 37: 28,319 --> 00: 37: 32,232 It may prevent you from to stare like that. 371 00: 37: 32,282 --> 00: 37: 37,403 - How will you do it? - Report a stalker to the police. 372 00: 37: 37,453 --> 00: 37: 41,515 Im making Coffee. Show him now, Becky. 373 00: 37: 50,508 --> 00: 37: 56,130 - Is that your apartment? - No. I'm just cleaning here tonight. 374 00: 37: 56,180 --> 00: 37: 59,008 Quite seriously? 375 00: 37: 59,058 --> 00: 38: 04,079 You were never serious, when I knew you. 376 00: 38: 04,689 --> 00: 38: 07,100 Yes, inside, I am. 377 00: 38: 07,150 --> 00: 38: 13,088 I'm glad I did not discover. It was good you kept it for yourself. 378 00: 38: 14,574 --> 00: 38: 17,360 Have you bought this apartment? 379 00: 38: 17,410 --> 00: 38: 20,321 How would I have otherwise got it? 380 00: 38: 20,371 --> 00: 38: 24,409 - For money you have earned? - For money I have earned. 381 00: 38: 24,459 --> 00: 38: 27,203 What kind of lawyer do you work with? 382 00: 38: 27,253 --> 00: 38: 30,290 I was prosecutor in the prosecution. 383 00: 38: 30,340 --> 00: 38: 34,210 Then I was employed by a law firm and changed page. 384 00: 38: 34,260 --> 00: 38: 38,381 Then I got work in a new, bigger and better law firm. 385 00: 38: 38,431 --> 00: 38: 43,803 If you do not want in jail and have money Maybe you may end up in my office. 386 00: 38: 43,853 --> 00: 38: 47,140 O.J., Strauss-Kahn and that kind of? 387 00: 38: 47,190 --> 00: 38: 50,393 - I have not worked for them. - But you could? 388 00: 38: 50,443 --> 00: 38: 54,814 There are more company mergers, insider trading and the kind. 389 00: 38: 54,864 --> 00: 38: 57,150 Madoff. 390 00: 38: 57,200 --> 00: 39: 00,403 I do not discuss my clients with strangers. 391 00: 39: 00,453 --> 00: 39: 05,099 But you understand all that sort of thing? 392 00: 39: 05,750 --> 00: 39: 10,538 No ... if I was on it, I would hire you. 393 00: 39: 10,588 --> 00: 39: 14,650 You would not be able to afford. 394 00: 39: 15,969 --> 00: 39: 20,739 You have taken on. I told the cats that you were thin. 395 00: 39: 22,267 --> 00: 39: 26,387 - Is that why they like it? - No. 396 00: 39: 26,437 --> 00: 39: 31,917 They do not like that I get unannounced men's visits in the middle of the night. 397 00: 39: 38,533 --> 00: 39: 44,906 Now I understand. I would have traveled to Syracuse or Boulder Colorado with him. 398 00: 39: 44,956 --> 00: 39: 50,119 - Right to the universe's armpit. He is... - Cute and smart, yes. 399 00: 39: 50,169 --> 00: 39: 54,916 But stomach to cheek to show up like that. Do not believe him. 400 00: 39: 54,966 --> 00: 39: 58,419 What are you talking about? 401 00: 39: 58,469 --> 00: 40: 02,507 I thought there would be a show a big wienerschnitzel op- 402 00: 40: 02,557 --> 00: 40: 07,095 - and I just express my surprise. Sugar? 403 00: 40: 07,145 --> 00: 40: 11,224 We should all go home and go to bed. 404 00: 40: 11,274 --> 00: 40: 17,146 There is enough jet lag that will make my guest to believe he can come at this time. 405 00: 40: 17,196 --> 00: 40: 20,925 No. It's me to go. 406 00: 40: 32,545 --> 00: 40: 34,581 Good night. 407 00: 40: 34,631 --> 00: 40: 39,836 Max lives on Algonquin. Can you give him a lift? 408 00: 40: 39,886 --> 00: 40: 42,488 Of course. 409 00: 40: 44,807 --> 00: 40: 50,079 - Thanks. - The pleasure is mine. 410 00: 40: 55,818 --> 00: 40: 57,937 May I ask you a question? 411 00: 40: 57,987 --> 00: 41: 03,526 Is Rebecca alone? How does she live? Does she have a ...? 412 00: 41: 03,576 --> 00: 41: 07,196 You'd better ask her. 413 00: 41: 07,246 --> 00: 41: 12,768 - I am asking you. - How about yourself? 414 00: 41: 16,339 --> 00: 41: 21,861 She was guaranteed happy to see you. Does it answer your question? 415 00: 41: 22,136 --> 00: 41: 25,656 Thanks, John. 416 00: 41: 26,766 --> 00: 41: 30,887 If you do not mind, I'd rather go. 417 00: 41: 30,937 --> 00: 41: 34,057 - Do I scare you? - No, that's not bad. 418 00: 41: 34,107 --> 00: 41: 38,794 But I need to stroll, for the air you know 419 00: 41: 39,445 --> 00: 41: 43,841 Jet lag. Rebecca is always right. 420 00: 42: 16,316 --> 00: 42: 20,461 Friday: Day three 421 00: 42: 25,199 --> 00: 42: 28,403 Good morning. We had close contact with the FBI. 422 00: 42: 28,453 --> 00: 42: 31,656 Why do you always disappear? 423 00: 42: 31,706 --> 00: 42: 37,770 I went for a walk and too wild, and then I took a taxi to the hotel. 424 00: 42: 39,589 --> 00: 42: 41,833 We stayed there until four o'clock. 425 00: 42: 41,883 --> 00: 42: 47,613 Then we went to the other place. The was full of Bulgarians, Polka and Vodka. 426 00: 42: 53,061 --> 00: 42: 57,390 - What are you thinking? - I do not think so. 427 00: 42: 57,440 --> 00: 43: 01,752 Yes you do. I can hear that. 428 00: 43: 02,153 --> 00: 43: 08,443 I think my wife thinks, that a stupid proofreader is a guru. 429 00: 43: 08,493 --> 00: 43: 13,889 I feel the smell of his idiot from her when she enters the room. 430 00: 43: 17,418 --> 00: 43: 21,664 And I missed you, when I came home tonight. 431 00: 43: 21,714 --> 00: 43: 26,819 I'm here now. So are you. It is the most important. 432 00: 43: 46,572 --> 00: 43: 49,592 Listen once. 433 00: 43: 51,869 --> 00: 43: 55,532 Lindsey, that's Rebecca Epstein with a message to mr. Zorn. 434 00: 43: 55,582 --> 00: 44: 01,663 Say that I can see you Saturday. He can drive with me to Long Island. 435 00: 44: 01,713 --> 00: 44: 06,334 I drive home at 11 o'clock. We will be back late afternoon. 436 00: 44: 06,384 --> 00: 44: 11,113 If it's okay, you need do not call. He knows the address. 437 00: 44: 13,016 --> 00: 44: 18,495 She chose Montauk. The place farthest away. 438 00: 44: 19,355 --> 00: 44: 24,060 You're free on the weekend. Should I note it? 439 00: 44: 24,110 --> 00: 44: 27,296 Why not? 440 00: 44: 28,823 --> 00: 44: 31,192 What should happen now? 441 00: 44: 31,242 --> 00: 44: 33,861 Times. A brunch. 442 00: 44: 33,911 --> 00: 44: 37,866 - And what was Saturday? - Montauk. 443 00: 44: 37,916 --> 00: 44: 41,202 Montauk? 444 00: 44: 41,252 --> 00: 44: 47,375 Yes, there is a cultural center, where there are people he must meet. 445 00: 44: 47,425 --> 00: 44: 51,546 No, Max, Julia is partying for us. 446 00: 44: 51,596 --> 00: 44: 55,199 I'll be back in time. 447 00: 45: 01,856 --> 00: 45: 07,812 I do not think I ever have lied on someone else's behalf in my job before. 448 00: 45: 07,862 --> 00: 45: 10,815 I'm sure she could feel it. 449 00: 45: 10,865 --> 00: 45: 15,219 - It's my last lie, okay? - Okay. 450 00: 45: 18,331 --> 00: 45: 23,578 - What should happen in Montauk? - I do not know. 451 00: 45: 23,628 --> 00: 45: 28,249 "And Clara does not know she's found?" - No, I hope so. 452 00: 45: 28,299 --> 00: 45: 33,421 - Why not? "I do not want to hurt Clara. 453 00: 45: 33,471 --> 00: 45: 40,053 I do not understand it. Why do you want to meet rebecca when you're here with clara 454 00: 45: 40,103 --> 00: 45: 42,972 I can not explain that. 455 00: 45: 43,022 --> 00: 45: 49,003 I do not want to lose her, even though it was a long time ago. 456 00: 45: 54,284 --> 00: 46: 00,657 Even when I was very young ... If a guy had done it to me ... 457 00: 46: 00,707 --> 00: 46: 04,160 - Do you know what I had done? - No what? 458 00: 46: 04,210 --> 00: 46: 09,690 - Then I had cut his noses off him. - Yes... 459 00: 46: 17,056 --> 00: 46: 21,761 A tree has roots and stands somewhere. It has a point of view. 460 00: 46: 21,811 --> 00: 46: 28,101 I'm an animal i'm crazy about. I move, I change my mind. 461 00: 46: 28,151 --> 00: 46: 31,563 It does not change, how they govern the finances. 462 00: 46: 31,613 --> 00: 46: 36,901 For the power is ... The economic power ... 463 00: 46: 36,951 --> 00: 46: 39,487 Walter! Are you following me? 464 00: 46: 39,537 --> 00: 46: 44,367 No, it's a purely case. I eat lunch here almost daily. 465 00: 46: 44,417 --> 00: 46: 49,605 You must come home to me. And bring your wife along. 466 00: 46: 50,131 --> 00: 46: 53,793 - I'm pretty lonely, you know. - Do you live alone? 467 00: 46: 53,843 --> 00: 46: 58,047 Yes. New York is a city, which promotes loneliness. 468 00: 46: 58,097 --> 00: 47: 01,968 That is certainly the case, I imagine it. 469 00: 47: 02,018 --> 00: 47: 05,221 - Did you imagine the city? - Why not? 470 00: 47: 05,271 --> 00: 47: 09,583 Is that a deal then? See you soon. 471 00: 47: 10,151 --> 00: 47: 13,146 I have the painting for you. 472 00: 47: 13,196 --> 00: 47: 16,590 Paul Klee? 473 00: 47: 18,368 --> 00: 47: 21,404 I have lunch with Walter on Monday. 474 00: 47: 21,454 --> 00: 47: 26,618 - I'm writing it in the calendar. - You and Clara are also invited. 475 00: 47: 26,668 --> 00: 47: 31,772 It will be nice to see his collection of light. 476 00: 47: 33,466 --> 00: 47: 36,127 This jacket is completely wrong. 477 00: 47: 36,177 --> 00: 47: 40,239 It is ... special. 478 00: 47: 42,058 --> 00: 47: 46,512 Walter introduced me for art and literature. 479 00: 47: 46,562 --> 00: 47: 49,933 As a student I admired him næsegrus. 480 00: 47: 49,983 --> 00: 47: 54,395 I was unsure and needed one to take care of me. 481 00: 47: 54,445 --> 00: 47: 58,215 - This is Walter. - Then we are here. 482 00: 48: 00,285 --> 00: 48: 05,156 When I started writing and editing articles and my first novel- 483 00: 48: 05,206 --> 00: 48: 11,896 - he finished it and said: "Anyone can do that." 484 00: 48: 12,505 --> 00: 48: 14,666 She does not neglect her children. 485 00: 48: 14,716 --> 00: 48: 21,047 It is more that she is so stressed, that she does not let them into her life. 486 00: 48: 21,097 --> 00: 48: 25,242 The book is about his mother. 487 00: 48: 29,397 --> 00: 48: 34,519 - I can put them up for you. - I do not have a good shape. 488 00: 48: 34,569 --> 00: 48: 41,383 Well, you have that. Your shoulders are perfect. See! 489 00: 48: 44,704 --> 00: 48: 47,765 May I? 490 00: 48: 52,587 --> 00: 48: 58,042 Walter had a house in Tuscany. A woman came to visit a fall. 491 00: 48: 58,092 --> 00: 49: 04,657 Walter did not go to bed with her, so I did, even though she was older. 492 00: 49: 07,477 --> 00: 49: 12,957 They break in all the time. They have stolen my flat screen. 493 00: 49: 15,652 --> 00: 49: 19,088 You have to put your pants on. 494 00: 49: 19,656 --> 00: 49: 23,610 - What do you pay for rent here? - 1500. 495 00: 49: 23,660 --> 00: 49: 28,681 - How do you earn them? - You do not want to know that. 496 00: 49: 29,582 --> 00: 49: 33,786 One day Walter fell asleep after breakfast. 497 00: 49: 33,836 --> 00: 49: 39,125 He looked like a lizard with open mouth and eyes closed. 498 00: 49: 39,175 --> 00: 49: 43,713 She looked at him and afterwards on me like a child- 499 00: 49: 43,763 --> 00: 49: 46,549 that approaches something sweet and forbidden. 500 00: 49: 46,599 --> 00: 49: 50,011 Even when she took his wallet- 501 00: 49: 50,061 --> 00: 49: 55,516 - and looked scary at me again, did not she know what we would do. 502 00: 49: 55,566 --> 00: 49: 59,604 And then she smiled at me, as though she had been brave- 503 00: 49: 59,654 --> 00: 50: 05,175 - when she gave me his credit card. She put her finger on her lips and ... 504 00: 50: 08,579 --> 00: 50: 11,699 We listed the house without anything. 505 00: 50: 11,749 --> 00: 50: 14,494 No luggage, no guilt. 506 00: 50: 14,544 --> 00: 50: 20,375 Only when I was in the station's ticket queue, I was afraid to be snuggled. 507 00: 50: 20,425 --> 00: 50: 24,671 But the idea of ​​knocking her When the train drove over the Apennines- 508 00: 50: 24,721 --> 00: 50: 27,382 and knocked her on the way to Venice- 509 00: 50: 27,432 --> 00: 50: 31,386 - with the blinds up and with the peasants working outside ... 510 00: 50: 31,436 --> 00: 50: 35,431 And then hit her again in Venice with the water bucking outside ... 511 00: 50: 35,481 --> 00: 50: 41,729 - Then all the blame and fear disappeared. - You could be smoked in prison. 512 00: 50: 41,779 --> 00: 50: 48,486 It may be just something I find. Never believe what an author says. 513 00: 50: 48,536 --> 00: 50: 55,559 You may not have found that knock her up with the blinds. 514 00: 50: 57,921 --> 00: 51: 01,332 Saturday: Day four 515 00: 51: 01,382 --> 00: 51: 06,254 It's a nice place in Brooklyn, and we figured you would be there. 516 00: 51: 06,304 --> 00: 51: 09,048 - When are you coming? - Before the party 517 00: 51: 09,098 --> 00: 51: 14,453 It's just a panel discussion. Talk talk talk 518 00: 51: 14,979 --> 00: 51: 19,708 - When are you driving? "I have to ask Lindsey. 519 00: 51: 20,276 --> 00: 51: 26,757 Lindsey works constantly. I understand not how she can hold you out. 520 00: 51: 30,620 --> 00: 51: 34,557 Just do not come too late. 521 00: 52: 06,948 --> 00: 52: 09,776 They know I'm going to leave. 522 00: 52: 09,826 --> 00: 52: 14,614 I listed the bag in the car, but they saw me and felt unfaithful. 523 00: 52: 14,664 --> 00: 52: 18,743 - So I had to tell them the truth. - What are they called? 524 00: 52: 18,793 --> 00: 52: 22,247 - Crosby, Stills and Nash. - Like the band? 525 00: 52: 22,297 --> 00: 52: 26,275 - Was not they four? - How clever you are. 526 00: 52: 27,468 --> 00: 52: 31,297 What happens if one of them dies? Then it's not the same. 527 00: 52: 31,347 --> 00: 52: 35,426 - It does not happen. - Now no, I forgot. 528 00: 52: 35,476 --> 00: 52: 40,497 We are in America. They now also look like a bad rock band. 529 00: 52: 53,620 --> 00: 52: 59,742 "I do not know your perfume. - I do not have perfume. 530 00: 52: 59,792 --> 00: 53: 03,329 - There must be soap. - What is that? 531 00: 53: 03,379 --> 00: 53: 08,317 It's not called anything. I'll get it made for me. 532 00: 53: 09,302 --> 00: 53: 11,713 You heard that well. 533 00: 53: 11,763 --> 00: 53: 15,341 There are two lesbian ladies in Connecticut. 534 00: 53: 15,391 --> 00: 53: 18,970 They can tell one, which soap you are. 535 00: 53: 19,020 --> 00: 53: 23,541 - You are? - Yes, you are. 536 00: 53: 24,567 --> 00: 53: 29,397 - Voilà! - How did they know we came now? 537 00: 53: 29,447 --> 00: 53: 31,941 They guessed that enough. What do you think? 538 00: 53: 31,991 --> 00: 53: 35,236 That a lesbian lady from Connecticut called them. 539 00: 53: 35,286 --> 00: 53: 39,032 - You are smart. You must be an author. - Yes I am. 540 00: 53: 39,082 --> 00: 53: 44,186 I thought so. Thanks, John. I just have to pick up some things. 541 00: 53: 58,685 --> 00: 54: 02,263 - Thanks. - I would like to be your waiter. 542 00: 54: 02,313 --> 00: 54: 06,250 It would be great. 543 00: 54: 08,319 --> 00: 54: 11,231 Suppose we do this. 544 00: 54: 11,281 --> 00: 54: 15,985 - What are you wearing? - Is it okay? It is a bit curly. 545 00: 54: 16,035 --> 00: 54: 20,156 - Smart. But do not take it into court. - Why not? 546 00: 54: 20,206 --> 00: 54: 25,370 - The defendant must have a nice suit. - Even though he's innocent? 547 00: 54: 25,420 --> 00: 54: 29,440 Everyone is innocent to the contrary is proven. 548 00: 54: 29,882 --> 00: 54: 32,776 - Several errands? - No. 549 00: 55: 00,788 --> 00: 55: 05,201 Have you been to Montauk since? 550 00: 55: 05,251 --> 00: 55: 09,980 - Why? - Is not that there we're heading? 551 00: 55: 10,965 --> 00: 55: 15,486 You said long on the island ... 552 00: 55: 17,013 --> 00: 55: 20,842 - Does the catpasser live at your place? - No. 553 00: 55: 20,892 --> 00: 55: 24,679 I'm just trying to figure out, how you live 554 00: 55: 24,729 --> 00: 55: 29,058 Relax. Put some music on. 555 00: 55: 29,108 --> 00: 55: 34,522 - Where is the music? - You used to know cars. 556 00: 55: 34,572 --> 00: 55: 38,443 I am a poor author. I have no car. 557 00: 55: 38,493 --> 00: 55: 41,529 - I do not believe that. - It is true. 558 00: 55: 41,579 --> 00: 55: 46,451 I'm flat. Right now. 559 00: 55: 46,501 --> 00: 55: 50,038 I do not read quite a lot. It distracts me when I write. 560 00: 55: 50,088 --> 00: 55: 55,043 I lock myself in without other authors. And in the evening... 561 00: 55: 55,093 --> 00: 55: 58,737 It might be better, if he did not speak. 562 00: 56: 02,558 --> 00: 56: 07,764 - I went to university with him. - How was he? 563 00: 56: 07,814 --> 00: 56: 11,142 There were many guys like him. They bored me. 564 00: 56: 11,192 --> 00: 56: 16,356 They invited one on date and spoke only about himself. 565 00: 56: 16,406 --> 00: 56: 21,110 And afterwards it was one's own trip. So when they were done. 566 00: 56: 21,160 --> 00: 56: 25,782 They knew that if you did not get it talk time, you would not sleep with them. 567 00: 56: 25,832 --> 00: 56: 30,620 Did you go to bed with them? - Of course. 568 00: 56: 30,670 --> 00: 56: 34,457 Did you go to bed with him there? With the furious guy? 569 00: 56: 34,507 --> 00: 56: 39,195 I think, we silly a little around. 570 00: 56: 40,555 --> 00: 56: 43,758 I thought I was something special, when we silly around. 571 00: 56: 43,808 --> 00: 56: 48,037 We did not silly around. 572 00: 56: 57,530 --> 00: 57: 01,634 Budokan. 573 00: 57: 18,885 --> 00: 57: 24,365 For several years I needed to hear it here and in other years not. 574 00: 57: 25,224 --> 00: 57: 30,013 We listened to it on our way out there and on the way back. 575 00: 57: 30,063 --> 00: 57: 33,958 I remember it exactly. 576 00: 57: 52,961 --> 00: 57: 57,147 Did you read what I wrote in the book about our time together? 577 00: 57: 59,634 --> 00: 58: 03,338 I just flipped it through. 578 00: 58: 03,388 --> 00: 58: 08,218 - Was that a problem for you? - I was amazed. 579 00: 58: 08,268 --> 00: 58: 11,596 But perhaps more astonished at the things that you found out. 580 00: 58: 11,646 --> 00: 58: 15,875 There was not much of it. 581 00: 58: 29,914 --> 00: 58: 32,575 We're there soon. 582 00: 58: 32,625 --> 00: 58: 38,206 I'm going to look at a house. I should have done a long time ago. 583 00: 58: 38,256 --> 00: 58: 42,126 It is a colleague, who is going to sell a house. 584 00: 58: 42,176 --> 00: 58: 45,880 I promised to look at it, but regretted it. 585 00: 58: 45,930 --> 00: 58: 49,300 Do you want to buy it for yourself? 586 00: 58: 49,350 --> 00: 58: 55,014 My parents live in Dresden. They are old and can come over here and live. 587 00: 58: 55,064 --> 00: 58: 58,893 But I have not told them that. It was just an idea. 588 00: 58: 58,943 --> 00: 59: 01,896 I had a house in Maine before. 589 00: 59: 01,946 --> 00: 59: 07,443 But I was there only a few weekends, so I sold it. Curiously ... 590 00: 59: 07,493 --> 00: 59: 13,324 I did not use it when I had it, but missed it afterwards. 591 00: 59: 13,374 --> 00: 59: 16,703 - Are you visiting your parents? - I did sometimes. 592 00: 59: 16,753 --> 00: 59: 19,664 So I decided never to return. 593 00: 59: 19,714 --> 00: 59: 23,960 - What happened? "I just did not want to belong there. 594 00: 59: 24,010 --> 00: 59: 29,782 - That part of you I never understood. - You never understood anything. 595 01: 00: 08,805 --> 01: 00: 13,242 - Here you have a sweater. - Thanks. 596 01: 00: 49,429 --> 01: 00: 53,782 - We can wait a little. - I'm not waiting. 597 01: 00: 57,061 --> 01: 01: 00,664 They said they would be here. 598 01: 01: 04,110 --> 01: 01: 07,630 You must not go in there. 599 01: 01: 14,704 --> 01: 01: 20,059 I should be here. Thank you for taking along. We can eat on the way home. 600 01: 01: 25,381 --> 01: 01: 29,961 We did not have it there before. Your taste has evolved. 601 01: 01: 30,011 --> 01: 01: 32,130 Stop it. 602 01: 01: 32,180 --> 01: 01: 37,594 People are so unreliable. 130 kilometers without reason. 603 01: 01: 37,644 --> 01: 01: 41,472 - Do not be angry now. Typically American. - What do you mean? 604 01: 01: 41,522 --> 01: 01: 44,809 All the efficiency and pedantry. 605 01: 01: 44,859 --> 01: 01: 48,187 Is it East Germany, Does it meet just in America? 606 01: 01: 48,237 --> 01: 01: 52,883 Stop or get out of the car. 607 01: 01: 53,284 --> 01: 01: 57,096 Where is your humor? 608 01: 02: 00,124 --> 01: 02: 05,479 - You are driving incorrectly. - Maybe. But we're going that way. 609 01: 02: 21,896 --> 01: 02: 24,707 Well. It will probably help. 610 01: 02: 34,701 --> 01: 02: 38,846 I find some branches. 611 01: 03: 13,531 --> 01: 03: 18,319 They will send one tomorrow to close the house. 612 01: 03: 18,369 --> 01: 03: 25,226 - on a sunday? "I'll probably get out of here somewhere. 613 01: 03: 26,294 --> 01: 03: 32,274 I can drive you back. Or get off by bus or train. 614 01: 03: 34,385 --> 01: 03: 38,697 I'm going nowhere. 615 01: 03: 39,474 --> 01: 03: 42,594 Are you sure, that's not a problem? 616 01: 03: 42,644 --> 01: 03: 48,791 Yes, that's it, but if you do not shouts at me, I survive it enough. 617 01: 03: 56,282 --> 01: 04: 03,013 - Lindsey wants you back tonight. - And you'll be in the house tomorrow. 618 01: 04: 06,918 --> 01: 04: 10,521 I call for auto help. 619 01: 04: 17,345 --> 01: 04: 20,906 Alright thanks. 620 01: 04: 49,294 --> 01: 04: 52,771 There is number 21. 621 01: 04: 54,257 --> 01: 04: 59,904 Here are 20 ... 23 ... 622 01: 05: 00,597 --> 01: 05: 05,409 See you in a while. 623 01: 05: 34,881 --> 01: 05: 38,317 Just look at it. 624 01: 05: 56,569 --> 01: 06: 01,816 If we do not go now, the fog will come or the rain and it will be dark. 625 01: 06: 01,866 --> 01: 06: 05,594 I need a walk. 626 01: 06: 19,801 --> 01: 06: 24,214 I'll call Rachel and hear about the cats. 627 01: 06: 24,264 --> 01: 06: 29,952 We need to find some toothbrushes. Maybe also boots. 628 01: 06: 43,616 --> 01: 06: 48,446 - The hotel is different. - No. 629 01: 06: 48,496 --> 01: 06: 50,990 It's just time gone. 630 01: 06: 51,040 --> 01: 06: 54,410 - The hotel is the same. - It seems more sumptuous. 631 01: 06: 54,460 --> 01: 06: 57,372 - It has not changed. - Do you have? 632 01: 06: 57,422 --> 01: 06: 59,749 - Yes I have. - How? 633 01: 06: 59,799 --> 01: 07: 04,445 In ways I do not want to talk about. 634 01: 07: 07,849 --> 01: 07: 11,886 You think so well that you are still the same. 635 01: 07: 11,936 --> 01: 07: 15,723 - I'm older, more bald ... - That's not what I mean. 636 01: 07: 15,773 --> 01: 07: 18,834 I know what you mean. 637 01: 07: 59,317 --> 01: 08: 04,463 Yes, a table for two. Thanks. See you. 638 01: 08: 07,742 --> 01: 08: 11,905 Later we looked at the restaurant, was it too expensive- 639 01: 08: 11,955 --> 01: 08: 16,350 - or too stuffy. Do you remember that? 640 01: 08: 16,751 --> 01: 08: 20,413 I thought, that we could eat there this time. 641 01: 08: 20,463 --> 01: 08: 24,709 I can not remember, that we ate at all. 642 01: 08: 24,759 --> 01: 08: 30,340 We got a lousy fish soup around around the corner. You could not claim it. 643 01: 08: 30,390 --> 01: 08: 34,636 - I can not remember. - I said it was homemade. 644 01: 08: 34,686 --> 01: 08: 39,957 You said we all together was homemade and it was the worst. 645 01: 08: 41,526 --> 01: 08: 44,128 What does it mean? 646 01: 09: 09,262 --> 01: 09: 14,217 "It was fun to be at the library. - I could not come. 647 01: 09: 14,267 --> 01: 09: 19,997 The reading had become embarrassing with you in the hall 648 01: 09: 20,315 --> 01: 09: 25,436 When I worked there, I loved the manuscripts more than the books. 649 01: 09: 25,486 --> 01: 09: 30,424 Kafka and Twain, Nabokov ... 650 01: 09: 33,995 --> 01: 09: 39,617 - Did not you feel unsure? - No, on the contrary. 651 01: 09: 39,667 --> 01: 09: 43,746 I discovered how everyone tried to start with. 652 01: 09: 43,796 --> 01: 09: 47,834 When I saw all the transcripts, more pages... 653 01: 09: 47,884 --> 01: 09: 52,547 Nobody was sure what they wrote at the beginning. Not even the biggest ones. 654 01: 09: 52,597 --> 01: 09: 56,492 They were not fully developed. They had to work for it. 655 01: 09: 58,728 --> 01: 10: 04,267 As a teenager I learned a passage of Platon outside to impress my father- 656 01: 10: 04,317 --> 01: 10: 09,922 - just to discover that he could do it all in Greek. 657 01: 10: 10,782 --> 01: 10: 14,235 You never grow up. 658 01: 10: 14,285 --> 01: 10: 17,030 - It was not funny at all. - I know. 659 01: 10: 17,080 --> 01: 10: 23,411 I almost cried, when you told it the first time. 660 01: 10: 23,461 --> 01: 10: 28,274 That's how you caught me. I was so innocent. 661 01: 11: 03,793 --> 01: 11: 07,229 Wait a minute, you're sweet. 662 01: 13: 03,288 --> 01: 13: 07,057 Sunday: Day five 663 01: 13: 49,292 --> 01: 13: 52,829 I was unsure, how I wanted it on my way. 664 01: 13: 52,879 --> 01: 13: 58,877 I only thought it was me, That thought like that. It's like the last. 665 01: 13: 58,927 --> 01: 14: 02,071 Do not say anything. 666 01: 14: 03,598 --> 01: 14: 08,303 You used to say, that we were world champions. 667 01: 14: 08,353 --> 01: 14: 11,455 In being happy. 668 01: 14: 53,815 --> 01: 14: 59,044 I have promised myself that I can not sell it again if I buy it. 669 01: 15: 00,280 --> 01: 15: 04,359 No more moving around or regret. 670 01: 15: 04,409 --> 01: 15: 09,138 - It's only two hours from the city. - I like the city. 671 01: 15: 10,081 --> 01: 15: 13,684 And then I will not come anywhere else. 672 01: 15: 16,421 --> 01: 15: 20,983 I would sit here. I never wanted to move. 673 01: 15: 24,470 --> 01: 15: 30,659 What does your friend survive? How has he earned the money for this? 674 01: 15: 31,185 --> 01: 15: 35,682 - He writes essays. - Does he earn money on it? 675 01: 15: 35,732 --> 01: 15: 40,645 No, dumpap. He is a lawyer. He appeals to people. 676 01: 15: 40,695 --> 01: 15: 44,924 He gets up early and sue people. 677 01: 15: 45,408 --> 01: 15: 49,094 Was it about the essays a joke? 678 01: 15: 50,121 --> 01: 15: 54,868 I may have to sleep here one night to sense the feeling. 679 01: 15: 54,918 --> 01: 16: 01,315 Perhaps it's too desolate, too beautiful and scary in the dark. 680 01: 16: 25,907 --> 01: 16: 29,027 - Can we change things? - Change what? 681 01: 16: 29,077 --> 01: 16: 34,240 - Our life. Decided for it. - No no... 682 01: 16: 34,290 --> 01: 16: 37,035 Listen. 683 01: 16: 37,085 --> 01: 16: 40,872 I live with one, but I would leave her. 684 01: 16: 40,922 --> 01: 16: 43,958 I could do it in this second. 685 01: 16: 44,008 --> 01: 16: 47,045 To live with me? Take me to Berlin? 686 01: 16: 47,095 --> 01: 16: 51,674 We've got a chance more. We can live, as we did at that time. 687 01: 16: 51,724 --> 01: 16: 55,011 We've never lived together. 688 01: 16: 55,061 --> 01: 16: 58,181 You were always somewhere else. Always on the road. 689 01: 16: 58,231 --> 01: 17: 02,602 Perhaps we have become wiser now. 690 01: 17: 02,652 --> 01: 17: 05,713 I do not make the same mistakes again. 691 01: 17: 08,032 --> 01: 17: 11,176 You are not well kept. 692 01: 17: 12,078 --> 01: 17: 14,680 What do you mean? 693 01: 17: 40,690 --> 01: 17: 44,143 - Tell about yourself. - Since we last saw? 694 01: 17: 44,193 --> 01: 17: 47,730 Tell about your life. But do not interfere with it. 695 01: 17: 47,780 --> 01: 17: 52,092 How? It will always be us two. 696 01: 17: 53,202 --> 01: 17: 58,098 - Not your work or writing? - No, it's you. 697 01: 18: 00,168 --> 01: 18: 04,497 Women. - There will always be women. 698 01: 18: 04,547 --> 01: 18: 07,834 - Tell. - It is not important. 699 01: 18: 07,884 --> 01: 18: 13,197 I'm happy right now over being here. Happy. 700 01: 18: 48,925 --> 01: 18: 54,613 After we went to each other, or what we did now ... 701 01: 18: 55,014 --> 01: 18: 58,760 Then I met someone else. 702 01: 18: 58,810 --> 01: 19: 02,204 One you still see? 703 01: 19: 03,022 --> 01: 19: 07,268 Do not ask. Just let me tell you. 704 01: 19: 07,318 --> 01: 19: 13,632 And then I'll stop. I would just see you to tell you. 705 01: 19: 14,993 --> 01: 19: 21,515 Maybe ... are you the only one, I would have to know that. 706 01: 19: 23,876 --> 01: 19: 30,375 I lived with him and thought, that we should be together. 707 01: 19: 30,425 --> 01: 19: 34,879 Natural and just off the road. Happily. 708 01: 19: 34,929 --> 01: 19: 37,799 Do you still see him? 709 01: 19: 37,849 --> 01: 19: 41,327 He died. 710 01: 19: 42,145 --> 01: 19: 46,040 Marcus died. 711 01: 19: 48,484 --> 01: 19: 51,670 God... 712 01: 19: 53,740 --> 01: 19: 58,219 I can hardly say that. 713 01: 20: 02,624 --> 01: 20: 06,519 - How old was he? - Very young. 714 01: 20: 09,005 --> 01: 20: 12,542 He had a heart attack. Fall dead dead on the street. 715 01: 20: 12,592 --> 01: 20: 16,588 That was what happened. 716 01: 20: 16,638 --> 01: 20: 22,826 He died, and I did not know. Or did not notice ... 717 01: 20: 23,394 --> 01: 20: 28,666 He was in the same city, and I could not feel it. 718 01: 20: 50,797 --> 01: 20: 54,316 We stayed at Bleecker Street. 719 01: 20: 55,510 --> 01: 20: 58,087 He had found his place- 720 01: 20: 58,137 --> 01: 21: 04,219 - and he just wanted me the chairs, the desk and the bed there. 721 01: 21: 04,269 --> 01: 21: 07,621 He was also a lawyer. 722 01: 21: 08,273 --> 01: 21: 15,146 He loved loopholes. New ways to interpret agreements on- 723 01: 21: 15,196 --> 01: 21: 20,509 - like he loved chess, minimalist art and some jazz ... 724 01: 21: 20,952 --> 01: 21: 24,030 He only had one suit. 725 01: 21: 24,080 --> 01: 21: 28,267 He always had the same kind of white shirt on. 726 01: 21: 30,420 --> 01: 21: 35,232 I loved being with him, when he slept 727 01: 21: 40,388 --> 01: 21: 44,551 He had a way to wake up and look at an on- 728 01: 21: 44,601 --> 01: 21: 49,413 -half apologetic. 729 01: 21: 51,524 --> 01: 21: 55,044 You shake. 730 01: 22: 01,492 --> 01: 22: 05,029 I often have it in places like this. 731 01: 22: 05,079 --> 01: 22: 08,825 Locations away from the beaten track- 732 01: 22: 08,875 --> 01: 22: 13,288 - where it's like this in the winter. Maybe he is here. 733 01: 22: 13,338 --> 01: 22: 17,483 Or have been here. Just like He came to me at that bar. 734 01: 22: 19,385 --> 01: 22: 22,046 He did not say anything, so to me- 735 01: 22: 22,096 --> 01: 22: 27,076 - and made it clear, that he would not go away. 736 01: 22: 30,855 --> 01: 22: 36,585 "Was that why we came here?" - No. No. 737 01: 22: 37,195 --> 01: 22: 41,024 That's not why. But... 738 01: 22: 41,074 --> 01: 22: 45,928 I wanted to tell you, what happened. Okay? 739 01: 22: 46,496 --> 01: 22: 50,783 I know you thought that something else could happen. 740 01: 22: 50,833 --> 01: 22: 55,246 I could look at you, that you not only dream in your books. 741 01: 22: 55,296 --> 01: 23: 00,276 You dream in your life. But you can not dream of me. 742 01: 23: 05,682 --> 01: 23: 09,344 But tonight ... 743 01: 23: 09,394 --> 01: 23: 12,347 And this morning ... You could also feel it. 744 01: 23: 12,397 --> 01: 23: 16,226 - You do not know what I felt. - But you're free now. 745 01: 23: 16,276 --> 01: 23: 21,564 No. That's the wrong word. You are alone... 746 01: 23: 21,614 --> 01: 23: 25,634 I'm not free. 747 01: 23: 26,828 --> 01: 23: 31,115 - Is there another? - No. 748 01: 23: 31,165 --> 01: 23: 34,977 I think... That's what I'm saying. 749 01: 23: 44,554 --> 01: 23: 47,715 I started working again immediately after his death. 750 01: 23: 47,765 --> 01: 23: 52,428 There was a case that could not be postponed, and only I knew it. 751 01: 23: 52,478 --> 01: 23: 54,722 And then I took more tasks. 752 01: 23: 54,772 --> 01: 23: 58,560 And then I became headhunted. Literally. 753 01: 23: 58,610 --> 01: 24: 04,399 When I had worked for a consecutive year, I went to a therapist. 754 01: 24: 04,449 --> 01: 24: 10,822 She was so scared of me, that she sent me to a psychiatrist. 755 01: 24: 10,872 --> 01: 24: 14,117 We talked, but I'm talking about talking. 756 01: 24: 14,167 --> 01: 24: 19,289 We tried medicine, which I did not take. 757 01: 24: 19,339 --> 01: 24: 23,543 Eventually he hypnotized me. 758 01: 24: 23,593 --> 01: 24: 27,321 - Have you tried it? - No. 759 01: 24: 29,724 --> 01: 24: 33,786 It's a shock. 760 01: 24: 35,897 --> 01: 24: 40,751 It's the biggest shock, I've ever had, Max. 761 01: 24: 43,029 --> 01: 24: 48,592 I went into Marcus' brain, when he was dying. 762 01: 24: 50,244 --> 01: 24: 56,851 It was as though I were with him, ie in his head. 763 01: 24: 57,460 --> 01: 25: 02,707 It was, as if he had taken me with him- 764 01: 25: 02,757 --> 01: 25: 07,194 - and leave what you see now. I think... 765 01: 25: 08,263 --> 01: 25: 10,757 I was with him. 766 01: 25: 10,807 --> 01: 25: 14,636 I felt what he did. 767 01: 25: 14,686 --> 01: 25: 19,999 I died when he died. 768 01: 25: 51,097 --> 01: 25: 56,844 The summer after you traveled, you wrote, that you were traveling. 769 01: 25: 56,894 --> 01: 26: 01,724 It was a little fun. I thought, You were busy with the new Berlin. 770 01: 26: 01,774 --> 01: 26: 08,273 You called from the hotel rooms, and I never realized why you left the city. 771 01: 26: 08,323 --> 01: 26: 11,609 I wanted you in New York. 772 01: 26: 11,659 --> 01: 26: 17,181 You should not be in Siena or Florence. But you did. 773 01: 26: 17,665 --> 01: 26: 21,911 You silly around. It was not serious, well? 774 01: 26: 21,961 --> 01: 26: 27,458 It was just a story you could tell later. That's how it was? 775 01: 26: 27,508 --> 01: 26: 30,587 Say it was like that. 776 01: 26: 30,637 --> 01: 26: 33,840 Why did not you come back to New York? 777 01: 26: 33,890 --> 01: 26: 39,262 I was confused. There was so much happening, and I had no money. 778 01: 26: 39,312 --> 01: 26: 44,124 - The years passed, and ... - And? 779 01: 26: 50,073 --> 01: 26: 53,192 I met one on a book tour. 780 01: 26: 53,242 --> 01: 26: 57,429 She got pregnant. 781 01: 26: 59,123 --> 01: 27: 02,035 She wanted to keep the child. 782 01: 27: 02,085 --> 01: 27: 05,729 A girl. 783 01: 27: 08,841 --> 01: 27: 14,196 - Do you see her? - Of course. I love her. 784 01: 27: 16,766 --> 01: 27: 21,203 - How old is she? - She's 16 now. 785 01: 27: 21,896 --> 01: 27: 25,666 It happened the year after I was raised. 786 01: 27: 27,735 --> 01: 27: 30,880 So... 787 01: 27: 31,531 --> 01: 27: 35,009 Why did not you tell me? 788 01: 27: 37,328 --> 01: 27: 42,825 - I would not hurt you. - No ... 789 01: 27: 42,875 --> 01: 27: 47,664 I've always liked you. You would never hurt anyone. 790 01: 27: 47,714 --> 01: 27: 52,234 You would never hurt anyone. Things just happened. 791 01: 27: 58,850 --> 01: 28: 03,245 I never understood what you saw in me. 792 01: 28: 03,688 --> 01: 28: 08,918 I wished, that you should be my father's father. 793 01: 28: 34,552 --> 01: 28: 37,463 It is paid. 794 01: 28: 37,513 --> 01: 28: 40,282 Thanks. 795 01: 30: 44,724 --> 01: 30: 49,537 It's Clara. If you love me, then post a message. 796 01: 31: 00,990 --> 01: 31: 05,427 It's Clara. If you love me, then post a message. 797 01: 31: 30,520 --> 01: 31: 32,764 Hi, Lindsey, that's Max. 798 01: 31: 32,814 --> 01: 31: 35,350 Do you have Claras address? 799 01: 31: 35,400 --> 01: 31: 39,461 Monday: Day six 800 01: 32: 31,414 --> 01: 32: 37,228 - How long have you lived here? - Continually. 801 01: 32: 38,504 --> 01: 32: 43,418 Over a kebab place? That is it, I have been able to smell all the time. 802 01: 32: 43,468 --> 01: 32: 46,445 Do not start now, Max. 803 01: 32: 47,764 --> 01: 32: 51,759 It's in the pillows in the bed. The sexy kebablugt. 804 01: 32: 51,809 --> 01: 32: 55,996 I do not want, that you came here 805 01: 32: 56,773 --> 01: 33: 00,101 I should have come the first day. 806 01: 33: 00,151 --> 01: 33: 04,964 I did not think about it. Sorry, Clara. 807 01: 33: 05,531 --> 01: 33: 12,572 What I loved about you was, that you knew so much. 808 01: 33: 12,622 --> 01: 33: 16,326 I loved you were older than me. I still do that. 809 01: 33: 16,376 --> 01: 33: 21,623 I was grateful when you suggested, that I should move to New York- 810 01: 33: 21,673 --> 01: 33: 25,293 and you got this job. 811 01: 33: 25,343 --> 01: 33: 29,130 But you have not asked for my work a single time. 812 01: 33: 29,180 --> 01: 33: 32,616 What I am doing. 813 01: 33: 34,936 --> 01: 33: 38,723 I have learned a lot. That when one is alone, the city is a hole. 814 01: 33: 38,773 --> 01: 33: 43,586 That everybody thinks that one got his job, because one's husband arranged it. 815 01: 33: 44,570 --> 01: 33: 51,010 I was pleased with Roderick's help. We had fun. 816 01: 33: 51,661 --> 01: 33: 53,988 He helped me find out. 817 01: 33: 54,038 --> 01: 34: 01,788 He helped find hotels, Woody Allen movie a Monday winter evening- 818 01: 34: 01,838 --> 01: 34: 05,250 The man's cold cuts through the legs. 819 01: 34: 05,300 --> 01: 34: 11,756 And the man you love, is far away and does not care. 820 01: 34: 11,806 --> 01: 34: 15,843 Try it. Just try it once. 821 01: 34: 15,893 --> 01: 34: 19,413 Pardon. 822 01: 34: 25,278 --> 01: 34: 29,357 I want to know who you are, and what you want from me. 823 01: 34: 29,407 --> 01: 34: 34,404 - Look at me now. - I'll do that too, Clara! 824 01: 34: 34,454 --> 01: 34: 40,743 - I was jealous. - So you got rid of Lindsey? 825 01: 34: 40,793 --> 01: 34: 44,497 I did not drive to Montauk with The skinny Lindsey. 826 01: 34: 44,547 --> 01: 34: 51,153 - No? "I did not drive with Lindsey. 827 01: 34: 54,641 --> 01: 34: 59,554 We have to go home. I would like you to come along. 828 01: 34: 59,604 --> 01: 35: 03,808 Something must have happened with you. 829 01: 35: 03,858 --> 01: 35: 07,628 But I do not want to know what it is. 830 01: 35: 09,113 --> 01: 35: 13,133 Come on, we're driving tonight. 831 01: 35: 16,955 --> 01: 35: 21,034 Clara, repeat after me: 832 01: 35: 21,084 --> 01: 35: 24,603 I have read all your books. 833 01: 35: 26,422 --> 01: 35: 29,900 Please be nice. 834 01: 35: 30,301 --> 01: 35: 34,797 - I have read all your books. No one but I can hold you out. 835 01: 35: 34,847 --> 01: 35: 39,076 - It is unfair. - Just say it. 836 01: 35: 43,982 --> 01: 35: 47,835 No one but I wanted stay out 837 01: 35: 51,656 --> 01: 35: 56,361 You do not change. But I stay with you. 838 01: 35: 56,411 --> 01: 36: 00,156 I do not know why. 839 01: 36: 00,206 --> 01: 36: 03,434 No, not me either. 840 01: 36: 07,505 --> 01: 36: 13,002 Do not mind him. Women must be accommodating. 841 01: 36: 13,052 --> 01: 36: 18,591 He promised me a Paul Klee drawing. It can give $ 300,000 on auction. 842 01: 36: 18,641 --> 01: 36: 25,056 Your pension insurance! How convenient. 843 01: 36: 25,106 --> 01: 36: 29,018 And there we have Malevitj, Kandinsky, Egon Schiele- 844 01: 36: 29,068 --> 01: 36: 34,315 - and somewhere we have Corot, Klee ... And many other things. 845 01: 36: 34,365 --> 01: 36: 39,678 Some of them come of course from my family. 846 01: 36: 40,496 --> 01: 36: 45,076 But now I may be a bit tired of them. 847 01: 36: 45,126 --> 01: 36: 50,105 Maybe that's why, I am tired of the light. 848 01: 36: 53,927 --> 01: 36: 59,507 The pale ... Can you see it? 849 01: 36: 59,557 --> 01: 37: 04,387 A little more for each year. Most in the summer. 850 01: 37: 04,437 --> 01: 37: 09,142 Why do not you protect them? 851 01: 37: 09,192 --> 01: 37: 14,188 I can burn them. Those are mine. But I let them fade. 852 01: 37: 14,238 --> 01: 37: 20,261 They disappear when I disappear. It is reassuring. 853 01: 37: 20,954 --> 01: 37: 25,491 - It's too far out. - Not at all. 854 01: 37: 25,541 --> 01: 37: 28,828 Those are mine. Do you understand? I own them. 855 01: 37: 28,878 --> 01: 37: 31,998 Piss with you. You can not own them. 856 01: 37: 32,048 --> 01: 37: 37,086 Dear friend, this conversation is getting so boring ... 857 01: 37: 37,136 --> 01: 37: 42,533 Why do not you own Wall Street? 858 01: 37: 45,979 --> 01: 37: 49,957 - Little wine? - Thanks. 859 01: 37: 52,568 --> 01: 37: 58,090 And now for the real reason, that I invited you, Max. 860 01: 37: 59,784 --> 01: 38: 03,304 Open it 861 01: 38: 11,462 --> 01: 38: 14,374 I think you need it. 862 01: 38: 14,424 --> 01: 38: 19,653 Do you remember, Rebecca was in when I bought it? 863 01: 38: 22,015 --> 01: 38: 26,052 - Do you still see her? - No. She is working too much now. 864 01: 38: 26,102 --> 01: 38: 32,141 What about you? Take it now then we will not talk more about it. 865 01: 38: 32,191 --> 01: 38: 34,936 Take it, Max. 866 01: 38: 34,986 --> 01: 38: 39,131 Before it fades here. 867 01: 39: 04,849 --> 01: 39: 09,453 I hope I can come back within a year's time. 868 01: 39: 12,398 --> 01: 39: 15,143 Your scarf ... 869 01: 39: 15,193 --> 01: 39: 21,507 - Keep it. - Do you mean it? Thanks. 870 01: 40: 01,739 --> 01: 40: 05,485 I love you. You know that. 871 01: 40: 05,535 --> 01: 40: 11,307 I did something wrong. I can admit that. 872 01: 40: 14,460 --> 01: 40: 19,982 - What happened in Montauk? - I saw a ghost. 873 01: 40: 22,176 --> 01: 40: 26,381 Did you hug her? 874 01: 40: 26,431 --> 01: 40: 30,051 It was not about sex. 875 01: 40: 30,101 --> 01: 40: 33,096 Or yes, maybe it did. 876 01: 40: 33,146 --> 01: 40: 37,875 You can not knock a ghost. 877 01: 42: 24,757 --> 01: 42: 30,571 Applied Max Frisch