I wanna show you something.
Unstable, and on the verge
of a complete meltdown.
That's the word from German environment Minister Matilda...
Holy shit, that smells good!
Oh, what happened?
You okay?
I think it's all right, I could use a band aid though.
It looked good, at least.
I guess we'll just have to make this salad night.
You sure, it's not Thursday, think you can handle it?
I can improvise.
Oh chaos, everything is chaos, I say.
Destruction and flames, and new torments,
and new tormented souls I see around me,
wherever I look and how so ever I turn,
and wherever I gaze.
Shh.
What's this?
Earthquake in Poland, I guess this nuclear
plant's about to blow.
Shit, now I feel like an ass.
As you should.
How was it?
Huh?
The lecture, how was it?
Peruse.
Very nice, your turn.
Hmm, it was what it was, I didn't learn much.
You don't need to learn anything,
you know it all all ready.
Ouch.
No, oh, shit, that's not what I mean.
Uh huh.
No, really.
Yup.
I just mean you're smart.
Sure.
That's not what I...
But that's not what...
Stop, you know what I meant.
Tell me again how smart I am.
Why don't you shut up and grab me
a boiled egg from the fridge, smart guy.
Do you want an avocado?
Hey, will you turn that off for a second.
What's wrong?
Nothing, nothing is wrong, at least I hope not.
All my life, I've looked at words as though
seeing them for the first time.
I rehearsed this in my head all day.
Oh, damn it, I had this all figured out in the car.
Uh, here.
Doubt thou the stars of fire, doubt that the sun does move,
doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt my love.
Calliope Garrard, will you marry me?
I know it's not much, I wanted to get something bigger.
Cali, look at me.
I'm here.
Oh, you're awake, how are we feeling?
She needs water.
Looks like we have had quite a night,
haven't we Calliope?
You wanna tell me what you remember?
I just came home.
Mmm hmm.
And I cut my finger.
And?
Doubt the stars of fire, did you propose to me?
So, was it a stroke or something?
Well, Calliope experienced what we call a tonic clonic
event, or what was referred to as a grand Mal seizure
back in the middle ages.
It can be triggered by a number of things,
stress, malnutrition, flashing lights,
were you watching television when this happened?
Uh, yeah.
Yeah, okay, tell me, can you remember having
any strange feelings the moments preceding?
Dizziness maybe, or a strong surge of emotions,
altered vision, hearing, strange smells,
overwhelming sense of deja vu, anything like that?
I don't remember.
Okay, well the seizure appears to have been idiopathic.
What does that mean?
It's a fancy word for we don't know.
Now, is this the first time it's happened to you?
I don't...
I think, when I lived with Billy, or maybe before.
Billy?
And how long ago was that?
I don't know, maybe 10 years ago, nine.
Who's Billy?
Was it just the one time?
I was eighteen.
I don't, I don't...
Okay, well listen, I want you to relax,
I'm gonna come back in and check on you in a little bit.
We're gonna keep you overnight and run some tests, okay?
Sure, okay.
Who's Billy?
Hey, you wanna know why they call me dead Billy?
It was '67, '68 maybe, before the Ted offensive.
They sent us into this village, north of...
Everyone there was Cong, they said.
There was this black guy, called him big Charles,
huge motherfucker, but a sweetheart, you know.
Big Charles sees this girl, maybe seven or eight,
sitting in a road, out in front of the huts.
She's crying, he has a candy bar or something in his pack,
so he goes to her, to give her the candy,
and she jumps up, throws something, grenade maybe,
something, and Big Charles catches it one handed,
and turns his big dumb eyes to me,
and next thing I know I'm on my back,
wearing his guts as a fucking necklace.
I was standing five, 10 feet away maybe,
and I didn't have a scratch on me.
So everyone says later, Jesus Christ Billy,
you should have been fucking dead, right?
And I should have been, I mean, I know that,
but I didn't even singe my God damn eyebrows.
So about a month later, we're in this little bar in Saigon,
and this guy Norman, big Navajo guy,
he's trying to get me laid, all those guys,
they thought I was a virgin.
Norm decides he can't have that in his unit,
so he's talking to this slope whore,
but she don't speak English, it's all just GI, GI,
blowie, blowie, fuckie, fuckie, that sort of thing,
so he's telling her this story about how I should be dead,
and she lights all up like a Christmas tree,
because yeah, she knew that word, dead.
So, she just looks at me with these big eyes,
and she just shrugs and says, "Blowie?"
He gives her five bucks, he takes to me this little room
in the back, and sucks me off.
Took me thirty seconds, but I swear I damn near
blew a hole in the back of her skull.
Anyway, I've been Dead Billy ever since.
Cali, come on, this isn't funny, just open the door,
I know you're in there.
Cali, I just wanna see you, open the door!
Come on, I'm gonna stay here all day, until...
Oh God, what did you let him do to you.
I told you I ran away from home for a while,
when I was a kid.
Yeah, but you never mentioned this Billy.
Who was he?
Just this guy, a vet.
From the Gulf?
Vietnam.
Jesus, how old was he?
And you lived with him?
Was it, was it a sexual thing?
Roy...
Come on, were you fucking the guy?
What do you think?
I don't think I need to apologise to you.
Are you okay?
Developing in Germany, showing a frightening
new discovery at the Kumps Nuclear Plant,
just days after the earthquake in Poland
sent the reactor into complete meltdown.
German officials have now released data that shows
radiation levels around Kunps have spiked
to levels much higher than initial reports suggested.
Reports from both the German environmental authorities,
and the UN health organisation, show that total
air release of iodine 131 and Cecil 137...
Hey, look at me.
Well, this is kinda fucked up.
There's nothing to discourage the appetite
for divinity in the heart of man.
That's Kabu, my dear.
Lucian.
Hmm?
Muse, I thought you were staying with your mother.
It's Tuesday, Daddy.
Well then...
Well sit Muse, join us.
Would you like some coffee?
I don't know, I should get to school.
Nonsense, sit.
Cali, this is Ashley, she's my graduate student.
Hey, sure.
I gotta get to class.
Sit!
Okay.
Ashley, this is my daughter Cali, my muse.
Ashley is quite the star in our humble little bailiwick.
She's doing her thesis on the age of reason,
very provocative stuff.
I'm doing this third way feminist view of it.
You know, breaking down the relationship
between the mostly male existentialist...
I'm sorry but this is bullshit.
Cali.
Not your thesis, sorry, it sounds very,
you know, interesting, or whatever, I gotta go.
Cali, I'm afraid you're being a child.
Don't feel bad, I know he's very charming.
You buy it, or you stop playing with it.
You wouldn't like it, it's all full of words and stuff.
Made of Athens air we part, give,
oh, give me back my heart.
It's Byron.
Good for you, you're a smart one.
This lad was known as Nicholas the Galant,
making love in secret was his talent.
That's Trosser.
So how does a useless truant like you quote Byron,
what's your deal?
Like you said, I'm a smart one.
Yeah, I can tell.
You know, I ain't your daddy,
but aren't you supposed to be in school?
I'll go when they can teach me something
they haven't learned in their ignominious
little community college educations.
Jesus Christ, how old are you?
18.
Uh huh, what's your name?
What do you care?
What's your name?
Cali, Calliope really, but only my dad calls me that.
It's kind of a faggy name, is your daddy a fag.
Hardly.
Calliope, the muse.
Yeah, he's the only one who calls me that too.
Ah, I get it, issues.
Here.
Take it, it will make daddy happy.
I don't have issues.
We all have issues, sweetie.
So what are yours?
What do you think?
You're like a vet, right?
So you've probably killed people.
That's none of your business.
I'm sorry, I thought we were talking about issues.
You don't back off, do you?
Nope.
I'm Billy, yeah, I killed people.
How many?
I like you Cali.
I don't believe you, I don't think you killed anybody.
Stop by the next time you want to escape the ignominy.
See ya.
So what you doing here, Cali?
Was that you playing, when I walked up?
You ain't 18, ain't no fucking way you're 18.
Hey Billy, ain't no fucking way she 18.
Mind your business.
Anyway, ever tell you guys the story about
how I got the name Dead Billy?
Only everyday Bill, it's different every God damn time.
Ah, I'm not very good, but I like the...
Need any help girl, just call, let me know.
I think maybe, this isn't a great idea.
I'm old enough to be your father.
But you're not...
My father.
Hey, look at me.
You're sure?
Yeah.
But I better go.
So, I told them that the play was about a rabid populous.
And they looked at me with these longing, wilful,
naive stares that only a college freshman could have,
hoping that I was not writing another tirade
about an impotent generation.
And of course I told them I was.
Their heads dropped, it was cute, in a way.
Your shirt's inside out, yup.
Where were you?
You are not going to drink out of that carton.
Still haven't answered my question.
I was at dads.
Uh huh, and how was dad?
What is that, what the fuck.
Holy shit, uh Jesus Christ, come in.
Shit, sorry, sit.
Jesus, how are you Cali?
I'm good.
Oh, congratulations, who's the guy.
His name is Roy.
Good name, a grown up name, if you know what I mean.
What does he do, where did you meet him, tell me everything?
Okay, let's see, he's a post grad,
at the University, comparative lit.
Sounds fancy.
Well, we met at a lecture, he was...
Geez, this sounds horrible, but he was my TA.
So you're still going to school?
Got my bachelors last fall,
and I just started the masters program.
Comparatives, what's it...
English education.
That's great, really, that's great.
I knew as you soon as you got your GED,
everything would fall in place for you.
Seriously, the best congrats.
Thanks.
So, what brings you by?
I was, you're going to hate this.
Fuck.
Selena...
No Cali.
Calliope, look at me.
This isn't some bullshit about closure, is it?
I've been having seizures again.
Oh, geez, okay Calliope, you don't need to be talking
to me, you need to...
No, I've all ready been to a doctor,
that's not why I'm here.
Okay, um.
You see it, right?
Of course I do, what...
You see that, right?
Yeah, but...
What do you see?
Please, Selena, I'm just trying to explain.
I see, well, a little statue of, I don't know,
is it Athena, or something?
Calliope, the muse.
Okay, Calliope, and a glass.
What colour is the glass?
This is...
Please.
It's amber, okay, now you have to
tell me what this is all about.
Billy gave me that statue,
and that glass is from his house.
When you got me out of there,
I didn't take anything with me, did I?
No, of course not.
I just found this at my house.
And that, is that a seizure.
I was hoping, I thought maybe you could tell me where he is.
Absolutely not.
No way in hell, Jesus Christ Cali,
you were like my one success story.
Do you remember what you were
like when you got out of there?
I do, 80 pounds, at most, somebody would slam a door,
you'd nearly jump out of your skin.
You remember that, do you?
Look at me.
Calliope, stop!
Why?
I don't want to talk to him Selena, or see him.
I just need to know where he is.
I don't believe you.
I've seen this way too many times before, no.
I'm sorry, but no.
Cali, wait.
I wanna show you something.
Okay, what?
You feeling it?
40 seconds, maybe less, that's all you got baby.
You right with God and everything, hmm?
You're seeing spots, hmm?
Tiny little explosions like firecrackers,
way in the back of your corneas,
visions narrowing down, tiny little pinprick.
Want me to countdown for you?
30, 29, 28, 27, 26, enough?
That's what it's like to die.
That guy, Starkey's friend,
that dude you were talking to at the VFW, what was his name?
His name Calliope, what was it?
I don't, I don't know.
I think he liked you.
You can go out with him, if you want to.
I mean, if you really want to.
Hello.
Hey, I was thinking about stopping by
that new vegan Thai place on my way home, you want anything?
Yeah, pad Thai.
Tofu, egg noodles, right?
Yeah.
And a ton of hot stuff, I got it.
You want a Thai iced tea?
Hey, you okay?
Um, no, just banged my elbow on the gear shift.
No iced tea, thanks though.
Okay, you home?
I'll be home in a few, I'm just out
running a couple errands.
You doing okay?
Yeah, yeah, just...
Um, shit.
You okay?
No, the batteries crapping out, I'll see you in a bit.
Mmm, okay.
There's nothing I can say to stop you, is there?
And you know that this is really stupid, right?
I don't know where he is, after...
You know, he just sort of dropped off our radar.
You'll have to trust me on that.
Okay.
You need to know that this could get me fired.
Alissa Kononen, she's a stand up comic out of Brooklyn.
After you left, I did a quick search.
She's on the road right now, she's doing clubs
all across the country.
I don't have her number, but if you're up for a drive,
she's performing down in the Springs, this Saturday.
Maybe you could catch her after the show.
She's his daughter.
Calliope, this cannot come back on me, okay?
Of course.
Take care of yourself.
Yeah, okay, I get.
No, I understand, I...
I do Kay, but...
Can't you just put her on the pho...
All right, well at least tell her happy birthday.
Morning.
Is it epilepsy?
Epilepsy's a fairly useless term, but no I don't think so.
Looky here.
Not a tumour, don't worry, it appears to be a small lesion,
about the size of your pinky nail.
And it appears to have been there for some time.
Tell me, Calliope, have you been seeing things,
or hearing voices, or anything like that?
You know, there's no percentage in not being
honest about this, Calliope.
Okay, well first thing, no more TV.
Not until we get this taken care of.
What are the options?
Well, considering the seizures and hallucinations,
and whatnot, I'd say we're pretty well past the
wait and see stage.
Now, I doubt this is cancer, but we'll need to do
a biopsy to rule it out.
In the meantime, no TV, try not to drive,
blah, blah, blah, you know the drill.
Don't worry, this is nothing.
It's a little pit stop, that's all.
Congratulations, by the way.
It's okay Billy.
What the fuck do you know about it?
Shit, fuck, I'm sorry Cali.
I love you.
We have rotted wood all underneath the sink here.
I found this.
Under the bed, Billy drew this?
No.
That was somebody else.
Calliope, you need to talk to me.
Roy, not right now.
No, I've had enough of this.
Do you understand what this is like?
Do you get it, at all?
I'm trying so hard, Cali,
to not think you're just a fucking liar,
and everything you've told me about yourself is
a fucking lie, and the life we've been building together,
is a fucking lie.
Roy...
Are you a fucking liar, Cali?
Talk to me!
Roy, you're hurting me!
Calliope, fuck, I am...
It's your birthday next month, 18, wow.
We should do something, have a party.
Oh wait I forgot, that will never work,
you don't have any friends.
Mom.
You know, in a month, you're gonna be an adult,
and then you can do whatever the hell you want,
but while you're here, in my house...
Mom.
You will do exactly...
Just stop it.
What?
Just stop with the whole concerned parent thing.
You don't do it very well.
You're really something else,
after everything I have done...
You wanna go back to him?
Dad?
You know who I mean, where were you?
I told you.
Yeah, your dads, should I call him?
Oh, I don't think I'm supposed to have any of that.
I made it weak.
So, tell me about Billy.
She was gorgeous, I mean,
not movie gorgeous or anything, just...
First thing I thought when I saw her,
was how tired she was, that nobody that young
should be so God damn tired.
She had these deep sunk eyes, that just dug in
like corkscrews, and this thin little mouth,
that I thought, I don't know, I kind of thought,
I just wanted to kiss.
I always wanna fuck the girls when I see them.
I can't seem to help it.
My eyes are words straight to my prick,
doesn't matter who they are.
The first thing I think when I see them is
how I wanna get them naked, I wanna get them under me.
And I wanna fuck the God damn shit out of them.
But with her, all I wanted was,
I just kind of wanted that kiss.
All I thought about for days.
I should've left it there, I guess.
I thought she could make me normal,
I've never been with a normal girl before,
but I thought, I don't know, maybe she could do it.
Maybe I could love her normal.
And then when she was gone,
I felt like my chest was this big black cave.
I was 17 God damn years old, and I felt like it was over.
I was dead.
I guess maybe that's why they call me Dead Billy.
I know what you're thinking,
I know what you wanna do, don't think I don't.
It's okay, you know.
Hey, look at me.
It's okay.
It's okay Cali, it's okay, it's okay.
It's okay, it's okay.
How long were you?
I don't remember.
Come on, I'm not paying by the hour here.
A long time, I think they took me away.
Who?
A social worker, my mom.
I think I was 17 when they got me out.
You know it wasn't your fault, right?
Calliope, you were just a kid.
It wasn't your fault.
You're lovely.
Calliope.
Roy, listen...
Listen to me.
I wanted to be there.
I'm not exactly who you think I am.
Please, don't do this, I love you.
I love you too.
So, what about the drawing?
It doesn't matter.
Calliope!
Look, I have to go somewhere,
to talk to somebody.
Him?
I don't know, maybe, I hope not.
I wanna go with you.
I'm sorry.
I don't understand this.
Do you still...
Do you still want him?
I want the best environment for her too, I do.
What am I doing, how do you know that?
That's what I used to do Kay, I'm trying to be a father now,
I'm trying to be a member of a family,
and that's what you said...
Bill, you better get your ass in here before...
That's all you talk about now.
I want to, I'd learned that.
No, that's what this is, I know that, I know the legal.
God damn it Kay, she's my fucking kid too.
Yeah, well, I'm not the one who's being a cunt about it!
Gotta listen to him shout like that all the time?
Don't fucking Bogart, okay, this shit ain't cheap!
Billy?
You having a flashback Bill?
Billy.
Don't!
Get out!
Look at me.
Cali, look at me.
What about your mom?
I got room, you know, if you need a place, anything,
you know, no strings, or nothing.
I don't know, maybe.
I'd really like to draw you.
What, I can draw.
Billy?
I'm sorry I scared you.
It's okay, what happened?
What did she say to you?
Don't leave, okay?
What?
You can kill me if you want to,
slit my throat in my sleep or something, just don't leave.
I'm not going to kill you Billy, Jesus.
And I'm not going anywhere, you're stuck with me.
Lovers and mad men have such seething brains.
Such shaping fantasies that apprehend,
more than quarries, it never comprehends.
I live in this neighbourhood, and on the side of my house,
is all these Morning Glories.
Which is awesome, if you go running at 7:00 in the morning,
I don't, but if you did, you would see...
The morning glories were just out,
like they haven't gotten used to the weather.
What you want?
It's a two drink minimum, lady.
A glass of zen, I guess.
All right guys, we got a lot of show.
I'm Sarah Katie, thank you very much.
Did you come to party?
I fucking came to party
All right, bitches right!
We got two more bitches for you tonight,
come in here, tell some jokes, make you laugh.
This next bitch comes all the way from New York,
fucking City, and if you ask me,
she is pretty full of herself, so give it up for
the bitch, Melissa Kononen!
Yeah, bitches, right.
Right, right, right.
Hey guys, so I'm Melissa Kononen,
and I'm gonna ask you how you're doing,
but please, do not applaud, you can boo,
you can do whatever you want, please,
just do what is in your heart.
How are you guys doing?
Uh, that's a little like...
It's not like aah, yeah, that's like a medium.
So, if you ask me, you probably don't give a fuck,
but I'm going to tell you, I'm doing awful.
I woke up with a cold, and I'm delirious at this point,
and to be honest, I'm kind of loving it right now,
having this cold, because it's my own little portable
disease, that I get to take with me everywhere,
it's all mine, not yours, it's mine,
my disease, mine, mine, mine!
And I get to sleep with it in the night,
I'm like oh, it's my cold, oh disease, you're okay,
you're mine, oh I get to cuddle with you.
I had vegan chilli earlier, and it gave me heartburn.
And I didn't like it, you know what else I hate?
I hate it when nice dudes refuse to call women cunts.
You know, specifically this woman, because um,
if you don't call me a cunt, I'm gonna find someone else
who will, and they will probably suck.
You're weird!
Oh, great, woo!
Like this guy right here, he fits the description,
how you doing man?
Tell a joke all ready.
What's your name?
Come on, what's your name?
Um, Dave.
Oh, Dave, that's your real voice?
When you're not putting a voice on,
you're like ugh, um, Dave, hey um Dave.
So, call me a fucking cunt right now.
Call me a fucking cunt, do it, we're all waiting!
We're all waiting for you um Dave,
we're all waiting for you to call me a fucking cunt,
so call me a fucking cunt!
I heard you earlier, come on, do it.
Don't worry about her, she won't mind,
she likes it, she likes when you call her a cunt,
so why don't you do it to me man?
Call me a fucking cunt, no?
All right, fine, whatever, just being a pussy.
See all you nice guys out there, please,
just do me a favour, call me a fucking cunt,
when I'm being a fucking cunt.
So I can stop hearing it from abusive assholes.
Okay, nope, you know what I also don't understand?
What's really wrong with fucking your cousin.
Four sugars!
Sorry.
Jesus Cali, how many times I have to...
I'm sorry, Billy.
What the fuck is wrong with you anyway?
You, go, go!
No, he's 66 years old, but he drinks pee.
The thing is, so I don't know, just looking at him,
makes me wonder if it works because,
they say it helps your body diagnose sicknesses,
if you don't drink caffeine, or alcohol, or eat meat...
Hi, how you doing, oh wow look at this, that is my face.
Cunt face, there you are.
Thank you.
Use protection.
Well, that was shit.
It was precious.
Oh, fuck you.
Got another one.
Lovely.
Water, no ice, please.
Hi.
You were really good.
Can I have that?
Mmm.
Fuck you Alyssa.
Do I know you?
Um, kind of.
Oh, fuck.
None of this is real by the way,
but actually, it is all real.
Yo, this your ride?
Yeah.
Toss me the keys, I wanna show you something.
So, I assume it's no coincidence, you showing up here?
No.
Oh fuck yeah, this is my jam!
Fucking cunt!
What the fuck?
Alyssa?
What?
What was it you wanted to show me?
What?
What was it you wanted to show me?
Oh, honey, let's get fucked up first!
Come on.
Hey, look at me, are you okay?
Once every three or four months, but we'd never do anything,
he'd just stand there, and look.
When I was younger, I pretended like I was asleep,
like I knew it was creepy or whatever,
but I didn't know why, and then when I got a little older
I would stare right back at him, never told him to leave.
And he'd still just, you know, stand there.
Anyway, I told my mom.
Yeah, a few years ago, she called me a lying little bitch.
Billy was never so bad.
At least he didn't stare.
You know, he tried to kill himself after you left, right?
He said he was gonna go jump off a bridge.
And that was about the time he started
calling me all the fucking time, and leaving these,
like, long ass messages, and sometimes he'd cry.
Then, you know, I mean, he called me to tell me
that you came back, after that, he didn't call me anymore.
Did you find him sexy or something?
Yeah, I did.
Oh, that's weird, what do you even know about him?
He said he fought in Vietnam.
Really?
He said he was in Danang for a year.
Billy said a lot of things.
He told my mom that he made a fortune selling rare coins.
He told me that he was a rough Necker in California,
and that he shat, shot, I'm sorry,
he shot a guy in the back of the head,
because the guy broke into his apartment,
and was trying to stab him in the kidney.
And he said that he went to that guys grave to piss on it,
but it was Memorial Day, and there were like...
There were all these people around,
so he settled for just spitting on it.
He didn't tell you that story, did he?
What are you doing here, little Cali?
I need to find him.
Why?
He's dead, I mean, probably, right?
I mean, you wanna know what I think?
You probably don't, but I'm gonna tell you anyway.
I think that you miss him.
I think that you love him.
I...
You don't know what he did to me.
What he did to you.
Come on, I was gonna show you something, come on.
See this tree here?
My mom, she hated Billy, and then when I told her
about my step dad, you know, just staring,
she hated him too, but not at first.
She didn't believe me at first.
Then she thought about it, and my step dad dropped dead
one day, while mowing the lawn.
I was away, she was alone.
I told her about what he did to me and then I left her.
I was gone when she drove out here,
and she sat at the base of this tree.
She had my step dad's pistol.
Billy wasn't serious, but she was.
What did you do to him Cali?
What?
What did you do to him?
I mean, you went back right?
And my mom was dead, and I thought he and I could,
I don't know, I don't know, work on things maybe.
He was the only fucking family that I had left.
What the fuck.
Stop!
Cali, look at me.
You can go out with him, if you want to.
I mean, if you really want to.
Should I call him?
Mom, shut...
What the hell is wrong with you?
Him, and then this man, is that who you wanna be?
You wanna go back to him?
Okay, go ahead, I'm not gonna stop you, go, go, go!
You okay?
No.
So, do you wanna talk about it?
You know what I used to do when I first started?
I just shut my eyes, and go away somewhere.
Some place where I could be anybody other than me.
Not like a movie star or anything, just a wife, maybe.
And a mom.
I'd see myself in a suburb somewhere,
working from home as a graphic designer, interior decorator.
I used to draw, I was pretty good at it.
Anyway, something like that.
I'd have three kids, twin boys, and a little girl.
Her name would be Emma Rose, and the boys would
be called Jack and Joshua.
My husband would work in real estate, David,
but I'd call him Dee, a handsome guy,
sort of soft, skinny with a little pot-belly, weak eyes.
I always had a thing for guys in glasses.
He'd come home early from work sometimes,
and we'd take the kids out to dinner.
Nothing fancy, Chuck E Cheese,
wherever the kids wanted to go.
Our five year anniversary, he'd take me to this little,
this little bed and breakfast up in the mountains,
and we'd wander the streets, and window shop.
Afterwards, go back up to the hotel room
and make love for hours, by candlelight.
He'd always be gentle.
In the morning, he'd give me this little pair
of diamond stud earrings.
All he could afford without taking out a loan,
so nothing all that special, but nice, lovely.
Our life would be lovely.
So that's what I think about when the men would be doing,
you know, what they'd be doing.
And it helped, for a while, for a while I thought
it may even still be possible.
He could still be out there, my Dee,
and maybe we could still meet.
And he could give me my lovely little life somewhere,
where I could be somebody else.
This is it, I'd say.
This guy, this hundred bucks, I'm done, I'm getting out.
Now I can barely remember what he was
supposed to look like, my Dee.
He left this out here, he didn't want you to see it.
He told me to be gone before you woke up.
He's never gonna get any better, Cali.
Cali, none of this is ever going to get any better.
Ma'am, can you hear me?
Nod if you understand.
Need you to follow my fingers without moving your head.
Was it, I don't know, was it a stroke or something?
I see no evidence of a concussion,
or any other lasting damage, so you're free to go.
Do you have someone who can come pick you up?
So, there's nothing more you can tell us, Ma'am?
Ma'am, you're sure there's nothing more you can tell us?
Cali, I'm here to help you.
Do you understand?
Your mom's on her way.
Not her.
It isn't up to you Cali.
What are you gonna do with him?
He's going to jail.
Ma'am, if this was your boyfriend,
we have resources that we can help you with.
Hello.
Hi.
What?
I'm.. I'm sorry.
It's not your fault, I should have known better.
I don't know what the fuck I was thinking.
I, um...
What?
Can I still...
Can I come to your place?
Didn't you all ready leave him once?
I'm sorry, I thought...
I don't know, I don't know what I thought.
I don't need this shit, okay, good luck.
Roy.
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# I've got something for you
# Oh, don't turn me down
# Leave me cold and blue
# Don't break my heart #
Cali, look at me.
We didn't.
I know.
You're beautiful, you know that?
You need to know that there was never anyone else but me.
I love you.
I love you too.
Roy?
I've been thinking, and if you want,
we could, you know, have him over some night.
I mean, only if you want.
You two, obviously, I mean...
It could be hot, right?
Oh fuck it, look, if you want,
we'll have him over, and you know, you two can do whatever.
You were cool with Selena, I can be cool with this.
If you want, I could be way cool.
Jesus, not too much, okay?
You only need a pinch to bring out the flavour.
Anyway, Cali.
So what's next Cali?
Calliope, okay, you know what,
you can give me the silent treatment, if you want,
that's fine, I'm gonna call him.
You know what else, I'm gonna tell him he can
fuck you for a 100 bucks.
50, if he lets me watch.
Look at me Cali.
Look at me.
Look at me!
Morning.
You're a lying little bitch.
You...
Oh my God, oh my God.
Oh my God, oh my God, shit.
I gotta call somebody!
Now, say you're sorry.
I'm sorry.
Good, I forgive you.
It's good to see you.
You remember, remember that song I wrote for you.
How did that go?
# Your stars are fire, you stop the sun
# The truth of me may be a liar
# But never doubt my love #
You know, I never wanted...
I'm sorry, I'm fucking this up, God damn it.
You know, I've always known it was wrong,
the whole you and me thing.
I didn't want it to be, it was.
But it was, I just, I wanted you so much.
And I really wanted it to be different this time,
I thought that maybe you could,
you were my chance to...
Ah shit, I don't know.
So, I guess maybe, I made things worse.
I told myself all the usual things,
how you were mature, you were an old soul,
whatever the fuck, you were a kid.
I should never have...
So anyway, I guess, I think I sort of took it out on you.
But I did love you, I do love you, you...
Jesus Christ Cali, you were the best thing that
ever happened to me, and I fucked it up.
No, no you didn't.
# When you're through with me
# When your heart aches
# When your head spins
# When you tempt me
# When you finish me
# When you cut me
# When you kill me
# When you forgive me #
We did.
# When you want to hold me
# If you bury me
# If you lose me
# Don't say the word
# Don't waste your time
# Don't expect me
# Just get rid of me
# Just break me #
Okay.
I'm gonna get your nose.
No, I'll bite your nose off.
No hands.
I have something for you.
Uh huh, what?
Now that the stars are on fire,
thou that the sun doth move.
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt my love.
I'm sorry Billy, but I've gotta go.