0 00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:15,000 www.Fastbet99.club Agen Judi Online Aman dan Terpercaya 1 00:00:37,704 --> 00:00:40,993 Jared! Why are you upset, honey? 2 00:00:41,250 --> 00:00:42,832 I want my jersey. 3 00:00:42,960 --> 00:00:44,792 Well, it's because it's dirty. 4 00:00:44,878 --> 00:00:46,039 I want it. 5 00:00:50,509 --> 00:00:53,126 You know, today is your first day at school. 6 00:00:53,804 --> 00:00:54,804 What? 7 00:00:56,807 --> 00:00:58,639 You like to play something in particular? 8 00:00:58,934 --> 00:01:00,345 Uh, soccer. 9 00:01:00,435 --> 00:01:02,051 You like to play soccer. And? 10 00:01:02,145 --> 00:01:03,727 And basketball! 11 00:01:04,064 --> 00:01:05,396 What's your favorite color? 12 00:01:06,817 --> 00:01:08,058 Uh... 13 00:01:08,986 --> 00:01:10,397 Uh, blue and yellow. 14 00:01:10,487 --> 00:01:12,228 - Blue... - And yellow. 15 00:01:12,322 --> 00:01:13,904 And yellow. 16 00:01:14,700 --> 00:01:17,033 What would you like to be when you grow up? 17 00:01:17,119 --> 00:01:19,327 Motorcycle driver! 18 00:01:25,335 --> 00:01:27,201 Bye! Hi! 19 00:01:35,971 --> 00:01:38,964 Jared. You should come down for breakfast. 20 00:01:49,860 --> 00:01:51,726 I wish none of this had ever happened. 21 00:01:54,448 --> 00:01:57,191 But sometimes, I thank God that it did. 22 00:03:08,897 --> 00:03:11,355 Please, repeat after me. Let your light shine. 23 00:03:11,483 --> 00:03:13,065 Let your light shine. 24 00:03:13,151 --> 00:03:14,253 Now, let me see a show of hands 25 00:03:14,277 --> 00:03:17,190 for those of you in this room who are imperfect. 26 00:03:18,532 --> 00:03:19,739 Everybody. 27 00:03:20,200 --> 00:03:21,441 That's right. 28 00:03:21,535 --> 00:03:24,653 And a show of hands for everybody in this room who is perfect. 29 00:03:26,456 --> 00:03:27,947 - Nobody. - Amen. 30 00:03:29,334 --> 00:03:33,123 I am blessed with a beautiful and deeply soulful wife. 31 00:03:34,214 --> 00:03:37,423 And with a fine, upstanding, 32 00:03:39,261 --> 00:03:40,547 and honest son. 33 00:03:41,596 --> 00:03:42,757 I'm a lucky man. 34 00:03:43,807 --> 00:03:45,639 And I'm grateful for those blessings. 35 00:03:58,238 --> 00:04:00,446 Please don't do that. You know that makes me nervous. 36 00:04:02,701 --> 00:04:04,178 What if a truck comes along and hits your arm? 37 00:04:04,202 --> 00:04:06,162 - It's never gonna happen. - It's happened before. 38 00:04:07,539 --> 00:04:09,747 It has. It has. 39 00:04:41,031 --> 00:04:42,943 Good morning. Welcome to Love in Action. 40 00:04:43,325 --> 00:04:44,325 Hi. 41 00:04:44,993 --> 00:04:45,993 Name? 42 00:04:46,286 --> 00:04:48,243 Uh, Nancy Eamons. 43 00:04:49,247 --> 00:04:51,990 Oh, um, the boy, I mean. 44 00:04:52,125 --> 00:04:54,617 - Unless you're the one checking in. - Jared Eamons. 45 00:04:56,379 --> 00:04:57,495 Got you right here. 46 00:05:05,430 --> 00:05:07,467 Great. Do you want to say your goodbyes? 47 00:05:08,016 --> 00:05:09,257 Can I see the place? 48 00:05:09,351 --> 00:05:12,185 I'm afraid you won't be allowed beyond the reception area, Mrs. Eamons, 49 00:05:12,270 --> 00:05:14,387 - but you can pick him up at 5:00 p.m. - Oh. 50 00:05:14,481 --> 00:05:15,481 Okay. 51 00:05:17,776 --> 00:05:18,937 It's okay, Mom. 52 00:05:24,115 --> 00:05:27,404 Well, call me any time. I'll be at the hotel on my cell phone. 53 00:05:27,702 --> 00:05:30,115 Uh, we will be holding his cell phone. 54 00:05:30,205 --> 00:05:32,538 If there are any emergencies, we will contact you. 55 00:05:32,624 --> 00:05:34,490 But otherwise, 5:00 p.m. 56 00:05:41,508 --> 00:05:42,749 You'll do great. 57 00:05:45,554 --> 00:05:46,715 Love you. 58 00:05:49,683 --> 00:05:50,969 Newbie. Eamons. 59 00:05:53,395 --> 00:05:54,511 Empty your pockets. 60 00:06:04,197 --> 00:06:06,637 Do you have any numbers or photos we should be concerned about? 61 00:06:08,535 --> 00:06:10,868 We'll check it daily and call any number at random, 62 00:06:10,954 --> 00:06:13,162 so you best be straight with us on that. 63 00:06:13,331 --> 00:06:16,165 There's nothing. And, yeah, call whatever numbers if you need to. 64 00:06:18,753 --> 00:06:22,042 "Sobriety. No smoking, no alcohol or drugs." 65 00:06:23,174 --> 00:06:27,544 "Off hours. All clients to remain within a safe zone area as designated." 66 00:06:28,597 --> 00:06:32,011 "Attire. Women's skirts must extend below the knee 67 00:06:32,100 --> 00:06:33,536 "and bras are to be worn at all times." 68 00:06:33,560 --> 00:06:34,560 What's that? 69 00:06:34,811 --> 00:06:38,805 - Oh, it's, um... - I write stories. 70 00:06:38,899 --> 00:06:40,060 I'm studying in a college... 71 00:06:40,150 --> 00:06:42,312 No journaling. We're gonna have to read that. 72 00:06:43,361 --> 00:06:44,647 "Confidentiality. 73 00:06:44,738 --> 00:06:47,697 "All matters discussed in therapy are to remain private." 74 00:06:48,700 --> 00:06:50,032 "Restrooms. 75 00:06:50,118 --> 00:06:53,532 "Members must be supervised by staff during restroom visits." 76 00:06:53,663 --> 00:06:55,950 - Your handbook. - Oh, yeah. 77 00:06:57,417 --> 00:06:58,498 Good luck. 78 00:06:59,210 --> 00:07:00,210 Thank you. 79 00:07:00,295 --> 00:07:03,879 "No viewing of pornographic material, no masturbation, 80 00:07:03,965 --> 00:07:06,708 "no physical contact with any member at any time, 81 00:07:06,801 --> 00:07:09,293 "apart from the briefest of handshakes." 82 00:07:40,251 --> 00:07:41,312 Michael for Aaron, 83 00:07:41,336 --> 00:07:43,202 how many clients are we expecting today? 84 00:07:43,630 --> 00:07:45,371 Copy, Michael. Hold, please. 85 00:07:45,465 --> 00:07:46,751 Uh, just one second, Jared. 86 00:07:47,968 --> 00:07:49,584 We should have 11 today. 87 00:07:50,345 --> 00:07:51,945 Well, we have more in the lobby. 88 00:07:52,722 --> 00:07:54,575 It's okay. We should get another five minutes. 89 00:07:54,599 --> 00:07:55,760 Copy. 90 00:07:55,850 --> 00:07:57,887 Jared, if you just want to go find yourself a seat 91 00:07:57,978 --> 00:07:59,956 and then make yourself comfortable. We'll get started soon. 92 00:08:06,486 --> 00:08:07,602 - Hi. - Hi. 93 00:08:16,162 --> 00:08:17,162 Morning. 94 00:08:18,164 --> 00:08:19,164 Hi. 95 00:08:19,416 --> 00:08:22,329 "Sinful, salacious, and extraneous materials. 96 00:08:22,794 --> 00:08:25,537 "All reading material and films and television 97 00:08:25,630 --> 00:08:27,496 "are off limits while inside the program." 98 00:08:30,969 --> 00:08:35,009 I am using sexual sin and homosexuality 99 00:08:35,098 --> 00:08:37,636 to fill a God-shaped void in my life. 100 00:08:38,101 --> 00:08:42,141 I am using sexual sin and homosexuality 101 00:08:42,230 --> 00:08:44,517 to fill a God-shaped void in my life. 102 00:08:44,649 --> 00:08:48,643 But I am not broken, and God loves me. 103 00:08:48,987 --> 00:08:51,730 But I am not broken, and God loves me. 104 00:08:51,823 --> 00:08:53,439 Good. That is very true. 105 00:08:53,533 --> 00:08:56,867 Now somebody tell me what this is. 106 00:08:58,955 --> 00:09:00,241 A dollar. 107 00:09:00,331 --> 00:09:01,412 A dollar. 108 00:09:02,042 --> 00:09:04,955 Now, no matter how much you crumple up a dollar bill, 109 00:09:05,920 --> 00:09:07,661 you can never take away its value. 110 00:09:09,507 --> 00:09:11,965 Now even if you were to rip it, 111 00:09:12,844 --> 00:09:15,552 which would represent our being severed from Christ, 112 00:09:15,638 --> 00:09:16,719 well, guess what? 113 00:09:17,432 --> 00:09:18,968 You can always tape it back together. 114 00:09:20,143 --> 00:09:22,260 Jesus puts us back together. 115 00:09:23,271 --> 00:09:27,311 And even though there is a scar, our value does not change. 116 00:09:28,193 --> 00:09:29,980 - You are somebody. - Sorry. 117 00:09:30,070 --> 00:09:33,063 You are worth something. That's okay, Jon. Sit down. 118 00:09:33,156 --> 00:09:35,648 And that is a fact. Don't spend it all at once, Phillip. 119 00:09:36,826 --> 00:09:39,489 Now, this may be the toughest, but most rewarding 120 00:09:39,579 --> 00:09:41,696 12 days that many of you will ever face. 121 00:09:42,540 --> 00:09:44,327 But we have just one task, 122 00:09:44,417 --> 00:09:47,455 to bring ourselves back to God. 123 00:09:48,671 --> 00:09:50,287 To invite him back in. 124 00:09:50,423 --> 00:09:52,631 To understand how he truly meant to create us 125 00:09:52,717 --> 00:09:54,629 before all those pieces got torn away. 126 00:09:55,220 --> 00:09:58,713 Now, look, I know the road here wasn't easy for many of you. 127 00:09:59,849 --> 00:10:02,762 But I promise a smoother ride now that you're here. 128 00:10:02,852 --> 00:10:08,064 Because we are about to go on an amazing journey together. 129 00:10:08,733 --> 00:10:09,849 So, who's ready? 130 00:10:12,195 --> 00:10:15,359 That was a question. Who's ready? Say amen! 131 00:10:15,573 --> 00:10:16,780 Amen. 132 00:10:16,866 --> 00:10:19,529 Amen! If you know you're worth a dollar, say amen! 133 00:10:19,661 --> 00:10:20,661 Amen! 134 00:10:22,038 --> 00:10:24,746 Welcome to the Refuge program! Come on! 135 00:10:26,709 --> 00:10:29,793 That's right, great souls! Great! 136 00:10:40,265 --> 00:10:41,534 Now, I'm gonna tell you something 137 00:10:41,558 --> 00:10:44,551 that's gonna make you immediately feel a little better. 138 00:10:44,936 --> 00:10:47,303 People tell you you can be born gay, that's not true. 139 00:10:47,897 --> 00:10:50,605 You cannot be born a homosexual, this is a lie. 140 00:10:51,359 --> 00:10:55,603 Now, I'm a counselor and a pastor, but was I born that way? 141 00:10:56,281 --> 00:10:57,317 No. 142 00:10:58,074 --> 00:11:01,112 It's behavioral. It's a choice. 143 00:11:02,245 --> 00:11:06,660 Cameron, you, you, uh, play football? Yeah? 144 00:11:06,749 --> 00:11:08,285 - Yeah. - Were you born that way? 145 00:11:09,586 --> 00:11:10,747 - No. - No. 146 00:11:10,837 --> 00:11:14,001 Now, you chose to be a football player, right? 147 00:11:14,382 --> 00:11:15,382 It's behavior. 148 00:11:15,466 --> 00:11:17,378 Now, if you... If Cameron stops playing football, 149 00:11:17,468 --> 00:11:19,334 he no longer is a football player. 150 00:11:19,429 --> 00:11:22,513 We gotta learn for ourselves where behavior comes from 151 00:11:22,599 --> 00:11:24,181 so we can cut it out 152 00:11:24,267 --> 00:11:26,384 and then we can no longer be labeled that way. 153 00:11:27,312 --> 00:11:29,178 Now, who can tell us what a genogram is? 154 00:11:30,273 --> 00:11:31,480 Phillip. 155 00:11:31,608 --> 00:11:34,100 - Well, a genogram is like a family tree... - Mmm. 156 00:11:34,194 --> 00:11:37,733 ...only one that shows patterns of family behavior as well. 157 00:11:37,822 --> 00:11:39,188 Sort of like an illustrated one. 158 00:11:39,282 --> 00:11:43,572 Yes. Now, we are going to draw our family tree 159 00:11:43,661 --> 00:11:47,746 and we're gonna list next to these people their behavioral sin. 160 00:11:47,832 --> 00:11:49,994 So, they made us 161 00:11:51,336 --> 00:11:53,453 and they labeled us, so we're gonna label them. 162 00:11:53,546 --> 00:11:55,754 Michael, can you read the behavioral sins? 163 00:11:58,134 --> 00:12:01,218 We use the letters SSA or H 164 00:12:01,304 --> 00:12:04,797 to label same sex attraction or homosexuality, 165 00:12:05,975 --> 00:12:07,307 D for drugs, 166 00:12:08,228 --> 00:12:10,094 a dollar sign for gambling, 167 00:12:10,939 --> 00:12:12,726 A, alcoholism, 168 00:12:13,650 --> 00:12:15,266 P, promiscuity, 169 00:12:16,152 --> 00:12:17,984 M, mental illness, 170 00:12:19,113 --> 00:12:22,106 capital A, lowercase B for abortion, 171 00:12:22,200 --> 00:12:25,193 capital P, lowercase O for pornography, 172 00:12:25,286 --> 00:12:28,404 and C or G, criminal or gang affiliation. 173 00:12:28,498 --> 00:12:31,491 You're forgetting DV, domestic violence. 174 00:12:31,584 --> 00:12:34,452 Capital D, lowercase V, domestic violence. 175 00:12:35,129 --> 00:12:37,166 Okay. Guys, let's dive right in. 176 00:12:37,257 --> 00:12:40,170 Let's grab some cards and some markers. 177 00:12:40,260 --> 00:12:42,001 I want you to write them down 178 00:12:43,554 --> 00:12:45,841 and put the letters next to their names. 179 00:12:45,932 --> 00:12:47,798 I know they're family, 180 00:12:47,892 --> 00:12:50,726 but I can guarantee that one or some of these people 181 00:12:50,812 --> 00:12:53,600 are the reason that you're at Love in Action. 182 00:12:55,775 --> 00:12:58,984 So, Jared, you must be the preacher's son. 183 00:12:59,487 --> 00:13:02,355 You know or you don't know. 184 00:13:02,740 --> 00:13:04,402 What's the question mark for? 185 00:13:05,576 --> 00:13:07,818 Uncle Chris is an alcoholic. 186 00:13:10,873 --> 00:13:11,873 Hmm. 187 00:13:12,625 --> 00:13:14,867 Well, this must be pretty tough on your family, huh? 188 00:13:16,004 --> 00:13:19,418 Give ear, O my people, to my law. 189 00:13:19,507 --> 00:13:21,965 Incline your ears to the words of my mouth. 190 00:13:22,051 --> 00:13:24,634 I will open my mouth in a parable. 191 00:13:25,054 --> 00:13:27,387 I will utter dark sayings which we have heard. 192 00:13:28,141 --> 00:13:29,177 No. 193 00:13:29,517 --> 00:13:30,803 Sounds good, Dad. 194 00:13:31,436 --> 00:13:33,143 Are you ready? We gotta get going. 195 00:13:33,229 --> 00:13:34,811 Why are we going to Dallas tomorrow? 196 00:13:36,149 --> 00:13:38,857 Architect's updated the, uh, remodel plans for the ministry. 197 00:13:38,943 --> 00:13:42,186 Now we're gonna take a tour of two similar churches right there. 198 00:13:45,742 --> 00:13:48,780 Do you think I could stay at Chloe's when you go instead? 199 00:13:52,665 --> 00:13:53,934 It's okay, I can stay at Wayne's. 200 00:13:53,958 --> 00:13:55,995 - Or... Or, I'll just... - I'm okay with that. 201 00:13:56,169 --> 00:13:58,161 In fact, I think it is a great idea. 202 00:13:59,005 --> 00:14:02,874 You're both mature kids who know how to conduct themselves 203 00:14:03,051 --> 00:14:05,259 and who by now know how the world works. 204 00:14:06,929 --> 00:14:12,266 You know, son, small steps toward manhood. That's the way to learn. 205 00:14:13,853 --> 00:14:16,687 That way you don't get all panicky when it suddenly arrives. 206 00:14:18,900 --> 00:14:20,641 You do know what I'm saying, Romeo? 207 00:14:20,735 --> 00:14:21,851 - Yes, sir. - Okay. 208 00:14:22,153 --> 00:14:23,153 Let's go, we're late. 209 00:14:23,237 --> 00:14:26,321 Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for this beautiful day 210 00:14:26,532 --> 00:14:29,195 and, Lord, we pray that you look over our shoulder 211 00:14:29,285 --> 00:14:31,242 as we march out onto the floor 212 00:14:31,329 --> 00:14:35,039 and that we show our customers the love and kindness that you show us. 213 00:14:35,458 --> 00:14:37,666 In Jesus Christ's name and for his sake... 214 00:14:37,752 --> 00:14:39,163 Morning! Let your light shine! 215 00:14:39,379 --> 00:14:40,995 - Amen. - Amen. 216 00:14:41,089 --> 00:14:42,969 - All right. - Have a great day. 217 00:14:50,348 --> 00:14:52,931 Rebels on three. One, two, three... 218 00:14:53,017 --> 00:14:54,224 Rebels! 219 00:14:58,564 --> 00:14:59,771 You did so good. 220 00:15:01,317 --> 00:15:05,357 Right, buddy? Assists, one of the most underrated components of the game. 221 00:15:05,571 --> 00:15:08,008 - Congratulations. - I saw you setting up all the points. 222 00:15:08,032 --> 00:15:09,718 - Oh, that's victory sweat. - Dad, I'm... 223 00:15:09,742 --> 00:15:11,404 - Yeah! - I played, like, five minutes. 224 00:15:11,828 --> 00:15:13,430 - Hey. - I think you played more than that. 225 00:15:13,454 --> 00:15:15,867 How about you? Another underrated component of the game. 226 00:15:15,998 --> 00:15:17,643 - Thank you. How are you? - Congratulations, beautiful girl. 227 00:15:17,667 --> 00:15:19,603 I was worried about you. I thought they were going to drop you. 228 00:15:19,627 --> 00:15:21,118 Oh, no, don't worry. 229 00:15:21,212 --> 00:15:22,703 You kids going to go celebrate? 230 00:15:22,797 --> 00:15:25,164 Yeah, some of us, I think we're gonna go to the lake. 231 00:15:25,258 --> 00:15:26,965 All right. The lake. 232 00:15:28,678 --> 00:15:32,763 All right. Dealership's going to put me in an Expedition, so it's yours. 233 00:15:33,891 --> 00:15:34,891 Wow. 234 00:15:35,476 --> 00:15:37,058 - Dad! - All right. 235 00:15:37,562 --> 00:15:39,098 It's gonna be for your birthday, 236 00:15:39,188 --> 00:15:40,999 but tonight's a good night, so congratulations. 237 00:15:41,023 --> 00:15:43,085 - Thank you so much. Thank you. - Go and have fun. 238 00:15:43,109 --> 00:15:45,146 I want to see if your mama wants to go to the lake. 239 00:16:23,065 --> 00:16:24,065 They're still up. 240 00:16:42,960 --> 00:16:43,960 What? 241 00:16:49,175 --> 00:16:51,633 If it's not hard, I can make it hard. 242 00:16:52,136 --> 00:16:55,004 Don't you think we should wait until, you know... 243 00:16:55,097 --> 00:16:56,133 Until... 244 00:16:57,850 --> 00:17:00,433 - You know... - Until what? We get married? 245 00:17:03,272 --> 00:17:05,104 That's what my parents think we should do. 246 00:17:07,860 --> 00:17:09,852 To keep us together through college. 247 00:17:17,161 --> 00:17:18,197 Hey. 248 00:17:20,790 --> 00:17:21,997 Is something wrong? 249 00:17:23,042 --> 00:17:24,123 No. 250 00:17:27,505 --> 00:17:28,505 Jared. 251 00:17:30,758 --> 00:17:33,341 Ready to pack it up? We're about done for the day. Looks nice. 252 00:17:35,346 --> 00:17:37,383 5:00, everyone! It's home time. 253 00:17:38,975 --> 00:17:40,967 - Bye. - 5:00, let's go! 254 00:17:44,981 --> 00:17:46,621 All right, everybody, pack it up. 255 00:17:48,025 --> 00:17:49,311 Name tag. 256 00:17:51,988 --> 00:17:53,668 - Thanks. - 9:00 a.m. tomorrow. 257 00:18:00,830 --> 00:18:01,830 Uh... 258 00:18:02,748 --> 00:18:05,286 Hey, you tore out the pages. 259 00:18:05,459 --> 00:18:07,325 - Mmm. - They're just stories. 260 00:18:07,670 --> 00:18:09,332 Mr. Sykes will decide that. 261 00:18:10,298 --> 00:18:11,334 For Michael. 262 00:18:12,717 --> 00:18:13,753 Go for Michael. 263 00:18:14,176 --> 00:18:15,542 Are you still in the office? 264 00:18:36,991 --> 00:18:40,610 Are you... Are you a soldier? Were you in the military or something? 265 00:18:40,703 --> 00:18:42,740 - I saw you salute earlier. - No. 266 00:18:44,081 --> 00:18:46,824 - I'm trying zero contact whatsoever. - Mmm. 267 00:18:46,917 --> 00:18:48,158 Twenty-three days now. 268 00:18:49,837 --> 00:18:52,830 So, I salute instead. 269 00:18:55,760 --> 00:18:56,967 This group seems good. 270 00:18:58,554 --> 00:18:59,886 Have you been here before? 271 00:19:00,222 --> 00:19:03,215 Yeah, it's my second time in the Refuge program. 272 00:19:03,893 --> 00:19:05,885 I started a couple days late last time. 273 00:19:05,978 --> 00:19:09,187 And actually, I'm waiting for a place to open in one of the houses. 274 00:19:09,273 --> 00:19:11,936 - What houses? - The houses. 275 00:19:12,151 --> 00:19:15,189 They have a few houses behind the property for the long stayers. 276 00:19:15,613 --> 00:19:19,778 Meanwhile, I'm stuck at the Baybrook with my dad, 277 00:19:19,867 --> 00:19:21,529 which is interesting. 278 00:19:24,705 --> 00:19:28,415 - Are you in one of the local hotels, too? - Yeah. 279 00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:33,378 So, like, how long will you stay for? 280 00:19:36,133 --> 00:19:39,752 It's not really up to me. Mr. Sykes decides. 281 00:19:40,805 --> 00:19:43,718 - No one explained that to you? - No, no. 282 00:19:44,934 --> 00:19:49,269 This is just an assessment program, until they know what to do with you. 283 00:19:50,314 --> 00:19:53,807 Hey, listen. Just lean into it, man. 284 00:19:55,069 --> 00:19:56,105 Yeah. 285 00:19:56,195 --> 00:19:58,733 Do the work and trust me, man, 286 00:20:00,116 --> 00:20:01,357 you're gonna love it here. 287 00:20:02,827 --> 00:20:04,739 Aren't you gonna tell me about your day? 288 00:20:05,413 --> 00:20:07,746 We're not meant to talk about it outside of group. 289 00:20:08,457 --> 00:20:12,326 I don't need gossip, I just... I just mean generally. 290 00:20:13,838 --> 00:20:15,295 I'm gonna lean into it 291 00:20:16,006 --> 00:20:17,497 and there are some good people. 292 00:20:17,591 --> 00:20:18,752 And, yeah, I like it. 293 00:20:19,552 --> 00:20:23,091 - I'm excited to be here. - That's good! 294 00:20:31,063 --> 00:20:35,649 Do we have people in the family who had issues with any of this stuff? 295 00:20:47,663 --> 00:20:50,076 - Pornography? - Mom... 296 00:20:56,464 --> 00:20:59,332 Drugs? Gang affiliation. 297 00:20:59,425 --> 00:21:01,542 Gang affiliations? What is this? 298 00:21:01,761 --> 00:21:03,218 I need to know for homework. 299 00:21:03,888 --> 00:21:05,880 Why do they need to know about the family? 300 00:21:06,682 --> 00:21:08,594 Our family is so normal. 301 00:21:36,670 --> 00:21:38,627 Big day tomorrow, hmm? 302 00:21:39,840 --> 00:21:41,376 You get some good sleep, now. 303 00:21:45,971 --> 00:21:48,884 Oh, um, I filled out your homework for you. 304 00:21:53,187 --> 00:21:57,101 I was only in a gang for a year or so until I went down for drugs. 305 00:21:58,025 --> 00:21:59,357 Got sent to prison. 306 00:22:00,820 --> 00:22:01,856 Haha! 307 00:22:08,786 --> 00:22:10,527 I put your Uncle Vincent down there. 308 00:22:11,497 --> 00:22:15,241 You've never met him because he moved to Louisiana when you were little, so... 309 00:22:16,210 --> 00:22:17,701 We just never see him. 310 00:22:18,879 --> 00:22:20,541 We always figured that he... 311 00:22:27,388 --> 00:22:29,755 He was very feminine-like, you might say. 312 00:22:32,893 --> 00:22:35,510 All right. Oh, I'm tired. 313 00:22:37,898 --> 00:22:39,890 - Night night. - Good night. 314 00:22:48,200 --> 00:22:50,863 What is a real man? 315 00:22:52,580 --> 00:22:54,537 What does a real man look like? 316 00:22:55,583 --> 00:22:56,869 Does anybody know? 317 00:22:58,627 --> 00:23:01,791 Guys, uncross your legs. Posture, come on. 318 00:23:02,298 --> 00:23:06,133 Now, perhaps being close to the flames of hell 319 00:23:07,094 --> 00:23:11,134 and finding your way back shows a great strength. 320 00:23:12,057 --> 00:23:13,673 And if that were so, then, 321 00:23:14,393 --> 00:23:17,431 if this isn't a real man, then I don't know what is. 322 00:23:17,605 --> 00:23:20,097 This is Brandon Ellis, guys. I want you to say hello. 323 00:23:20,190 --> 00:23:21,668 - Thanks, Sykes. - Make him welcome. 324 00:23:21,692 --> 00:23:22,692 Over to you, Brandon. 325 00:23:25,821 --> 00:23:27,904 God bless, God bless. 326 00:23:28,532 --> 00:23:31,616 A real man to me is a man of God first and foremost 327 00:23:32,995 --> 00:23:34,531 and I'm a man of God, no doubt. 328 00:23:35,372 --> 00:23:36,988 I guess that counts me in. 329 00:23:38,584 --> 00:23:39,700 But I wasn't once. 330 00:23:41,170 --> 00:23:43,878 If I was ever listed on my own son's genograms, 331 00:23:44,173 --> 00:23:47,211 there'd be so many of these letters next to my name it would look like 332 00:23:47,843 --> 00:23:51,257 qualifications for some fancy university. 333 00:23:51,347 --> 00:23:54,431 Drugs, violence, gang crime, prison time, 334 00:23:54,600 --> 00:23:57,092 but I actually believe I'm qualified to be here. 335 00:23:57,811 --> 00:24:00,929 Not because I've ever had the types of thoughts and feelings 336 00:24:01,023 --> 00:24:02,309 that y'all are wrestling with, 337 00:24:02,441 --> 00:24:05,149 or that your other guidance counselors have overcome righteously. 338 00:24:06,153 --> 00:24:10,568 But I've had all sorts of my own trials that took me so far away from the Lord 339 00:24:11,075 --> 00:24:15,115 that it's a true miracle that I'm standing here before you today. 340 00:24:16,747 --> 00:24:19,660 But I am. I am. 341 00:24:25,297 --> 00:24:28,415 Standing, leaning, sitting. 342 00:24:29,009 --> 00:24:30,500 All the same idea. 343 00:24:30,970 --> 00:24:33,758 Triangles are the strongest shape. 344 00:24:33,973 --> 00:24:36,056 Remember, hands on hips. Go! 345 00:24:37,393 --> 00:24:38,634 Save yourself. 346 00:24:42,356 --> 00:24:45,565 Fingers forward, not back. Just the way it is. 347 00:24:45,985 --> 00:24:48,819 Think of the shapes you're making and ask yourself, 348 00:24:49,905 --> 00:24:54,400 "Is this a manly shape I'm making or is it a girly or feminine shape?" 349 00:24:55,703 --> 00:24:56,819 Sarah, come on up here. 350 00:24:58,163 --> 00:24:59,825 Come on, you delicate flower, you. 351 00:25:00,958 --> 00:25:01,958 Okay. 352 00:25:02,167 --> 00:25:05,786 I want you to arrange these guys into a line 353 00:25:05,879 --> 00:25:07,916 in terms of masculinity, if you will. 354 00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:11,336 Go on, you can do it. 355 00:25:12,594 --> 00:25:13,801 Follow your instincts. 356 00:25:16,724 --> 00:25:21,014 Myself and other addicts and alcoholics put our faith in AA. 357 00:25:21,603 --> 00:25:25,938 Get familiar with this phrase, "Fake it till you make it." 358 00:25:26,984 --> 00:25:29,772 Y'all folks and kids being what you're afflicted with, 359 00:25:30,404 --> 00:25:31,940 you gotta learn how to survive. 360 00:25:33,323 --> 00:25:34,689 When you're in prison, 361 00:25:34,783 --> 00:25:37,150 you'd surprise yourself what you can do to fit in. 362 00:25:37,244 --> 00:25:40,282 Come on, Phillip. Eye on the ball. 363 00:25:40,622 --> 00:25:42,784 Come on! Okay, next. 364 00:25:42,875 --> 00:25:45,834 Fake it till you make it. Become the man you are not. 365 00:25:45,919 --> 00:25:49,037 So, you think Cameron here is the big winner, huh? 366 00:25:50,382 --> 00:25:52,715 You think being big and tall 367 00:25:52,801 --> 00:25:55,794 and overeating immediately puts a guy at the front of the line. 368 00:25:56,555 --> 00:26:00,139 But it's more than triangles and postures and genetics. 369 00:26:01,143 --> 00:26:03,351 A firm handshake... Let's go! Do it! 370 00:26:04,938 --> 00:26:06,145 Gotta pick up the bat. 371 00:26:07,316 --> 00:26:08,648 Hold the bat up! 372 00:26:10,277 --> 00:26:11,393 Get back up on that horse! 373 00:26:12,237 --> 00:26:13,773 All right, just get him out of there. 374 00:26:16,408 --> 00:26:17,944 Lee, you're gonna be okay. 375 00:26:19,244 --> 00:26:20,485 Jared, you're up next. 376 00:26:22,331 --> 00:26:23,367 Good. 377 00:26:28,712 --> 00:26:31,671 Military man. God bless, son. 378 00:26:31,924 --> 00:26:36,009 Who you are on the inside can be affected by the outside. 379 00:26:36,303 --> 00:26:41,014 Outside in, fake it till you make it, adapt to survive. 380 00:26:41,100 --> 00:26:44,684 See, that's a batting stance. That's what I'm talking about. 381 00:26:45,646 --> 00:26:47,057 Boom! 382 00:26:58,367 --> 00:27:04,034 Lesbian, gay, bisexual, transsexual, whatever that is, 383 00:27:04,123 --> 00:27:08,288 multisexual, intellectual-sexual, I mean, what else do you want? 384 00:27:08,418 --> 00:27:13,083 Unicorns? Squirrels? Cupcakes? I mean, rainbows? 385 00:27:13,173 --> 00:27:16,837 There's so much choice in this group. 386 00:27:16,927 --> 00:27:22,218 But, hey, think about this. What are the consequences to those choices? 387 00:27:24,643 --> 00:27:27,886 Have a look at this. Rape, abuse, AIDS. 388 00:27:29,231 --> 00:27:31,769 What sinful things have y'all done? 389 00:27:36,613 --> 00:27:38,195 Moral inventory. 390 00:27:39,408 --> 00:27:43,277 Catalogue your sins and ask God's forgiveness. 391 00:27:46,623 --> 00:27:47,739 Who's ready? 392 00:27:51,795 --> 00:27:52,831 Sarah! 393 00:28:06,685 --> 00:28:09,849 "I would look at other girls in the changing rooms before gym 394 00:28:10,898 --> 00:28:11,979 "and in the showers. 395 00:28:12,983 --> 00:28:15,691 "My biggest sin is one that I am also thankful for 396 00:28:15,777 --> 00:28:17,769 "because it has led me to Love in Action." 397 00:28:19,615 --> 00:28:21,356 Doing well, Sarah. Carry on. 398 00:28:25,579 --> 00:28:27,241 "I had run away from my uncle's house 399 00:28:28,248 --> 00:28:31,787 "and stayed with some girls I knew whose parents were away. 400 00:28:32,961 --> 00:28:36,375 "It was there that I finally acted on my homosexual thoughts." 401 00:28:39,718 --> 00:28:40,799 Come on, Sarah. 402 00:28:42,054 --> 00:28:43,386 "I let a girl touch my... 403 00:28:44,514 --> 00:28:45,630 "Kiss my... 404 00:28:46,475 --> 00:28:48,432 "My vagina." 405 00:28:50,771 --> 00:28:52,353 Nobody's judging, come on. 406 00:28:52,940 --> 00:28:57,059 "And put her fingers inside me and I did the same. 407 00:28:58,820 --> 00:29:01,654 "I renounce these sinful thoughts and actions 408 00:29:01,740 --> 00:29:04,153 "and ask God to forgive me all these things." 409 00:29:06,745 --> 00:29:07,781 Very good. 410 00:29:09,122 --> 00:29:10,329 We love you, Sarah. 411 00:29:10,666 --> 00:29:13,329 Repeat after me. We love you, Sarah. 412 00:29:14,002 --> 00:29:16,039 - We love you, Sarah. - Very good. 413 00:29:36,984 --> 00:29:39,317 - Do you want some water? - I'm fine, thanks. 414 00:29:41,488 --> 00:29:44,731 - Can I get you anything else? - I'm... I'm fine, thank you. 415 00:29:45,784 --> 00:29:48,822 How dare you humiliate a child like that! 416 00:29:50,038 --> 00:29:51,950 Is that what you guys do? You like that? 417 00:29:52,040 --> 00:29:55,249 You like doing that? You like humiliating and abusing children? 418 00:29:55,961 --> 00:29:58,328 - It's not easy. - What do you mean it's not easy? 419 00:29:58,422 --> 00:29:59,983 - Lee's parents. - His parents are here. 420 00:30:00,007 --> 00:30:01,276 Listen to yourself. 421 00:30:01,300 --> 00:30:04,043 With respect, we are not running a holiday camp here. 422 00:30:04,136 --> 00:30:06,879 We paid you $3,000. I should report you. 423 00:30:07,014 --> 00:30:09,784 - You could have given him a concussion. - David, let's go. 424 00:30:09,808 --> 00:30:11,674 But this change doesn't come easy. 425 00:30:12,227 --> 00:30:13,468 Unbelievable! 426 00:30:27,617 --> 00:30:30,325 Do you all find the reason y'all are here is funny? 427 00:30:31,038 --> 00:30:32,404 Look at y'all! 428 00:30:33,165 --> 00:30:34,326 People! 429 00:30:35,083 --> 00:30:36,619 I'm trying to help you. 430 00:30:36,710 --> 00:30:38,872 So, do not waste my time. 431 00:30:38,962 --> 00:30:42,330 Nobody is to discuss the therapy outside these walls. 432 00:30:42,424 --> 00:30:43,756 Do I make myself clear? 433 00:31:36,186 --> 00:31:37,643 Here. I got you, pal. 434 00:31:38,146 --> 00:31:39,762 - Oh, sorry, sorry. - I got that. 435 00:31:39,898 --> 00:31:41,014 Thank you so much. 436 00:31:41,274 --> 00:31:43,482 Which, uh... Which room you in? 437 00:31:43,777 --> 00:31:45,564 I'm in, uh, 317. 438 00:31:46,154 --> 00:31:49,113 I'm in 237. You run? 439 00:31:49,408 --> 00:31:50,569 - Yeah. - I figure. 440 00:31:50,659 --> 00:31:53,197 - People who run know about Asics, right? - Oh, yeah. 441 00:31:54,162 --> 00:31:55,198 Here. This is me. 442 00:32:05,507 --> 00:32:07,373 First one in gets to choose. 443 00:32:12,264 --> 00:32:13,380 You got a girl? 444 00:32:14,141 --> 00:32:17,760 If so, you might want to think about applying for a room without bunks. 445 00:32:18,186 --> 00:32:19,302 Just broke up. 446 00:32:20,105 --> 00:32:21,105 Oh. 447 00:32:21,314 --> 00:32:24,648 That's perfect timing for college. 448 00:32:26,319 --> 00:32:28,185 We're a good fit. 449 00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:29,816 Hate running with slowpokes. 450 00:32:30,657 --> 00:32:32,694 I tell you what, I race you on the way back. 451 00:32:33,410 --> 00:32:35,743 Last one back has to go to the other one's church. 452 00:32:35,912 --> 00:32:37,699 Why? What kind of church is it? 453 00:32:38,373 --> 00:32:39,489 You game or not? 454 00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:41,000 Okay. 455 00:32:41,543 --> 00:32:44,160 - One, two, three, go! - Two, three, go! 456 00:33:09,070 --> 00:33:11,027 - Jared. - Hey, man. Nice to meet you. 457 00:33:57,786 --> 00:33:59,994 You say your roommate's not back till tomorrow? 458 00:34:00,497 --> 00:34:02,033 He's on some golf trip. 459 00:34:06,586 --> 00:34:07,827 Do you want to crash? 460 00:34:10,757 --> 00:34:12,043 Uh, maybe. 461 00:34:31,820 --> 00:34:32,820 Good night. 462 00:34:33,947 --> 00:34:34,947 Good night. 463 00:35:26,708 --> 00:35:27,994 Can't sleep, huh? 464 00:35:43,308 --> 00:35:45,345 Probably shouldn't run so late at night. 465 00:36:04,829 --> 00:36:05,865 You okay? 466 00:36:08,583 --> 00:36:09,699 Yeah. 467 00:36:12,379 --> 00:36:13,540 Yeah, just... 468 00:37:01,136 --> 00:37:02,468 It's okay. 469 00:37:07,726 --> 00:37:08,726 It's okay. 470 00:37:27,412 --> 00:37:30,576 Hey, it's okay. It's okay. 471 00:37:31,833 --> 00:37:32,869 Wait, wait. 472 00:37:35,044 --> 00:37:36,660 No. 473 00:37:41,885 --> 00:37:43,525 Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop! 474 00:37:56,274 --> 00:37:57,310 Ow! 475 00:38:13,917 --> 00:38:15,728 Come on, keep it down in there. 476 00:38:47,367 --> 00:38:49,487 What the hell is wrong with me? 477 00:38:51,162 --> 00:38:52,448 I'm so sorry. 478 00:38:58,127 --> 00:39:00,119 I'm going to be in so much trouble. 479 00:39:06,427 --> 00:39:07,838 I need to confess. 480 00:39:15,270 --> 00:39:17,262 I need to confess. Will you hear me? 481 00:39:20,483 --> 00:39:21,940 - Please. - Uh-huh. 482 00:39:29,075 --> 00:39:30,941 Do you remember the kid from church? 483 00:39:34,539 --> 00:39:35,871 The one in front of us. 484 00:39:40,169 --> 00:39:42,331 Something happened with me and him. 485 00:39:44,090 --> 00:39:45,581 Something pretty bad. 486 00:39:52,307 --> 00:39:54,469 You wouldn't dare tell anyone, would you? 487 00:39:56,644 --> 00:39:57,644 Please. 488 00:40:00,398 --> 00:40:01,764 Keep it between us. 489 00:40:26,174 --> 00:40:28,837 Start with Chapter 6, please. 490 00:41:31,197 --> 00:41:33,439 What a surprise. 491 00:41:33,741 --> 00:41:34,857 Oh! 492 00:41:54,053 --> 00:41:56,386 - Hello. - Is this Mrs. Nancy Eamons? 493 00:41:56,472 --> 00:41:57,588 This is she. 494 00:41:57,682 --> 00:41:59,423 I'm a counselor at Danning College. 495 00:42:00,351 --> 00:42:04,470 I'm afraid I have some disturbing news about your son's behavior at school. 496 00:42:04,564 --> 00:42:05,564 What? 497 00:42:05,898 --> 00:42:07,230 What about him? 498 00:42:08,359 --> 00:42:10,087 - Did he give you a name? - I need you to answer my question. 499 00:42:10,111 --> 00:42:11,880 - If he gave you a name... - Please, Jared, just answer. 500 00:42:11,904 --> 00:42:12,965 I'm just saying. Why wouldn't he... 501 00:42:12,989 --> 00:42:14,091 Have you been doing the things he said? 502 00:42:14,115 --> 00:42:15,968 - Why wouldn't he give you a name? - Come on, son, enough. 503 00:42:15,992 --> 00:42:16,992 Tell me the truth. 504 00:42:17,076 --> 00:42:20,695 - I'm asking questions, too. - He didn't give me a name. I don't... 505 00:42:20,788 --> 00:42:21,849 The guy's full of shit. 506 00:42:21,873 --> 00:42:23,392 - He's telling a bunch of lies. - Now, you will not talk like that 507 00:42:23,416 --> 00:42:24,601 in this house in front of your mother. 508 00:42:24,625 --> 00:42:25,706 You just watch your mouth. 509 00:42:25,793 --> 00:42:28,376 Nancy, if... If you could just give us a moment, you know, 510 00:42:28,504 --> 00:42:29,565 - just to... - I'm... I'm leaving... 511 00:42:29,589 --> 00:42:30,983 Sit down. You will not leave the room. 512 00:42:31,007 --> 00:42:32,293 You will sit down, boy. 513 00:42:32,884 --> 00:42:35,124 - You will sit down. - It's bullshit, Dad. It's bullshit. 514 00:42:35,178 --> 00:42:36,965 I just asked you to watch your mouth. 515 00:42:40,099 --> 00:42:42,887 I think, um, he said he was a counselor, 516 00:42:42,977 --> 00:42:45,060 and then... And I asked for his name 517 00:42:45,146 --> 00:42:46,557 - and then I asked for... - Nancy. 518 00:42:46,647 --> 00:42:48,125 - You see? - His number and he didn't... 519 00:42:48,149 --> 00:42:49,230 Nancy, please. 520 00:42:49,567 --> 00:42:50,683 Dad, I... 521 00:42:51,402 --> 00:42:52,984 He's made all of this up. 522 00:42:54,363 --> 00:42:55,649 Let's just sit here. 523 00:42:55,782 --> 00:42:58,262 - We're just going to talk calmly. - All right. All right. 524 00:42:59,827 --> 00:43:01,989 - No, Dad. - Jared. 525 00:43:06,501 --> 00:43:08,743 I just need you to tell me the truth, that's all. 526 00:43:09,420 --> 00:43:13,255 What this man says of you, Jared. 527 00:43:14,967 --> 00:43:16,253 Are you a homosexual? 528 00:43:20,515 --> 00:43:21,515 Jared. 529 00:43:22,642 --> 00:43:23,883 We are not finished. 530 00:43:24,018 --> 00:43:27,011 - I am, because you won't listen. - Honey. Honey. 531 00:43:27,522 --> 00:43:30,084 - What this man says, is it true? - What, this full-of-shit guy... 532 00:43:30,108 --> 00:43:31,708 - Answer me. - ...who is not a counselor, 533 00:43:31,818 --> 00:43:34,310 who raped a kid at his own church 534 00:43:35,613 --> 00:43:36,945 and God knows who else. 535 00:43:37,865 --> 00:43:39,322 Dad, you're hurting me. 536 00:43:39,700 --> 00:43:41,657 - Marshall. - His name is Henry Wallace. 537 00:43:41,828 --> 00:43:44,161 He's... He's not a counselor, he's a student. 538 00:43:44,247 --> 00:43:45,579 - All right. - And... And... 539 00:43:46,666 --> 00:43:47,998 He told me he did some bad things. 540 00:43:48,084 --> 00:43:50,076 I think he thinks I'm going to tell on him. 541 00:43:51,671 --> 00:43:52,752 Honey. 542 00:43:54,507 --> 00:43:55,543 Son. 543 00:44:08,104 --> 00:44:09,104 Fight! 544 00:44:19,157 --> 00:44:20,443 Go to war! 545 00:44:32,295 --> 00:44:33,831 Your mother's making dinner. 546 00:44:36,257 --> 00:44:37,714 I'm okay. I'm not hungry. 547 00:44:43,764 --> 00:44:46,427 I want you to write down this man's name, 548 00:44:47,185 --> 00:44:51,520 his church, phone number if you have it. Any information at all. 549 00:44:52,607 --> 00:44:55,350 - I don't want you to talk to him. - I ain't going to talk to him. 550 00:44:56,444 --> 00:44:59,482 If he's been doing what you say, then he needs to be reported. 551 00:45:03,409 --> 00:45:04,409 Okay. 552 00:45:05,953 --> 00:45:09,663 Now, you know what I did? I invited Chloe and her parents for lunch tomorrow. 553 00:45:09,790 --> 00:45:11,830 I was thinking it would be fun if you could join in. 554 00:45:12,668 --> 00:45:15,411 Missing one more day of class ain't gonna end the world. 555 00:45:16,631 --> 00:45:18,247 You know, Jared... 556 00:45:19,508 --> 00:45:21,170 ...as far as I can tell, 557 00:45:22,345 --> 00:45:24,587 we've only got one God-given right. 558 00:45:25,389 --> 00:45:28,723 And that is when a man and a woman come together. 559 00:45:28,809 --> 00:45:31,677 They may create life. 560 00:45:32,563 --> 00:45:35,727 You think how much God must love mankind 561 00:45:35,858 --> 00:45:38,475 - to give us that awesome responsibility. - Dad. 562 00:45:39,820 --> 00:45:41,982 It's really not true. 563 00:45:48,788 --> 00:45:51,451 You know what I think about these type of games, too. 564 00:45:53,084 --> 00:45:55,371 Be respectful to your mother when she calls. 565 00:45:56,504 --> 00:45:57,585 You come down and eat. 566 00:46:32,581 --> 00:46:33,581 Honey. 567 00:46:33,874 --> 00:46:37,083 All right. You want me to stop with the games? 568 00:46:37,420 --> 00:46:38,420 I'll stop with them. 569 00:46:38,963 --> 00:46:40,454 I broke up with Chloe 570 00:46:41,465 --> 00:46:42,751 because... 571 00:46:48,764 --> 00:46:51,006 We broke up because I think it's true 572 00:46:52,101 --> 00:46:53,262 about me. 573 00:46:55,813 --> 00:46:57,145 God help me. 574 00:46:59,650 --> 00:47:01,107 I think about men. 575 00:47:15,041 --> 00:47:16,577 I don't know why. 576 00:47:19,170 --> 00:47:20,411 I'm so sorry. 577 00:48:13,265 --> 00:48:14,676 God bless you, pastor. 578 00:48:19,605 --> 00:48:21,541 - Are you okay? - I've had better days, 579 00:48:21,565 --> 00:48:22,772 I can tell you that. 580 00:48:32,368 --> 00:48:34,576 - Just a minute. Just a minute. - Mom? 581 00:48:34,662 --> 00:48:37,120 Hold on. All right. 582 00:48:43,963 --> 00:48:46,125 Why are Pastor Wilkes and Jim Picard here? 583 00:48:46,966 --> 00:48:49,629 Pastor Wilkes has dealt with this kind of thing before. 584 00:48:52,555 --> 00:48:55,047 Jim has a son, Eddie, who, um... 585 00:48:55,141 --> 00:48:57,098 You were a little boy, but... 586 00:48:58,394 --> 00:48:59,475 Anyway. 587 00:49:00,396 --> 00:49:02,388 - What did they do to him? - Oh, no. 588 00:49:02,815 --> 00:49:04,852 You silly thing. 589 00:49:04,942 --> 00:49:06,899 They didn't do anything to him. 590 00:49:07,069 --> 00:49:08,935 They did things for him, 591 00:49:09,864 --> 00:49:10,864 all right? 592 00:49:12,366 --> 00:49:14,733 Just like they're gonna do things for you. 593 00:49:15,119 --> 00:49:17,111 Your father's wondering... 594 00:49:18,330 --> 00:49:20,322 He's wondering how to help. 595 00:49:23,586 --> 00:49:24,793 Come here. 596 00:49:25,212 --> 00:49:26,953 It's all gonna be all right. 597 00:49:30,259 --> 00:49:32,125 We've got one question for you, son, 598 00:49:33,053 --> 00:49:35,295 and we're gonna let you sleep. It's been a big day. 599 00:49:37,933 --> 00:49:40,971 I have shared our conversations 600 00:49:42,354 --> 00:49:45,973 with these two fine, upstanding men and I have asked them for their guidance. 601 00:49:48,777 --> 00:49:51,941 I can tell you right now we don't have all the answers. 602 00:49:52,364 --> 00:49:56,779 But I do know that you gonna hold the key to the next step. 603 00:49:58,204 --> 00:50:01,117 Your mother and I, we cannot see 604 00:50:01,916 --> 00:50:04,203 a way that you can live under this roof, 605 00:50:04,752 --> 00:50:07,369 attend service and work at the dealership 606 00:50:08,756 --> 00:50:11,965 if you're going to fundamentally go against the grain of our beliefs 607 00:50:13,135 --> 00:50:14,797 and against God himself. 608 00:50:17,556 --> 00:50:19,513 I'm gonna ask you that question now, son. 609 00:50:23,729 --> 00:50:25,311 In your heart, 610 00:50:28,692 --> 00:50:30,479 do you want to change? 611 00:50:51,298 --> 00:50:52,379 Yes. 612 00:50:53,759 --> 00:50:55,375 Yes, I want to change. 613 00:51:00,224 --> 00:51:01,681 Come a little closer, son. 614 00:51:02,393 --> 00:51:03,725 Pastor Wilkes, 615 00:51:04,937 --> 00:51:08,226 could you ask Jesus to shine his light 616 00:51:09,233 --> 00:51:10,895 on my boy at this time? 617 00:51:13,070 --> 00:51:16,313 Heavenly Father, I ask your blessing for this family. 618 00:51:16,407 --> 00:51:17,864 Give them strength. 619 00:51:18,659 --> 00:51:20,571 Unleash your power 620 00:51:21,453 --> 00:51:25,413 for one of your flock, Jared, who has lost his way. 621 00:51:25,791 --> 00:51:28,875 We pray, Lord, that you make him pure 622 00:51:29,628 --> 00:51:32,336 and that you return him safely back to us 623 00:51:32,423 --> 00:51:38,044 and see that the errors of his way are nothing more than a momentary straying. 624 00:51:39,305 --> 00:51:42,343 We pray that he see the path of faith 625 00:51:42,683 --> 00:51:45,892 and that he strive to be honest 626 00:51:46,270 --> 00:51:49,229 and that he then find the joy of a new life. 627 00:51:50,065 --> 00:51:51,806 In His name we pray. 628 00:51:52,359 --> 00:51:53,566 Amen. 629 00:51:54,153 --> 00:51:55,189 Jared. 630 00:52:01,035 --> 00:52:02,867 How's college treating ya? 631 00:52:03,454 --> 00:52:06,288 Uh, it's going good. Yeah. It's good. 632 00:52:06,790 --> 00:52:09,908 Your father's asked me to take some of your blood. 633 00:52:13,505 --> 00:52:15,167 He wants me to... 634 00:52:15,591 --> 00:52:17,958 To check for testosterone levels. 635 00:52:21,597 --> 00:52:25,932 I'm in a bit of a bind here, Jared, and I... I said this to your mother, too. 636 00:52:26,018 --> 00:52:30,228 Now, I am a religious woman, there's... There's no... No question, 637 00:52:30,314 --> 00:52:32,556 but I have also been to medical school, 638 00:52:33,567 --> 00:52:37,937 and, well, you can say that I hold science in one hand 639 00:52:38,030 --> 00:52:41,865 and God in the other, and that is not always an easy balance. 640 00:52:43,118 --> 00:52:46,782 And I know that everybody would like for me to say otherwise 641 00:52:46,872 --> 00:52:49,706 and send you down to the pharmacy for a... 642 00:52:49,792 --> 00:52:53,877 A pill that would magically fix you, but that's not gonna happen. 643 00:52:54,338 --> 00:52:56,204 But I'm gonna take your blood and I know... 644 00:52:56,298 --> 00:52:57,880 I know what it's gonna show me. 645 00:52:58,509 --> 00:53:02,844 That you are a perfectly normal, very healthy teenage boy. 646 00:53:05,057 --> 00:53:09,392 Jared, it's not my place to tell you that your parents are wrong, 647 00:53:09,770 --> 00:53:12,433 but let's say that they are wrong. 648 00:53:13,107 --> 00:53:16,851 I understand your father signed you up for a program next month. 649 00:53:19,029 --> 00:53:23,615 Whatever happens next, it is still your choice. 650 00:53:24,743 --> 00:53:26,951 It may not feel that way, but it is. 651 00:53:28,330 --> 00:53:29,616 You're 18. 652 00:53:32,626 --> 00:53:36,996 Do you have anything that you'd... You'd like to say to me? 653 00:53:38,382 --> 00:53:41,125 Any... Any questions? 654 00:53:45,139 --> 00:53:46,255 No. 655 00:53:51,019 --> 00:53:52,180 Jared? 656 00:53:53,939 --> 00:53:55,055 Morning. 657 00:54:05,868 --> 00:54:10,078 So, I wanted to talk to you about these. 658 00:54:11,582 --> 00:54:13,448 Uh, your writing. 659 00:54:15,169 --> 00:54:21,416 This "Remy and Lucy met at midnight under the stars on Willow Street." 660 00:54:23,302 --> 00:54:25,339 What... Tell me about these. 661 00:54:27,514 --> 00:54:29,927 It's... It's just... It's a story. 662 00:54:32,186 --> 00:54:35,429 It's a love story about a boy and a girl, correct? 663 00:54:35,564 --> 00:54:37,271 - Yeah. - But were you thinking 664 00:54:37,357 --> 00:54:40,475 about two boys when you wrote this? 665 00:54:42,362 --> 00:54:44,228 - No. - Be honest. 666 00:54:44,823 --> 00:54:47,031 No, it's just a story. 667 00:54:48,118 --> 00:54:50,360 It's just an assignment for college. 668 00:54:53,040 --> 00:54:55,999 Jared, I've seen your reading list for college. I have it here, 669 00:54:56,084 --> 00:54:59,373 and listen, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Lolita, 670 00:55:00,255 --> 00:55:02,121 I mean, some of these... These books, Jared, 671 00:55:02,216 --> 00:55:04,277 considering everything that's going on for you right now, 672 00:55:04,301 --> 00:55:06,112 I don't know that college is really the best thing 673 00:55:06,136 --> 00:55:07,752 for you to be pursuing at all. 674 00:55:09,473 --> 00:55:13,717 A year with us may be a much, much better use of your time, 675 00:55:15,979 --> 00:55:17,686 given everything that I see, 676 00:55:19,858 --> 00:55:21,645 and everything that's at stake. 677 00:55:24,363 --> 00:55:26,650 And I'm willing to say that to your parents. 678 00:55:29,243 --> 00:55:31,326 Listen, I've had many wonderful conversations 679 00:55:31,411 --> 00:55:32,902 with your parents. Lovely people. 680 00:55:32,996 --> 00:55:35,454 So, I know some of your story. 681 00:55:35,916 --> 00:55:39,535 And I know that there is quite a discrepancy 682 00:55:39,628 --> 00:55:43,087 between what they were told and what you said. 683 00:55:44,550 --> 00:55:49,045 And you gotta understand that they don't know what to believe, 684 00:55:49,137 --> 00:55:51,254 and that's very troubling for them. 685 00:55:53,350 --> 00:55:55,057 But I think that you and I know 686 00:55:55,143 --> 00:55:57,556 that there is a whole lot more to the story, 687 00:55:58,105 --> 00:56:02,349 and, you know, we're not here on mere thoughts alone. 688 00:56:06,738 --> 00:56:09,446 Jared, the... The people that get the most out of this place 689 00:56:09,533 --> 00:56:13,994 are the people that are just really brave and honest 690 00:56:14,079 --> 00:56:17,322 and lay everything on the table, ugly as it seems, 691 00:56:17,416 --> 00:56:20,159 and fess up to what God already sees. 692 00:56:22,880 --> 00:56:27,875 And then, I can really truly assess what is the best future for you. 693 00:56:31,096 --> 00:56:32,462 Okay, son? 694 00:56:35,684 --> 00:56:37,767 Yeah. Yeah. 695 00:56:41,982 --> 00:56:46,101 Dear Heavenly Father, today I ask your forgiveness for my sins. 696 00:56:47,613 --> 00:56:51,277 For a year, we lived together under the cover of being roommates. 697 00:56:51,825 --> 00:56:56,536 But in reality, the whole time I was committing the sin of sodomy. 698 00:56:57,623 --> 00:57:00,957 And then my family discovered the truth and brought me back to my senses. 699 00:57:01,376 --> 00:57:03,789 They helped me realize that I was fooling myself. 700 00:57:05,380 --> 00:57:07,121 That I was being fooled. 701 00:57:08,383 --> 00:57:12,047 That I was seduced into a life of sin by all sorts of sinful people. 702 00:57:13,347 --> 00:57:16,340 And I knew in my heart that I had forsaken Jesus for Satan. 703 00:57:17,017 --> 00:57:18,017 But now, 704 00:57:21,939 --> 00:57:23,646 I am awake to my sins. 705 00:57:24,274 --> 00:57:25,731 I'm enlightened, 706 00:57:26,151 --> 00:57:27,642 I'm here with all of you 707 00:57:27,945 --> 00:57:31,689 and I'm disgusted at the person that I once was. 708 00:57:34,368 --> 00:57:36,451 I want to ask God for his forgiveness, 709 00:57:38,288 --> 00:57:40,575 and I want to thank all of you guys, 710 00:57:41,041 --> 00:57:42,532 especially you, Mr. Sykes, 711 00:57:43,210 --> 00:57:45,793 for helping me get back on the path to righteousness. 712 00:57:45,963 --> 00:57:47,499 We love you, Gary. 713 00:57:48,298 --> 00:57:49,914 We love you, Gary. 714 00:58:05,565 --> 00:58:07,477 Please don't do that, honey. You know I... 715 00:58:07,609 --> 00:58:10,022 Mom, who did that happen to and when? 716 00:58:10,153 --> 00:58:12,019 Seriously. Do you know? 717 00:58:12,114 --> 00:58:13,980 Do you actually know who that happened to? 718 00:58:17,703 --> 00:58:18,944 It never happened. 719 00:58:24,167 --> 00:58:25,908 Parents want to protect their kids. 720 00:58:26,044 --> 00:58:29,162 - So they feed them lies. - I think that they're okay lies. 721 00:58:29,256 --> 00:58:32,044 What? Like not telling me how long I might be here for? 722 00:58:34,511 --> 00:58:37,299 You know the whole thing you and Dad are paying for here 723 00:58:37,514 --> 00:58:40,257 is all about how messed up we are by our parents. 724 00:58:40,642 --> 00:58:43,635 They want to know about you. That's why you can't know all about it, 725 00:58:43,729 --> 00:58:45,849 because then they wouldn't get their money out of you. 726 00:58:46,815 --> 00:58:49,057 What have I ever done to you, hmm? 727 00:58:49,609 --> 00:58:52,317 Talk about me all you want. My conscious is clean. 728 00:59:02,080 --> 00:59:03,446 Honey. 729 00:59:21,767 --> 00:59:23,759 I'm gonna go for a run. Is that okay, Mom? 730 00:59:24,811 --> 00:59:25,811 Mmm-hmm. 731 01:00:22,077 --> 01:00:23,193 Fuck you! 732 01:00:26,581 --> 01:00:27,992 Fuck you! 733 01:00:36,675 --> 01:00:38,132 Fuck you! 734 01:00:42,180 --> 01:00:44,263 Please, please give me strength. 735 01:00:44,349 --> 01:00:45,715 I need your help. 736 01:00:46,685 --> 01:00:47,685 Amen. 737 01:01:05,120 --> 01:01:07,737 I'm reading it. No debate. 738 01:01:08,540 --> 01:01:10,532 I have a right to know what they're teaching you. 739 01:01:11,334 --> 01:01:14,418 I don't see why anyone would read it unless you absolutely had to. 740 01:01:15,213 --> 01:01:16,954 I need to know what's inside. 741 01:01:17,966 --> 01:01:20,208 There are tons of spelling errors in it. 742 01:01:20,969 --> 01:01:23,177 I almost want to mark up a copy for them. 743 01:01:24,306 --> 01:01:26,889 But that would take away the only real enjoyment you get 744 01:01:26,975 --> 01:01:29,592 from reading it, because I guess it's 745 01:01:31,104 --> 01:01:33,221 actually not much fun to be there. 746 01:01:36,818 --> 01:01:40,107 And I'm starting to wonder whether it's really going to change me. 747 01:02:01,676 --> 01:02:05,966 "We always come back to Dog's true design." 748 01:02:12,145 --> 01:02:13,636 Almighty Dog. 749 01:02:46,805 --> 01:02:49,172 Welcome to God Versus Science... 750 01:02:54,396 --> 01:02:55,728 Thank you. 751 01:03:38,773 --> 01:03:40,264 Where are you from, Xavier? 752 01:03:41,484 --> 01:03:42,975 I was born in Vienna. 753 01:03:43,570 --> 01:03:46,984 I ended up in Canada, and now I'm here. 754 01:03:56,416 --> 01:03:57,827 Do you believe in God? 755 01:03:59,044 --> 01:04:00,251 I do, yeah. 756 01:04:01,921 --> 01:04:02,921 Wow. 757 01:04:04,674 --> 01:04:08,213 I question it, but I still believe in God, yeah. 758 01:04:15,268 --> 01:04:16,759 Who created the Earth? 759 01:04:19,147 --> 01:04:20,729 You like a little small talk, huh? 760 01:04:22,525 --> 01:04:24,107 Do you believe in the Devil? 761 01:04:29,199 --> 01:04:30,565 Did he look like me? 762 01:04:33,370 --> 01:04:34,702 I don't know. 763 01:04:51,262 --> 01:04:53,254 Do you know Job from the Bible? 764 01:04:54,474 --> 01:04:55,840 Not personally. 765 01:04:56,434 --> 01:04:59,643 I hear he's not great company. Always complaining. 766 01:05:04,109 --> 01:05:05,816 I imagine I'm him sometimes. 767 01:05:06,694 --> 01:05:10,438 And that God and the Devil are having a bet over me. 768 01:05:10,865 --> 01:05:13,152 That one day God will let me in 769 01:05:13,243 --> 01:05:16,236 on the experiment he was having to test me. 770 01:05:19,249 --> 01:05:21,912 I think we're our own God. 771 01:05:23,503 --> 01:05:25,369 I mean, I think he's in us. 772 01:05:26,965 --> 01:05:30,800 In all of us, not, you know, somewhere 773 01:05:31,177 --> 01:05:33,510 hiding and watching. 774 01:05:45,024 --> 01:05:46,310 Stay with me. 775 01:05:48,111 --> 01:05:49,522 Nothing needs to happen. 776 01:05:51,239 --> 01:05:52,525 I swear. 777 01:05:55,952 --> 01:05:58,535 I'll prove to you that God won't strike you down. 778 01:06:36,659 --> 01:06:38,241 You wronged me, Dad... 779 01:06:39,287 --> 01:06:41,324 - And I hate the way... - Louder, Cameron. 780 01:06:41,623 --> 01:06:45,082 Can't hear you. Come on. I'll bring him closer, there he is. 781 01:06:46,878 --> 01:06:50,417 You wronged me, Dad, and I hate you for the way that you treated me 782 01:06:50,548 --> 01:06:52,164 since you found out about my problems. 783 01:06:52,258 --> 01:06:53,794 No, about your sin. 784 01:06:54,260 --> 01:06:55,751 Say that. 785 01:06:55,845 --> 01:06:58,087 "About my sins." Go! 786 01:07:03,144 --> 01:07:05,727 "About my sins," come on, Cameron. 787 01:07:07,690 --> 01:07:11,183 "My homosexual sins." Come on, Cameron. 788 01:07:12,070 --> 01:07:13,527 - Cameron! - I can go. 789 01:07:14,614 --> 01:07:15,775 I don't... I don't mind... 790 01:07:15,865 --> 01:07:19,279 No, no, no. Jared, everybody gets a turn. This is Cameron's turn. 791 01:07:19,536 --> 01:07:22,950 - "About my sins!" Come on! - Found out about my sins. 792 01:07:25,333 --> 01:07:28,167 I hate that you never listen to me or acknowledge me. 793 01:07:28,294 --> 01:07:29,580 And when you do acknowledge me, 794 01:07:29,671 --> 01:07:31,471 it's to make fun of me in front of my friends. 795 01:07:31,548 --> 01:07:33,130 "It's to make fun of me." 796 01:07:34,133 --> 01:07:36,090 To make fun of me in front of my friends. 797 01:07:37,220 --> 01:07:40,804 And that time that you told me that you wished I'd never been born. 798 01:07:41,933 --> 01:07:43,219 That really hurt me. 799 01:07:48,565 --> 01:07:49,726 Cameron... 800 01:07:51,484 --> 01:07:55,273 Now, you say that you're angry, 801 01:07:56,155 --> 01:07:58,397 but quite frankly, I don't really see it. 802 01:07:59,701 --> 01:08:02,489 Well, what's going on in there, Cameron, huh? 803 01:08:04,080 --> 01:08:05,912 Do you want to change? 804 01:08:06,791 --> 01:08:09,249 Now you're going to wish you hadn't been born, son, 805 01:08:09,335 --> 01:08:13,454 because God will not love you the way that you are right now. 806 01:08:14,757 --> 01:08:17,215 Unless you really want to change. 807 01:08:18,886 --> 01:08:20,548 Well? Come on! 808 01:08:28,479 --> 01:08:29,936 Well, I guess not. 809 01:08:30,106 --> 01:08:33,099 I guess not. Okay. Let's take a break. 810 01:08:35,028 --> 01:08:38,487 And you are going to stay here until you are ready to go. 811 01:08:38,615 --> 01:08:40,902 Everybody but Cameron, take a break. 812 01:08:45,830 --> 01:08:48,664 I don't care if you sit there all day, son. 813 01:09:08,144 --> 01:09:11,103 - Is this all a game to you? - What do you mean? 814 01:09:12,398 --> 01:09:13,684 Listen, man. 815 01:09:14,275 --> 01:09:16,392 You gotta think about why you went there. 816 01:09:16,694 --> 01:09:19,437 You're trying to bail him out? Seriously? 817 01:09:19,822 --> 01:09:21,484 And touching him like that? 818 01:09:21,991 --> 01:09:23,823 Do you think no one saw? 819 01:09:23,910 --> 01:09:25,276 You saw him. 820 01:09:25,370 --> 01:09:28,238 He was very upset. I didn't mean anything by it. 821 01:09:28,331 --> 01:09:29,822 I should report you. 822 01:09:29,999 --> 01:09:32,912 True ownership, man. Okay. 823 01:09:33,002 --> 01:09:36,166 This is what moral inventory is all about. 824 01:09:37,006 --> 01:09:39,214 And you gotta quit staring at me all the time. 825 01:09:39,801 --> 01:09:42,134 These are the urges that we gotta stamp out. 826 01:09:42,345 --> 01:09:44,257 Okay, you gotta control this. 827 01:09:46,015 --> 01:09:48,348 - Do you even want this to work? - Of course I do. 828 01:09:49,185 --> 01:09:50,892 We're all trying to make this work. 829 01:09:50,978 --> 01:09:53,516 I'm having a tough time, too, just like you are. 830 01:09:54,190 --> 01:09:56,273 Listen, I'm fine. 831 01:10:03,700 --> 01:10:05,407 It doesn't seem like it. 832 01:10:28,182 --> 01:10:29,702 Hey, what are you doing in here alone? 833 01:10:29,726 --> 01:10:32,389 You're meant to attend bathroom breaks with a staff member. 834 01:10:38,067 --> 01:10:39,979 What? Now you don't have to pee? 835 01:10:44,949 --> 01:10:46,815 Or are you going to do something solo? 836 01:10:49,036 --> 01:10:50,743 That's why they make them rules. 837 01:10:53,833 --> 01:10:55,620 Not to be trusted. 838 01:10:56,335 --> 01:10:58,292 Not at this stage of the game. 839 01:11:02,508 --> 01:11:03,508 Hmm. 840 01:11:04,260 --> 01:11:06,126 Sounds like Morse code. 841 01:11:07,805 --> 01:11:09,671 Sending me a message, 842 01:11:10,558 --> 01:11:12,015 faggot? 843 01:11:58,773 --> 01:12:00,639 Starting to see it for what it is? 844 01:12:07,907 --> 01:12:09,114 You okay? 845 01:12:10,034 --> 01:12:12,367 I'm fine. I'm fine. 846 01:12:13,830 --> 01:12:15,617 I'm going to give you some advice. 847 01:12:19,460 --> 01:12:20,917 Play the part. 848 01:12:23,130 --> 01:12:24,587 Show them it's working. 849 01:12:24,799 --> 01:12:26,256 You're getting better. 850 01:12:29,637 --> 01:12:31,970 Fake it until you make it, right? 851 01:12:34,183 --> 01:12:37,722 You don't want to end up in one of those houses for any length of time. 852 01:12:38,771 --> 01:12:41,013 I've heard the stories and they're not good. 853 01:12:41,899 --> 01:12:44,107 And that's where you're likely gonna end up. 854 01:12:44,819 --> 01:12:46,310 Sarah's already there. 855 01:12:47,613 --> 01:12:49,650 So, play the part, man. 856 01:12:52,243 --> 01:12:55,782 And then, once you're home, you gotta figure out what to do next. 857 01:12:57,540 --> 01:13:01,159 If it comes down to it, you may have to walk away from everything. 858 01:13:03,421 --> 01:13:04,707 Everyone. 859 01:13:08,259 --> 01:13:09,625 Thank you for today, Michael. 860 01:13:10,887 --> 01:13:12,094 - See you tomorrow. - Mmm-hmm. 861 01:13:19,061 --> 01:13:22,475 You're gonna be on the podium any day now, so you should have a plan. 862 01:13:24,066 --> 01:13:26,399 Unless you really think you can change. 863 01:13:28,613 --> 01:13:30,855 Or even want to. 864 01:13:38,289 --> 01:13:39,808 I don't want to be here anymore. 865 01:13:39,832 --> 01:13:41,915 It's a trial. It... 866 01:13:42,001 --> 01:13:43,145 I don't feel good here. 867 01:13:43,169 --> 01:13:45,035 Nobody feels good about you being there, Jared. 868 01:13:45,129 --> 01:13:48,372 I don't... I don't... I'm not sure if I feel any different. 869 01:13:48,466 --> 01:13:52,210 Son, son, you're not even halfway through. 870 01:13:53,387 --> 01:13:55,240 Why didn't you tell me how long I might stay for? 871 01:13:55,264 --> 01:13:57,256 None of us knows the answer to that, Jared. 872 01:13:57,350 --> 01:13:59,453 It's kind of up to you. You know, you just gotta give it a chance. 873 01:13:59,477 --> 01:14:01,514 This is like the book of Matthew. 874 01:14:01,604 --> 01:14:03,081 The Devil's not going to ask you once, 875 01:14:03,105 --> 01:14:04,917 he's going to ask you over and over again, son. 876 01:14:04,941 --> 01:14:07,934 And you have just gotta find the strength and commitment inside you. 877 01:14:08,903 --> 01:14:11,236 You can get through this, okay? 878 01:14:12,365 --> 01:14:13,651 Okay? 879 01:14:14,533 --> 01:14:17,150 - All right. - It's late. Get some sleep. 880 01:14:17,328 --> 01:14:19,615 - Good night. - Good night. 881 01:14:58,119 --> 01:15:00,862 Jared? You're gonna be late. 882 01:15:33,237 --> 01:15:34,899 I had thoughts of men. 883 01:15:35,239 --> 01:15:36,775 Boys at school. 884 01:15:38,200 --> 01:15:39,361 At college, I... 885 01:15:42,455 --> 01:15:43,866 My imagination. 886 01:15:50,254 --> 01:15:53,213 - Hey, what's going on? - I have no idea. 887 01:15:58,012 --> 01:16:00,755 - Michael, what's going on? - Just grab a tie. 888 01:16:06,896 --> 01:16:10,480 Sadly, we are gathered here today to say farewell 889 01:16:11,817 --> 01:16:15,276 to our son, our friend, and our brother, 890 01:16:15,362 --> 01:16:16,648 Cameron Van Heusen, 891 01:16:16,739 --> 01:16:22,155 who by his own making last night, fell prey to Satan's wishes. 892 01:16:24,038 --> 01:16:25,700 Brother Van Heusen, is this 893 01:16:26,332 --> 01:16:27,994 what you want for your son? 894 01:16:29,001 --> 01:16:30,037 No. 895 01:16:30,252 --> 01:16:32,710 Young man, is this you? 896 01:16:33,881 --> 01:16:35,747 Brother Cameron, is this what you want? 897 01:16:36,509 --> 01:16:38,671 - No. - Both of you, come on. 898 01:16:41,055 --> 01:16:42,591 Bring him down here. 899 01:16:44,183 --> 01:16:46,536 - Let's go. - Who's gonna strike this demon down? 900 01:16:46,560 --> 01:16:47,846 I will. 901 01:16:51,107 --> 01:16:53,645 Out, you demon! Hit it! 902 01:16:53,734 --> 01:16:55,566 - Get out of him! - That's it. 903 01:16:56,028 --> 01:16:58,736 - Out! - Leave, demon! Leave! 904 01:18:55,856 --> 01:18:57,438 Sarah, come on! 905 01:19:31,267 --> 01:19:32,974 Stay with me. 906 01:19:37,398 --> 01:19:40,311 I'll prove to you that God won't strike you down. 907 01:21:14,244 --> 01:21:15,610 All right, take your seat. 908 01:21:15,788 --> 01:21:17,245 Welcome back, son. 909 01:21:18,832 --> 01:21:23,202 Now, I don't know about you all, but today, ooh, I feel invigorated. 910 01:21:23,754 --> 01:21:26,918 And I feel hopeful and a true sense that 911 01:21:27,383 --> 01:21:31,502 anything is possible today in this room. 912 01:21:33,138 --> 01:21:34,879 Cameron, how do you feel, son? 913 01:21:36,642 --> 01:21:37,883 I feel great, sir. 914 01:21:39,645 --> 01:21:42,388 Do you feel the true presence of God in your heart? 915 01:21:43,148 --> 01:21:44,148 Yes, sir. 916 01:21:44,358 --> 01:21:46,725 And that feels great, doesn't it? 917 01:21:47,361 --> 01:21:48,772 Yes, sir, it does. 918 01:21:49,863 --> 01:21:50,899 For sure. 919 01:21:55,160 --> 01:21:56,617 I'm happy for you, son. 920 01:21:58,956 --> 01:22:00,492 Moral inventory. 921 01:22:04,753 --> 01:22:07,416 Jared, you're up, son. 922 01:22:11,176 --> 01:22:12,212 Come on. 923 01:22:12,803 --> 01:22:13,964 Come on, son. 924 01:22:15,264 --> 01:22:16,800 All right. Michael. 925 01:22:28,861 --> 01:22:31,194 And when you're ready. 926 01:22:34,616 --> 01:22:36,198 "I had thoughts of men. 927 01:22:38,412 --> 01:22:39,744 "Boys at school. 928 01:22:41,415 --> 01:22:44,704 "On TV. On the street. In my imagination. 929 01:22:45,502 --> 01:22:49,337 "At college I held the hand of a boy and I stayed through the night in his bed. 930 01:22:52,801 --> 01:22:55,794 "For these thoughts and this action for which I felt regretful, 931 01:22:55,888 --> 01:22:58,048 - "I'd like to ask for God's..." - Wait. Hold on. 932 01:22:59,433 --> 01:23:00,549 Jared. 933 01:23:02,561 --> 01:23:04,723 Come on. What else? 934 01:23:06,523 --> 01:23:07,730 I never... 935 01:23:08,692 --> 01:23:11,059 I stayed through the night with a boy from college, 936 01:23:11,153 --> 01:23:12,644 but we never did anything more. 937 01:23:12,779 --> 01:23:16,068 Listen, don't even try lying to God, Jared. 938 01:23:16,158 --> 01:23:17,820 He already sees. 939 01:23:18,785 --> 01:23:20,697 So, come on. What else? 940 01:23:24,208 --> 01:23:27,076 I lied on my genogram. My Uncle Chris wasn't an alcoholic. 941 01:23:27,169 --> 01:23:29,957 Why don't you tell us about this Henry boy? 942 01:23:32,216 --> 01:23:33,707 That your daddy told me about. 943 01:23:34,343 --> 01:23:36,426 That's not... That's not fair. 944 01:23:36,887 --> 01:23:37,887 Why not? 945 01:23:38,514 --> 01:23:40,176 That's not my sin. 946 01:23:40,474 --> 01:23:42,636 Do you want to waste these people's time? 947 01:23:42,726 --> 01:23:43,762 I'm not. 948 01:23:43,894 --> 01:23:47,558 No, these people who got up here honestly and were brave... 949 01:23:47,648 --> 01:23:49,929 Well, I could make something up, I could make something up. 950 01:23:49,983 --> 01:23:52,475 Is that what you... Is that what you want me to do? 951 01:23:52,694 --> 01:23:55,687 Isn't that a sin, too? 952 01:23:55,781 --> 01:23:58,990 I mean, if thoughts are a sin, I ask God's forgiveness for that, 953 01:23:59,076 --> 01:24:01,193 but I'm not making anything up. 954 01:24:05,999 --> 01:24:07,535 Okay, then. Okay. 955 01:24:10,462 --> 01:24:11,623 Lie chair. 956 01:24:12,965 --> 01:24:16,925 I just want to make use of some of this anger. 957 01:24:19,096 --> 01:24:23,636 Uh, wait. Guys, just sit. Just stay where you are, okay? 958 01:24:23,725 --> 01:24:25,341 Here he is, Jared. 959 01:24:26,019 --> 01:24:27,601 Your father is sitting here 960 01:24:27,688 --> 01:24:31,557 and I want you to tell him how affected you are by him. 961 01:24:31,650 --> 01:24:34,438 And how angry you are. 962 01:24:34,528 --> 01:24:37,316 Tell him how you hate him for the things that he's... The way... 963 01:24:37,447 --> 01:24:40,110 - You can sit down. Sit down. - But I'm not angry. 964 01:24:40,200 --> 01:24:41,736 - Yeah, I know. - And he's done things 965 01:24:41,827 --> 01:24:43,363 - that upset me, but... - But you are. 966 01:24:43,495 --> 01:24:46,033 - You're angry, but you don't... - He's let me down... 967 01:24:46,123 --> 01:24:47,330 Why do I have to be angry? 968 01:24:47,457 --> 01:24:49,744 Just sit. 969 01:24:50,043 --> 01:24:51,625 - Sit down. - I'm not a dog. 970 01:24:51,753 --> 01:24:53,961 - I know. - And I don't think anyone is responsible 971 01:24:54,047 --> 01:24:57,256 for me, so I don't see how it's gonna help picking someone to blame or hate. 972 01:24:57,467 --> 01:25:01,006 If you don't hate anyone, Jared, then where is all this anger coming from? 973 01:25:01,096 --> 01:25:02,337 Because you're making me angry. 974 01:25:02,472 --> 01:25:04,429 There you go! I want you to use that! 975 01:25:04,516 --> 01:25:07,554 I'm not gonna pretend I hate my father. I don't hate my father. 976 01:25:07,644 --> 01:25:09,385 Jared, you do. 977 01:25:09,479 --> 01:25:12,142 You don't know me! You're all crazy! 978 01:25:12,232 --> 01:25:13,643 - All of you! - Hey! I didn't... 979 01:25:13,734 --> 01:25:15,191 Just... Jared. 980 01:25:15,277 --> 01:25:17,234 You're in my chair. 981 01:25:17,404 --> 01:25:19,566 - There you go! I hate you! - Jared! 982 01:25:20,490 --> 01:25:21,947 But how does that help? 983 01:25:22,034 --> 01:25:23,070 Jared! 984 01:25:34,004 --> 01:25:35,165 Jared! 985 01:25:35,255 --> 01:25:36,791 Who's in the front office? 986 01:25:42,095 --> 01:25:45,384 Jared! Son, let's talk. Son. 987 01:25:47,976 --> 01:25:49,717 Hey! Michael! 988 01:25:50,979 --> 01:25:52,390 Hey, hey! Give it to me! 989 01:25:54,524 --> 01:25:56,641 - I want my things and I want to go. - Jared. 990 01:25:57,027 --> 01:25:58,563 Michael! Hey! 991 01:26:00,197 --> 01:26:03,235 Hey! Michael! Get out of the room! 992 01:26:03,325 --> 01:26:04,566 Come here, son. 993 01:26:08,080 --> 01:26:09,196 Jared! 994 01:26:09,373 --> 01:26:13,538 Hey, listen. What you're having is a natural response, okay. 995 01:26:13,627 --> 01:26:15,227 Just... Just breathe. 996 01:26:23,887 --> 01:26:26,425 - Jared! - Hey, I just need a minute. 997 01:26:27,599 --> 01:26:29,761 - Just go away. - Take a minute, okay. 998 01:26:38,151 --> 01:26:40,108 Please pick up, Mom. 999 01:26:41,279 --> 01:26:42,941 - Jared? - Mom... 1000 01:26:43,031 --> 01:26:45,990 - Jared? - I need you to come get me, please. 1001 01:26:46,118 --> 01:26:47,553 What's the matter? What's the matter? 1002 01:26:47,577 --> 01:26:49,193 - Please, I'm in trouble. - What... 1003 01:26:49,329 --> 01:26:50,329 What's happened? 1004 01:26:50,455 --> 01:26:54,165 Best thing that we can do is probably ease him back into the session. 1005 01:26:54,459 --> 01:26:55,916 - Hey, son. - I called my mom 1006 01:26:56,002 --> 01:26:57,163 and she's coming to get me. 1007 01:26:57,671 --> 01:26:59,071 Listen, you gotta understand 1008 01:26:59,214 --> 01:27:01,150 what you're going through right now is just a moment. 1009 01:27:01,174 --> 01:27:02,915 - A moment? A moment? - Okay. 1010 01:27:03,009 --> 01:27:04,195 And I feel exactly what you're going through. 1011 01:27:04,219 --> 01:27:07,053 I think that you and I should just get everybody gone and we just talk. 1012 01:27:07,180 --> 01:27:08,546 I don't want to talk. I want to go. 1013 01:27:08,807 --> 01:27:10,890 Well, Jared, I don't want you to. 1014 01:27:11,393 --> 01:27:12,679 I want you to stay. 1015 01:27:12,894 --> 01:27:14,977 Well, I read the rules 1016 01:27:15,063 --> 01:27:17,430 and none of them say you can stop me from leaving. 1017 01:27:17,524 --> 01:27:19,669 I wouldn't. Can you just check where Brandon is, please? 1018 01:27:19,693 --> 01:27:23,562 And if you or anyone puts their hands on me, I have witnesses. 1019 01:27:23,655 --> 01:27:25,442 Nobody's going to put their hands on you. 1020 01:27:25,699 --> 01:27:27,235 Why would anybody do that? 1021 01:27:27,409 --> 01:27:28,616 Come sit. 1022 01:27:29,077 --> 01:27:31,069 We're gonna wait for your mom, okay? 1023 01:27:31,329 --> 01:27:33,912 Jesus, our Savior, please focus on Jared. 1024 01:27:34,124 --> 01:27:37,208 Let him see the strength and courage that he needs. 1025 01:27:37,294 --> 01:27:40,334 I want you to fill him right now with all the wisdom of everybody in this room 1026 01:27:40,380 --> 01:27:43,498 to show him how much they love him and how much they care about him. 1027 01:27:43,675 --> 01:27:44,916 - Be strong! - His journey 1028 01:27:45,010 --> 01:27:48,549 into the fire that he's walking into and what he's willing to face. 1029 01:27:48,638 --> 01:27:50,345 - You are a man. - May you open his eyes 1030 01:27:50,432 --> 01:27:52,048 and see the wisdom that you have... 1031 01:27:52,142 --> 01:27:53,349 - Jared! - Mom! 1032 01:27:53,518 --> 01:27:55,225 - Jared, honey, what's happened? - Mom! 1033 01:27:55,353 --> 01:27:57,206 - Hey, hey! Sit back down! - Mom, they're not letting me go! 1034 01:27:57,230 --> 01:27:59,438 It's not that we're not letting him go. 1035 01:27:59,608 --> 01:28:01,711 - Come on. Open this door. - Just hold on, Jared. 1036 01:28:01,735 --> 01:28:04,193 - Mrs. Eamons, my name is Victor Sykes. - Who are you? 1037 01:28:04,279 --> 01:28:05,520 We spoke on the telephone. 1038 01:28:05,614 --> 01:28:07,071 I don't remember that. Open the door. 1039 01:28:07,157 --> 01:28:08,760 Well, I spoke with your husband a couple times. 1040 01:28:08,784 --> 01:28:11,993 Jared's just having a moment here borne out of the role-playing exercise. 1041 01:28:12,078 --> 01:28:15,321 No, no! That's not true. Mom, tell him to open the door. 1042 01:28:15,457 --> 01:28:18,541 - Slow down. - Enough. Open the door now, Mr. Sykes. 1043 01:28:18,627 --> 01:28:21,620 - Can we just all... - I said open the door now! 1044 01:28:21,713 --> 01:28:24,126 I'm gonna call the police if you don't open this door. 1045 01:28:24,257 --> 01:28:26,235 - There is no need for that. - Slow down. Right now. 1046 01:28:26,259 --> 01:28:27,591 Let him go! 1047 01:28:28,595 --> 01:28:29,927 You all right, honey? 1048 01:28:30,263 --> 01:28:31,379 Just let him go. 1049 01:28:35,519 --> 01:28:36,976 I just... I think that... 1050 01:28:38,647 --> 01:28:40,684 Jared, come on. 1051 01:28:40,816 --> 01:28:44,560 I just... I think it's more important for his 1052 01:28:44,778 --> 01:28:46,770 development right now that he... 1053 01:28:46,863 --> 01:28:49,571 Don't even listen to him. Get in the car. Get in the car. 1054 01:28:52,452 --> 01:28:54,239 You're gonna ruin that child. 1055 01:28:54,371 --> 01:28:57,284 What are your actual qualifications, Mr. Sykes? 1056 01:28:57,374 --> 01:28:58,910 I never asked. Hmm? 1057 01:28:59,668 --> 01:29:02,627 Are you a doctor? Are you? Psychologist? 1058 01:29:02,712 --> 01:29:04,829 I mean, a proper one? Are you? 1059 01:29:06,800 --> 01:29:07,881 No. 1060 01:29:08,802 --> 01:29:10,213 I didn't think so. 1061 01:29:13,223 --> 01:29:14,634 Shame on you! 1062 01:29:16,393 --> 01:29:18,055 Shame on me, too. 1063 01:29:18,144 --> 01:29:20,056 Shame on you! 1064 01:29:48,133 --> 01:29:49,465 Can I help you? 1065 01:29:49,593 --> 01:29:51,755 Uh, I'm not sure if I'm staying or going. 1066 01:29:51,845 --> 01:29:53,381 All right. Well, let me know. 1067 01:30:05,108 --> 01:30:06,849 I talked to your father. 1068 01:30:08,528 --> 01:30:10,064 He wants you to go back. 1069 01:30:17,704 --> 01:30:21,744 I told him we'll see him at home. I told him you're not going back. 1070 01:30:25,879 --> 01:30:27,290 You know that night 1071 01:30:28,882 --> 01:30:31,545 when Pastor Wilkes and Jim came to the house? 1072 01:30:33,178 --> 01:30:36,421 Those men decided what to do with you and I just... 1073 01:30:37,140 --> 01:30:40,554 I fell into line, like I usually do. 1074 01:30:43,396 --> 01:30:46,104 They say sometimes you gotta hurt a child in order to help them 1075 01:30:46,191 --> 01:30:48,023 and that may be so with some things, 1076 01:30:49,110 --> 01:30:51,944 but a mother knows when something isn't right. 1077 01:30:52,989 --> 01:30:55,606 And I knew in my bones 1078 01:30:56,618 --> 01:30:58,484 this wasn't hurting to help. 1079 01:31:01,122 --> 01:31:05,332 I was just letting you down and I kept my mouth shut. 1080 01:31:09,422 --> 01:31:12,290 And I will always regret that. 1081 01:31:16,179 --> 01:31:18,341 But I can do a different thing now. 1082 01:31:18,682 --> 01:31:20,639 Now that I have a chance. 1083 01:31:26,106 --> 01:31:27,972 I'll handle your father. 1084 01:31:30,026 --> 01:31:32,985 He can fall into line with me for a change. 1085 01:31:39,452 --> 01:31:43,287 Some folk, they don't go to church for the right reasons. 1086 01:31:47,794 --> 01:31:51,037 Now, you know the type of person I'm talking about. 1087 01:31:54,134 --> 01:31:55,341 They just turn up. 1088 01:32:00,515 --> 01:32:04,099 They don't use every day of their Christian life 1089 01:32:06,354 --> 01:32:09,893 to praise the Lord and help bring others to His word. 1090 01:32:11,484 --> 01:32:14,272 It might be your neighbor, might be your friend, 1091 01:32:14,529 --> 01:32:17,112 it might be just a face you only ever see at church. 1092 01:32:17,615 --> 01:32:18,856 They just turn up. 1093 01:32:19,826 --> 01:32:21,943 I will tell something that I know. 1094 01:32:22,162 --> 01:32:25,746 Just turning up to church does not make you a Christian. 1095 01:32:25,874 --> 01:32:27,274 Yes, sir. Amen. 1096 01:32:27,959 --> 01:32:30,793 Study the Bible. Study His word. 1097 01:32:31,379 --> 01:32:32,790 I can guarantee you, 1098 01:32:33,798 --> 01:32:35,505 every question you have, 1099 01:32:37,218 --> 01:32:41,337 you gonna find an answer in this book. 1100 01:32:41,848 --> 01:32:42,964 Amen. 1101 01:32:52,275 --> 01:32:57,771 Honey, um, do you know a boy, Cameron Van Heusen? 1102 01:32:59,365 --> 01:33:01,072 Yeah. Is he here? 1103 01:33:01,576 --> 01:33:03,659 No. No, no. That's the police. 1104 01:33:05,163 --> 01:33:10,033 Apparently, this boy Cameron killed himself last night. 1105 01:33:19,761 --> 01:33:21,878 They want to ask you some questions. 1106 01:34:58,276 --> 01:35:00,063 - Hey! How you doing? - Good. 1107 01:35:00,153 --> 01:35:02,190 Nice to see you! I'm good. 1108 01:35:04,073 --> 01:35:05,073 I'm good. Here. 1109 01:35:05,158 --> 01:35:07,491 Yeah, I think they're in the dishwasher. 1110 01:35:08,119 --> 01:35:10,532 Come on, Chris. Join us. 1111 01:35:11,122 --> 01:35:12,329 Get out of the kitchen. 1112 01:35:22,675 --> 01:35:24,166 I didn't even feel it. 1113 01:36:29,867 --> 01:36:30,867 Mom... 1114 01:36:30,952 --> 01:36:33,535 I gave it to him, he has it, and he'll read it. 1115 01:36:33,997 --> 01:36:35,204 He knows he has to. 1116 01:36:36,207 --> 01:36:39,917 Mom, it's important he reads it, can you just put him on? 1117 01:36:40,962 --> 01:36:43,750 I'm calling you from Little Rock, I'm with Aunt Mary, so... 1118 01:36:43,840 --> 01:36:45,672 Wait. Why? 1119 01:36:46,426 --> 01:36:48,258 You should just call him at home. 1120 01:36:49,012 --> 01:36:50,012 What happened? 1121 01:36:50,722 --> 01:36:53,931 Nothing, she just needed some help with the shop, so I came down here, 1122 01:36:54,017 --> 01:36:55,804 and I'm driving back tonight, I'm... 1123 01:36:56,811 --> 01:36:58,268 I mean, nothing. Nothing is wrong. 1124 01:37:28,301 --> 01:37:30,133 Seriously, nothing is wrong. 1125 01:37:30,636 --> 01:37:32,673 Why didn't you tell me you were coming? 1126 01:37:33,556 --> 01:37:34,637 Is he here? 1127 01:37:35,183 --> 01:37:36,299 He left. 1128 01:37:37,268 --> 01:37:40,306 It is Sunday, if it's urgent, you're gonna have to go to church. 1129 01:37:42,065 --> 01:37:43,146 Why aren't you there? 1130 01:37:43,775 --> 01:37:45,232 Why aren't you at church? 1131 01:37:48,321 --> 01:37:52,235 I go, sometimes. I support your dad and... 1132 01:37:52,950 --> 01:37:55,033 Mom, what's going on with you two? 1133 01:37:58,247 --> 01:37:59,454 Jared, it's... 1134 01:38:00,583 --> 01:38:01,664 He knows. 1135 01:38:02,251 --> 01:38:03,833 I can't be around the... 1136 01:38:07,548 --> 01:38:11,007 I love God, God loves me. 1137 01:38:13,888 --> 01:38:15,424 And I love my son. 1138 01:38:16,307 --> 01:38:17,673 That simple. 1139 01:38:19,394 --> 01:38:21,727 For your father, it's a little more complicated. 1140 01:38:23,481 --> 01:38:25,143 I wish it wasn't, but it is. 1141 01:39:02,270 --> 01:39:05,638 Did you hear about the article I've got coming out in the Times? 1142 01:39:07,942 --> 01:39:09,274 Do you know what it's about? 1143 01:39:09,652 --> 01:39:11,359 I won't get into a fight. 1144 01:39:12,738 --> 01:39:13,945 Your mother told me, son. 1145 01:39:14,031 --> 01:39:15,112 It's not a fight. 1146 01:39:15,533 --> 01:39:18,776 I'm just doing the right thing. I'm letting you know. 1147 01:39:21,330 --> 01:39:22,446 I've written more, 1148 01:39:22,540 --> 01:39:25,658 and the publishers are talking about me putting together a whole book. 1149 01:39:27,879 --> 01:39:30,041 You don't need to read any of it. 1150 01:39:31,632 --> 01:39:34,420 I just needed you to know that it might be out there. 1151 01:39:34,510 --> 01:39:35,671 Well, 1152 01:39:37,054 --> 01:39:38,135 now I know. 1153 01:39:38,222 --> 01:39:40,384 But it might be good for you to read. 1154 01:39:41,309 --> 01:39:45,303 Because you never really asked what went on there. 1155 01:39:46,230 --> 01:39:49,064 You never really knew the staff or... 1156 01:39:49,150 --> 01:39:50,357 - You're right. - Or... 1157 01:39:50,443 --> 01:39:51,443 You're right. 1158 01:39:52,153 --> 01:39:57,023 When the situation came up, I did what I've often done in my life. 1159 01:39:58,743 --> 01:40:00,985 I sought the counsel of wiser men 1160 01:40:02,371 --> 01:40:03,737 and I followed their advice. 1161 01:40:05,082 --> 01:40:06,368 What would you do now? 1162 01:40:07,585 --> 01:40:08,951 Now that you are running things? 1163 01:40:09,086 --> 01:40:10,293 Enough. 1164 01:40:14,675 --> 01:40:15,675 Good night. 1165 01:40:46,082 --> 01:40:47,539 For me. 1166 01:41:39,844 --> 01:41:41,196 Is there something you need help with? 1167 01:41:41,220 --> 01:41:43,132 Because you know I gotta make my flight. 1168 01:41:43,222 --> 01:41:45,214 Yeah, now, this was going to be for Christmas. 1169 01:41:45,808 --> 01:41:48,266 But, uh, you know, your mother tells me 1170 01:41:48,352 --> 01:41:50,435 you like to drive upstate sometimes to write. 1171 01:41:50,605 --> 01:41:52,688 Dad, I live in New York. I don't need a car. 1172 01:41:53,983 --> 01:41:57,818 She also tells me you like to write by hand 1173 01:41:57,903 --> 01:41:59,360 before you use your computer. 1174 01:42:00,489 --> 01:42:01,489 Just like me. 1175 01:42:03,284 --> 01:42:08,279 This pen is made from a cedar tree grown in Israel. 1176 01:42:10,750 --> 01:42:11,911 Guided me. 1177 01:42:12,543 --> 01:42:15,081 I've written every sermon that I have ever delivered 1178 01:42:15,171 --> 01:42:17,709 in this new church with this pen. 1179 01:42:21,302 --> 01:42:22,543 One writer to another. 1180 01:42:35,441 --> 01:42:36,977 I don't want to pretend anymore. 1181 01:42:40,071 --> 01:42:41,812 We don't need to spend time together. 1182 01:42:42,698 --> 01:42:43,734 We don't need to speak 1183 01:42:43,824 --> 01:42:46,157 unless we're going to talk to each other properly. 1184 01:42:47,078 --> 01:42:48,078 Like... 1185 01:42:48,287 --> 01:42:51,871 You've done some things that have really hurt me. 1186 01:42:53,376 --> 01:42:58,167 Like you never asked if there was more to my story at college. 1187 01:43:00,466 --> 01:43:02,458 You never asked if I was okay. 1188 01:43:04,095 --> 01:43:06,633 You were too focused on how it affected you. 1189 01:43:10,518 --> 01:43:14,683 There's so many things that we've never spoken about. 1190 01:43:15,898 --> 01:43:17,560 And I don't know if we ever will. 1191 01:43:18,526 --> 01:43:19,526 Yeah. 1192 01:43:26,784 --> 01:43:28,741 You know, all this was going to be yours. 1193 01:43:29,954 --> 01:43:35,074 I mean, it still will be, but I meant to run and to make a living from. 1194 01:43:38,921 --> 01:43:40,082 I understand. 1195 01:43:41,382 --> 01:43:42,839 We all got our own paths. 1196 01:43:45,052 --> 01:43:49,137 The truth is I want you to do well. 1197 01:43:50,433 --> 01:43:52,345 I want you to have a great life. 1198 01:43:53,102 --> 01:43:54,102 I love you. 1199 01:43:56,188 --> 01:43:57,975 But I can't pretend either. 1200 01:43:59,442 --> 01:44:01,229 There are things I disagree with. 1201 01:44:02,528 --> 01:44:05,441 And I'll admit, I'll be honest, I'm, you know... 1202 01:44:05,531 --> 01:44:10,026 I am being prideful when I resent the fact that I may never be a grandparent. 1203 01:44:10,119 --> 01:44:11,610 Now, that's just the truth. 1204 01:44:12,496 --> 01:44:15,113 It's hard for me to admit that I have hurt you. 1205 01:44:17,168 --> 01:44:20,457 And that with my beliefs and with all that's gone on, 1206 01:44:20,546 --> 01:44:23,960 I understand I may have set myself up to lose you. 1207 01:44:25,092 --> 01:44:30,679 And I've had to ask myself and God if I'm ready for that. 1208 01:44:38,481 --> 01:44:41,724 I do not want to lose you. 1209 01:44:42,735 --> 01:44:44,317 Well, it doesn't feel like that. 1210 01:44:45,154 --> 01:44:48,898 I'm sick of avoiding you. I'm sick of talking about nothing. 1211 01:44:49,366 --> 01:44:50,652 I'm sick of it. 1212 01:44:51,702 --> 01:44:54,035 I'm gay and I'm your son. 1213 01:44:55,289 --> 01:44:57,576 And neither of those things are going to change. 1214 01:44:58,375 --> 01:45:00,287 Okay, so let's deal with that. 1215 01:45:00,377 --> 01:45:01,959 Or let's call it a day. 1216 01:45:03,005 --> 01:45:06,840 Both of us would be okay, but that would be a shame. 1217 01:45:11,096 --> 01:45:13,133 I'm not changing. There's no changing me. 1218 01:45:15,184 --> 01:45:16,425 God knows I tried. 1219 01:45:17,770 --> 01:45:19,261 So, if you mean it, 1220 01:45:20,356 --> 01:45:21,597 if you really mean that, 1221 01:45:24,693 --> 01:45:26,229 and you're not ready to lose me, 1222 01:45:29,490 --> 01:45:32,528 then I'm sorry, but you're going to have to be the one to change. 1223 01:45:34,620 --> 01:45:35,952 I understand. 1224 01:45:39,166 --> 01:45:40,327 I am going to try. 1225 01:45:47,174 --> 01:45:48,290 I'll try. 1226 01:45:50,928 --> 01:45:52,260 I gotta get going. 1227 01:46:18,414 --> 01:46:19,530 Dad, 1228 01:46:20,374 --> 01:46:23,037 I've invited Mom to my place for Christmas. 1229 01:46:23,335 --> 01:46:24,335 Yeah. 1230 01:46:26,505 --> 01:46:27,996 You're welcome to come, too.