Hi, darling, H.
I want you...
to go out and find love.
There is a chance...
Excuse me.
Take me somewhere.
Thank you.
You can turn around.
Is there enough fire?
Good morning.
Thank you.
I left some clothes out
by the fire.
Okay, thanks.
Hey.
I hope it's okay.
Thank you for bringing me here.
I don't think I've said it before.
Who were in the photographs?
I hope you don't mind. I saw them earlier.
Family.
I thought that girl might be your girlfriend or something.
Sister.
I don't know why you didn't put the photos up.
They're never exactly how they should be.
It's a nice substitute for the real thing.
Is the old lady your mother?
Yeah.
Upstairs. Lie down.
Just lie down.
Matthew...
What are your family like?
You're not close with them.
I always wanted a brother.
My sister...
used to let me play with her hair.
They're good, those things.
Those bonds, they keep you close.
You should try to fix this.
Whatever it is that's...
separated you all.
I'm sorry. Sorry, I didn't mean to upset you.
It'll be okay, I promise.
I'm gonna have to go home today.
Thank you.
I'm sure you've got work to do.
I gotta go home anyway.
Who's Mattew?
He's my boyfriend.
I didn't know you had a boyfriend.
Why have you brought me here?
If you've got something to say, then, I think,
you should just start talking.
I can't be around that sort of thing, Holly.
I can't be around it because it clings to me, Holly.
It clings to me.
And then... And then...
I think...
I'm gonna be next.
She needed you there and you weren't.
That's why... that's why she was... she was so lucky to have you.
That doesn't mean anything. She needed you.
Family are supposed to be there for one another.
Holly.
You're on your own now.
I don't want to see you on your own.
I'll be fine. I've got Matthew.
This Matthew...
How long have you known him?
How many...
real boyfriends have you had in your life?
Real boyfriends.
Yeah, exactly.
You don't know what you found, Holly.
You just don't know what you found.
All right?
I just want us to be a family.
That's the only thing I'm after.
I understand what you're saying about family.
And...
If you're being genuine, then I get it.
But...
you're not family to me.
So you can't just come in now after everything.
Your anger's bugging me, for not being there for your mother.
I can see it deep down in you.
You're angry 'cause you were there.
I don't want you to contact me again.
Holly?
And I hope you never have to go through what mum and me had to go through.
Holly!
You watch out for that boyfriend of yours.
Is it too quiet for you?
No.
I missed you.
♪ I'm sailing out on the ocean ♪
♪ Out on a deep blue sea ♪
♪ If I get shot or drowned ♪
♪ There's no one to grieve for me ♪
♪ Yes, I got a letter from Mama ♪
♪ Yes, I got a letter from Spain ♪
♪ I got a letter from mama ♪
♪ She told me to come home again ♪
♪ I'm sailing out on the ocean ♪
♪ Out on a deep blue sea ♪
♪ If I get shot or drowned ♪
♪ There's no one to grieve for me ♪
♪ Yes, once I had a fortune ♪
♪ I laid it in my trunk ♪
♪ I lost it all on gambling ♪
♪ Last night while I lie drunk ♪
♪ "Oh, son, don't gamble ♪
♪ Oh, darling, don't gamble no more" ♪
♪ For the times your mama's told you ♪
♪ She's taught you like a son ♪
♪ That drinking and gambling ♪
♪ Would finally be your end ♪
♪ I'm sailing out on the ocean ♪
♪ I'm sailing very high ♪
♪ If I get shot or drowned ♪
♪ There's no one to grieve or cry ♪
You would have liked my mum.
She would have loved you.
She's really good with people, you know,
and reading people.
This girl that made friends with me in school...
And straight away, Mum just didn't...
I don't know, she tried not to tell me what to do,
but I could tell she just didn't like her.
She tried to warn me.
At least I thought she was just telling me
I can't make friends, and...
not to trust people, but...
All I wanted to do was go to the fair
with this girl...
If you asked me, in that age, "Isn't it cold?"
Yeah, she never came.
I should have just gone on anyway.
Because I love the fair, but...
I didn't and I just had to wait
for them to come and pick me up. And if...
I don't know, she just... she just... knew.
I got in the car, and we both just knew, and that was it.
And I just...
I don't know, this just feels right.
I know that
she'd be really happy with you.
And she'd be so proud.
She could sing as well.
It's really gentle and..
Sort of like a lullaby, but...
Um...
Why didn't you answer?
Hello, who's this?
It's his girlfriend.
Matthew...
Matthew, your mum's dying.
I'm so sorry.
And she needs you to go back with her.
She needs you, Matthew.
You need to, Matthew, I'll go with you.
I can't.
It'll be okay.
We'll be together.
Take it off.
But it's my mum's.
She won't like it.
This is Holly.
You'll need to clean.
Sit down.
Where do you come from?
I'm from Rains.
Near where Matthew lives.
I don't know where Matthew lives.
Do you love Matthew?
Yes, I do.
Are you with child?
You look too fragile to be with child.
I doubt you'd be capable.
What have you been cooking?
You wouldn't like it, dear.
We can't share beds.
This food is poisoned.
It comes from slaves.
You should try to eat.
We kept animals.
We had a dog, a bitch.
Then she got pregnant without God's consent.
She left this house and she got herself impregnated.
When the puppies came,
we took them to the river, and drowned every one of them.
A small bag,
thrown in and weighed down, a perfect and meticulous solution
to bring back order to this household.
This household is full and quiet.
Everyone up and left me.
We had a cat once.
I'll need washing, first thing.
You did the right thing in coming.
Your mum doesn't look like her photo, does she?
Is that Matthew?
That photograph doesn't exist.
He needs mom here.
He's my healer.
Where is Matthew?
I'm sure he'll be up later.
Can I get you anything?
She was asking after you.
And she's missed you.
I think you should go up and see her.
You need to spend some time with her.
It's been a long time, I think you need it.
You've finally come to talk to your mother properly then.
I didn't want to come back.
Liar.
Holly made me.
You really are your father's son.
You're still sapping the goodness from your father's.
I'm glad you're here.
I've missed you here.
How long have you been seeing her?
Not long.
Do you love her?
I don't have long left, you know.
I concede to needing taking care of.
My body is failing me, it's breaking.
My body is not what it used to be.
When you look at me,
do you see me then?
Or do you see me as now?
The body changes, Matthew.
Bodies mould to fit their circumstance.
Do people change?
People are their bodies.
I'm still me.
Deep down, I still have the same beliefs,
the same wants, the same needs.
What do you think you want?
A child.
I want to see a legacy left behind.
I can't give anymore to this world or to you,
than I already have.
My body is a plaything.
I'm a rattle.
Take a child from her.
I'm sure she's capable.
I want to see you finally becoming a man.
Does she love you?
Did she talk much?
She's really quiet with me.
What did you talk about?
She wants me to have a baby.
Are any of these Matthew?
No.
Why do you have so many in your house?
Matthew.
What was it that happened between you and your family?
You don't have to tell me.
When you're ready.
You're a strong delusion.
Pardon?
You're a strong delusion.
Go out, would you?
What's wrong?
Why won't you touch me?
You said your mum wouldn't like it.
Matthew should be doing this.
You won't give him it.
Please, just promise me...
You won't give him it, will you?
Is it for him?
You've seen life turn to death through the eyes of God
and worn his shoes for seven days.
You're a creator of evil and a child of Satan.
All I'm trying to do is help you.
The wicked will fool into greater wickedness.
You're a servant. You're serving me.
I've always been served.
Do you say these things to Matthew?
If you need anything, just call.
Have you been talking to your mom about me?
Have you been talking to her about me?
And having a baby.
Please give me this.
Is everything okay?
I washed myself today.
I also will be cooking.
Why don't you go and see Matthew?
Okay.
Matthew, my buttons, I can't manage.
Do you remember how we all used to sit as a family
and eat this together?
You, me, Luke,
Daniel and your father.
God has plans, Matthew.
He planned for this day and He planned for this supper.
Part of His plan was for them not to be here.
You must be glad to have him back with you.
I'm happy he's returned.
I always knew he would.
Families need to stay together, don't they?
Holly doesn't seem hungry.
You'd think she were pregnant.
A mother's dying wish.
Matthew, you need to know...
it's a common thing that just before a person dies...
they have one last good day,
where things feel normal again.
The way your mum was today,
might not be the good sign
that it seems to be.
I think you need to go and see her.
Do what you need to do to say goodbye.
Now I need you to promise me something.
I want you to be happy.
Like me and your father were.
Like I was.
Is she okay?
She wants to speak to you.
Okay.
Come here.
Matthew believes in angels and demons.
I know there is no such thing.
There's only the in between.
Did you tell my son I was dying?
I...
I told him that...
I thought your time might be close
because of how you acted today.
You evil little cunt!
You know I'm not dying.
You know I'm not going anywhere.
It'll be me, Matthew, and the child you're going to give us.
All I wanted to do was to help your son.
And to help you.
I know how hard it hurts, like when my mum died...
and...
I just...
your mother died because she was a weak, frigid invalid like you.
Enough!
Why don't you stay in bed for a bit?
Matthew, why don't you stay in bed for a bit, have some rest.
This won't be cleaned.
You should probably get some more... sleep.
I'll wash her today.