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( footsteps approaching )

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Hi, I'm Michael.

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Paul.

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I hear you're having some trouble.

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It's okay.

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It's okay.

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I just...

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don't understand...

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why God made me like this.

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He didn't.

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Trust me.

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Let me tell you something.

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You should never define yourself

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by your choices or your desires.

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Gay doesn't exist.
It's a false identity.

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This isn't my choice.
Why would I choose this?

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You always have a choice.

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You wanna go to Heaven, right?

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Yes.

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If you're a moral person,

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then you'll choose heterosexuality

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in order to be with God.

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♪♪

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( street car bell rings )

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( alarm beeping )

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( grunts )

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( sighs )

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( alarm stops )

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Hey.

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Hey. Hey.

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Where you going?

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I'm gonna make us breakfast.

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No.

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Yeah, come on.

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Breakfast is the most
important part of the day.

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I'll have muffins at my meeting.

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Muffins?

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Yeah, muffins.

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Blueberry.

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Mmm, blueberry.

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Okay, then we'll do lunch, okay?

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Mmm, morning breath.

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( exhales ) Oh, stop it! Get off!

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( laughs )

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♪♪

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( all cheering )

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It's so cool that you work at XY.

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Yeah. Yeah, it's rad.

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You guys are like the only cool
gay magazine out there right now.

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Oh, yeah, sort of.

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MAN: Hey, listen up, queens.

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XY magazine’s taking over!

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It's our time to shine!

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( all cheering )

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♪♪

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WOMAN: Matthew Shepard
was an openly gay man.

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When he went to a Laramie,
Wyoming bar last week,

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these two suspects lured him outside,

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pretending to be gay.

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Now they're charged
with a vicious attack

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that left Shepard hanging on this fence

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for 18 hours in freezing temperatures.

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Shepard remained on
life support until this morning

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when he passed away.

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Shepard's family is grateful for support

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from around the world.

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They killed him
because they were afraid,

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and they were afraid because of
what their churches tell them

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and because of what they see in movies.

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It's fucking ridiculous.

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I hope they get the death penalty.

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You're against the death penalty.
Not in this case.

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That's like being for free speech

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until someone tells you
something that pisses you off.

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He died a slow death

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after being tied to a fence
and tortured.

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Exactly, a slow death
is way more painful.

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They should spend the rest
of their lives in prison.

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Okay, look, we need
to move away from labels

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because they segment
and they lead to persecution.

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People don't wanna be
perceived as gay because...

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they're afraid
they'll end up like Matthew.

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But we are a gay magazine.

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Identifying as gay
is being part of a community.

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It's recognition, it's progress...

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We've been telling the kids in the magazine
to come out, to be proud to be gay.

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They should be proud to be themselves.

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Gay and straight
are just social constructs.

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Ugh. God,
you and your queer theory.

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Class is in session
with Professor Michael Glatze.

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Shut up.

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Okay, okay, look.

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We need to put out the message

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that being attracted to the same sex

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doesn't define who you are.

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♪♪

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Hey.

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( music stops )

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Have you been smoking?

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Just one.

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Small one.

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It was a small cigarette.

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( chuckles ) Busted.

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Letters to the editor.

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Ninety percent are some poor
teen with religious parents.

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Fucking Christian Fundamentalists
should burn in hell.

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Uh, okay.

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In the meantime,
there is a design competition

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for the Halifax International Airport.

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I don't wanna move to Halifax.

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I know, but my father wants me
to head up the bid committee.

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It's huge.

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Halifax is so boring.

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Your hometown is boring.

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It's not.

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Olympia?
Yeah.

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It's all trees and fog and coffee.

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And the birthplace
of the Riot Grrrl movement

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and where Kurt Cobain
wrote most of Nevermind.

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( chuckles )
Oh, well...

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Yeah.
In that case...

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But it's unsustainable here,

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unless you're in
the dot-com movement,

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and I don't wanna live
in a studio on Mission Street

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when we're 50.

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Well, we won't be.

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We'll be in a big mansion
on a hill. Duh.

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♪♪

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MICHAEL: May 21st, 2000.

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I used to imagine myself growing old

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while living in a house
atop a hill in the Castro,

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but what's more important to me

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is growing old with the love of my life,

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Bennett.

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So I'm leaving San Francisco

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to live in Halifax, Canada.

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Although I'm sad to leave XY magazine,

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I'm excited to finally accept
the speaking offers

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I've been receiving this past year,

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thanks to my work
as a writer and activist.

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What a lot of people aren't aware of

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is that the terms "heterosexual"
and "homosexual"

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were only introduced
about a hundred years ago.

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As my mother used to always say,

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"When you help others,

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you're helping yourself
as well."

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We often read about more sexually...

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My goal is to thread a needle

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through the fabric of this country

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and stitch together the lives
of gay kids everywhere.

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I know a lot of you

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are balancing religion and sexuality,

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but I mean, come on,

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what God would punish you
for finding love?

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( birds chirping )

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( woodpecker pecking )

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This is where I spread my Mom's ashes.

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Oh, my God.

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She's still here.

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( sighs )

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♪♪

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Mom, I'm gonna stay here with you.

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No.

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Don't be stubborn.

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You are not skipping
a semester to be with me.

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I can help you through this.

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I'm gonna be fine.
I told you.

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I feel better.

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Really, Michael.

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I am so proud of you.

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I love you so much.

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Hmm. I love you.

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I should've stayed.

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( sighs )

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Everyone kept saying,

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"Don't worry, we're praying
for her, don't worry."

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Everyone's gonna die.

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No amount of praying
is ever gonna change that.

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♪♪

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( alarm beeping )

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You're not getting up yet.
Five minutes more.

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I can't believe I'm approaching
my one-year anniversary

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here in Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada.

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The food is amazing,
especially the sushi.

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The people are friendly
and although the gay community

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is much smaller than San Francisco,

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I have some big plans
to really make an impact.

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What's wrong with you?

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Nothing.

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( sighs )

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Look, I have to find
something else to do.

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I'm just not cut out
for administrative work.

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Give it some time?

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I have things I wanna do.

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I want my own magazine.
I want something bigger.

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I want...
I want to influence people.

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I can't do that here.
You're being such a shit.

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We made the decision
to leave San Francisco together.

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No, we didn't.

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I mean, you had to take this job.

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Just like you had to take the job
that took us to San Francisco.

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Which is how you got your job at
XY, so you should be thanking me.

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Is this...

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This is supposed to be Mexican food?

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Why don't you go to the store
and make your own food?

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Maybe I will.

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You'll have to ask me for money, though,

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'cause you don't have any, remember?

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♪♪

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Thanks.

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Hey.

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Hey.

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You're Mike, right?

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Uh, yeah.

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The XY Survivor Guide
really helped me out.

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Are you stalking me or something?

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( laughs )

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Tyler.

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Hi.

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Hi.

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I just...
I wanted you to know

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I agree with everything that you say

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about gay identity and sexuality.

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I don't wanna be put into a
box just because I'm gay.

225
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You don't wanna be in a box?

226
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No, I don't wanna be in a box.

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( both laugh )

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You're so fucking cute.

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Can I buy you a drink?

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Don't you have a boyfriend?

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( inhales) Hmm...
He'll think you're cute, too.

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♪♪

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( humming )

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TYLER: It's a galaxy.

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Uh, actually it's a spiral.

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It's the only symbol
that means anything.

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It's infinite, no beginning, no end.

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There's a beginning and there's an end.

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All right, well, there's
a more complicated one

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that has no beginning and no end,

241
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but I can't do it on my pancakes, okay?

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( all chuckle )

243
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How did you guys meet?

244
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How did we meet?

245
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Uh, San Francisco.

246
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We volunteered at this
AIDS prevention organization.

247
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And we both got arrested protesting
this Christian Coalition event.

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Which is how I knew it was true love.

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( chuckles )
Awesome.

250
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How about you?
What's your deal?

251
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Who are you?

252
00:16:29,956 --> 00:16:31,290
Uh...

253
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I'm a physics student.

254
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Really?
Yeah.

255
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Physics.
Science.

256
00:16:36,663 --> 00:16:41,533
Yeah. I wanna be an astronaut,
but that's probably a long shot.

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Oh, God. I'd be terrified
to go into space.

258
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It's just, to me,

259
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Earth is just this, like,
tiny speck in the universe.

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And humans have only been around
for just a speck of that timeline.

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So it's just...

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There has to be more to life
than just this, don't you think?

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Totally.

264
00:17:09,096 --> 00:17:11,631
Totally.

265
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BENNETT: So Tyler
was really cute, huh?

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Interesting.
Mm-hmm.

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It is interesting, isn't it?

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Very interesting.

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You know why?
( chuckles )

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Because I love you so much.

271
00:17:26,279 --> 00:17:28,147
( chuckles )

272
00:17:28,148 --> 00:17:30,349
And I really feel like we're
at a place in our relationship

273
00:17:30,350 --> 00:17:32,551
where there's more
than enough love to go around.

274
00:17:32,552 --> 00:17:33,719
( chuckles )

275
00:17:33,720 --> 00:17:35,554
And I know that I'm not afraid of that

276
00:17:35,555 --> 00:17:37,055
and I don't think that you are either.

277
00:17:37,056 --> 00:17:40,259
Mm-mm. Maybe I am afraid.

278
00:17:40,260 --> 00:17:41,593
Well, you shouldn't be afraid

279
00:17:41,594 --> 00:17:44,663
because I'm here to protect you. Why?

280
00:17:44,664 --> 00:17:47,134
( chuckles )

281
00:17:52,038 --> 00:17:53,273
Carrot thief.

282
00:17:54,541 --> 00:17:59,745
MICHAEL: Here's our very uncool
soccer mom van.

283
00:17:59,746 --> 00:18:01,380
Whoo!
( chuckles )

284
00:18:01,381 --> 00:18:04,383
Who are these guys?
( chuckles )

285
00:18:04,384 --> 00:18:07,085
July 23rd, 2002.

286
00:18:07,086 --> 00:18:08,720
Road trip.
Road trip.

287
00:18:08,721 --> 00:18:12,057
I'm driving across America
with Bennett and Tyler

288
00:18:12,058 --> 00:18:16,162
for an exciting new project
I'm working on.

289
00:18:16,163 --> 00:18:17,596
I guess both beds are taken.

290
00:18:17,597 --> 00:18:19,898
I don't know where you're gonna sleep.

291
00:18:19,899 --> 00:18:23,769
BOTH: Eenie, meenie, miney, moe.

292
00:18:23,770 --> 00:18:26,638
( laughs )

293
00:18:26,639 --> 00:18:29,741
This is the most fun
I've ever had in my whole life.

294
00:18:29,742 --> 00:18:31,777
Really?
No.

295
00:18:31,778 --> 00:18:32,644
♪♪

296
00:18:32,645 --> 00:18:34,580
We are making a documentary

297
00:18:34,581 --> 00:18:36,382
about queer youth in America,

298
00:18:36,383 --> 00:18:40,018
because discrimination
against LGBT youth

299
00:18:40,019 --> 00:18:42,288
must be eliminated.

300
00:18:42,289 --> 00:18:46,558
I just wish people could see
that these kids have faces,

301
00:18:46,559 --> 00:18:50,762
names, and voices that need to be heard.

302
00:18:50,763 --> 00:18:54,966
BOY: Growing up in the church
and realizing that you're gay

303
00:18:54,967 --> 00:18:57,035
is very difficult.

304
00:18:57,036 --> 00:19:00,406
You know, your family
has never talked about it.

305
00:19:00,407 --> 00:19:02,073
I mean, I'm 13

306
00:19:02,074 --> 00:19:03,742
and it's the first time
I've heard the word.

307
00:19:03,743 --> 00:19:07,713
And when I heard the word
and knew what it was,

308
00:19:07,714 --> 00:19:11,250
then it was like, "Hey, I know that.

309
00:19:11,251 --> 00:19:14,620
I understand that.
That's me."

310
00:19:14,621 --> 00:19:16,522
GIRL: My mom, she's trying.

311
00:19:16,523 --> 00:19:18,123
She's like really in the closet
about it.

312
00:19:18,124 --> 00:19:19,825
She won't mention it to anybody
or anything like that.

313
00:19:19,826 --> 00:19:21,993
Like, she tries to still act
like I'm straight

314
00:19:21,994 --> 00:19:24,596
and expects me to act like
I'm straight along with her

315
00:19:24,597 --> 00:19:25,997
when I'm not like that.

316
00:19:25,998 --> 00:19:28,434
BOY: And this was
probably more overwhelming

317
00:19:28,435 --> 00:19:31,837
when I tried to kill myself, uh...

318
00:19:31,838 --> 00:19:36,508
But I felt so invisible

319
00:19:36,509 --> 00:19:39,245
to everyone around me who was straight.

320
00:19:39,246 --> 00:19:43,181
There are times when I realize

321
00:19:43,182 --> 00:19:48,621
that I'm just as much a creation
of God as everyone else.

322
00:19:51,123 --> 00:19:54,092
Olympia, Washington.

323
00:19:54,093 --> 00:19:55,627
This is kind of somber.

324
00:19:55,628 --> 00:19:59,965
But even though I grew up here,

325
00:19:59,966 --> 00:20:05,504
because both my parents
don't live anymore,

326
00:20:05,505 --> 00:20:07,673
it feels like this place
is a part of a past

327
00:20:07,674 --> 00:20:09,675
that doesn't exist anymore.

328
00:20:09,676 --> 00:20:13,011
And I wasn't gay here.

329
00:20:13,012 --> 00:20:14,513
I mean, you couldn't be.

330
00:20:14,514 --> 00:20:17,182
There was this kid that everyone
just thought was gay

331
00:20:17,183 --> 00:20:22,120
and he had to leave school
'cause he got picked on so much.

332
00:20:22,121 --> 00:20:24,491
♪♪

333
00:20:31,531 --> 00:20:33,399
MICHAEL: What's it like here?

334
00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:35,200
Liberty is Falwell territory.

335
00:20:35,201 --> 00:20:39,372
So as you can imagine,
it's not very gay-friendly.

336
00:20:42,241 --> 00:20:44,943
So why do you stay?

337
00:20:44,944 --> 00:20:45,945
Uh...

338
00:20:49,215 --> 00:20:50,382
Well, I...

339
00:20:50,383 --> 00:20:52,017
I don't know. I, um...

340
00:20:52,018 --> 00:20:53,952
I didn't come out to friends and family

341
00:20:53,953 --> 00:20:55,754
until last year.

342
00:20:55,755 --> 00:21:00,125
And I have another year
before I graduate.

343
00:21:00,126 --> 00:21:01,860
I'm a Christian.

344
00:21:01,861 --> 00:21:03,662
So...

345
00:21:03,663 --> 00:21:05,931
Which a lot of people
think is impossible,

346
00:21:05,932 --> 00:21:07,633
but I think that's just as ridiculous

347
00:21:07,634 --> 00:21:10,836
as the anti-gay right, so...

348
00:21:10,837 --> 00:21:13,238
( girl crying )

349
00:21:13,239 --> 00:21:14,607
Just a second.

350
00:21:16,409 --> 00:21:17,776
Hey, Sof.

351
00:21:17,777 --> 00:21:19,978
GIRL: Do you want us
to call them for you?

352
00:21:19,979 --> 00:21:22,080
( girl crying )

353
00:21:22,081 --> 00:21:24,583
We're just gonna... We're gonna
wait with you until he comes, okay?

354
00:21:24,584 --> 00:21:29,287
Her mother just passed.
Do you mind not filming us?

355
00:21:29,288 --> 00:21:30,922
GIRL: So awful.

356
00:21:30,923 --> 00:21:33,091
BOY: Here, let's pray.
Let's pray for her, okay?

357
00:21:33,092 --> 00:21:34,426
All right, turn it off.

358
00:21:34,427 --> 00:21:35,761
BOY: We just wanna ask, Father,

359
00:21:35,762 --> 00:21:37,228
that you would
just give her the strength

360
00:21:37,229 --> 00:21:40,832
to get through this
incredibly difficult time

361
00:21:40,833 --> 00:21:43,969
and we pray that you
would just fill us all

362
00:21:43,970 --> 00:21:46,304
with the compassion to know
what she must be going through

363
00:21:46,305 --> 00:21:49,675
because it would be impossible
for us to fully comprehend.

364
00:21:49,676 --> 00:21:52,010
Just show her yourself, Father,
during this time

365
00:21:52,011 --> 00:21:54,880
and look to you right now, Father...

366
00:21:54,881 --> 00:21:56,816
♪♪

367
00:22:15,001 --> 00:22:15,935
Hey.

368
00:22:17,336 --> 00:22:19,438
Babe.

369
00:22:19,439 --> 00:22:21,640
We gotta go. We gotta be there at 9:30.
You ready?

370
00:22:21,641 --> 00:22:23,776
Yeah. All right. See you in the car.

371
00:22:28,948 --> 00:22:31,016
I didn't come out to friends and family

372
00:22:31,017 --> 00:22:33,018
until last year.

373
00:22:33,019 --> 00:22:34,352
I'm a Christian.

374
00:22:34,353 --> 00:22:36,221
So...

375
00:22:36,222 --> 00:22:38,590
Which a lot of people
think is impossible,

376
00:22:38,591 --> 00:22:40,426
but I think that's just as ridiculous

377
00:22:40,427 --> 00:22:43,596
as the anti-gay right, so...

378
00:22:45,264 --> 00:22:51,069
When I was young, I didn't know
that there were people like me.

379
00:22:51,070 --> 00:22:55,407
I felt lost, alone, and confused.

380
00:22:55,408 --> 00:22:59,778
I never even told my mother,
my best friend, that I was gay

381
00:22:59,779 --> 00:23:02,247
because I was afraid
she wouldn't accept me.

382
00:23:02,248 --> 00:23:04,750
That's why we're on this journey.

383
00:23:04,751 --> 00:23:08,920
To let gay kids know
that they are not alone.

384
00:23:08,921 --> 00:23:12,424
And you know what?
I learned a lot as well.

385
00:23:12,425 --> 00:23:15,160
Because we met so many amazing people

386
00:23:15,161 --> 00:23:17,162
who've heard their parents or pastors

387
00:23:17,163 --> 00:23:20,031
tell them they're wrong
and yet they've come

388
00:23:20,032 --> 00:23:22,901
to the realization
that they're beautiful,

389
00:23:22,902 --> 00:23:27,405
blessed, and that God
loves them just as they are.

390
00:23:27,406 --> 00:23:31,943
I mean, people who believe
that homosexuality is wrong

391
00:23:31,944 --> 00:23:37,015
are gonna change their minds
thanks to this next generation.

392
00:23:37,016 --> 00:23:38,951
♪♪

393
00:23:42,755 --> 00:23:44,891
( church bell rings )

394
00:24:04,944 --> 00:24:06,879
♪♪

395
00:24:36,275 --> 00:24:38,210
( indistinct chatter )

396
00:24:40,312 --> 00:24:44,349
The sky is fucking beautiful.

397
00:24:44,350 --> 00:24:46,952
( laughs )

398
00:24:46,953 --> 00:24:49,588
BENNETT: What is this, babe?

399
00:24:49,589 --> 00:24:50,757
Hmm?

400
00:24:52,424 --> 00:24:53,792
Oh, it's stupid.

401
00:24:53,793 --> 00:24:55,794
Just somebody gave it to me
on the street.

402
00:24:55,795 --> 00:24:59,164
"Where Will We Go
When We Die?"

403
00:24:59,165 --> 00:25:02,133
Baby. ( Laughs )

404
00:25:02,134 --> 00:25:04,803
You guys, where will we go when we die?

405
00:25:04,804 --> 00:25:08,339
In 2012, the world is supposed to end.

406
00:25:08,340 --> 00:25:10,141
Is that a real thing?

407
00:25:10,142 --> 00:25:11,843
I hope not.

408
00:25:11,844 --> 00:25:14,012
BOY: Everyone knows this.

409
00:25:14,013 --> 00:25:17,015
It's what they drew
on the Mayan calendar.

410
00:25:17,016 --> 00:25:19,851
You know, the Mayan calendar thing.

411
00:25:19,852 --> 00:25:22,554
That's what they drew.
It was the moon and the sun.

412
00:25:22,555 --> 00:25:23,889
( chatter continues )

413
00:25:23,890 --> 00:25:25,825
♪♪

414
00:25:30,262 --> 00:25:32,198
♪♪

415
00:26:15,642 --> 00:26:18,944
What? I'm curious.
Whoa, whoa, whoa.

416
00:26:18,945 --> 00:26:22,280
We wanna know. Please.
We wanna know. Please.

417
00:26:22,281 --> 00:26:24,283
MAN: I don't think
they wanna know.

418
00:26:29,588 --> 00:26:32,358
♪♪

419
00:26:41,734 --> 00:26:42,902
BENNETT: Mike.

420
00:26:46,205 --> 00:26:48,173
You guys go on.
I'll meet you at home.

421
00:26:48,174 --> 00:26:50,241
You okay?

422
00:26:50,242 --> 00:26:51,476
Yeah, I'm fine.

423
00:26:51,477 --> 00:26:53,544
Where are you going?

424
00:26:53,545 --> 00:26:55,682
Michael?

425
00:26:57,316 --> 00:27:01,319
What's that about? I have
absolutely no earthly idea.

426
00:27:01,320 --> 00:27:03,790
( water running )

427
00:27:06,125 --> 00:27:07,393
( sighs )

428
00:27:17,436 --> 00:27:20,072
( sighs )

429
00:27:38,457 --> 00:27:40,392
( sighs )

430
00:27:42,094 --> 00:27:43,428
( crying )

431
00:27:43,429 --> 00:27:44,831
Baby.

432
00:27:46,432 --> 00:27:50,501
I was worried about you today.
What's going on?

433
00:27:50,502 --> 00:27:55,373
( sighs )

434
00:27:55,374 --> 00:27:58,043
It's stupid.

435
00:27:58,044 --> 00:28:00,713
Baby, nothing's stupid.
Tell me what.

436
00:28:03,983 --> 00:28:09,988
Do you think when we die,

437
00:28:09,989 --> 00:28:14,126
we just disappear like we never existed?

438
00:28:18,497 --> 00:28:20,299
No, I don't think that.

439
00:28:22,001 --> 00:28:24,470
Because I know that
we'll always be together.

440
00:28:27,206 --> 00:28:28,307
Baby.

441
00:28:32,211 --> 00:28:34,146
( crying )

442
00:28:35,714 --> 00:28:37,382
Baby.

443
00:28:37,383 --> 00:28:40,052
Baby, you're okay.
I'm here.

444
00:28:44,690 --> 00:28:46,826
♪♪

445
00:28:50,529 --> 00:28:53,465
( all cheering )

446
00:28:58,137 --> 00:29:00,840
Let's pray for her.
Let's pray.

447
00:29:03,309 --> 00:29:05,244
( gasping )

448
00:29:13,552 --> 00:29:14,854
Bennett!

449
00:29:16,255 --> 00:29:17,455
Bennett!

450
00:29:17,456 --> 00:29:20,591
( gasping )

451
00:29:20,592 --> 00:29:22,861
I'm really lightheaded.

452
00:29:22,862 --> 00:29:26,933
It's okay. It's okay. We're
almost there. We're almost there.

453
00:29:40,913 --> 00:29:42,680
Okay.

454
00:29:42,681 --> 00:29:47,418
Your heartrate seems to have
returned back to normal.

455
00:29:47,419 --> 00:29:49,354
Can you check again?

456
00:29:49,355 --> 00:29:52,590
Just because your father had HCM
does not mean that you have it.

457
00:29:52,591 --> 00:29:57,128
We followed our chest pain protocol
and there's nothing abnormal.

458
00:29:57,129 --> 00:30:00,132
You had a panic attack. Okay?

459
00:30:02,768 --> 00:30:04,635
Where's Bennett?

460
00:30:04,636 --> 00:30:06,171
He's in the lobby.

461
00:30:06,172 --> 00:30:09,008
As soon as you're checked out,
you can see him.

462
00:30:09,976 --> 00:30:10,976
All right?

463
00:30:10,977 --> 00:30:12,111
Thank you.

464
00:30:16,615 --> 00:30:17,782
♪♪

465
00:30:17,783 --> 00:30:19,117
I was 13 years old,

466
00:30:19,118 --> 00:30:21,286
walking along the beach with my father,

467
00:30:21,287 --> 00:30:23,288
when he suddenly collapsed and died

468
00:30:23,289 --> 00:30:25,591
from an unexpected heart condition.

469
00:30:29,295 --> 00:30:31,296
If I've inherited his disease,

470
00:30:31,297 --> 00:30:33,599
the same thing could happen to me.

471
00:30:35,301 --> 00:30:37,435
BENNETT: What's wrong, baby?

472
00:30:37,436 --> 00:30:40,305
It's happening again.
I can feel it.

473
00:30:40,306 --> 00:30:43,674
The tests confirmed that...
They don't know.

474
00:30:43,675 --> 00:30:45,510
They don't care.

475
00:30:45,511 --> 00:30:47,345
( gasping )

476
00:30:47,346 --> 00:30:50,748
Now I'm having heart
palpitations all the time.

477
00:30:50,749 --> 00:30:54,052
And contrary to what
the doctors keep saying,

478
00:30:54,053 --> 00:30:56,956
I just know they aren't panic attacks.

479
00:30:58,324 --> 00:31:00,158
After months of fighting
with my insurance,

480
00:31:00,159 --> 00:31:02,393
I was finally allowed
to see a specialist

481
00:31:02,394 --> 00:31:04,562
who could definitively test
whether or not

482
00:31:04,563 --> 00:31:07,066
I inherited my father's condition.

483
00:31:08,367 --> 00:31:11,469
Now I have to wait for the results.

484
00:31:11,470 --> 00:31:14,772
BENNETT: Michael, just calm down.
MICHAEL: Calm down!

485
00:31:14,773 --> 00:31:16,374
Do you know what this disease means?

486
00:31:16,375 --> 00:31:19,577
It means I could die any
minute, just drop dead!

487
00:31:19,578 --> 00:31:21,047
You calm down!

488
00:31:32,224 --> 00:31:34,360
( water running )

489
00:31:50,242 --> 00:31:52,178
♪♪

490
00:32:08,027 --> 00:32:10,162
( panting )

491
00:32:18,137 --> 00:32:20,272
( gasping )

492
00:32:40,859 --> 00:32:42,995
( water running )

493
00:33:03,749 --> 00:33:05,684
( panting )

494
00:33:39,085 --> 00:33:41,220
( birds chirping )

495
00:33:54,833 --> 00:33:56,768
( phone chiming )

496
00:34:00,005 --> 00:34:01,539
Dr. Williams?

497
00:34:01,540 --> 00:34:02,907
Hi.

498
00:34:02,908 --> 00:34:07,578
♪♪

499
00:34:07,579 --> 00:34:09,515
( panting )

500
00:34:25,564 --> 00:34:26,832
Thank you, God.

501
00:34:31,570 --> 00:34:32,838
Thank you, God.

502
00:34:36,742 --> 00:34:38,376
The test confirmed

503
00:34:38,377 --> 00:34:41,512
that I did not inherit
my father's heart condition.

504
00:34:41,513 --> 00:34:45,216
Although it's a massive sigh of relief,

505
00:34:45,217 --> 00:34:47,618
I keep thinking to myself...

506
00:34:47,619 --> 00:34:51,322
if I was really
just having panic attacks,

507
00:34:51,323 --> 00:34:53,491
then what's wrong with me?

508
00:34:53,492 --> 00:34:55,661
What am I afraid of?

509
00:35:01,400 --> 00:35:04,269
All I know is that when
faced with your own death,

510
00:35:04,270 --> 00:35:06,937
it reminds you
of what's important in life.

511
00:35:06,938 --> 00:35:10,609
And for me, that's helping other people.

512
00:35:11,977 --> 00:35:13,478
Okay.

513
00:35:13,479 --> 00:35:16,847
So I've decided
to start my own magazine.

514
00:35:16,848 --> 00:35:19,850
I'm calling it YGA.

515
00:35:19,851 --> 00:35:21,652
Young Gay Americans.

516
00:35:21,653 --> 00:35:25,356
It's gonna be the biggest
and most sophisticated magazine

517
00:35:25,357 --> 00:35:29,527
aimed at improving the lives
of LGBT youth.

518
00:35:29,528 --> 00:35:31,830
( indistinct chatter )

519
00:35:55,954 --> 00:35:57,756
♪♪

520
00:36:10,302 --> 00:36:11,937
( sighs )

521
00:36:15,974 --> 00:36:17,443
Hmm.

522
00:36:28,654 --> 00:36:30,789
( footsteps approaching )

523
00:36:45,337 --> 00:36:46,671
What is this?

524
00:36:46,672 --> 00:36:49,206
( chuckles )
What is this?

525
00:36:49,207 --> 00:36:52,810
Oh, my God! Hi!

526
00:36:52,811 --> 00:36:54,612
You didn't.

527
00:36:54,613 --> 00:36:56,013
I know you wanted one, baby.

528
00:36:56,014 --> 00:36:57,782
Oh, my God!

529
00:36:57,783 --> 00:37:00,419
( chuckles )

530
00:37:04,556 --> 00:37:06,691
Ooh.

531
00:37:06,692 --> 00:37:09,226
What are we gonna call you?
( chuckles )

532
00:37:09,227 --> 00:37:11,095
What are we gonna call you?

533
00:37:11,096 --> 00:37:12,697
( both laughing )

534
00:37:12,698 --> 00:37:14,900
BENNETT: Olly. Olly, heel.

535
00:37:16,702 --> 00:37:19,704
MICHAEL: I've been thinking
about the next issue of YGA.

536
00:37:19,705 --> 00:37:22,540
I think we need to address
this whole Christianity thing.

537
00:37:22,541 --> 00:37:24,008
BENNETT: What do you mean?

538
00:37:24,009 --> 00:37:27,812
Well, people think that gays
and Christians are enemies.

539
00:37:27,813 --> 00:37:32,883
We've met so many people who've managed
to balance their faith and their sexuality.

540
00:37:32,884 --> 00:37:35,953
But we've also met
so many people whose parents

541
00:37:35,954 --> 00:37:38,489
and churches tell them
they're gonna burn in hell.

542
00:37:38,490 --> 00:37:41,659
Yeah, which is why we should
address it in the magazine.

543
00:37:41,660 --> 00:37:45,330
I mean, the whole "you're gay,
you're going to hell" myth

544
00:37:45,331 --> 00:37:50,200
was started by mistranslations and
misinterpretations of the Bible.

545
00:37:50,201 --> 00:37:54,772
I mean, God doesn't care
what your sexual orientation is.

546
00:37:54,773 --> 00:37:58,976
And the one thing that the gay
movement doesn't understand

547
00:37:58,977 --> 00:38:00,711
that I think Christianity does

548
00:38:00,712 --> 00:38:06,385
is that not everyone wants to
be a part of the subculture.

549
00:38:07,853 --> 00:38:10,455
I'm sorry, what did you
do with my boyfriend?

550
00:38:10,456 --> 00:38:12,222
Shut up.

551
00:38:12,223 --> 00:38:14,360
I'm not gonna write like...

552
00:38:16,895 --> 00:38:20,097
Gospel according to Michael
or something. ( Chuckles )

553
00:38:20,098 --> 00:38:21,467
♪♪

554
00:38:23,602 --> 00:38:26,604
It might seem strange
for a gay youth magazine

555
00:38:26,605 --> 00:38:30,307
to dedicate an entire issue to religion,

556
00:38:30,308 --> 00:38:32,778
but it's too important to ignore.

557
00:38:34,446 --> 00:38:37,982
When my parents died, I blamed God.

558
00:38:37,983 --> 00:38:39,484
When I came out,

559
00:38:39,485 --> 00:38:43,654
I distanced myself even further
from religion.

560
00:38:43,655 --> 00:38:48,359
You see, I thought I was
too smart to believe in God,

561
00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:50,662
that he was only for the needy.

562
00:38:51,930 --> 00:38:53,798
But after a recent health scare,

563
00:38:53,799 --> 00:38:58,503
I felt this nudging
in the back of my mind,

564
00:38:58,504 --> 00:39:01,506
The presence of God.

565
00:39:01,507 --> 00:39:03,508
And you know what?

566
00:39:03,509 --> 00:39:06,344
I was no longer afraid.

567
00:39:07,345 --> 00:39:08,813
Aah!

568
00:39:08,814 --> 00:39:11,682
Some religious figures
spout hateful rhetoric

569
00:39:11,683 --> 00:39:15,219
and try to force
a monopoly on the truth.

570
00:39:15,220 --> 00:39:18,723
But the only truth is love.

571
00:39:18,724 --> 00:39:22,927
The only sin is denying love.

572
00:39:22,928 --> 00:39:25,262
Stop hating.

573
00:39:25,263 --> 00:39:28,066
Start loving.

574
00:39:37,976 --> 00:39:39,777
You gonna join us?

575
00:39:39,778 --> 00:39:41,780
Uh, yeah, just one second.

576
00:39:47,853 --> 00:39:50,020
What?

577
00:39:50,021 --> 00:39:53,023
Uh, you're really combing
through that thing, aren't you?

578
00:39:53,024 --> 00:39:57,394
Look, my whole life, I thought
the Bible was full of hate...

579
00:39:57,395 --> 00:39:58,896
and it's not.

580
00:39:58,897 --> 00:40:01,231
There's a lot of love in here.

581
00:40:01,232 --> 00:40:05,936
So your interest in the Bible
is more than just research?

582
00:40:05,937 --> 00:40:09,974
Well, there's a lot of
Christian roots in my family,

583
00:40:09,975 --> 00:40:12,477
my mom, my aunt and...

584
00:40:12,478 --> 00:40:13,878
Just curious.

585
00:40:13,879 --> 00:40:17,081
Your aunts disowned you
when you came out.

586
00:40:17,082 --> 00:40:18,849
That's not family.

587
00:40:18,850 --> 00:40:20,851
I'm all for curiosity but...

588
00:40:20,852 --> 00:40:24,722
I-I just feel like
something saved me,

589
00:40:24,723 --> 00:40:27,125
shook me and woke me up.

590
00:40:28,393 --> 00:40:31,497
And that someone is God?

591
00:40:33,398 --> 00:40:38,604
Mike, he didn't save you
because you were never dying.

592
00:40:41,239 --> 00:40:43,174
Okay.

593
00:40:46,645 --> 00:40:48,813
"Whoever finds their life will lose it,

594
00:40:48,814 --> 00:40:51,817
and whoever loses their life
for my sake will find it."

595
00:40:54,753 --> 00:40:58,088
"Whoever finds their life will lose it,

596
00:40:58,089 --> 00:41:02,661
and whoever loses their life
for my sake will find it."

597
00:41:03,862 --> 00:41:06,196
"Whoever finds their life will lose it,

598
00:41:06,197 --> 00:41:09,535
and whoever loses their life
for my sake will find it."

599
00:41:16,407 --> 00:41:19,443
Don't see many people
flaunting that out in the open.

600
00:41:19,444 --> 00:41:21,245
Oh.

601
00:41:21,246 --> 00:41:23,781
I've seen you reading out here before

602
00:41:23,782 --> 00:41:27,051
and I thought maybe you'd
wanna come to my church.

603
00:41:27,052 --> 00:41:31,589
Any Sunday, just to check it out.

604
00:41:31,590 --> 00:41:34,225
See what the Mormon religion
has to offer.

605
00:41:35,794 --> 00:41:41,298
The gospel teaches us
that we are the spirit children

606
00:41:41,299 --> 00:41:43,333
of heavenly parents.

607
00:41:43,334 --> 00:41:49,540
Now, many people ask,
are we like other Christians?

608
00:41:49,541 --> 00:41:51,709
Why of course we are.

609
00:41:51,710 --> 00:41:54,044
We believe in Jesus Christ

610
00:41:54,045 --> 00:41:57,548
and we believe in life after death.

611
00:41:57,549 --> 00:42:02,687
And everyone is welcome
at the LDS Church.

612
00:42:02,688 --> 00:42:06,323
Christ's atonement allows mankind
to be saved from their sins...

613
00:42:06,324 --> 00:42:10,628
and to return to live with God
and their loved ones in Heaven.

614
00:42:10,629 --> 00:42:13,330
Did you grow up with any kind of faith?

615
00:42:13,331 --> 00:42:14,665
Not really.

616
00:42:14,666 --> 00:42:16,333
My mother was Christian,

617
00:42:16,334 --> 00:42:19,770
but she didn't really take
me or my sister to church,

618
00:42:19,771 --> 00:42:22,940
and my father was a Berkeley hippie,

619
00:42:22,941 --> 00:42:26,276
kind of agnostic or even atheist.

620
00:42:26,277 --> 00:42:28,145
They were very good people

621
00:42:28,146 --> 00:42:32,349
and I know
I'll see them again in Heaven.

622
00:42:32,350 --> 00:42:35,219
My mom passed away as well.

623
00:42:35,220 --> 00:42:37,187
So I know how hard that is.

624
00:42:37,188 --> 00:42:41,792
I was so afraid and angry, you know?

625
00:42:41,793 --> 00:42:43,794
Yeah, me, too.

626
00:42:43,795 --> 00:42:45,963
It's really hard to deal with death

627
00:42:45,964 --> 00:42:48,033
when you don't know where you're going.

628
00:42:49,534 --> 00:42:52,336
But once you do, then you have peace

629
00:42:52,337 --> 00:42:55,405
and you realize that God's not to blame.

630
00:42:55,406 --> 00:42:57,843
Right.
Yeah.

631
00:42:59,244 --> 00:43:00,178
GIRL: Catherine.

632
00:43:01,713 --> 00:43:02,880
( chuckles )

633
00:43:02,881 --> 00:43:04,314
It was nice to meet you.

634
00:43:04,315 --> 00:43:05,250
You, too.

635
00:43:08,553 --> 00:43:11,455
She's single, FYI.

636
00:43:11,456 --> 00:43:13,791
FYI?

637
00:43:13,792 --> 00:43:15,425
What, you think she likes me?

638
00:43:15,426 --> 00:43:18,629
Yeah. Yeah,
it seemed like it.

639
00:43:18,630 --> 00:43:23,634
But I mean, don't worry. There's plenty
of single ladies looking for a husband.

640
00:43:23,635 --> 00:43:27,638
I wasn't even thinking
about that kind of thing.

641
00:43:27,639 --> 00:43:31,041
Oh, well, maybe it's something
you should start thinking about.

642
00:43:31,042 --> 00:43:33,979
I can get you in touch with her
if you want.

643
00:43:35,280 --> 00:43:36,747
Oh, um...

644
00:43:36,748 --> 00:43:38,684
If you're interested.

645
00:43:41,286 --> 00:43:42,787
Sure. I don't know.

646
00:43:42,788 --> 00:43:45,122
Yeah? Okay. Whatever. Yeah, okay.

647
00:43:45,123 --> 00:43:46,891
All right.
Okay, thanks.

648
00:43:46,892 --> 00:43:49,027
Embarrassing me a little bit. ( Laughs )

649
00:43:50,428 --> 00:43:52,363
♪♪

650
00:44:06,511 --> 00:44:08,646
♪♪

651
00:44:14,686 --> 00:44:16,453
MAN:
Welcome back to New Beginnings

652
00:44:16,454 --> 00:44:18,989
and thank you for listening
to our continued conversation

653
00:44:18,990 --> 00:44:21,158
about the truth path to Heaven.

654
00:44:21,159 --> 00:44:24,695
Doctor, how would you respond
to other Christians

655
00:44:24,696 --> 00:44:26,496
who disagree with your angle?

656
00:44:26,497 --> 00:44:30,200
DOCTOR: Look, all I'm trying
to do is help people.

657
00:44:30,201 --> 00:44:33,904
It just pains me so much when
I hear so-called Christians

658
00:44:33,905 --> 00:44:37,074
side with the left on issues
such as homosexuality.

659
00:44:37,075 --> 00:44:40,077
Now, I'm not condoning hate.

660
00:44:40,078 --> 00:44:42,747
In fact, this is about love.

661
00:44:42,748 --> 00:44:44,915
Choosing a gay identity will condemn you

662
00:44:44,916 --> 00:44:46,951
to an eternity of suffering.

663
00:44:46,952 --> 00:44:49,453
And I wanna save people from that.

664
00:44:49,454 --> 00:44:52,289
Whether it's abortion or adultery

665
00:44:52,290 --> 00:44:55,826
or accepting religions
other than Christianity,

666
00:44:55,827 --> 00:44:57,995
you must obey God's law

667
00:44:57,996 --> 00:45:00,999
or you will not be allowed
into his kingdom.

668
00:45:03,869 --> 00:45:07,005
( indistinct chatter )

669
00:45:40,839 --> 00:45:43,640
I'm not saying that. I'm not
saying that it's wrong.

670
00:45:43,641 --> 00:45:46,811
I'm just saying that over the
course of thousands of years,

671
00:45:46,812 --> 00:45:50,347
people with an agenda have made
Christianity what it is today.

672
00:45:50,348 --> 00:45:55,353
Yeah, but the original message is
still the same, it's about love.

673
00:45:58,223 --> 00:46:01,125
You know, I would've never
pegged you as a Buddhist.

674
00:46:01,126 --> 00:46:02,426
Why?

675
00:46:02,427 --> 00:46:04,661
What, 'cause I don't look a certain way?

676
00:46:04,662 --> 00:46:06,463
No, I...

677
00:46:06,464 --> 00:46:08,632
I don't know why I just said that.

678
00:46:08,633 --> 00:46:10,367
I'm just kidding you.

679
00:46:10,368 --> 00:46:11,635
Meditation.

680
00:46:11,636 --> 00:46:13,838
People get weird in their head
about meditation.

681
00:46:13,839 --> 00:46:15,439
They think it's weird or hippie.

682
00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:19,309
I think it's about
developing mindfulness.

683
00:46:19,310 --> 00:46:21,311
You know, it's about
living moment to moment.

684
00:46:21,312 --> 00:46:25,649
And in a deeper level,
it's about knowing yourself.

685
00:46:25,650 --> 00:46:29,019
That's why I started volunteering
at the Buddhist center.

686
00:46:29,020 --> 00:46:31,488
They have classes on Friday.
You should come.

687
00:46:31,489 --> 00:46:36,026
Oh, I have to go out of town
for this speaking thing.

688
00:46:36,027 --> 00:46:38,195
What kind of speaking thing?

689
00:46:38,196 --> 00:46:41,065
It's about gay youth in America.

690
00:46:41,066 --> 00:46:43,201
No way. That's awesome.

691
00:47:09,794 --> 00:47:10,929
( dings )

692
00:47:15,633 --> 00:47:17,568
♪♪

693
00:47:24,809 --> 00:47:26,543
WOMAN:
Welcome to our very first panel

694
00:47:26,544 --> 00:47:28,879
on being young and gay in America.

695
00:47:28,880 --> 00:47:31,215
Joining us is Judy Shepard,

696
00:47:31,216 --> 00:47:34,118
president of
the Matthew Shepard Foundation,

697
00:47:34,119 --> 00:47:36,286
dedicated to working towards causes

698
00:47:36,287 --> 00:47:39,556
championed by her son Matthew
during his life.

699
00:47:39,557 --> 00:47:40,724
Thank you for joining us.

700
00:47:40,725 --> 00:47:42,860
( applause )

701
00:47:46,331 --> 00:47:49,934
Michael Glatze,
former editor of XY magazine,

702
00:47:49,935 --> 00:47:54,238
recipient of Equality Forum's
National Role Model Award

703
00:47:54,239 --> 00:47:56,873
as well as Lambda's Literary Award

704
00:47:56,874 --> 00:47:58,608
for XY's Survival Guide,

705
00:47:58,609 --> 00:48:02,079
participant in the
award-winning documentary

706
00:48:02,080 --> 00:48:03,413
Jim in Bold,

707
00:48:03,414 --> 00:48:05,282
and co-founder
of Young Gay Americans,

708
00:48:05,283 --> 00:48:07,484
which is now
a full-fledged magazine.

709
00:48:07,485 --> 00:48:09,254
( applause )

710
00:48:13,658 --> 00:48:15,994
WOMAN: What does being gay
mean to you?

711
00:48:17,662 --> 00:48:22,732
Gay doesn't mean the same thing
that it meant 20 years ago.

712
00:48:22,733 --> 00:48:26,103
And it's more important now than ever

713
00:48:26,104 --> 00:48:29,506
to make allies and make alliances

714
00:48:29,507 --> 00:48:33,577
both inside
and outside the gay community.

715
00:48:33,578 --> 00:48:36,147
( tape rewinding )

716
00:48:37,815 --> 00:48:42,819
Gay doesn't mean the same thing
that it meant 20 years ago.

717
00:48:42,820 --> 00:48:44,621
It's not about...

718
00:48:44,622 --> 00:48:46,391
( tape rewinding )

719
00:48:59,904 --> 00:49:02,739
♪♪

720
00:49:02,740 --> 00:49:04,675
( alarm beeping )

721
00:49:12,717 --> 00:49:13,651
( alarm stops )

722
00:49:18,623 --> 00:49:19,724
Hey.

723
00:49:22,460 --> 00:49:23,561
No.

724
00:49:26,097 --> 00:49:27,732
I have to walk the dog.

725
00:49:35,473 --> 00:49:37,408
♪♪

726
00:50:01,132 --> 00:50:04,135
( footsteps approaching )

727
00:50:06,337 --> 00:50:08,139
Hey.

728
00:50:11,976 --> 00:50:14,278
What are you doing?

729
00:50:14,279 --> 00:50:18,015
I need some space.

730
00:50:19,484 --> 00:50:21,185
Mike...
Look, I just...

731
00:50:21,186 --> 00:50:22,819
I need some time to figure this out,

732
00:50:22,820 --> 00:50:24,622
to see where this is taking me.

733
00:50:26,624 --> 00:50:29,393
Why can't you come to me for help?

734
00:50:29,394 --> 00:50:31,261
We have to talk about this before...

735
00:50:31,262 --> 00:50:33,263
Look, I just...

736
00:50:33,264 --> 00:50:35,533
I need to get away from this life.

737
00:50:36,401 --> 00:50:38,369
Our life?
Yes.

738
00:50:40,138 --> 00:50:43,340
And what exactly is it about our life that
you need to get away from, being gay?

739
00:50:43,341 --> 00:50:44,908
I don't know.

740
00:50:44,909 --> 00:50:46,410
I don't know!

741
00:50:46,411 --> 00:50:51,515
Okay, uh, are you attracted to women?

742
00:50:51,516 --> 00:50:53,817
Because if that's the case,
then fine, go explore.

743
00:50:53,818 --> 00:50:57,187
I just wanna be with my parents in
Heaven. Is that so hard to understand?

744
00:50:57,188 --> 00:50:59,389
Can you even hear yourself right now?

745
00:50:59,390 --> 00:51:01,558
What happened to the
misinterpretation of the Bible?

746
00:51:01,559 --> 00:51:03,327
It's a fucking book, Mike!

747
00:51:03,328 --> 00:51:05,762
I read the Bible the same way
I read anything else,

748
00:51:05,763 --> 00:51:06,996
with an open mind and an open heart.

749
00:51:06,997 --> 00:51:09,099
Oh, is that what you call this?

750
00:51:09,100 --> 00:51:12,636
'Cause the way you're talking doesn't
exactly sound very fucking open-minded.

751
00:51:12,637 --> 00:51:18,041
This relationship has just developed
into something unhealthy.

752
00:51:18,042 --> 00:51:20,178
What does that even mean?

753
00:51:21,579 --> 00:51:23,380
Tyler?

754
00:51:23,381 --> 00:51:25,882
You were just as
interested in that as I was.

755
00:51:25,883 --> 00:51:27,217
No.

756
00:51:27,218 --> 00:51:28,585
I just wanted you to be happy

757
00:51:28,586 --> 00:51:30,187
because I was afraid
you were gonna leave.

758
00:51:30,188 --> 00:51:31,755
I was never gonna leave, Mike.

759
00:51:31,756 --> 00:51:33,223
I've stood by you.

760
00:51:33,224 --> 00:51:35,592
I've held your hand while you
were so terrified of dying

761
00:51:35,593 --> 00:51:38,762
that you created illnesses
that didn't even exist.

762
00:51:38,763 --> 00:51:42,699
The truth is that I was living a lie.

763
00:51:42,700 --> 00:51:43,933
( sighs )

764
00:51:43,934 --> 00:51:47,605
The truth is that God loves us...
Shut the fuck up!

765
00:51:48,673 --> 00:51:49,874
( sighs )

766
00:51:51,909 --> 00:51:53,243
Okay.

767
00:51:53,244 --> 00:51:54,445
Wait.

768
00:52:01,252 --> 00:52:03,253
( crying )

769
00:52:03,254 --> 00:52:05,390
Please don't go.

770
00:52:10,795 --> 00:52:13,431
Where are you going?

771
00:52:20,605 --> 00:52:25,475
The thing that will really kill you...

772
00:52:25,476 --> 00:52:29,447
is repressing who you truly are.

773
00:52:30,648 --> 00:52:33,318
That's what you
should really be afraid of.

774
00:52:48,299 --> 00:52:51,302
( door opens and closes )

775
00:53:09,987 --> 00:53:11,922
♪♪

776
00:53:32,142 --> 00:53:34,612
( footsteps approaching )

777
00:53:42,987 --> 00:53:46,723
So he just left this here
out in the open?

778
00:53:46,724 --> 00:53:47,658
( sighs )

779
00:53:52,730 --> 00:53:54,365
( sighs )

780
00:54:01,706 --> 00:54:03,641
♪♪

781
00:54:12,049 --> 00:54:13,984
( rubbing hands together )

782
00:54:29,334 --> 00:54:30,468
( sighs )

783
00:54:34,204 --> 00:54:38,107
I have come to a decision
that will be shocking

784
00:54:38,108 --> 00:54:40,877
to anyone I used to relate to.

785
00:54:40,878 --> 00:54:42,746
♪♪

786
00:54:42,747 --> 00:54:47,417
The presence of God
has grown strong in my life.

787
00:54:47,418 --> 00:54:50,720
He told me that my panic attacks

788
00:54:50,721 --> 00:54:55,124
were caused by my shallow,
sinful lifestyle.

789
00:54:55,125 --> 00:54:56,793
( sighs )

790
00:54:56,794 --> 00:55:01,798
I've come to the realization
that identifying as gay

791
00:55:01,799 --> 00:55:05,802
prevents you from finding
your true self within.

792
00:55:05,803 --> 00:55:08,338
And we must be our true selves

793
00:55:08,339 --> 00:55:11,342
in order to join God in his kingdom.

794
00:55:12,710 --> 00:55:16,245
Therefore, I, Michael Glatze,

795
00:55:16,246 --> 00:55:19,083
no longer identify as gay.

796
00:55:24,121 --> 00:55:25,390
( sighs )

797
00:55:59,189 --> 00:56:00,124
( sighs )

798
00:56:04,662 --> 00:56:07,196
( knuckles crack )

799
00:56:07,197 --> 00:56:09,133
( indistinct chatter )

800
00:56:28,886 --> 00:56:30,154
( sighs )

801
00:56:47,838 --> 00:56:48,773
( dings )

802
00:56:53,210 --> 00:56:54,144
( dings )

803
00:57:07,291 --> 00:57:09,059
♪♪

804
00:57:33,250 --> 00:57:35,218
Why did you do it?

805
00:57:35,219 --> 00:57:37,154
( sighs )

806
00:57:38,756 --> 00:57:41,390
"Gay activist goes straight"?

807
00:57:41,391 --> 00:57:44,528
You gave the anti-gay right
the story of their dreams.

808
00:57:44,529 --> 00:57:46,395
I don't know why.

809
00:57:46,396 --> 00:57:48,397
I don't know.

810
00:57:48,398 --> 00:57:50,133
Who pushed you?

811
00:57:50,134 --> 00:57:51,635
No one.

812
00:57:51,636 --> 00:57:54,504
I just wanted to tell my story.

813
00:57:54,505 --> 00:57:56,640
Look, I think this all happened

814
00:57:56,641 --> 00:57:58,908
because God needed to teach me a lesson.

815
00:57:58,909 --> 00:58:02,479
That's why I'm here, to make it better.

816
00:58:06,984 --> 00:58:08,451
♪♪

817
00:58:08,452 --> 00:58:11,521
Meditation is a way of slowing down

818
00:58:11,522 --> 00:58:15,058
and developing kindness
towards yourself.

819
00:58:15,059 --> 00:58:20,597
Through mindfulness practice,
we develop strength of mind.

820
00:58:20,598 --> 00:58:22,932
We become more present

821
00:58:22,933 --> 00:58:26,070
and we learn to appreciate our world.

822
00:58:31,475 --> 00:58:34,978
God works in mysterious ways.

823
00:58:34,979 --> 00:58:36,980
He has sent me to a place

824
00:58:36,981 --> 00:58:39,783
where I can get away
from the physical world

825
00:58:39,784 --> 00:58:42,652
so that I can focus on my true self...

826
00:58:42,653 --> 00:58:45,655
A happier, healthier man,

827
00:58:45,656 --> 00:58:48,292
free of unnatural desires.

828
00:58:52,697 --> 00:58:53,831
( indistinct chatter )

829
00:58:56,466 --> 00:59:00,837
At first, I didn't understand
why God would send a Christian

830
00:59:00,838 --> 00:59:03,707
to a Buddhist retreat.

831
00:59:03,708 --> 00:59:06,711
But I have faith in his plan for me.

832
00:59:12,883 --> 00:59:13,850
♪♪

833
00:59:13,851 --> 00:59:15,852
Desire is powerful.

834
00:59:15,853 --> 00:59:19,222
And God is testing me.

835
00:59:19,223 --> 00:59:23,728
But I refuse to give in to temptation.

836
00:59:29,033 --> 00:59:30,900
I've come to the realization

837
00:59:30,901 --> 00:59:33,903
that God wants me to use meditation

838
00:59:33,904 --> 00:59:37,908
to rid myself of abnormal desires.

839
00:59:39,009 --> 00:59:42,278
God gave Buddha the light to be Buddha.

840
00:59:42,279 --> 00:59:43,346
He did.

841
00:59:43,347 --> 00:59:45,882
Michael, what are you talking about?

842
00:59:45,883 --> 00:59:50,553
I just want us to be on the
right path for our future,

843
00:59:50,554 --> 00:59:53,356
for our health, for the afterlife.

844
00:59:53,357 --> 00:59:57,326
I am on the right path, okay?
My path.

845
00:59:57,327 --> 00:59:59,263
♪♪

846
01:00:07,071 --> 01:00:09,206
Michael, I...
I'm sorry.

847
01:00:11,909 --> 01:00:13,744
I'm sorry, Nico.

848
01:00:32,763 --> 01:00:34,063
MICHAEL:
It's the same kind of strength

849
01:00:34,064 --> 01:00:37,200
that you need
to-to clear your mind.

850
01:00:37,201 --> 01:00:41,037
You know, we just, we need
to find that strength

851
01:00:41,038 --> 01:00:45,474
to fight what we both know
in our hearts is wrong.

852
01:00:45,475 --> 01:00:46,776
We just have to fight it.

853
01:00:46,777 --> 01:00:48,377
Stop, Michael. Stop.

854
01:00:48,378 --> 01:00:50,247
No, I mean...

855
01:00:59,456 --> 01:01:01,124
Michael, you're confused.

856
01:01:01,125 --> 01:01:04,895
You're very confused
and it's at my expense.

857
01:01:07,464 --> 01:01:08,398
( engine starts )

858
01:01:13,203 --> 01:01:15,139
♪♪

859
01:01:16,974 --> 01:01:19,109
( van drives away )

860
01:01:30,487 --> 01:01:31,821
( sighs )

861
01:01:31,822 --> 01:01:34,490
People have been asking how I am.

862
01:01:34,491 --> 01:01:36,826
Some out of support.

863
01:01:36,827 --> 01:01:39,628
Others who think I've reconsidered.

864
01:01:39,629 --> 01:01:44,433
I've come to the realization
that Bennett represents soul,

865
01:01:44,434 --> 01:01:49,572
Tyler represents body,
Nico represents mind.

866
01:01:49,573 --> 01:01:53,242
Father, Son, Holy Ghost.

867
01:01:53,243 --> 01:01:55,945
I guess God need me
to complete the Trinity

868
01:01:55,946 --> 01:01:58,948
in order to move on.

869
01:01:58,949 --> 01:02:01,117
So I'm ready to set the record straight.

870
01:02:01,118 --> 01:02:05,822
I was a heterosexual person
with a homosexual problem,

871
01:02:05,823 --> 01:02:08,157
and I took care of that problem.

872
01:02:08,158 --> 01:02:11,061
I have not reconsidered.

873
01:02:12,196 --> 01:02:15,564
A good number of people
have come forward

874
01:02:15,565 --> 01:02:17,066
and expressed their concern

875
01:02:17,067 --> 01:02:19,068
about your being involved
with this organization.

876
01:02:19,069 --> 01:02:22,438
This center is supposed
to accept everyone.

877
01:02:22,439 --> 01:02:24,240
Yes, and we do.

878
01:02:24,241 --> 01:02:26,575
We welcome people of all beliefs,

879
01:02:26,576 --> 01:02:29,445
but we don't tolerate hate.

880
01:02:29,446 --> 01:02:32,248
I don't hate anybody.

881
01:02:32,249 --> 01:02:36,452
Michael, you've written what some
would call very hateful things.

882
01:02:36,453 --> 01:02:39,957
Those are my beliefs.

883
01:02:41,258 --> 01:02:42,758
Are you okay?

884
01:02:42,759 --> 01:02:44,760
Yeah.

885
01:02:44,761 --> 01:02:47,630
Are you okay?

886
01:02:47,631 --> 01:02:49,332
( sighs )

887
01:02:49,333 --> 01:02:50,566
I don't know...

888
01:02:50,567 --> 01:02:54,770
I don't understand
what has changed, but I, uh...

889
01:02:54,771 --> 01:02:57,573
Here we practice compassion.

890
01:02:57,574 --> 01:03:02,245
And I'm just, I'm afraid
this isn't gonna work out.

891
01:03:02,246 --> 01:03:07,316
So, because I'm Christian
and I express my opinions...

892
01:03:07,317 --> 01:03:09,819
I have to leave.

893
01:03:09,820 --> 01:03:13,423
That's so messed up.

894
01:03:25,702 --> 01:03:27,471
♪♪

895
01:03:50,727 --> 01:03:52,395
LAURA: That's really everything?

896
01:03:52,396 --> 01:03:54,931
Your whole life is in that one bag?

897
01:03:54,932 --> 01:03:57,267
MICHAEL: Yeah.

898
01:04:00,437 --> 01:04:02,939
Do you think you'll stay here?

899
01:04:02,940 --> 01:04:08,477
I mean, San Francisco can't
be the best place for an...

900
01:04:08,478 --> 01:04:10,279
ex-gay.

901
01:04:10,280 --> 01:04:16,252
I'm not an ex-gay.
I'm just me.

902
01:04:16,253 --> 01:04:19,255
Honestly, I thought you'd be happy.

903
01:04:19,256 --> 01:04:21,457
I mean, you never really approved.

904
01:04:21,458 --> 01:04:23,259
That's not true.

905
01:04:23,260 --> 01:04:26,795
Then why haven't we been close?

906
01:04:26,796 --> 01:04:28,597
I mean, you're my sister.

907
01:04:28,598 --> 01:04:31,601
We're supposed to be there
for each other.

908
01:04:33,170 --> 01:04:36,039
We can be close now.

909
01:04:36,040 --> 01:04:38,374
I'm glad you're here.

910
01:04:38,375 --> 01:04:44,381
And I want you to be happy...
Loving whomever.

911
01:04:45,849 --> 01:04:46,849
Yeah?

912
01:04:46,850 --> 01:04:48,551
Yeah.

913
01:04:48,552 --> 01:04:51,021
( exhales deeply )

914
01:04:54,224 --> 01:04:56,160
♪♪

915
01:05:46,676 --> 01:05:48,677
♪♪

916
01:05:48,678 --> 01:05:51,148
( indistinct chatter )

917
01:06:15,939 --> 01:06:17,074
( chuckles )

918
01:06:33,957 --> 01:06:35,958
I'm sorry.

919
01:06:35,959 --> 01:06:37,293
No, I can't.
What?

920
01:06:37,294 --> 01:06:39,295
No, I'm sorry. Uh...

921
01:06:39,296 --> 01:06:41,797
What happened?
I can't. Um...

922
01:06:41,798 --> 01:06:45,135
It's not you, it's...
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

923
01:06:47,671 --> 01:06:49,338
( door opens )

924
01:06:49,339 --> 01:06:52,276
♪♪

925
01:06:55,045 --> 01:06:57,181
( indistinct chatter )

926
01:07:21,004 --> 01:07:22,139
( phone beeps )

927
01:07:25,008 --> 01:07:26,310
( ringing )

928
01:07:30,080 --> 01:07:31,747
( ringing )

929
01:07:31,748 --> 01:07:36,086
Olly, it's okay.
It's okay. It's okay.

930
01:07:42,159 --> 01:07:43,460
BENNETT: Hello?

931
01:07:46,963 --> 01:07:50,100
( panting )

932
01:07:51,868 --> 01:07:53,736
Michael?

933
01:07:53,737 --> 01:07:55,672
MICHAEL: Bennett.

934
01:07:58,575 --> 01:07:59,742
( sighs )

935
01:07:59,743 --> 01:08:01,311
Where are you?

936
01:08:02,379 --> 01:08:03,847
Are you okay?

937
01:08:07,217 --> 01:08:08,217
Michael?

938
01:08:08,218 --> 01:08:10,219
I have to go.

939
01:08:10,220 --> 01:08:12,689
Wait, why did you call me, Michael?

940
01:08:15,625 --> 01:08:17,261
( scoffs )

941
01:08:21,931 --> 01:08:23,732
( sighs )

942
01:08:23,733 --> 01:08:27,936
To my friends who are trapped
in homosexuality,

943
01:08:27,937 --> 01:08:30,573
I wanna thank you for your kind comments

944
01:08:30,574 --> 01:08:34,009
and keen observations regarding my story

945
01:08:34,010 --> 01:08:38,381
and my revelation that
I am no longer homosexual

946
01:08:38,382 --> 01:08:40,716
and am now heterosexual.

947
01:08:40,717 --> 01:08:45,421
The gay identity has been
packaged and fed to you,

948
01:08:45,422 --> 01:08:49,592
and if you identify as gay
then you have eaten it,

949
01:08:49,593 --> 01:08:52,127
preventing you from further growth

950
01:08:52,128 --> 01:08:55,030
and understanding of your true self.

951
01:08:55,031 --> 01:08:58,934
But it's not too late to save yourself.

952
01:08:58,935 --> 01:09:01,437
If you follow my lead.

953
01:09:01,438 --> 01:09:05,974
I am confident.
I am blessed.

954
01:09:05,975 --> 01:09:07,943
I am strong.

955
01:09:07,944 --> 01:09:13,148
I am ready to give up my life for Christ

956
01:09:13,149 --> 01:09:16,620
in order to find my true self.

957
01:09:22,659 --> 01:09:23,693
( sighs )

958
01:09:28,865 --> 01:09:30,800
( birds chirping )

959
01:10:09,706 --> 01:10:10,974
( sighs )

960
01:10:25,522 --> 01:10:27,690
You sure you don't want a coffee?

961
01:10:27,691 --> 01:10:30,627
I don't drink coffee anymore.

962
01:10:35,899 --> 01:10:37,232
You're well?

963
01:10:37,233 --> 01:10:39,101
Yeah. Why?

964
01:10:39,102 --> 01:10:41,605
Just asking.

965
01:10:42,706 --> 01:10:47,844
I'm great.
I've never been better.

966
01:10:50,547 --> 01:10:53,550
Well, I just wanted to see
how you're doing.

967
01:10:55,752 --> 01:10:57,854
So does Bennett.

968
01:10:58,922 --> 01:11:00,356
Hmm.

969
01:11:00,357 --> 01:11:02,859
I wish I could understand
what you're going through.

970
01:11:05,395 --> 01:11:08,331
I just don't want to be perceived as gay

971
01:11:08,332 --> 01:11:11,099
for the rest of my experiences.

972
01:11:11,100 --> 01:11:13,803
It's that simple.

973
01:11:16,406 --> 01:11:19,542
Are you still with Bennett?

974
01:11:19,543 --> 01:11:21,143
No.

975
01:11:21,144 --> 01:11:27,350
I'm, uh, going to Europe
to study space science.

976
01:11:27,351 --> 01:11:29,385
That's great.

977
01:11:29,386 --> 01:11:31,554
I'm going to Bible school.

978
01:11:31,555 --> 01:11:34,023
God told me to become a pastor.

979
01:11:43,900 --> 01:11:48,070
I don't want to open
old wounds or anything,

980
01:11:48,071 --> 01:11:53,943
but I also don't know when
I'll ever see you again.

981
01:11:55,912 --> 01:11:58,415
I want you to know
how much you meant to me.

982
01:12:04,788 --> 01:12:08,491
I know you don't care anymore.

983
01:12:08,492 --> 01:12:12,027
But I needed to say it.

984
01:12:12,028 --> 01:12:15,030
For closure.

985
01:12:15,031 --> 01:12:17,165
( sighs )

986
01:12:17,166 --> 01:12:19,468
( sniffles )

987
01:12:19,469 --> 01:12:22,204
This whole thing...

988
01:12:22,205 --> 01:12:25,509
it broke my heart.

989
01:12:27,310 --> 01:12:29,845
Tyler...

990
01:12:29,846 --> 01:12:33,516
I'm sorry.

991
01:12:33,517 --> 01:12:36,786
But I need to live for myself now.

992
01:12:40,023 --> 01:12:40,957
Okay.

993
01:12:46,262 --> 01:12:47,397
Okay.

994
01:12:49,165 --> 01:12:50,467
Take care.

995
01:12:57,874 --> 01:13:00,810
( sighs )

996
01:13:10,420 --> 01:13:12,556
( birds chirping )

997
01:13:41,017 --> 01:13:44,319
MAN: Now, sometimes somebody's
gonna ask you what you believe.

998
01:13:44,320 --> 01:13:46,555
They're gonna say, "You're a Christian,

999
01:13:46,556 --> 01:13:48,724
all right,
what do you believe?"

1000
01:13:48,725 --> 01:13:52,728
Maybe they're an atheist
or a agnostic or a Muslim

1001
01:13:52,729 --> 01:13:55,931
or a Buddha, you know,
who knows what they are?

1002
01:13:55,932 --> 01:13:58,934
And you better be ready to tell 'em.

1003
01:13:58,935 --> 01:14:02,104
We believe the Bible is the Word of God,

1004
01:14:02,105 --> 01:14:07,843
the supreme, final authority
in life and in our faith.

1005
01:14:07,844 --> 01:14:11,179
We believe in one God,

1006
01:14:11,180 --> 01:14:14,182
eternally existing in three persons,

1007
01:14:14,183 --> 01:14:16,752
the Father, the Son,
and the Holy Spirit.

1008
01:14:16,753 --> 01:14:20,288
And we believe the sole condition

1009
01:14:20,289 --> 01:14:23,091
for receiving everlasting life

1010
01:14:23,092 --> 01:14:29,933
is belief and faith alone
in the Lord Jesus Christ.

1011
01:14:32,435 --> 01:14:34,571
♪♪

1012
01:15:07,604 --> 01:15:10,206
( indistinct chatter )

1013
01:15:15,178 --> 01:15:16,111
Thank you.

1014
01:15:16,112 --> 01:15:17,947
I'll have one of those, please.

1015
01:15:31,661 --> 01:15:32,828
Hi, I'm Michael.

1016
01:15:32,829 --> 01:15:35,131
Uh, hi, I'm Rebekah.

1017
01:15:37,133 --> 01:15:40,335
( chuckles ) Guess we
like all the same things.

1018
01:15:40,336 --> 01:15:41,638
( chuckles )

1019
01:15:42,672 --> 01:15:44,840
I love it here.

1020
01:15:44,841 --> 01:15:47,009
I mean, I never though
I'd end up in Wyoming,

1021
01:15:47,010 --> 01:15:50,746
but I feel like I've
finally found my niche.

1022
01:15:50,747 --> 01:15:52,982
Where'd you think you'd end up?

1023
01:15:55,151 --> 01:15:58,020
That's a good question.
I don't know.

1024
01:15:58,021 --> 01:16:01,657
All I know is that I've
always wanted to help people,

1025
01:16:01,658 --> 01:16:05,594
because some people struggle so much

1026
01:16:05,595 --> 01:16:08,964
when the solution
is actually very simple.

1027
01:16:08,965 --> 01:16:11,466
It's right there in Matthew 10,

1028
01:16:11,467 --> 01:16:15,704
the road may not be easy,
but if we give up our lives

1029
01:16:15,705 --> 01:16:21,210
for Christ, then we'll find
our true selves.

1030
01:16:28,384 --> 01:16:30,552
Where did you go to college?

1031
01:16:30,553 --> 01:16:31,920
Dartmouth.

1032
01:16:31,921 --> 01:16:33,255
Wow.

1033
01:16:33,256 --> 01:16:35,090
And you majored in music?

1034
01:16:35,091 --> 01:16:38,260
In creative writing
and English literature,

1035
01:16:38,261 --> 01:16:41,797
but I minored in music
theory and composition.

1036
01:16:41,798 --> 01:16:45,500
( chuckles )
That must've kept you busy.

1037
01:16:45,501 --> 01:16:47,469
What kind of stuff did you write?

1038
01:16:47,470 --> 01:16:51,674
Well, my thesis
was all poetry, actually.

1039
01:16:51,675 --> 01:16:54,542
Can I read some?

1040
01:16:54,543 --> 01:16:56,344
Oh, I don't have it anymore.

1041
01:16:56,345 --> 01:17:00,248
My poetry is from a different life.

1042
01:17:00,249 --> 01:17:01,850
But I, um...

1043
01:17:01,851 --> 01:17:06,722
I'm so interested in music now
because it transcends language.

1044
01:17:06,723 --> 01:17:10,258
You know, it's like people
don't have to argue about it

1045
01:17:10,259 --> 01:17:12,460
or judge it or misinterpret it.

1046
01:17:12,461 --> 01:17:14,262
They can just listen.

1047
01:17:14,263 --> 01:17:17,199
You know, I just play
and they just listen.

1048
01:17:17,200 --> 01:17:18,333
You know?

1049
01:17:18,334 --> 01:17:20,635
I don't know if I do, to be honest,

1050
01:17:20,636 --> 01:17:23,972
but the way you say it, I want to.

1051
01:17:23,973 --> 01:17:26,308
I'm sorry, I'm just blabbing.
What about you?

1052
01:17:26,309 --> 01:17:29,912
No, don't be sorry!
You're not blabbing. Um...

1053
01:17:29,913 --> 01:17:31,613
I majored in theater.

1054
01:17:31,614 --> 01:17:33,415
Theater? Really?
Yeah.

1055
01:17:33,416 --> 01:17:37,953
Yeah, it was really fun, but
it's not like it's a real job.

1056
01:17:37,954 --> 01:17:41,123
I actually stage managed
a little bit after college,

1057
01:17:41,124 --> 01:17:45,127
but I don't know, I felt adrift.

1058
01:17:45,128 --> 01:17:50,198
So I came here,
hoping to figure out my path.

1059
01:17:50,199 --> 01:17:52,534
Me, too.

1060
01:17:52,535 --> 01:17:54,670
♪♪

1061
01:17:57,807 --> 01:17:58,942
( dings )

1062
01:18:06,349 --> 01:18:08,284
( typing )

1063
01:18:15,825 --> 01:18:16,960
( dings )

1064
01:18:26,269 --> 01:18:27,203
( dings )

1065
01:18:34,510 --> 01:18:37,013
( sighs )

1066
01:18:40,116 --> 01:18:43,085
♪♪

1067
01:18:43,086 --> 01:18:45,420
I can't believe you've never had sushi.

1068
01:18:45,421 --> 01:18:48,423
Who hasn't had sushi?
It's crazy.

1069
01:18:48,424 --> 01:18:50,425
Mm.

1070
01:18:50,426 --> 01:18:51,659
Oh, no.

1071
01:18:51,660 --> 01:18:52,660
( laughs )

1072
01:18:52,661 --> 01:18:53,661
You don't like it.

1073
01:18:53,662 --> 01:18:54,662
I'm sorry.

1074
01:18:54,663 --> 01:18:56,932
Oh, I'm so sorry.

1075
01:18:56,933 --> 01:18:58,934
Oh...
I'm sorry.

1076
01:18:58,935 --> 01:19:01,804
No, I used to hate it
when my ex did that.

1077
01:19:01,805 --> 01:19:04,139
Always making decisions.

1078
01:19:04,140 --> 01:19:06,775
We can go somewhere else.
No.

1079
01:19:06,776 --> 01:19:08,643
No, no, no.
No, it's okay.

1080
01:19:08,644 --> 01:19:09,978
Are you sure?

1081
01:19:09,979 --> 01:19:13,982
Yes. Yeah.
You like it. It's fine.

1082
01:19:13,983 --> 01:19:16,119
( chuckles )

1083
01:19:17,887 --> 01:19:23,558
Uh, how, um, how long ago
was the ex you mentioned?

1084
01:19:23,559 --> 01:19:27,029
Oh. It was a long time ago.
It was, uh...

1085
01:19:27,030 --> 01:19:29,031
I don't know why I brought that up.

1086
01:19:29,032 --> 01:19:30,899
It was stupid.

1087
01:19:30,900 --> 01:19:33,601
Well, um, was it serious?

1088
01:19:33,602 --> 01:19:36,039
Were you gonna marry her?

1089
01:19:38,074 --> 01:19:42,545
It was serious,
but, um, no, not marriage.

1090
01:19:44,580 --> 01:19:46,915
What about you?

1091
01:19:46,916 --> 01:19:48,884
Oh, no, I've...

1092
01:19:48,885 --> 01:19:51,386
I've never been in
a serious relationship.

1093
01:19:51,387 --> 01:19:56,258
My parents are very, very conservative.

1094
01:19:56,259 --> 01:19:58,593
Do you think they'd approve of me?

1095
01:19:58,594 --> 01:20:02,297
( chuckles ) The future pastor
I met at Bible school?

1096
01:20:02,298 --> 01:20:04,867
Yes, I think they'd approve.

1097
01:20:04,868 --> 01:20:06,870
( both chuckle )

1098
01:20:13,476 --> 01:20:15,411
♪♪

1099
01:20:24,320 --> 01:20:25,254
( chuckles )

1100
01:20:28,324 --> 01:20:29,258
( chuckles )

1101
01:20:30,860 --> 01:20:32,996
♪♪

1102
01:20:40,970 --> 01:20:42,205
Rebekah.

1103
01:20:43,272 --> 01:20:44,272
Hi.

1104
01:20:44,273 --> 01:20:46,275
Hi.

1105
01:20:47,643 --> 01:20:49,611
What?

1106
01:20:49,612 --> 01:20:51,413
I just...

1107
01:20:51,414 --> 01:20:54,582
Since when do you wear shirts like that?

1108
01:20:54,583 --> 01:20:58,586
What? It's not inappropriate
and it's hot out.

1109
01:20:58,587 --> 01:21:03,326
You're here to serve our Lord,
not distract our men.

1110
01:21:04,560 --> 01:21:08,096
I don't think I'm distracting anyone.

1111
01:21:08,097 --> 01:21:10,265
Is this about Michael?

1112
01:21:10,266 --> 01:21:14,269
We are not letting what we have
get in the way of our studies.

1113
01:21:14,270 --> 01:21:17,206
Besides, the Lord brought us together.

1114
01:21:18,141 --> 01:21:20,675
It's about his past.

1115
01:21:20,676 --> 01:21:22,145
What about it?

1116
01:21:23,679 --> 01:21:26,115
You really don't know?

1117
01:21:27,550 --> 01:21:29,952
( chuckles ) Know what?

1118
01:21:29,953 --> 01:21:32,088
( typing )

1119
01:21:38,427 --> 01:21:41,230
( sighs )

1120
01:21:50,873 --> 01:21:52,040
( whispering ) Rebekah.

1121
01:21:52,041 --> 01:21:53,608
( whispering ) Oh. Hi.

1122
01:21:53,609 --> 01:21:55,543
( whispering )
Are we still meeting?

1123
01:21:55,544 --> 01:21:58,880
( whispering ) Yeah, just let me
finish this. I'll be right there.

1124
01:21:58,881 --> 01:22:01,950
( whispering ) Okay.
I'll be in the cafeteria.

1125
01:22:01,951 --> 01:22:03,419
( whispering ) Okay.

1126
01:22:05,888 --> 01:22:07,523
( sighs )

1127
01:22:11,894 --> 01:22:13,229
( sighs )

1128
01:22:23,239 --> 01:22:25,541
I have something I have to tell you.

1129
01:22:29,745 --> 01:22:32,081
You already know, don't you?

1130
01:22:36,085 --> 01:22:38,753
Are you still attracted to men?

1131
01:22:38,754 --> 01:22:41,156
No.

1132
01:22:41,157 --> 01:22:44,359
It's in the past.

1133
01:22:44,360 --> 01:22:45,693
Okay, I...

1134
01:22:45,694 --> 01:22:47,195
God showed me the light.

1135
01:22:47,196 --> 01:22:49,697
He showed me the truth.

1136
01:22:49,698 --> 01:22:53,768
A lot of people have pasts
they're not proud of,

1137
01:22:53,769 --> 01:22:57,506
but God forgives, right?

1138
01:22:59,108 --> 01:23:02,444
My life has changed so much
since I've met you.

1139
01:23:02,445 --> 01:23:05,613
And my feelings for you are real.

1140
01:23:05,614 --> 01:23:10,118
My feelings for you are real, too.

1141
01:23:10,119 --> 01:23:16,124
But I feel like we should just keep
hanging out and see what happens.

1142
01:23:16,125 --> 01:23:20,128
Maybe not settle on
anything too specific.

1143
01:23:20,129 --> 01:23:22,398
If that's okay.

1144
01:23:23,799 --> 01:23:25,734
Okay.

1145
01:23:37,680 --> 01:23:39,181
( exhales deeply )

1146
01:23:39,182 --> 01:23:40,649
( footsteps approaching )

1147
01:23:52,995 --> 01:23:56,199
Hi, I'm Michael.

1148
01:24:08,611 --> 01:24:10,546
♪♪

1149
01:24:31,667 --> 01:24:37,539
Now, I wanna tell you a little secret

1150
01:24:37,540 --> 01:24:41,810
about a great gift from God.

1151
01:24:43,379 --> 01:24:45,713
This gift is a human emotion

1152
01:24:45,714 --> 01:24:49,852
and considered destructive
by the enemies of God.

1153
01:24:54,223 --> 01:24:56,224
Fear.

1154
01:24:56,225 --> 01:25:01,929
You can never, never, never stop

1155
01:25:01,930 --> 01:25:04,966
fearing yourself.

1156
01:25:04,967 --> 01:25:09,637
We are our own worst enemies.

1157
01:25:09,638 --> 01:25:15,644
And we must fear ourselves till
the day we meet God himself.

1158
01:25:17,613 --> 01:25:22,817
God didn't put us here to live
our lives in constant fear.

1159
01:25:22,818 --> 01:25:24,152
No, of course not.

1160
01:25:24,153 --> 01:25:28,022
And then he scolded me
for asking questions.

1161
01:25:28,023 --> 01:25:29,224
REBEKAH:
Well, that's not fair.

1162
01:25:29,225 --> 01:25:30,425
We're here to learn

1163
01:25:30,426 --> 01:25:31,826
and we learn in part
by asking questions.

1164
01:25:31,827 --> 01:25:35,397
No, we're here to serve God,
not to identify

1165
01:25:35,398 --> 01:25:39,402
as the exact kind of Christians
they want us to be.

1166
01:25:40,936 --> 01:25:42,370
I'm sorry.

1167
01:25:42,371 --> 01:25:44,172
REBEKAH: Don't be.

1168
01:25:44,173 --> 01:25:48,177
You know what's best because
that's God speaking through you.

1169
01:25:55,284 --> 01:25:57,753
You wanted to see me?

1170
01:25:59,455 --> 01:26:02,257
Now, you've been rallying
the students against us

1171
01:26:02,258 --> 01:26:05,828
as though you're being
controlled by the devil himself.

1172
01:26:08,464 --> 01:26:11,466
I've learned a lot about the Bible here,

1173
01:26:11,467 --> 01:26:13,468
and for that I thank you.

1174
01:26:13,469 --> 01:26:19,073
But I refuse to be controlled
by anyone other than God.

1175
01:26:19,074 --> 01:26:20,875
I follow my own path.

1176
01:26:20,876 --> 01:26:23,546
Yeah, and you want others to follow you.

1177
01:26:25,481 --> 01:26:27,982
Perhaps it's best
if we mail you your diploma

1178
01:26:27,983 --> 01:26:30,819
and that you not attend the ceremony.

1179
01:26:36,325 --> 01:26:39,026
I don't know if I can stay here anymore.

1180
01:26:39,027 --> 01:26:40,963
Oh. Where will we go?

1181
01:26:42,998 --> 01:26:44,467
We?

1182
01:26:46,502 --> 01:26:50,838
Uh, I've been praying about it.

1183
01:26:50,839 --> 01:26:54,108
About us.

1184
01:26:54,109 --> 01:27:00,848
I told God how I feel about you
and how much you mean to me.

1185
01:27:00,849 --> 01:27:02,717
And you know what?

1186
01:27:02,718 --> 01:27:05,219
( sighs )

1187
01:27:05,220 --> 01:27:08,323
I was consumed with nothing but peace.

1188
01:27:08,324 --> 01:27:11,693
Pure peace.

1189
01:27:11,694 --> 01:27:14,862
( sighs )

1190
01:27:14,863 --> 01:27:17,265
I love you.

1191
01:27:17,266 --> 01:27:19,402
I love you, too.

1192
01:27:53,235 --> 01:27:55,737
And be not conformed to this world.

1193
01:27:55,738 --> 01:27:59,741
But be you transformed
by the renewing of your mind,

1194
01:27:59,742 --> 01:28:05,112
that you may prove that good, glorious,

1195
01:28:05,113 --> 01:28:07,982
and perfect will of God.

1196
01:28:07,983 --> 01:28:09,784
( sighs )

1197
01:28:09,785 --> 01:28:13,488
That you may know that good, acceptable,

1198
01:28:13,489 --> 01:28:15,624
and perfect will of God.

1199
01:28:23,298 --> 01:28:25,434
♪♪

1200
01:28:45,921 --> 01:28:52,326
PAUL: Which would you prefer to have?
Frosted Flakes or Fruit Loops?

1201
01:28:52,327 --> 01:28:54,028
Well, obviously Fruit Loops.

1202
01:28:54,029 --> 01:28:55,497
Why? Why obviously?

1203
01:28:55,498 --> 01:28:57,500
Well, you're a Fruit Loop.

1204
01:29:01,303 --> 01:29:05,107
( indistinct chatter )

1205
01:29:17,486 --> 01:29:19,353
There you are.

1206
01:29:19,354 --> 01:29:20,989
Are you okay?

1207
01:29:22,224 --> 01:29:24,527
Yeah, I'm fine.

1208
01:29:29,665 --> 01:29:31,032
Okay, got 'em.

1209
01:29:31,033 --> 01:29:31,967
( chuckles )

1210
01:29:34,503 --> 01:29:36,037
You get everything?

1211
01:29:36,038 --> 01:29:37,072
Mm-hmm.

1212
01:29:40,342 --> 01:29:42,845
ANTHONY:
These are going to storage.

1213
01:29:47,049 --> 01:29:47,983
( sighs )

1214
01:29:50,152 --> 01:29:53,521
Well, so you can have a little
more room for your shoes?

1215
01:29:53,522 --> 01:29:55,022
Shut up.

1216
01:29:55,023 --> 01:29:57,659
I have never seen anyone
with more shoes than you.

1217
01:29:57,660 --> 01:29:59,795
You can never have too many shoes.

1218
01:30:12,074 --> 01:30:13,709
Get those out of here.

1219
01:30:26,221 --> 01:30:28,691
( phone rings )

1220
01:30:33,228 --> 01:30:34,395
Hello?

1221
01:30:34,396 --> 01:30:35,698
MICHAEL: Hi.

1222
01:30:39,234 --> 01:30:40,468
( papers drop )

1223
01:30:40,469 --> 01:30:42,638
Hi.

1224
01:30:44,940 --> 01:30:46,273
How are you?

1225
01:30:46,274 --> 01:30:48,610
Good.

1226
01:30:48,611 --> 01:30:51,112
I finished school.

1227
01:30:51,113 --> 01:30:53,949
But I'm no longer on their path.

1228
01:30:55,751 --> 01:30:59,453
So what path are you on now?

1229
01:30:59,454 --> 01:31:01,355
My own.

1230
01:31:01,356 --> 01:31:04,560
I'm going to be the pastor
of my own church.

1231
01:31:08,263 --> 01:31:09,263
( sighs )

1232
01:31:09,264 --> 01:31:11,866
Why are you calling?

1233
01:31:11,867 --> 01:31:12,801
Um...

1234
01:31:14,436 --> 01:31:16,771
I, uh...

1235
01:31:16,772 --> 01:31:19,440
I got the picture you sent of Olly.

1236
01:31:19,441 --> 01:31:21,643
I know it was months ago,
but I didn't respond.

1237
01:31:21,644 --> 01:31:24,512
So how is she?

1238
01:31:24,513 --> 01:31:25,847
( sighs )

1239
01:31:25,848 --> 01:31:28,049
Oh, she's getting old.

1240
01:31:28,050 --> 01:31:29,316
But she's okay.

1241
01:31:29,317 --> 01:31:30,918
She has this

1242
01:31:30,919 --> 01:31:33,721
stuffed animal that she
carries around with her now

1243
01:31:33,722 --> 01:31:36,057
everywhere she goes like it's her baby.

1244
01:31:36,058 --> 01:31:37,324
( chuckles )

1245
01:31:37,325 --> 01:31:39,762
( chuckles )

1246
01:31:41,997 --> 01:31:43,798
Bennett...

1247
01:31:43,799 --> 01:31:47,334
I should tell you
before someone else does.

1248
01:31:47,335 --> 01:31:48,804
I'm engaged.

1249
01:31:50,005 --> 01:31:53,676
To a...
really amazing woman.

1250
01:31:55,110 --> 01:31:57,411
Now, I know what you're thinking because

1251
01:31:57,412 --> 01:31:59,847
I asked myself the same thing...

1252
01:31:59,848 --> 01:32:01,849
Am I really in love with her

1253
01:32:01,850 --> 01:32:06,353
or am I only doing this
to be right in God's eyes?

1254
01:32:06,354 --> 01:32:10,693
And I'm truly in love with her, Bennett.

1255
01:32:12,761 --> 01:32:15,930
God went to the root
of my same sex desires

1256
01:32:15,931 --> 01:32:17,932
and he uprooted them.

1257
01:32:17,933 --> 01:32:21,468
He demonstrated that they were abnormal.

1258
01:32:21,469 --> 01:32:22,937
Michael...

1259
01:32:22,938 --> 01:32:26,642
I'm really glad you think you're happy.

1260
01:32:28,844 --> 01:32:30,712
And I wish you all the best.

1261
01:32:30,713 --> 01:32:33,480
I really do.
I think you know that.

1262
01:32:33,481 --> 01:32:37,685
But I have no idea
why you would call me up

1263
01:32:37,686 --> 01:32:39,822
and use words like "abnormal."

1264
01:32:42,157 --> 01:32:46,360
I'm so sorry for the way
that things went down.

1265
01:32:46,361 --> 01:32:49,396
But just because we don't

1266
01:32:49,397 --> 01:32:51,032
share certain beliefs,

1267
01:32:51,033 --> 01:32:54,870
it doesn't mean that
we can't still be friends.

1268
01:32:57,873 --> 01:33:00,008
I'll always be your friend.

1269
01:33:02,544 --> 01:33:06,047
And I really hope that this path

1270
01:33:06,048 --> 01:33:08,350
takes you where you wanna go.

1271
01:33:10,318 --> 01:33:13,988
But I also hope that...

1272
01:33:13,989 --> 01:33:17,091
as you're setting out
to help other people...

1273
01:33:17,092 --> 01:33:20,595
that you really take some time
to help yourself.

1274
01:33:23,799 --> 01:33:27,301
I-I am. I...

1275
01:33:27,302 --> 01:33:30,838
I'm not gonna sit here
and say that I know

1276
01:33:30,839 --> 01:33:34,041
I'll be this way
for the rest of my life.

1277
01:33:34,042 --> 01:33:37,578
We're always changing, evolving.

1278
01:33:37,579 --> 01:33:40,248
And I'm open to that.

1279
01:33:43,418 --> 01:33:45,419
( sighs )

1280
01:33:45,420 --> 01:33:48,222
Then...

1281
01:33:48,223 --> 01:33:52,126
I guess nothing's really changed.

1282
01:33:52,127 --> 01:33:54,930
Yeah.

1283
01:33:56,131 --> 01:33:58,400
You take care of yourself, okay?

1284
01:34:01,436 --> 01:34:03,706
Goodbye, Michael.

1285
01:34:07,309 --> 01:34:08,442
Bye.

1286
01:34:08,443 --> 01:34:09,377
( phone beeps )

1287
01:34:13,315 --> 01:34:14,950
( sighs )

1288
01:34:27,996 --> 01:34:29,932
♪♪

1289
01:34:49,484 --> 01:34:50,953
( doors open )

1290
01:34:52,487 --> 01:34:53,755
( music stops )

1291
01:34:53,756 --> 01:34:55,757
REBEKAH: Here they come.

1292
01:34:55,758 --> 01:34:57,893
( footsteps approaching )

1293
01:35:01,363 --> 01:35:03,298
♪♪

1294
01:35:53,882 --> 01:35:56,018
( panting )

1295
01:36:06,528 --> 01:36:12,266
♪ Every finger in the room
is pointing at me ♪

1296
01:36:12,267 --> 01:36:15,136
♪ I wanna spit in their faces

1297
01:36:15,137 --> 01:36:18,005
♪ Then I get afraid
of what that could bring ♪

1298
01:36:18,006 --> 01:36:20,875
♪ I got a bowling ball in my stomach ♪

1299
01:36:20,876 --> 01:36:23,544
♪ I got a desert in my mouth

1300
01:36:23,545 --> 01:36:29,283
♪ Figures that my courage
would choose to sell out now ♪

1301
01:36:29,284 --> 01:36:34,822
♪ I've been looking for a savior
in these dirty streets ♪

1302
01:36:34,823 --> 01:36:40,561
♪ Looking for a savior
beneath these dirty sheets ♪

1303
01:36:40,562 --> 01:36:43,630
♪ I've been raising up my hands ♪

1304
01:36:43,631 --> 01:36:46,500
♪ Drive another nail in

1305
01:36:46,501 --> 01:36:49,136
♪ Just what God needs

1306
01:36:49,137 --> 01:36:52,006
♪ One more victim

1307
01:36:52,007 --> 01:36:57,744
♪ Why do we crucify ourselves?

1308
01:36:57,745 --> 01:37:00,614
♪ Every day

1309
01:37:00,615 --> 01:37:02,884
♪ I crucify myself

1310
01:37:02,885 --> 01:37:05,887
♪ Nothing I do is good enough for you ♪

1311
01:37:05,888 --> 01:37:08,622
♪ Crucify myself

1312
01:37:08,623 --> 01:37:11,458
♪ Every day

1313
01:37:11,459 --> 01:37:14,295
♪ I crucify myself

1314
01:37:14,296 --> 01:37:17,164
♪ My heart is sick of being

1315
01:37:17,165 --> 01:37:24,338
♪ I said my heart
is sick of being in chains ♪

1316
01:37:24,339 --> 01:37:25,772
♪ Oh, oh

1317
01:37:25,773 --> 01:37:29,843
♪ Chains

1318
01:37:29,844 --> 01:37:32,113
♪ Oh, oh

1319
01:37:32,114 --> 01:37:34,181
♪ Got a kick for a dog

1320
01:37:34,182 --> 01:37:37,251
♪ Beggin' for love ♪

1321
01:37:37,252 --> 01:37:40,121
♪ I gotta have my suffering

1322
01:37:40,122 --> 01:37:42,990
♪ So that I can have my cross

1323
01:37:42,991 --> 01:37:45,492
♪ I know a cat named Easter

1324
01:37:45,493 --> 01:37:48,495
♪ He says,
"Will you ever learn?" ♪

1325
01:37:48,496 --> 01:37:51,698
♪ You're just an empty cage, girl ♪

1326
01:37:51,699 --> 01:37:54,368
♪ If you kill the bird

1327
01:37:54,369 --> 01:38:00,541
♪ I've been looking for a savior
in these dirty streets ♪

1328
01:38:00,542 --> 01:38:05,913
♪ Looking for a savior
beneath these dirty sheets ♪

1329
01:38:05,914 --> 01:38:08,916
♪ I've been raising up my hands ♪

1330
01:38:08,917 --> 01:38:11,585
♪ Drive another nail in

1331
01:38:11,586 --> 01:38:17,124
♪ Got enough guilt
to start my own religion ♪

1332
01:38:17,125 --> 01:38:22,129
♪ Why do we crucify ourselves?

1333
01:38:22,130 --> 01:38:24,999
♪ Every day

1334
01:38:25,000 --> 01:38:28,002
♪ I crucify myself

1335
01:38:28,003 --> 01:38:31,172
♪ Nothing I do is good enough for you ♪

1336
01:38:31,173 --> 01:38:33,840
♪ Crucify myself

1337
01:38:33,841 --> 01:38:36,843
♪ Every day

1338
01:38:36,844 --> 01:38:39,413
♪ I crucify myself

1339
01:38:39,414 --> 01:38:42,283
♪ My heart is sick of being

1340
01:38:42,284 --> 01:38:49,456
♪ I said my heart
is sick of being in chains ♪

1341
01:38:49,457 --> 01:38:51,458
♪ Oh, oh

1342
01:38:51,459 --> 01:38:55,462
♪ Chains

1343
01:38:55,463 --> 01:38:57,464
♪ Oh, oh

1344
01:38:57,465 --> 01:39:03,470
♪ Please be

1345
01:39:03,471 --> 01:39:08,976
♪ Save me

1346
01:39:08,977 --> 01:39:16,084
♪ I cry

1347
01:39:17,085 --> 01:39:20,421
♪ Ah, ah

1348
01:39:20,422 --> 01:39:25,926
♪ Looking for a savior
in these dirty streets ♪

1349
01:39:25,927 --> 01:39:31,132
♪ Looking for a savior
beneath these dirty sheets ♪

1350
01:39:31,133 --> 01:39:34,135
♪ I've been raising up my hands ♪

1351
01:39:34,136 --> 01:39:36,803
♪ Drive another nail in

1352
01:39:36,804 --> 01:39:43,010
♪ Where are those angels
when you need them? ♪

1353
01:39:43,011 --> 01:39:47,548
♪ Why do we crucify ourselves?

1354
01:39:47,549 --> 01:39:50,617
♪ Every day

1355
01:39:50,618 --> 01:39:53,187
♪ I crucify myself

1356
01:39:53,188 --> 01:39:56,557
♪ And nothing I do
is good enough for you ♪

1357
01:39:56,558 --> 01:39:59,060
♪ Crucify myself

1358
01:39:59,061 --> 01:40:02,063
♪ Every day

1359
01:40:02,064 --> 01:40:04,931
♪ I crucify myself

1360
01:40:04,932 --> 01:40:07,734
♪ My heart is sick of being

1361
01:40:07,735 --> 01:40:14,908
♪ I said my heart
is sick of being in chains ♪

1362
01:40:14,909 --> 01:40:16,910
♪ Oh, oh

1363
01:40:16,911 --> 01:40:20,414
♪ Chains

1364
01:40:20,415 --> 01:40:26,953
♪ Why do we crucify ourselves?

1365
01:40:26,954 --> 01:40:29,656
♪ Every day

1366
01:40:29,657 --> 01:40:32,459
♪ Crucify ourselves

1367
01:40:32,460 --> 01:40:38,132
♪ Why do we crucify ourselves?

1368
01:40:38,133 --> 01:40:43,804
♪ Why do we crucify ourselves?

1369
01:40:43,805 --> 01:40:50,511
♪ Never going back again
to crucify myself again ♪

1370
01:40:50,512 --> 01:40:56,049
♪ You know never going
back again to crucify myself ♪

1371
01:40:56,050 --> 01:41:00,054
♪ Every day