I had it all, and i'm not talking
About worldly possessions.
I'm talking about everything that truly
Matters in this life, but i threw it all away,
And for what?
I couldn't have asked for more, but that's exactly
What i searched for, and exactly what i got;
More than my soul can bear.
� i'll do what you say...
� you say...
� i'll do what you say...
� bring me back home...
� stranded in a lower place...
� my trust in you is the better case...
� you know what is right for me...
� all my mistakes have worn me down...
� i can't make it alone...
� your wonderful grace is always found...
� you're someone who knows...
� i'll do what you say...
� you say...
� i'll do what you say...
� bring me back, oh...
I remember it like it was yesterday.
Her beauty took my breath away, and her love
Consumed every part of me.
I, amber, take you doug to be my husband, my
Partner, and my one true love, and promise to
Cherish our union and love you every day more than i
Did the day before.
I promise to trust and respect you...
And laugh and cry with you...
And love you faithfully through the bad and the
Good, no matter what obstacles we may face.
I give you my hand, my heart and my love.
From this day forward, as long as we
Both shall live.
I, doug, take you amber to be my wife, my friend,
And my love from this day forward.
In the presence of our family and our friends, i
Offer you this solemn to be your faithful
Partner in sickness and in health, for richer or for
Poorer, in good times and in bad, and in joy,
As well as sorrow.
I promise to love you unconditionally.
I promise to laugh with you.
I promise to cry with you, and cherish you for as
Long as we both shall live.
- You may exchange rings.
By the power vested in me, i now pronounce you
Husband and wife. You may kiss the bride.
My world felt like a story book.
We were unstoppable.
Eternity was ours just for the taking.
That was the beginning of something beautiful, and
In retrospect, the end of our innocence.
That was a magical day...
Like a fairytale come true.
It's something i had always dreamed about since
I was a little girl, to have my knight in
Shining armor carry me from the church
To the waiting horse and carriage.
She never wavered from the vow she made to
Me on our wedding day.
I wish i could say the same.
I took her for granted.
I was blinded by lust and greed.
It's all a mirage.
The grass is never greener on the other side.
It's only greener where you water it.
That's what she used to say to me.
I never listened, but i hear it now
Loud and clear.
- Don't go.
- No.
I better get back to work.
- Take the day off.
- I can't.
Somebody's got to pay for this place.
Love doesn't come cheap.
- No, but i'm worth it.
- Yeah, you are.
Why don't i take an entire month off, go to paris?
- You're so good to me.
Tired of waiting, though.
When are you going to tell her?
- Tonight.
It's about time.
I kind of feel sorry for her.
She doesn't even know it's coming.
I don't feel sorry for her.
- Well, you should.
You won.
It wasn't a competition.
No, she didn't stand a chance once i met you.
I saved you from your boring life.
- True.
Very true, and thank you.
- Same time tomorrow?
- Can't come soon enough.
We'll celebrate.
I gotta get back to work.
- Hey, mom. - Hey, sweetheart.
Is dad coming home for dinner?
He just called. He's on his way.
You want to help me set up the table?
- Sure.
Great, oh, and use the good china.
- Is it a special night?
I just want it to be nice for your dad.
Seems he's been working late every night.
Do you think he can come to my karate
Tournament this weekend?
- I sure hope so.
I know how much it means to you.
It's the state championships.
- I know. We're so proud of you.
- Thanks, mom.
I absolutely dreaded going home.
I know it sounds terrible, but it's true.
I let myself get to a place where the only
Truthful things in my life felt like lies.
It's strange how that works when what you're
Doing is so wrong.
Even seeing my daughter was hard.
I adored her, but it riddled me with guilt
Just seeing her face.
- Dad!
Hey, munchkin. How was your day?
- Better now.
Mine, too. I'm sorry. I should have called. I got tied up.
You, it's a school night. Off to bed.
- Okay. Dad, can you
Come to my karate tournament this weekend?
I wouldn't miss it for the world.
- Yes! Love you.
- Love you, too, honey.
- Night, dad.
- I'm glad you're home.
Let me go warm up dinner.
- Okay. - Okay.
- Thanks for dinner.
- It's my pleasure.
You're not eating much.
Did you want know get you something else?
- No, it's fine.
I don't know about these green beans.
Last week, they just seemed,
I don't know, sweeter.
Are you okay?
- Look, amber i...
I can't do this anymore.
What on earth are you talking about?
- Us.
Our marriage.
Where on earth is this coming from?
- Amber...
You're a good person.
I'm just not happy.
I feel like we've been growing apart like...
Like we want different things out of life.
I want out.
- You want out?
There's more to it than that, but yeah.
- I see.
Isn't this just a little bit cliche?
- What?
- Come on, doug. I'm not stupid.
The new clothes, the flashy car...
And the late nights working.
I can't believe this.
This is hard for me to say, amber, but...
I don't love you anymore.
I'm sorry.
- You're sorry? Really?
Have you stopped to think for a moment what this is
Going to do to izzy?
- Of course i have!
Izzy's my daughter.
I love izzy.
Right. It's just me you don't love anymore.
I can't get her look of disappointment out
Of my head.
That's what hell is, i think, remembering the
Face of someone you love and the pain
You caused them.
It wasn't always like this.
I had character.
You should have seen her on our first date.
She was beautiful.
I loved her the moment i laid eyes on her.
- Can i help you?
I'm here to pick up amber for the...
Dance.
- And you are? - Um...
- Your name's um?
Um, doug. Doug, that's my name.
- And?
And i'm here to pick her up for the prom. I...
Girls ask guys.
I thought she would have mentioned something.
- She did.
I was just expecting someone different.
- No, it's just me.
- Daddy, be nice.
- This is nice.
Wow, you look beautiful.
- Thank you.
You have her home by 11, or i'll come
Looking for you.
You don't want that.
Yeah, 11 o'clock sharp. You have my word.
- We'll see.
- Look at this.
This is a gorgeous couple, don't you think?
- They're not a couple.
It's a date, that's all it is.
It's a first date, and it's probably her last
One, with him anyway.
And don't even think about first base.
I don't even know what that is, but i promise i
Won't even think about it, sir.
- You're good.
You know all the right things to say, don't you?
You can't outsmart a fox.
I've been in the hen house, pal.
I don't really know what that is, but i
Promise you i won't think about it, sir.
It means keep your hands to yourself.
Time's ticking.
- The big ones, 8 x 10's. Bye.
- Nice guy.
He's really a huge teddy bear once you
Get to know him.
- I can tell.
- I don't like him.
Robert, you don't even know him.
Look, he looks like a really nice boy.
Look, he's a gentleman.
He's opening the door for her.
Okay, try and put this on without stabbing you.
- Okay.
Ouch!
- Okay.
- I, um...
I actually made this for you.
It's not that great, is it?
I think it's beautiful. Thank you.
Perfect.
- Thank you.
I've never actually worn one of these before.
Well, you look very handsome.
Your parents are probably watching
Us right now.
- Should we go should?
- Yeah, let's go.
What i wouldn't give to go back in time and share
That moment with you again.
We were so innocent, and you...
You were so cute, so charming.
I think it's safe to say i was smitten with you from
The very beginning.
- Did you tell her?
- Yeah.
- What did she say?
Are you okay?
I've just never heard her cry like that before.
It was hard to be around.
Why didn't you just pack your bags and leave?
Because i didn't want to make a big scene with
My daughter there.
I'll wrap my things up in the next few days.
You can stay with me until we get a
Place of our own.
Did you hear me?
Yeah. I knew she wanted to find out happened to our
Marriage, but i could hardly give her a
Satisfactory answer.
She had lost my heart to another woman.
I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her.
Or so i thought at the time.
- How is izzy?
She waited up for you again.
I'll go talk to her in a minute.
I'm sorry this has to be done right now, but it's
Just gotta get done.
I need you to sign the divorce papers.
They're more than fair.
You get the house, your car, half the money we
Have in the bank.
You and izzy will be well taken care of, i promise.
- Sorry i'm late.
- It's okay. - Are you all right?
- Yeah.
- Okay. Did you order yet?
No, i was waiting for you.
- Perfect.
So did you look into that?
Yeah, yeah, it seems like it's a pretty
Good jr. College.
I meant the marriage license.
Oh, i haven't gotten around to that yet.
- Good.
- What do you mean good? - Never mind.
You're acting really strange.
What's going on?
- I think...
That we might be a little bit too young to be
Thinking about marriage.
That's all we've been talking about for the
Last year, amber.
I know. I just feel like we need more time to
Think about it, you know?
And then we'll meet back up after college.
Are you breaking up with me?
- That's not what i said.
- What are you saying?
That maybe, um, we should see other people.
Look, doug, forever is a really, really long time.
- I can't believe this.
I just wanted a hamburger.
Look, this isn't some permanent thing, doug.
I just need to be sure.
I know what i want. I thought you did, too.
You're the last person i'd ever want to hurt.
I'm sorry.
This is coming from your dad, isn't it?
- No.
Yeah, it is. He's never liked me since day one.
He's just overprotective.
I'm his only daughter.
He thinks i'm never going to amount to
Anything because he's loaded, and i'm poor.
- No, he just thinks...
- What? Thinks that what?
He thinks that i'm way below his precious
Daughter because i grew up in foster care?
Because i don't know my real parents,
And i've never had a relevant family? So what?
It's not my fault i wasn't born with a silver spoon
In my mouth.
Yeah, life's hard, but you know what?
I'm going to prove him wrong.
I'm going to be really successful, and i'm going
To be a great husband to you someday, so go do
Whatever you want to do.
Go on a hundred dates.
Nobody's ever going to love you as much
As i love you.
I'm going to be here for, amber, however long it
Takes, because i know that you're supposed
To be my wife.
I think that must have been so hard for you.
What are you talking about?
When we were young, in that diner, and i said i
Wanted to see other people.
You were right.
It wasn't what i wanted.
My father was pressuring me.
I'm really sorry i put you through that.
None of that matters anymore.
- It matters to me.
Amber, don't make this harder than it has to be.
Just sign the papers.
- Izzy? - Yeah?
I'm sorry if i woke you.
- I was already awake.
I was waiting for you to come home.
- I had to work late.
You always work late. You're never home anymore.
How was school? Keeping those grades up?
- All a's.
That's my girl. Well, early day tomorrow.
Get some rest.
Dad? Why has mom been crying all day?
I don't know, izzy, but i don't want to discuss
This right now.
You hurt her, didn't you?
Has your mom told you anything?
No, but all of my friends' parents seem like
They're getting divorced lately.
I don't want that to ever happen to you and mom.
All that matters is that you know that both
Your mom and i love you very much, and that will
Never change, okay?
All right, good night.
- Kids can sense things.
They're more intuitive than we give
Them credit for.
I have to live with it, all the guilt,
All the shame.
I'm haunted.
So she just ripped it in half.
- Yeah.
She can't do that, can she?
- She can and she did.
What are you gonna do about it?
Print another one tomorrow and give it to her.
She's gonna take you for everything you're worth.
Look, i don't get the feeling she's in it
For the money or the possessions anymore.
Don't be so naive, of course she is!
She's planning something, i know it.
She's just trying to cope.
I shattered her whole world.
That woman is no saint!
She wants your money!
- She wants her family.
Why are you defending her?
That's not what i'm doing.
- Yes, it is!
Are you having second thoughts?
- No.
No, we've been through this before.
Do you still have feelings for her?
- No.
But you think i'm some kind of a monster?
- No, i didn't say that.
You're not the one that had to look his
Daughter in the eye last night and try to explain
All this to her.
- Okay.
I know this is hard on you
Because of your daughter.
Listen to me, but even she wouldn't want you
To be in a miserable marriage.
And she's gonna understand some day.
I'm sorry if you think that i've been
Insensitive, but i have feelings too.
It's just a bad situation all around.
- Sit down.
This is gonna be over soon,
And it's just gonna be me and you.
Your daughter can come over any time she wants.
Everyone is gonna be happier in the end.
Sometimes people come into our lives and they
Appear to be something that they're not,
Like a wolf in sheep's clothing.
And these people can harm you.
And more importantly,
They can harm the people you love.
It seems family is being targeted for destruction
More now than ever, and without god in our lives,
We have nothing.
We need to turn to him often.
We need to protect each other.
If we hold on to what we believe in and if we hold
On to each other, nothing can ever tear us apart.
Doug, will you please just wait a minute!
I knew this was a bad idea!
I trusted you!
Please just calm down. Come back inside.
Why? So i can listen to your father
Degrade me even more?
No, it's not like that.
- It is exactly like that.
You knew what i was walking into.
Listen, he didn't mean any of that, okay?
Rich people just,
They say strange things sometimes and...
Just keep justifying him trying to make me
Feel like a loser.
No. He was wrong to have asked you
All of those questions.
What i'm saying is none of those questions
Should matter to you.
There's a lot you don't know about me, amber.
You don't know what it's like to be kicked out
Of every foster care by one abusive
Drunk after another.
What it's like to eat out of garbage cans and beg
For food on the street.
Back when we were in high school,
There were nights when i slept on the street
With the bums.
Why didn't you ever say something?
It doesn't matter anymore.
I'm not gonna be a victim.
I'm a survivor.
Under the circumstances,
Junior college is the best i could afford.
But i get it.
I'm not good enough for daddy's little girl.
- That is not true.
You've treated me better than anybody ever has, doug.
You're the only person who's ever fought for me.
Please don't stop.
I don't want to lose you just because
My dad is closed minded.
I would live in a cardboard box with you.
Let me in.
I'm not gonna hurt you.
- I can't.
Doug, you can trust me.
Listen to me, i'm never ever going anywhere,
Okay?
We can start our own life together.
You had such character,
Even at a young age, and you'd been through so
Much, more than most.
And i know my father eventually came to have
Great respect for you.
And that night changed everything because i was
Able to stand up for someone i loved.
You.
I don't know if you knew this or not,
But she put me through college.
She worked two jobs and never complained.
I couldn't have done any of it without her.
What i wouldn't do to have those moments
Back again with her.
- Hey.
I missed you.
What's the special occasion?
I just want to let you know how thankful i am
For you helping me.
I mean, helping us get through college.
We're almost there.
- We're a team.
- Yeah.
Are you hungry?
- Starving.
Would you like some of this very rare generic
Brand 1993 root beer?
- I would love some.
- Okay.
For you...
And for me.
And a toast to...
- Forever.
- To forever.
And dinner is served.
Ramen noodles with sliced hog dogs du jour.
- My favorite.
I thought that fillet mignon with asparagus
And hollandaise sauce was your favorite.
It doesn't matter what we eat
As long as i'm with you.
- Let's dig in.
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
I don't know what i'd do without you.
You'll never have to find out.
One second.
May i have this dance?
- You may.
� we can live our whole lives...
� missing every sun rise...
� with bills to pay and no time...
� for me and you...
� we can buy a big place...
� that you could see from outer space...
� but if i never see your face...
Sometimes we take our love for granted,
And we stop doing the little things that
Kindled that spark in the first place.
Just like a plant needs sunlight and water to
Live, a relationship needs constant love
And nurturing so it doesn't die.
I don't want anything from you, doug.
But i do have a few requests.
- What do you mean?
- It's all right here.
Those are my stipulations.
And i'm not asking for very much.
So the money, this house, the car, it's all yours.
- This is absurd.
You have to survive.
Sign the papers.
- In 30 days.
- No.
Now!
- After izzy's birthday.
30 days.
In the meantime, you and i need to carry on like
Everything's as normal as possible for her sake.
That's not asking very much.
You are just prolonging the inevitable.
It's not gonna change my mind.
Just sign the papers.
We owe her that much, doug.
- Okay. 30 days.
But after that, you are signing those papers.
- You have my word.
I could understand that part of it.
A month didn't seem unreasonable,
But the words that came out of her mouth next,
I...i thought she'd lost her mind.
There is one other thing.
- What?
Do you remember on our wedding day,
You carried me from the church to the limousine?
- Yeah.
Yeah, of course i do.
- I want that again.
You're not making any sense.
Every day for the next 30 days,
Be just like our wedding day.
You carry me from this room to the front door
When you go to work.
Amber, that's just stupid.
- It's not stupid to me.
Amber, i need you to hear me.
Our marriage is over.
This stunt, there's nothing you can do that's
Gonna change my mind.
I will stay here in this marriage for 30 days,
But that's it.
I'm just not gonna carry you to the door.
I've given you the best years of my life.
I kept my vows to you and to god.
I have served your every need,
And i have loved you with all my heart.
You can't do this one thing?
Don't make me beg.
- Okay.
I will carry you to the door
But then you're gonna sign those papers,
And that will be it, right?
Nothing more, nothing else.
- That's all i want.
- Okay.
I'm late for work.
So come on, let's do this.
Come on, come on, let's do this.
Let's...it starts today.
- Yeah.
I felt like it was a cruel waste of time.
One of the most awkward moments of my life.
My wife had become a stranger in my arms.
Intimacy and touch, i think those are the
Things people long for.
It's what people need.
And it's what separates the other relationships
In our lives.
- What's going on?
Mom and i are just having a little fun.
Don't tell her about the divorce.
Please.
- I've gotta go to work.
Bye, munchkin.
- Bye.
Bye, daddy.
- I'll see you tonight.
I like it when dad carries you.
- So do i.
I like it too.
Do you know how much i love you?
- Yeah.
- Do you?
Yeah.
Don't ever forget that.
- I won't.
- Okay.
- Why are you crying?
Oh, these are happy tears.
It's all good.
- Love you. - Love you baby.
I'll see you later.
Bye bye.
Bye.
You should have seen the look
On my daughter's face.
It's like we're living in some fairy tale.
- 30 days.
- Yeah.
- And you agreed?
What was i supposed to do?
She laid a huge guilt trip on me.
You're supposed to say no.
That woman's crazy.
She needs to be institutionalized.
- I hate her for this.
This is gonna crush my daughter even more when
She finds out the truth about the divorce.
I couldn't face the truth.
When you're doing something that you know
Is wrong, deep down inside you have to have
Someone to blame besides yourself.
- All right.
Let's do this.
- Okay.
I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.
I realized that i hadn't looked at her
In a really long time.
Looked at her carefully.
She wasn't young anymore.
There were these fine wrinkles on her face.
Our marriage had taken a toll on her.
For a minute i wondered what had i done to her.
- Doug... doug...
Is something wrong?
- No, i...
- You what?
- I've gotta go to work.
Wow, two days in a row.
This is the way i carried your mother to
The car after we got married,
So i thought that...
- Thought what?
We just thought it would be fun to celebrate
The whole month.
Your birthday is coming up and our 25th wedding
Anniversary is right around the corner.
I want a marriage just like yours
When i'm older.
We want that for you too, sweetie.
I hate to run off but i've got to get to work.
Love you.
- What's wrong with you?
You're acting different.
Carrying my wife to the front door every day
Is really beginning to bother me.
You should have seen our daughter,
She was waiting there like she was expecting it.
- Well, put a stop to it.
- I can't. I promised her.
- Break your promise.
It's hard on your daughter,
And i don't like it.
- It's only for 30 days.
So you're telling me that you're gonna pick
Her up, with her body close to yours,
And carry her from your room to the front door,
Like she's some little princess,
For 28 more days?
You're making it sound like it's romantic
Or something. It's not.
It's a chore.
You've got nothing to worry about.
Somewhere along the line, i quit trying to make
Things between my wife and i special.
The effort was gone.
I was the problem.
Not her.
In only a few days i felt myself changing
Back again and at the same time i...
I didn't even realize why.
- Thanks for breakfast.
- You're welcome, honey.
I made your bacon extra crispy
The way you like it.
- It's perfect.
- Good.
And i made this for your mom.
I'm gonna go see where she is.
Amber?
- I'll be right out.
I made you some breakfast.
I'm not hungry right now,
But i'll eat it later. Thanks.
All right, well, i'll just be waiting out here.
I've got to be getting off to work soon.
- Good morning.
- Morning.
- Oh...
- Who were those kids?
- Were we ever that young?
- You okay?
- Yeah.
I'm good, i just...i didn't sleep very well.
Just kind of tired today.
It'll be good.
It's all good.
All right. Well, ready?
- Okay.
- You smell good.
- Thanks.
And thanks for doing this.
You don't have to thank me.
- I want to.
I know you're doing this for izzy.
- Right. For izzy.
I realized in that moment that i had let her down in
The most cruel way i could.
I had allowed a gulf to come between us, but on the third
And the forth days when i lifted her up, i started to
Feel things that i hadn't ...that i hadn't felt
In a long time.
And that gulf began to narrow.
Hi.
- Made you lunch.
- Aww.
- Wow. Thank you.
It's peanut butter and jelly with crushed potato chips.
- Mmm. That's my favorite.
- I know.
You taught me how to make it.
It's my favorite now, too.
It's been a long time since i made one for you.
- It's okay. It's my turn now.
- You okay, dad?
Yeah. Yeah, i'm fine.
I'll see you girls tonight. I...
- Love you.
- I'll be home for dinner.
- Okay. See you then.
The greatest gift a father can give his children is to
Love their mother.
And i believe that's true.
As the days turned into weeks, i could feel myself
Changing inside, not just emotionally but physically,
Spiritually, and even mentally as well.
I even started praying, going back to church.
Everybody was praising him the first week.
An important part of my life that i had somehow just
Gotten away from i didn't realize until now how all
The little things add up to make a huge difference
In our lives.
- ...Embarrass him.
He's above embarrassment.
He's above your fear.
He's above your lust.
He's above your cheating, your lying, your stealing.
Does anybody here hear what i'm saying?
I found myself coming home from work early just to
Be with my family.
My head started to clear.
My thoughts seem to be in line with what was truly
Important in my life, god and family.
I started to look forward to each morning with my wife,
Not my time with the other woman though i didn't tell
Her about this.
I also noticed that it became easier to carry her
Out as the month went by.
Perhaps my everyday workouts were making me stronger.
- Mmm.
- What you are doing?
I'm eating the sandwich my daughter made.
Is there a problem with that?
- Nope.
- Here.
You should try some. It's really good.
- No, thank you.
- All right.
Suit yourself, but you don't know what you're missing.
- What is wrong with you?
- Nothing is wrong with me.
I'm just enjoying a sandwich is all.
You can't keep your hands off me usually,
And you haven't touched me in weeks.
- I'm just tired.
- Can't sleep at night?
- No. Not really.
- Is she keeping you up?
- No.
Then what are you two doing?
I want to know.
Answer me!
We are not doing anything!
I'm just not sleeping is all.
- I'm not stupid, doug.
I am smell her perfume all over you.
- Okay.
Maybe she's putting on her perfume a little heavily in
The morning and it's getting all over my suit as i carry
Her to the door.
- Please.
She's trying to seduce you.
Is there more going on here than you're telling me?
No, there is nothing more going on.
- I don't believe you!
- Nothing is happening!
It's her that i don't trust.
Look, she is just trying to keep her family together.
That is the same thing that any decent human being would
Be trying to do.
Then let's call the whole damn thing off, and you can
Go back to your boring little wife with your
Boring little wife!
- That's not what i want!
You better figure things out really fast because i'm not
Going to play second fiddle to her.
- Where are you going?
- I am going to work.
- Since when?
You never go in until noon.
Since my business is falling apart.
I'll call you later.
- This is nice.
- Yeah.
You used to bring me here a lot during
Your winter breaks.
We used to come here all the time.
Why did we stop?
- I don't know.
- Probably my fault.
You okay?
- Mm.
Yeah, just taking in the fresh air.
- All right.
- Is she pretty?
Does she make you happy?
- No.
No, she doesn't make me happy.
- Then why?
I've been asking myself the same question these past
Three weeks, and i don't have a good answer.
I'm sorry.
- Don't say anything.
Not until you're sure what it is you want to do.
Thanks for bringing me here.
I so wanted to pour my heart out to her right there
And then, and somehow she knew i wasn't ready.
It wasn't the right time.
At that point, it was more for me and to relieve my own
Guilt than to tell her how much i wanted her back,
And how sorry i was.
- Here.
Let me help you with that.
I realized that she had grown so thin, that that was
The reason i could carry her out more easily.
I love you, amber.
- I love you.
Do you know what today is?
- Yes, i do.
I've got something i need to take care of, and then
I'll be back.
- Okay.
I knew isabel loved seeing me hold her mother
In my arms.
Carrying her out each morning had become an
Essential part of her life.
Our children are more aware of our lives through our
Actions than we think they are.
Why couldn't i see that more clearly when it
Mattered the most?
- Look who's here.
You ready?
- Yep.
- Ready for what?
- He's taking me to school.
- Nice.
- Come on. Let's go.
See you later.
- Bye, mom.
- Bye, honey.
Can we ride with the top down?
- But of course!
I knew exactly what i had to do, what i wanted to do.
- You must be sick.
- No, i feel fine.
Very clear headed actually.
No. She's putting a guilt trip on you.
She's using your daughter to fix a dead marriage.
This isn't about our daughter.
- Well, then what is it?
- This. All of this.
It's wrong.
It's been wrong from the start.
Don't get all high and mighty with me!
I take full responsibility.
- You blame me!
- I blame myself.
Your marriage is dead, boring, uneventful.
It got boring and uneventful because i didn't
Value the details of our lives anymore, not because
We don't love each other.
- What are you saying?
I'm saying that i never loved you.
This was a mistake, a sick addiction.
I'm always going to have to live with the guilt of what
I've done with my family and the shame of what i put them
Through, and if you have any remorse whatsoever, you will
Get on your knees like i have and you will beg god
For forgiveness.
I love my wife, and if she'll take me back
I'm not divorcing her.
You and i are through.
- Yeah, we are.
- Have a good life.
- Go to hell.
- I probably will.
I could finally see her for who she was.
It was like looking into the eyes of the devil.
On the other hand, i could see the beauty and the
Tender nature of the sacred vows that i had taken
With my wife.
My marriage was everything good that i'd ever had.
How could i abuse the most precious gift that i'd been
Given in this life?
Why couldn't i see it sooner?
I wish i could go back and change everything,
But i can't.
- Hi!
- Hi.
Um, i need a dozen of the most beautiful long stem
Roses you have.
Something over there.
Those are beautiful.
Well, you came to the right place.
Who's the lucky one?
- My wife.
Oh. Anniversary, i presume.
No. I just want to tell her i love her.
Um, do you want to write something on a card?
Would you write it for me?
My hands are shaking.
Yeah. Yeah, sure.
What do you want to say?
Um, my darling amber, i know that i don't deserve it
But i hope... no...
I pray that you can find it in your heart to forgive me.
I promise that i will carry you to the
Front door every day for the rest of our life for
Eternity as the heavens will allow.
Amber?
Love you forever, doug.
Amber?
Sweetheart?
Amber?
Amber.
Oh. Oh.
Oh!
You see, i believe that we're put her to choose for
Ourselves, but i guess in the end you can only hope
That you've learned forgiveness and hopefully
You leave the world a better place.
My world has been blessed because of the two of you.
I love you so much i ache from it, and a love like
That it doesn't fade.
It doesn't ever go away, so let that be your anchor
When things seem tough.
I love you both with everything i am.
I love you.
There's nothing i can say or do to bring her back.
I don't think there's anything i can do
To be forgiven.
Amber forgave you a long time ago, doug.
I know in my heart that the lord is waiting with open
Arms to forgive you, as well.
You just need to learn to forgive yourself.
Sometimes that's the hardest part.
Your broken heart and sorrow are evident.
That's all the savior jesus christ asks for.
It's up to you to reach out to him.
Amber came to me in confidence
When she first found out she was terminal
And asked me to give you and your daughter these letters.
I hope it has the answers you're looking for.
I'll go and talk with isabel for a few minutes
And give you some time.
My dearest doug, i wish you were reading this
Letter under different circumstances, but there are
Some things i need you to know.
Life is short.
It's so fragile.
We never know when it's our time to be called home.
I can only imagine how hard this is on you
And our isabel.
I wanted to tell you of my illness, but it came
Suddenly, and i felt this was the right way.
I want you to know that i completely and
Unconditionally forgive you.
All that matters now is that you made the right choice
And you came home.
Is my dad going to be okay?
He's going to be just fine.
And so are you.
He just needs a little time to himself.
He's discovering some things that are important to him.
Your mom was a wonderful person, and you remind me of her.
She asked me to give this to you.
I'm going to go for a little walk while you read that.
You are the man of my dreams and the father
Of our child.
Hold on to that.
Above all, baby girl, don't be sad about me.
Rather look up at the sky and smile.
Feel the sun on your face and know it's me warming you.
Be happy, izzy.
May god be with you until we meet again.
I love you with all of my heart.
Mom.
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